sissyjillcoyote

I go from extreme to extreme, sometimes not moved by B&D at all, to days when I have the wildest fantasies about giving up control in total and being molded to another's idea. Of course it always includes sissy transformation, like that is a surprise. 

Lately, light bondage -- particularly Chasity -- has seeped into my mind.  I have moments when I'm intrigued by collar and leash, which to most of you is probably light weight. But it's a big thing to me since I've never indulged in such activity.  

Just arrived back to Bangalore India, want to play anyone?

So I'm in NYC and looking very butch of late; anyone want to play and sissy me?

So I did get a chance to get out in february when I was in NYC, first with girlfriends for a girls night out, and then a date with a very nice fellow from upstate.  

The last few months however I've been out west with no opportunities to get out and explore, or stay in and explore, other than reading blogs. Still trying to figure out my attraction to all of this.    ho hum.  I'm pretty sure the strong draw to B&D for me is the power exchange, but I also find it exhilarating to be the girl I am, and get excited by exciting my men.     

Perhaps on my trip back to NYC in May I'll have a chance to role play a little; still looking for a strong hand that wants a leashed sissy, someone to take by force or coercion, mold into his dream girl and satisfy his desires.  Any takers? 

A little info about compatibility:  I am social -- a bit of  butterfly, though very loyal, love my Margarita's, dancing,  quiet time, movies, outdoors, and .... well, find out first hand.  

Well, for a hot minute things were very exciting. I met a guy on Collarme, and we seemed to hit it off really well -- shared the same long-term interests, both wnated light B&D fetishes as something in our life, but not our life, had similar sense of humor, I wanted to be a housewife/homemaker while pursuing my creative interests, and he wanted a housewife.  

So I was finalizing arrangements to girl-up (ordered my hormones and some clothes and shoes), bought my ticket back to NYC and was planning to take the train to where he was on the 20th of February.  

He had been talking so seriously, and after chatting for a month, "says' he was falling for me.  Then he disappears for a week.  

I email to say that (a) I am worried and hope he is OK, and (b) if he is OK, is he having second thoughts. 

His reply is that he had a busy week.  So I reply to confirm "So do you still want me to come down there?  The response is "I'll get back to you on Monday." 

Really? He has been chatting me up every night for a month, saying how he can't wait, letting me jump hoops to make plans, and suddenly "I'll get back to you." 

Guys should realize that when a trans-girl makes a decision to transition and to relocate, its a big undertaking.  

But this was a wake up call to me of how unpredictable people you meet online might be; they may fantasize about things, but when faced with the reality of it, have second thoughts and leave you standing at the virtual alter.   

Certainly I'm disappointed, because the more we chatted the more I liked the guy, and the romantic in me actually saw the possibility of life with him, which he had been trying to get me to see the whole time. 

So for any would-be admirers out there, please know that my interests are real, not fantasy, so if you chat with me, just be honest about intentions; I don't have a problem chatting with guys not looking for long-term, just don't say one thing and think another.    

After living a girls life, very out, for 3 years, I reverted back to guy for the next 7.  During that time I never went out as a girl again; though I did have a few incidents where I fully shaved and indulged in doors. Oddly,  during the time I was living as a girl, I never had any fetishes.  But during my guy time I started to develop interests -- or more accurately was drawn to -- certain B&D ideas.  

Certainly, like most TGs, I long for the idea of having someone transform me; perhaps through cunning, deception, force, or mutual consent. 

I was never an overly frilly type girl, but became intrigued with ultra frilly sissy wear, though I haven't really explored that yet.  The concept of a sissy is so totally different than a trans woman, and it intrigues me no end, as does role playing from baby girl right up to slut and bride.  

So the other day, I decided to change my profile and actively seek out a live in situation where I can transition and be molded; can provide domestic services, and, maybe find a long-term relationship. 

 Keep you posted.