OK I apologize, I've been told that this isn't the place for a private rant like I posted about a break up. I would like to say that I posted what I did to warn others about becoming complacent with any relationship (accepted def. of complacent: Contented and unconcerned) which I had,but the fact is I was pissed.

But just to help warn others I'm leaving it posted.

Guess that makes me a hypocrite but I'll just have to add that to my list of faults.

In response to a comment someone made about my last post. Yes just like some drug addicts say. To me it is all about the rush and not because of the way I was potty trained.

I've often had real Dom's, real Domme's and supposed Dom's and Domme's and straight people write to me explaining why a sub is submissive and why they do things and some is reasonable and some is crap.

Just let me say that 3 days before my 14th birthday the 17 yr old boy that lived next door managed me into sucking him and that happened about twice a week for the whole summer with us hanging around in the basement in his house or in mine.

Sometimes he suggested us doing things that I wasn't comfortable with, but I did anyway like when after we had been doing things for almost 3 months he talked, pushed and coaxed me into sucking a friend of his as well and this I wasn't comfortable with.

But after I had done that and had swallowed and saw the smile on his face and the excitement he was feeling from me having done something like that he wanted me to do shown by the lump in his jeans I felt a sense of satisfaction and even fulfillment and excitement that was all balled up into a feeling that was so euphoric i knew I had been right doing it and he confirmed that when he told me i was a good girl and then lowered his jeans to show me just how excited I had caused him to be.

And me trying to capture that same feeling again and again is why I am what I am because when I do I also get a feeling that is peaceful and a sense of safeness.

You know it seems that hoods have gone out of style lately and thats too bad. I myself enjoy the black rubber hood with only an opening for my lips and the leather one that is less more playful.

Nothing like being isolated with your hearing dampend and no sight while your being led around by a leash attached to your nipple clips

Tiffany

Its just too dam bad that it takes such a long time to learn to trust someone enough for you to be able to completely turn over all control to them so can enjoy the feeling of not knowing what will happen next, but know that you are going to prob love it.

hahah

Well after 1 1/2 years my boyfriend came home and flatly told me that he had met a real girl that he wanted to live with so thats the end of that relationship.

You know when your with someone for a while you end up doing things for them because you know it will make them happy and that makes you happy, but when I think of some of the things I did for him and now he lays that crap on me I just wanna chop his balls off.

So to you Alex I say. Fuck You!

I mean he really expects me to think that he and this new bitch just met???

Oh and the stuff you didn't take with you that night you left, well the garbage truck picked all that shit up on Friday and if you don't like that-sue me.

Sighm,  Tomorrow can only be better.

Oh and Alex, the reason the sex was so good was because of me. I was trying harder. Trying not to fall asleep before you finished.

haha