shakinitiant

As said by my nickname, I am shaking in fear of doing this. I have no experience, but I have fantasized about it all my life. I am eastern European, living in NYC for 2 years now. My dad died some time ago, so I don't have motives to go back to my country. I inherited my father's estate, so I can pay my expenses. I want to be owned by a grown man, at least 40, or a couple.
I don't know how to describe my preferences. I will do just whatever. I want to be mortified and degraded. Also to be toillet. I have just read "The story of O" and l can't think in anything else since.
Please, send me detailed description of what you would do to me. I will be selective, but once I choose I will surrender unconditionally. A picture would be also important.