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About ShadesOfPale94
Happily owned by Evilmaster39
Made a new account as I had forgotteny login details for the other
I am a naturally submissive person, however I will not be treated like a doormat, I am not a slave nor will I ever be one. I like being tied up and spanked, but have never tried anything else. I want to try new things, and will try anything at least once before I decided whether or not I like it.
I am looking for RT and want someone nearby so I can meet regularly.
I smoke, and will not be told to quit. I will not be told what to wear as that reflects who I am as a person. I will submit myself to the right person, but only behind closed doors, I will not be a submissive person when out in public, as this isn't who I am.
Happy to chat with people
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well I haven't done this for a while so best update it
I haven't done much the past few days apart from sit out in the sun catching the rays ( I have not tanned at all, so a little upset about that) I did my coursework in the sun and snoozed, walked my dog and just generally chilled out. I went to work yesterday and worked my butt off, it was so busy, but I wanted to finish on time as my friends from school asked me to go out for a drink with them to catch up, so I was looking forward to that all day. Although I did upset my Master because I didn't do my journal last night.
Today was pretty good, I finished two more assignments and completed work for my ANA lessons. I haven't done my task for the past few days as I have been to busy but the last time I did it was Sunday night and I lasted 50 minutes, I am very surprised with this time as I never thought I could ever last that long, the orgasm was intense and made me very wet.
I haven't got much else to add, as I have been busy doing college work, and have not had time to do anything else, which I'm sure has really upset my Master but my education comes first to me, it means the world to me, and it is my life passion to become a vet.
So if I don't update my journal all the time it because I am working my arse of to have a career |
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So today I slept in a little because of how late I got home and eventually went to bed, I did my task and lasted 30 minutes before cumming, it was intense, I love it. I watched doctor who for a bit, and my Master called, he wanted to know if i had more bananas and to do my task of seeing whether i can deepthroat 9" i said i would do it. I then did coursework and completed another assignment I did coursework for about 4 hours before walking dog. After walking my dog I did my task again, this time I lasted 45 minutes before cumming. When I came it was the most intense feeling ever, I came a lot harder and a lot more, I cleaned myself up with my fingers, tasting myself, I was sweet I fell hot and sexy when I clean myself up.
I then did my task with the banana and only managed to get 4" in my mouth, I think this task is going to be hard because I only have a little mouth.
I then did more coursework before having a shower and getting rid of my body hair.
I am now going to bed as I have to meet my friends tomorrow to go into town and mentally spend money I don't have :(
I love you Master goodnight xx |
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Okay so yesterday I didn't do my journal, this was because I fell asleep about an hour or so after I got home, the lack of sleep the night before had gotten to me I think. I did do my task in the morning and lasted 30 minutes before cumming. The longer I last the more intense the orgasm seems to be, I love it, the feeling of letting go after so long.
Today was eventful after a hard days work at college 9-4 with no breaks I had gotten several pieces of work done and one assignment handed in. After college I had to go to A&E as my friend had hurt her finger in a karate lesson, I have just got in now and I'm very tired.
I did my task again this morning and lasted 35 minutes this time, I love seeing the improvement and how far I can push myself, and it does feel very intense and I cum a lot more and a lot harder.
I think it may be time for me to get some sleep now as sleep deprivation is kicking in and I'm acting like I belong in a loony bin
I love you Master -goodnight xx |
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Right my journals won't be song for the foreseeable future as college have decide to dump a crap tone of work on me and I don't have much time to myself.
College was busy and tiring today but I got a lot of work done while waiting for the bus (which decided to turn up late).
I have completed my task, this morning I lasted 30 minutes before cumming and when I came it was intense and I came a lot more and a lot harder. I got home around 4.45 and went and did my task again lasting 30 minutes before cumming, I have finished my task for the 3rd time today and lasted 35 minutes.
I am now going to try and get more coursework done. I will then collapse from sleep deprivation and wake up to do it all again tomorrow
I Love you Master - goodnight xx |
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I was at work today, was supposed to be in till 4 but they let me go early as I had done all my work and then some, so that was a good thing today.
I did my task today. Once before work and I lasted 25 minutes before cumming. I did it again when I got in before I walked the dog and lasted 30 minutes before cumming. And I have just finished completing my task and lasted 30 minutes before cumming.
My Master wanted me to send pictures of myself doing a little strip tease, it was weird to me in picture form but I didn't mind doing it for him. I felt sexy and good about myself when doing this little task for my Master
I have done my course work and had time to myself, so now it's time for bed.
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Yesterday I didn't do my journal so I'm will do it now.
There isn't much to report on yesterday I was very ill and couldn't stop throwing up through the night, and through the morning that finally stopped around 12, so I decide to bake, and take my mind of being ill
I made shortbread biscuits and felt a little better, I watched a bit of tv and tried to eat something but it didn't settle properly so I was back to throwing up again, I went to bed just to make it stop. I woke up later that night and sent my Master the choices for my underwear the next day and went back to sleep.
Today I felt fine, I could eat a little more, so I went to college 9-5 my last lesson was cancelled so I had to wait around for the free bus which came at 5, it gave me a chance to do my coursework at least. My Master called me today which I was happy about, I missed hearing his voice over the weekend, I have a new task to complete now that I have the right 'equipment' so to speak, I have to practice deep throat on a banana which I think I will be okay doing, I don't have much of a gag reflex but then again I have never had anything bigger than about 5-6" so I don't know how I will cope with 9"
I have completed my already existing task of playing with myself and seeing how long I last before I cum.
In the morning it was only 20 minutes
But I got home and did it again and lasted 30 minutes before cumming
I will do it again before I go to bed and give an update tomorrow
But for now I have to complete a group assignment by myself because everyone in my group are lazy and expect that I will do all the work and they can just take credit for it, they can think again if that's what they think, if I do the work I will hand it in as my own individual assignment and they can fail
Rant over now
I Love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Had an amazing day in college today, I was in from 9 till 1, I only had 2 lessons, animal welfare and environmental interpretation. I enjoyed my first lesson as we didn't get a new assignment and I had completed all my other assignments for that lesson so I did a few bits for my health lesson so I could had in an assignment for that.
Environmental Interpretation is the most confusing lesson I have ever been in, but i think this lesson it was explained a little more, so now I have to produce my own piece of E.I. it may be a little more difficult than I expect, because of they group I have, I think they expect me to do all the work, and hand it over to them. but that isn't going to happen, I'm no door mat.
After I finished my lesson, I went into the animal unit in college and helped clean the animals out, they never seem to be cleaned out properly by anyone else but me and my friends, one rabbits hutch was inches thick in shit, it made me feel physically ill.
When I had done that I went and watch the sports day going on outside, I watched several rounds of tug of war, between different colleges, then the firemen came out and oh god do I really like a man in uniform, especially when they have tattoos. while watching this I was on the phone to my Master talking about the possibility of me going to uni near him, oh and putting a pen up my arse again, I said no, then he suggested my own finger, again I said no. My Master had asked me how would i ever get his cock up there, I turned around and said the only way you might be able to do that is if you drug me, we had a laugh about that, but I think i was being a little serious, I absolutely hate anal, and they only way I could do it is if I was drugged up.
When we had watched them out main topic of conversation between me and my friends became sex and how many people we had sex with, and how we lost out virginity. Apparently I "won" when it came to losing my virginity, don't know what I won exactly, it was the best of situations when it happened.
Anyway after out 1 and a half hour conversation about sex, we went and got the bus home, I couldn't wait to get home, I wanted to walk my dog, have my tea and change into my sweats and relax, but the relaxing didn't happen as I had to do coursework, O have been doing it since about 6:30pm and only just stopped at 9:30pm because my Master told me to. i think doing all this work may make me ill. I never have a day off from anything, if its not college, its my placement, if its not that its having to find a part time job to fund myself so i can eventually go out. And if its not that its my family. I never stop. I just want a day where I don't have to do anything at all.
So when I woke up today I did my usual task, I lasted 30 minutes before I came, got home at 4.30 and did it again, this time lasting 25 minutes, then i did it again before is started my coursework, I didn't cum at all, I went for about 40-50 minutes and nothing, I don't know whether its because I'm or if its because I'm getting stressed with everything I have to do, but I couldn't do it at all.
So now its time for "me" time, I'm going to go have a smoke and relax watching TV, hopefully my dad doesn't come home drunk, because that means I have to sort him out and get him to bed
I love you Master - Goodnight xx |
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Had a pretty good day today at college, even though I have felt ill for the past few days.
I let my Master choose my underwear today, I sent him the pictures last night so I didn't upset him this morning, as I don't really have the time in the morning to do this.
We spoke on the phone a couple of times, and he never fails to make me blush, but then again, I think it's quite easily done with me.
I completed my task today. In the morning I lasted 20 minutes before cumming. I got home around 3 and went straight upstairs and masterbated, I lasted 25 minutes that time. And I did it again around 5/6 o clock that time I lasted nearly 30 minutes. I did my task early as I had to cook my dads tea when he got home. He was in a horrible mood and decided to take it out on me. Was a bit of a downer on my day.
So I'm doing my course work for an hour or so, having a shower then going to bed. Have to be ready for college in the morning
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Update from yesterday's play time before bed, I lasted around 25 minutes before I went to sleep.
College again today from 9-4 I woke up late and only had enough time to do my task I lasted 20 minutes before I came and had to rush after to get ready for college and I couldn't let my Master choose my underwear for today because I was running late.
My Master and I didn't talk much through the day and I missed him a lot.
I got home at 5 and when to play again, I lasted 25 minutes before I came, then had to get ready to walk my dog, my Master wanted me to send him pictures of myself when I walked my dog, he wanted one a me kneeling down, and one of my nipples, I couldn't do the nipple pictures for him because public nudity disgusts me and I think it's perverted.
After I walked the dog I went and played again, I lasted 20 minutes again, at some point I want to see some improvement again. I want to be able to last longer than 20-25 minutes.
I'm going to do some coursework now and then have an hour or so before I go to bed, just wanted to do my journal before I forgot
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Today has been a long day, I have just completed a 12 hour shift at my placement, I am we'll and truly ready for bed
I have completed my task today, the first time I played was in the morning before work and I lasted 20 minutes before I came. I will have to play before I go to sleep and update you about that tomorrow.
I hardly talked with my Mastet today, I don't like that really, I couldn't talk on the phone with him, as I didn't get much of a break, I had to eat and get back to work, do today has been a little shitty
However I did think about him throughout the day, and had gotten myself more than a little wet, I thought about his hands on my body, and sucking his cock, and him fucking me. I became very wet after that and, don't think I should do that again unless I'm at home where I could properly relieve myself.
I have sent my pictures of me in my underwear to my Master, I hope they make him happy.
I am very tired so I think it may be an early night for me as I have college in the morning.
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Today has been okay a little boring at college, was in 9-5 and couldn't wait to get home. Talked to my Master on the phone, and as always he made me wet, and made me blush, but that's quite easy for him to do.
I did my task this morning and only lasted 20 minutes before I came, I think playing with myself 5 times yesterday exhausted me and I didn't have then energy to control myself, the same happened the other two times I played, only lasting 20-25 minutes.
I am to send a picture of myself in the underwear my Master has chosen for the day, everyday. I don't mind doing this, I like it really give me a real confidence boost knowing he wants to see me in nothing but my underwear.
I sent a picture of me fingering myself to my Master and once I started I couldn't stop so I brought myself right to the edge and stopped before I came that took about 5 minutes. I became wet when sending the photos as its kind of sexy sending pictures of myself to my Master.
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Today wasn't that exciting, I slept for the most part, I woke up and saw a message from my Master, and I had kept him waiting as I didn't reply
He wanted me to masterbate 5 times today, it took about 30 minutes before I came, that was for all 5 times that I came. I felt frustrated before I came, my body isn't used to holding it back, after coming I felt amazing and my body relaxed. By the 5th time I came I was exhausted, I dont think i couldve take anymore.
I sent more pictures to my Master, I like doing this for him.
I have been told to have 'property of Master Ian' on my pussy at all times, It's different to me, I like it though, knowing that I belong to someone and I'm there's alone.
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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I would write about yesterday however I drank a lot last night and can't seem to remember what happened.
I was very disobedient last night, I didn't write in my journal, and I didn't reply to any messages my Master sent in the evening. I didn't mean to do it but I went out with my friends and had drank a little too much, and never checked my phone throughout the night. I was punished for this mistake today, I had to kneel naked, with pegs on my nipples and clit, with a pen up my arse, I hated the pen, it was painful and uncomfortable. I really hate things up there and I think it will be a very long time before something big is put up there. The pegs I could cope with even though the one on my clit was particularly painful.
I did my task today and masterbated 3 times again, and lasted a lot longer before I came, the first time was 25minutes, the second was 30 minutes as was the last. I'm proud of this I am finally making progress with my orgasm control training.
My Master hardly text me during the day, I didn't like this, I love talking to him, and while he was thinking of my punishment I felt like the suspense was torture and that itself was part if the punishment. When I came to do the punishment my Master guided me through it in the phone, I was nervous about the pen up my arse and he calmed me down while I did it, it still hurt though, but now as much as it could have done I think. My Master told me that if the pen becomes to much I could take it out, although he did want me to keep it there for the 30 minutes I was doing my punishment, I couldn't it hurt like hell, and I had to take it out after 15 minutes.
My Master has now gotten a name for me for when I behave, the name is princess, I like this, it's nice. I would know when I have been good for they day and pleased my Master when he calls me this.
I love you Master - Goodnight xx |
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I slept we'll last night and I wasn't in college long only 9-1, so I'm wide awake and all refreshed, there were a few things I missed out of my last entry so I'm just going to plonk tem in this one.
My Master now has a name for me when I'm being punished, it's cunt, I hate that word but I think it's apt for punishment as you aren't supposed to enjoy it
My Master sent me a picture of his cock, and all I could think was wow, it left me speechless, and I weren't expecting it at all. It is the biggest I will have been with, and to be honest I don't know whether I will be able to fit it all in my mouth, so my Master wants me to practice, I have to find something big enough to practice on but unfortunately everything in my house is stubby and small, so I will have to invest in bananas or something.
I masterbated 3 times yesterday once in the morning before college, I lasted 20 minutes before I came, again after I got home from college, only lasting 15 minutes that time, I think that is because I get extremely turned on when my Master rings me during the day. The last time was before I go to bed I lasted 20 minutes before I came that time.
I did the same today all lasting 20 minutes, I feel amazing when I finally cum after not be able to hold it in any longer
I send my Master a picture every morning, I don't mind doing it, cause I don't feel my best at that time, but it makes me happy knowing that completing this simple task please him
I sent some pictures last night of me in stockings, suspender belt, and bra, I feel sexy when I wear the stockings, and showing my body of to my Master, some of them he wanted on my profile, but only the ones wear I'm covered a bit more, I sent a few that were a little more revealing to him as well.
Today wasn't particularly amazing except when my Master ring me, I love heating his voice during the day, and I smile whenever I see his name pop up on my screen, I get wet every time I talk to him, and he knows this all to well, so he rang this morning to do just that, he made me very wet and potentially ruined my underwear for the foreseeable future. I like it when he does this, I feel like I'm doing something I shouldn't be, being horny and wet in college, it felt naughty, I can't remember the rest of the conversation much apart from he wanted to know what I was wearing, my memory is pretty horrific really.
He called again during the day and had the same affect on me. He wanted to know how I took my first step into the lifestyle, because apparently most people read 50 shades of grey, and think that's what it must be like. I however know it's nothing like that, and only started to read the book a couple of days ago. I got into the lifestyle because I know I am naturally submissive, I love to please people, it may not come across as this at time because I'm cheeky and sarcastic, and have a strong personality, but it's true, I hate the look of disappointment creep across someone's face after knowing I may have done something wrong, and it's worse when I know exactly what I have done wrong. Plus 'normal' sex just didn't do it for me, it bored me after 5 minutes, I knew I was a little kinky and wanted to explore that.
I can't really remember what else was said, I have had a few drinks tonight and for that I am sorry Master.
After college I got home around 2.30pm and went straight into the shower I played in the shower and lasted 25 minutes, my new record for not cumming, I then shaved every little bit if bady hair off, and had a nice scrub down, I played again when I got out of the shower and only lasted 15 minutes, I was still sensitive from before, but I need to train myself, I cleaned myself the way my Master asked, using only my fingers and my mouth, I taste sweet, and I would be more than happy to do it every time I play.
I am now at a house party get rather merry. So I'm writing this now before I forget.
I love you Master - goodnight xx |
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Today went well was at college from 9 till 4 but I didn't get home till about 5, I had a laugh with my friends but the best part of my day is when my Master rings, even though I blush at least once every time he calls, this is because he has either asked me to do something that could make me cum, or has said something to make me wet.
I did my tasks for the day, I woke up and played for a bit, it took me a little longer to cum this time, it was about 15 minutes, I also played when I got home before I walked the dog and it took longer still, that time it took 20 minutes, so I can see some improvement
I had punishment tonight, I kept my master waiting for pictures, which he shouldn't have had to do, so I had an hour of pegs on my nipples and pussy lips, my pussy hurt like hell after I didn't like it one bit, I shall never keep my Master waiting ever again
Love you Master goodnight |
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Today I was on my placement from 8 till 4 (part of my college course so it's at a vets) it can be good most of the time, except today was hectic and tiresome, and as I was helping restrain a dog so it could have his pre-mess he decided to fling his head back and head butt me, no bruise but a splitting headache, which soon disappeared. I cleaned all day at work, but I don't mind as I really enjoy doing it.
On my break my Master rang me, I was very happy to hear his voice, I can become very wet when he talks to me, I love his voice, I find it sexy and assertive. He has asked if my phone was on vibrate and whether or not it was in my underwear, I blushed again at this, made worse by a stranger walking past. We didn't talk long, we talked about how my day was going so far, and a few other things, he told be to be good and we hung up, when I had gotten back into work I couldn't wait for a text of my Master, I smile when he text me.
When I had gotten home at about 4:1pm I wanted to relax so I ran myself a bath and had a lovely soak before I had to get ready to walk the dog. My Master rang me again, after my bath, we talked about what makes me, me (even though I am a little cheeky) and how much sex played a part in the lifestyle, it's much less than I originally thought, but that's just me, I think about sex a lot.
We also talked about orgasm control and my training. I am to masterbate 3-4 times a day and try and increase the time it takes me to cum, I would love to see change, it normally takes me 5-10 minutes to reach climax.
I also have to put more pictures on my profile, however this may have to be done at a later date, definately by the end of the week though.
We talk about our first meeting as well, my Master expects me to use my safeword at least 3 times because he tends to get carried away, I will use it if I need to, but if I enjoy it I don't see the point in using it ;)
I can't wait to meet him and see what he has planned for me |
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Today went well, it was my first day back to college after being off for two weeks, and very tired after it.
My Master called me today and understood that I couldn't call him sir or Master because of my friends, and I'm very thankful for that, I don't want them to find out what I'm really into. He asked my whether I would keep my phone in my underwear, this made me blush, firstly because every text I got I would be fishing my phone from down my pant to answer it, secondly the vibrations would give me a lot of pleasure, and I can't keep a straight face when pleasures, which all my class mates and tutor would see, for this reason I had to say no to this task.
My Master then called me at the end if college to see how I was, and when I would be getting home, he also asked if I could try and cum without pleasuring myself physically, he wanted me to try this when I got home, so as soon as I got in I began the task, at first I felt nothing, and thought reaching climax was way out of my reach, but after about 20 minutes I started to feel pleasure, however it never got passed this point, I think it will be some time before I could cum without touch.
I also sent my Master nude pictures of myself tonight, I felt very sexy doing this for him, knowing that I can please him by sending him pictures makes me very happy
I am very happy with my master, as he understand something's I might not be able to do, especially if I'm with friends
Well that's all for now, my bed beckons me |
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Today started of pretty bad, I didn't sleep at all till about 6-7 am and I had to disobey me Master because all I needed was to sleep, I got punished. After waking up in the afternoon a had to do my chores which included, cleaning my room and helping my mother with whatever she wanted, I then had a pleasant walk with my dog, when I had gotten home after that I had to help cook the families tea. I had a a bit of chill time watching the tv, before having a shower and getting my things ready for college tomorrow.
I am now ready for bed, and hoping I get a good nights sleep |
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I had to kneel in a corner naked with pegs on my nipples today for an hour, this was because I had disobeyed my Master because I didn't text back, I also said no when he had rang me, I didn't like my punishment as my nipples were very sore afterwards I wasn't happy that I had disobeyed him but I didn't sleep at all last night and was very grouchy, all my body wanted to do was sleep |
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Today has been pretty boring, I went shopping with my mum which is a task in itself as she can take her time to choose one item of clothing just to try on, it took about 3-4 hours for her to pick out one complete outfit, and then we had to get her friend a birthday present and that took about an hour, after we had gotten home I had to help clean the house, and do my washing, and help cook tea.
After all of that I had a couple of hours to myself to relax and read a book (the da Vinci code) and watch doctor who
I'm exhausted now so I'm off to bed goodnight everyone |
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I have sent my Master pictures of myself topless, I felt aroused when taking them, and became a little wet
I was very happy when I sent the to him as I knew this would please him, I like to hear that he likes my pictures I send |
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