sissydmerda

Im a preety normal person as far as family, friends, and society perceives. Although the definition of normal in my conception is preety wide opened most people don't think that dressing yourself as a woman and particularly a maid and whishing to serve and work for others as a form of pleasure is normal. In reality since Im 6 years old I dream on changing my body into a women body and being part of a poor class which would make me work as a servant since young age. In Brazil poor families put their sons to work since the are very young. The first time I felt a sexual desire as I can recall was when I was six years of age. I played tenis and there was this boy which was around twelve years old which worked as a ball catcher. All the boys catchers worn a uniform which was composed of a blue thick and chep textile shorts with a white tshirt with the clubs logo printed on it. Normally because of the use the shirt got very dirty and it had a smell of sweat. A strong smell that ressembled a lower position in life. He had dark black hair, he was skinny and had a hairy leg. The smell, the leg, the uniform and the fact he had to work and was forced to wear that sweaty and stinky uniform turned me on big time. I never had the courage when I got older to consumate the fact but I dream on being fucked by this boy which in our days is already a grown men. I dream on being a ball catcher and having to work for him cause at this poin he already was chief of the tenis department. I dream on him forcing me to perform sexual favors to him. i dream on licking his feet, his leg and functioning as his private slave. I dream on being abused by that stinky smell which to me is much better and smells far more pleasent than french perfum. I dream with that uniform. for years and till today when Im having a sexual relation when Im ready to jerk off I imagine him. If fate iworks in my favor who knows one day Ill meet him again and he will be in a uniform, sweaty, with that smell and grabs me and abuses me for days. Oh what a pleasent dream!!!!!!

I always fantasize on being kidnapped by a international group that trades white male slaves to groups that will transform me into a slave and change my sex and make me work the streets as a whore. I would loose all contact with my actual and present life and would loose all my free will. I would be ordered to serve them sexually and as a low life maid. They would make me wear shackles for the rest of my life and humiliate me and beat me frequently and hard. The shackles would only be removed when I was working as a prostitute in the streets. They would make me have sex with as many males as would show up. All the proceeds would go to them. They would make me stay in a filthy cage with no toilet. I would have to piss and shit in a bucket wich would only be cleaned once a week. basically they would transform me into a nothing. A lifeform inferior to a magget. My life would resume in being a whore and a slave. i would live to have sex with all kind of males including the ugly and bad smelling ones and be humiliated and beaten. With no right to complain or the punishment could be even worse. Technically I have a great life but deep down Im not complete. I dream on being exploited and becoming a white male  slave.