sistina


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	About sistina I'm busy living. 24/7 Owned by R *Please note* I am looking for others like myself. Those who feel like outcasts. Those who believe love is impossible for freaks. I offer a message of hope. I am living proof. Masochistic muse I'm a masochistic bottom. I feed on pain. I'm not a submissive, nor a slave. Take my word I know. I do not use honorifics. Dont expect any. I am alive and happy. I'm whole.

Irony...finding oneself deeply in love after years of proclaiming love to be merely a lie used to sell greeting cards.

My cynicism, which was my armour, is gone and I wake freshly awed by the magnitude of my feelings. I had no idea that it could be like this.

R and I are both damaged creatures...broken dolls, misfit toys.

We find santuary within each other. Together we are whole.

It has been a long journey, but I'm finally home. I am tortured daily and loved constantly. My body will never again be free from pain. My soul never will never again be empty.

I have been home just over a week now. Any doubts I might have secretly harbored are gone. There have been many sadists in my life but R is THE Sadist...my LAST Sadist.

In 13 days I commit my flesh into his hands. I am becoming...

I believe that every sensation is experienced in direct relation to its opposite. In order to truly experience pleasure one must embrace an equal measure of pain.

R is the embodiment of this principle. He brutalizes me without mercy and feeds on my suffering without remorse.

Poised...balanced on razor wire.

Love and lust and the possibilities therein. It is no small thing to be loved by one who knows my darkest heart and embraces my midnight monsters without hesitation. We are hungry beasts who will feed together on the forbidden and the taboo.

These days I see the past through less critical eyes. The road led me to this moment in time. I am being given the chance to know real happiness and passionate love. I find that the past becomes less substantial as the vision of the future comes into focus.

R and I are not the couple Hallmark makes cards for, but our union is what every couple strives to achieve.

As I draw closer to the day I go to him, I grow anxious and introspective. I am ready for him I think. I am totally committed to life for the first time in years. I can give everything I am to him without losing who I am. What a gift I've been given. He gives me sanctuary. The storm cant hurt me anymore.

I am a masochist who has found the rarest love with a Sadist. We are each others mirror. Every cliche' applies. Our mental disorders mesh to perfection.

Ahhh...life is good!!!

We are what we are. Feral and remorseless. Predator and prey.

In June I will be going to my Sadist.

My head will be shaved.

I will be corsetted 18+ hours a day with my goal set at 22in.

I will be beaten brutally with his fists and savagely fucked daily.

I will wear collar and cuffs always.

I will be dressed as his fetish torture doll, in skin tight thigh high Ballet boots when we go out.

Not because either he or I view these things as conditions of submission or slavery, but because we both find these things incredibly hot.

No matter where I go I find myself at once surrounded by slavering alphas as they pace in ever tightening kill-circles their hungry eyes watchful.

I like that.

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