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I have to ask, am I the one? You said, "you know who you are..." There is no way I a can assume it is me so I have to ask, is it me? I hope and desire that it is. If it is not me, please help me to understand what I have done wrong or what I can do better to make you happy. I ask this because I miss you so much and I can only hope that when I close my eyes to sleep I can see you in my dreams smiling with me. Forgive if I am wrong but tonight I am going to pretend that you were referring to me so that at least for tonight I can see you are smiling with me in my dreams...

I have been asked to re-do my assignment. In responding to the degree of enjoyment, let me just say I LOVED it. “It” being my first ever "scene" type experience. There were a few things I didn't like about it. But for the most part it was the best thing that ever happened to me. I liked the fact that the Domme was so caring and that I received a fair share of compassion and still got to be used for what I hope was her personal pleasure. I was told that I have a very high pain threshold which I got as nod of approval. But I still at the same time didn't like that I may have disappointed her by not being as receptive and prepared as I hope to in future to be able to be. In conclusion, I must say, I would not have liked it near as much if I didn't have a strong attraction for her as I do. She is Beautiful and I feel like the luckiest man alive. 

I am hoping this will work. I am trying to submit an entry about my first experience from Friday night... I submitted it once but perhaps gave too much information. I am writing this in the hopes of fulfilling an assignment. Without it being deleted, let me just remark on the point I was trying to make. I can only hope to be a worthwhile submissive because I found that I felt quit quilty for deriving pleasure out of the various experiance that I had. I am unclear if that is the point. Perhaps it is.. But I became worried that I wasn't concentraiting enough on making sure I met all of the objectives to the Dommes satifaction. And that is what I am most afraid of not doing.