Its been a while since I have written in my journal...The latest update...I wrote in November I thought I had found the ONE... Before me meet in person we chatting in the room, then moves to texting and then talking on the phone.  I have some trust issues.  That is the reason I made sure I felt comfortable with him before we meet.  This person pursued me for a year and when I agreed to meet him and try to see where it goes I was surprised how well we got along. We meet during the thanksgiving holidays and we got along very well.  But after that meeting I really didn't talk to him like we did before. Seems he was always putting off talking to me.  Communication and trust are the most important things in any type of relationship.  I had never been in a d/s relationship before.  I was looking for guidance, love, togetherness and fulfillment for both of us.  But I didn't realize that the meeting we had was true a play session but was really only a sexual encounter.  I don't do booty calls or random sex encounters to many things can happen.  This was the first session I had I am a novice looking for what I felt I was missing in a vanilla relationship.  I wanted to learn. All the things we talked about and what to look for in someone who just wants sex I realized he was doing.  I feel really stupid and I thought no wonder he couldn't keep someone.. They always said he didn't pay enough attention to them because he worked a lot.. That may have been true but begging someone to talk to u isn't the attention someone wants.  So I have learned my lesson and I will remember it to.. Thanks for ruining something that was very important to me. But I am still on the search for that one Black Daddy that will hopefully help me find my way thought this new lifestyle.

I love this phrase..I don't want to brag or make anybody jealous, BUT I can still fit into the earrings I wore in high school..

I have found the ONE...hopefully it will work out and he and I will have a great relationship...I'm a novice and I know I have a lot of learning to do but I am up for it..

I will continue my journal about my growing and new things, new ppl and new experiences in the lifestyle..I am ready for the new direction I'm in and I know he will help me and teach the correct way...im excited...

This is still in progress

I have had several black men in this site ask me why white females shy away from them....so I ask some of my friends who have had experience with black men,, they say they use them, mistreat them, and only want to use them for sex and gangbangs.. That seem to be the perception now days with all the videos out showing white females in gangbangs and used sexually. If u a sub, slave, babygirl  etc respect should always be given and maybe this sigma about black men in general will be looked at differently. I have had many men talk to me of different races but it doesn't help when a non black man talks to me and ask me what I'm looking for and what i want. When I tell them what I looking for a black daddy wow do I get a long message back.  About how black men in this site is looking for a white female is to just use them they would never been in a relationship with me.. Use a white female marry a black woman.. I think in some cases this is true but I have to believe or hope that it isn't always the way things are. 

I ONLY DATE BLACK MEN! That isn't because I don't like non black men its just a preference for me...But it seems to bring out all the "try a white man I have a black cock"? I like really how do u know that? Do u go around liking at other mens parts? 

Lastly get over the bias and if someone regardless of race talks to and doesn't want to get to know u ..then move on...that to means they don't care about the real u and what is important to u or ur opinion on things...Stay open minded and always remember safe, secure and consent....

I am pondering why I read a lot of black daddys, dom and/or master want to state that all white females are bitches and users.  I don't understand how they can put everyone white female into one class or category.. From the entries I have read it is so easy to take out their what seems frustration and non respect on the ones (white females) who either they cant have or those females who aren't interested in them.  In this lifestyle everyone regardless of race, creed, gender or preference has a right to choice who they want and not be ridiculed for the path they choose. Remember if u don't want to be judged then have an open mind and don't judge others..  You may not agree with their choices but they are their choices.. Not all white females are bitches, users, gold diggers or what ever term YOU see fit to use to disrespect and degrade someone.. Acceptance is an adult way of thought! 

OK!!! Why are some black men ashamed to be black or tell ppl they are black...Is it to much to ask for a strong black man who wants a real, smart, intelligent non mental white female? I long to find a strong black man who knows what they want and know what they are looking for? They want to get to know the person they are talking to before they start barking orders and demanding outragous things...Submission again is given not demanded...moving on 

Can u actually be a master, dom, daddy etc...if u try to break someones natural spirit? That is what makes the sub/slave the person they are...submission is given not taken....if it taken it isn't submission at all...

Saw this quote and it states it well.....

You are no one's slave, dog, slut, or sub until you give them that right. Only you can give it. No one can take or assume it without your permission." 

i was given this site and it is very well stated...enjoy

 http://daddystendertouch.tumblr.com/Whatisadaddy

i am straight please do not message me if ur a bi female i have no curiousity to cross that line.  I dont judge others for their choices so please respect mine...always remember the SSC

Thank you for the ACID TEST u know who u are...it is a good thing to follow to find ur way..

i don't understand why no one reads on the profile & what ur looking for....this is obviously the reason we fill in this information..