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shamwiches

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My name is Shannon, my odd nickname which i've chosen to display as my Username is Shamwiches, and as you read, you'll find out why. You can call me whichever. To all my lovely subs, you may call me Mistress. I'm into a lot of different things. I pull my inspirations from Art: the visual, readable and culinary forms. I find myself hugely indulging in films, photography, comic books, fetishes/kinks and anything that's considered outdoorsy. I am a nerd and dork who has knowledge in a bunch of useless facts, don't let the cute girl with confidence overcoat fool you. I'm actively trying to expand my intellect by learning about psychology, philosophy, religion and politics - four subjects that I can debate on for hours. My therapist told me that I was an old soul searching for every answer in the book, too curious for my own good, too intellectual to truly connect with the typical hobbies of my age bracket. I openly present that personal information to say that i'm far from perfect. I was born and raised in California, i've only traveled as far as Louisiana and I so desperately want to travel much further. I would spend most of my adult life backpacking if I could. As for my current goings on, I'm going to school to become a Culinary Arts major, in hopes of owning my own Diner or Food truck one day. I love coming up with different things to put in between two slices of bread, sandwiches for days.


I'm mostly here to meet interesting people with different cultural and creative backgrounds - to learn, to teach, to indulge in a lifestyle that has only been a dream. I want to make lasting friendships over just simple play partnering. I believe that this is greatly possible with the right open-minded person. I am the least shallow person you'll meet but I am athletic, so I need someone I can go jogging with who is fit and can keep up with my energy, even in normal everyday life. 21-30 years old, non-cigarette smokers only. I'm also looking for some 420 friendlies to indulge in the herb with purely as friends. Please, I am not interested in any online sub/dom dynamic. I want to find someone who is local and who I can see often.

I like to participate in different fetishes/role-playing with my partner, who is not my boyfriend. I'm slowly progressing my skills and becoming the "Switch" I want to be. I like both dominating and being a submissive. Spankings and sensory deprivation are my favorites. On the dominant side, I love to cocktease/edge, sensory deprivation, bondage, sex toy play, impact play and whatever can be negotiated. I've heard that i'm quite the dominatrix. So I guess you can say that i'm a true switch at heart. None of this constitutes to me being a slut or easy. I like making connections with minds more than genitals, intelligence can really get me off. I'm also still very new so it would be nice to find someone who can show me the ropes.

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11/23/2013 10:02:19 AM

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I’ve been putting off seeing my Doctor but I finally went ahead and made an appointment. I can’t keep feeling this way. I can’t keep feeling my brain empty every time I stand next to a train track. I can’t keep feeling down, and expecting people to put themselves aside to care. I feel like the world is convinced that i’m crazy, and although i’m not, i’m believing every bitter accusation. I’m seeing this world as a harsh world when I know it’s gentle and the only thing harsh is the people who walk it. I put on this believable smile and I give off such gentle gestures so I can assure that people don’t worry, “I’m okay.” “Okay.” “I’m okay.” “Okay.” - when I know inside I am struggling to keep up. I’m tired of waiting for consistency when I know it doesn’t exist. My mind needs to realize that it doesn't exist. I need to realize that i'm worthy of more and better. I need to realize that being alone isn’t a cause for a self-death sentence, and it’s okay if no one wants to hold me or love me how I want to be loved. I need to grow into myself and not out of myself. I need my soul, mind and body to accept me for who I am and affirm - not perish. I have so many can nots and so many needs. I want to just be. I want to just be happy

 

8/26/2013 4:42:16 PM

8/24/2013 7:55:11 AM

7:53 am

 

I've come to notice the personality differences between the subs and the doms on here. There are just some dominant males who are ruining it for the rest of you guys. Being rude, giving me false hope and assuring me their interest in me as a sub/domme and then disappearing the next day. I'm use to being deserted by my friends and being left out of things by my family. I honestly don't want to have the same thing happen to me from complete strangers - given the stranger aspect, it shouldn't affect me, but it does. I would never give anyone false hope towards something that they feel genuinely passionate towards. I also noticed that it doesn't seem like many people are reading my profile as to what kind of person I am and as to what i'm looking for. Usually if I haven't replied to someone, it's because they lack a few things that would make me comfortable and keep me interested if we were to become play partners and good friends. I will italicize good friends for emphasis. I'm still getting fakes who just want to get laid. You can try everything in your Bro code book, but it's just something I am not interested in. I noticed that the subs and switches on here are usually a bit more understanding and have a genuinely nicer air about them. They say things a bit more outright and is a bit more considerate. This just bothers me because I feel like no matter how much of an alpha male you are in one position over the other you should still maintain maturity and vigilance towards a female that you are approaching. Even if we are a sub/slave female we aren't meat, and shouldn't be talked to in a downward manner. In defense, I will say that these are general ideals as to how I've seen this website so far. Otherwise, I have definitely talked to some good people who want nothing but the best for themselves and for me which is honestly why i'm still here. The notion of needle in the haystack, diamond in the rough is still keeping me searching. It gives me hope that one day the perfect gentleman would sweep me off my leather boots and give me the proper collaring that I deserve. 


7/31/2013 11:09:33 AM

11:09 am

 

I didn't get much sleep last night, but this time, it wasn't quite because of my thoughts. A few womanly pains that I should be use to by now were also involved. Something i'll never get use to is the wave of unstoppable emotions that trouble me for one and a half weeks out of the month. I think that's the thing i'm dealing with most in my time to time un-rest. Thinking about when i'm going to see my best friend and lover again - and how the time frame seems so far away. It feels quite lonely in my bubble. I can never figure out if it's because i'm not willing to "blow" it any bigger than it already is, or if it's just blatant fear that i'll let the wrong amount of oxygen into it until it bursts all over again ? I never felt quite good at keeping people around due to my short-span of interest in the typical things that the typical person has to say. I've heard it before, i've read it, i've seen it on TV, but we have to continually remind each other of the hottest topics and the hottest trends even expanding on it more. You don't meet a lot of people who instead flourishes in something new, expansive and independently creative. I think i've been losing myself because of how trapped this makes me feel. Not having someone who understands, not being able to be yourself with the people you know. Just trying to maintain who I am right now seems so difficult. 


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ilovedaisies
 
 Age: 47
 Seattle, Washington