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being fortunate in life~*being happy within~*being *SLAVE*~ and being extreme masochist~

just because Y/you send me an email...does NOT mean i will respond nor does it give Y/you a right to jump in my PM box because of said email. If i wish to speak with Y/you i will respond it is the same with PM's~if i do not respond after the first or even SECOND one???? *passes the ~clue~* ~~smiles politely~~

i have been in the lifestyle for 20+ years... living RT 24/7 with most recent relationship of Sadist/Husband...having ended in divorce this year after 9 years.
i will settle for nothing other than RT 24/7 with One who has an understanding of *bloodlust* and the difference in submissive and slave~as i am complete *SLAVE* i do not *kneel* at anyOnes feet simply because i am commanded to... always remember~ Do not command her to kneel at Your feet~~INSPIRE her to desire to be NO other place.

Always welcoming intellectual and witty banter with O/one of like mind and spirit. Tis a shame to fight a battle with an *unarmed* person... so please if Y/you come to match wits with *armed*~laughs~

i also have a 13 year old son...if Y/you have issues with children..please keep them to Y/yourself as we have nothing to discuss ~smiles~

i need perfection, some twisted selection, That tangles me and keeps me alive. In all that exists none have your beauty i see your face, i will survive.

~*If you seek to understand the whole universe you will understand nothing at all… But seek to understand yourself and you will come to understand the whole universe~*

~US~ INXS 2006

The world is always changing, you can see it every day
But in a tragic situation you just can't hide yourself away
So try a little kindness cause it sure can't be that hard

You're shining in the darkness when you open up your heart
Your love is all we need to bring us together
Don't leave it to me, nothing's for free, it comes down to us

Hungry babies on television, can you feel the shame?
We've got to keep on giving to one another, 'cause it's all gonna happen again
Why don't you try a little kindness cause it sure can't be that hard
Just think about what binds us and find a new place to start

Your love is all we need to bring us together
Don't leave it to me, nothing's for free, it comes down to us
Your love is all we need to bring us together
We're not indestructable, we're some kind of miracle
Happens every day

~*Joy and Sorrow {Chapter VIII}*~

Then a woman said, "Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow."

And he answered:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."

But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.

Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.

When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

Khalil Gibran


~All around i am engulfed by darkness. my light fades away as memories remind me of You, my adoration and complete and total desire for You. As You~the Dark One~returns night after night, consuming me, filling me with desire and wanton passion, to fill Your needs, to bleed for You, and You alone~now~and i think of You, and i force myself through the pain of missing You and what You offer me in Your Darkness. my need for You is never ending. The pain i would willingly suffer for You is a sign that i would offer ALL to You. Every night i cry tears from my soul for the thought~knowing You~Dark One~will come and steal away my breath once more. i dream of never-ending glorious pain within the burning of Your touch and whisper in my ear and Your hot breath on my neck. Always yearning for Your tasting my crimson blood and the salt of my tears. And i press on, hoping to find You and have You hold my quivering body so very close to Yours. Enticing~darkness~lays a promise across my mind, swearing unending respect and need, bringing my suffering, my bleeding for You~to Your feet. It is so irresistible. i strive to hold Your passionate image inside me. A death of lonliness and sorrow will take me if i cannot have You. The agonizing thought of being without Your touch, Your desires and cravings of which this slave NEEDS to fulfil, sears painfully across my heart. Yet the NEED inside me burns strongly, never fading, growing stronger, as i lay awake, still awaiting~You~the Dark One, for You alone will set fire to my thoughts…and ignite what burns within the darkest recesses of this slave’s soul~

 ~sigh~ *sighs* n ponders ~~love~~

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much you have in the beginning, but how much you build till the end. I'm talking fate here-when feelings are so powerful it's as if some force beyond your control is guiding you to someone who can make you happy beyond your wildest dreams.

Never question if you are in love or not, because if you were you wouldn't need to ask. If it is meant to be, our hearts will find each other when we meet, and if our hearts melt together so will our bodies and souls. Then every word and every touch will fuel our passion flame. I will be yours, you will be mine and we will be as one.

The best way to love is like you have never been hurt before. What is more important to you? The love you share, the memories you have of a lover? Give love a chance to swallow you up. Don't just think it will happen in an instant, it will suprise you before you know it, but it will be the most rewarding experience you will ever have.

But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I will surrender my world to you if that is the only way I could become part of yours. We attract love by the emotions we display; we retain love by the emotions we possess.

You will never know love until you surrender to it. Sometimes a rose is destined to love a thorn. When you welcome love with your whole heart, soul and body, love will welcome you with all its sweetness.

Interesting is the concept of lost and found as it pertains to love; when a soul is lost, it yearns to be found. Ah, but when a soul does find what it has been seeking.... it yearns to become lost in that soul.

~~One day, out of darknes, they shall meet, and read life's meaning in each others eyes.~~

*ponders deeply the P/people i have come to find on this site.....wondering why many do not read... OR understand words that are right in front of them. Please let me make something clear... i *am* looking however i *am* also a concrete bitch.... stubborn...and sooooooo very willing to NOT settle for anything less than the entire package i seek. i have been alone before, and am quite secure within my *self* that i can do it again. i have been coming to find that my desires here have been leaning alot more towards women than the *Dominants* tho there are a FEW of the Men that sigh has come to just adore...for WHO and WHAT they are and represent. In turn there are a FEW Women here that sigh is coming to adore just as much and just as deeply.....these *FEW* know Who they are ~smiles softly~
Please keep in mind if Y/you should decide to approach me for ~any~ reason... RESPECT goes much farther than any form of *Dominance* You can offer or show me...if You are simply contacting me because You think *i am pretty*???? please don't, thank You but if that is what You have to say...You show me nothing of what You are made of substance wise in Your Dominance. my looks are the SMALLEST part of who and what *i* am ~smiles~.... compliments are wonderful..but meant to be *sincere* not used as a ~way to get in the door~ GAH!!!! *smoochies her lil 666 girl for that comment* lol