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My former relationship did not tank. It ship-wrecked with a ghost crew on board.
After stealing many of my belongings behind my back, and finding out that he had got his ex pregnant - AGAIN - he offers to meet me on the DL to continue a blow-job only tie to him.
wtf
I AM NOT CHEATING ON SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME - TO HELP YOU CHEAT - ON SOMEONE WHO SHOULDN'T TRUST YOU - LIKE I DID.
3 1/2 YEARS I SAT ALONE ON HOLIDAYS, VALENTINES DAY, GAVE YOU ALL THE MONEY I HAD. LOST 2 APARTMENTS.
WHEN I did SPEND MONEY ON MYSELF, YOU TOOK WHAT I BOUGHT FROM ME AS FAST AS YOU COULD - not because you needed it...just to take away my smile.
Selfish, Destructive, Succubus.
Only charming to deceive. How I wish we had never met.
How I hate it when I think of ways you used me. I hate it more when I want to see you.
It disgusts me when I think of how weak you made me for the hopes of love.
Now that I have climbed out of that whirl-wind of believing every word that came out of your mouth - and have rebuilt a new me. I wonder if you would recognize who you left behind when you thought you drained all there was to get from me.
I am no longer who you left behind. The bag on bones climbed out of the ashes and grew a spine and more importantly a Smile of her own.
Only memories of what I let you get away with torment me.
Having built the new wall of - how I shall not be trespassed upon, I now open up - slowly, carefully to a new love.
Not with the open arms I was born with.
With no room for naivety - I await with a hunger & need for passion. But I bait for prowlers and thieves.
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