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Male Submissive, 44, Woodridge, Illinois
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About sissy4Dad
I spend a lot of time thinking about why I am the way I am. Is the need to be subservient, the need to feel used, hurt and humiliated the result of early experiences or was I born this way? Alternatively, I think about what makes men want to dominate and control, to hurt and to humiliate? Is it an innate confidence or sense of entitlement that I just don't have or understand or for some, is it compensating for other short comings or weaknesses?
My earliest sexual memory is that of being used and humiliated. Like most young boys, I looked up to the older boys in the neighborhood and would put up with some teasing and abuse to hang out with the older and cooler kids. There were two older boys who one day convinced me to strip down to my underwear, put a brick in my underwear and I had to run across an open space of lawn and back to the wooded area where I began. It looked and felt ridiculous as I ran bow legged across the lawn with both hands holding my underwear at the waist so they wouldn't fall down around my ankles.
When I got back to the wooded area, they were howling with laughter and calling me names. I can't honestly even recall the exact sequence of events that followed but I do know that I ended up on my knees, sitting on the brick that was still in my underwear and I sucked my first two cocks.
I was embarrassed and humiliated and yet a few days later, I was in a tent in one of their back yards blowing them again. At that point, I don't think I even knew what cum was but they always referred to it as my ice cream treat.
As I search for a man to claim me as his own, I wonder if I was born this way and was it inevitable or did early decisions and experiences seal my fate? The man I seek will understand the emotional and intellectual aspect of submission and will teach me to not only accept who and what I am, but embrace and celebrate it.
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