satansgirl

July 28 2008

not much going on today not feeling the greatest this after noon err now i really need to fix my comp and re-install or i wont be able to go online tomorrow witch means im gonna have to go out today eventhoug im not supposed to but i hope he will under stand if i can get a copy because i think my Master would be more upset if i couldent talk to him online and that he couldent have his pics ok well i temporarily fix my internet problem sort of the only site it will let me go on is collarme.com and well i wish i could get on yahoo or face book my tummys telling me things its saying feed me feed me and im saying later later lol :p i learnt a new word today i learnt pansexual to be honest with what i did today with the clothes pins on my Masters boobs and pussy was interesting i really didnt like them on my pussy that was a little to much but it was such a rush even more so cause i was doing it to my self and thats something i would have never done to my self before find what i have found :) i wana go out today but i cant maby if im good tomorrow i can get off maby i know it probibly wont happen but i can hope cant i lol arg i hate this week i need to con some one into giving me a back massage yay my music works again i dont know what to do with this comp its a piece and i dont know if i should even bother with trying to fix it or to save up for a new one but then im also moving in december i also need to start saving for a car theres just so much that i need to get or do but never enough money i know ill pack up daven and well be carnies and we will live happily ever after as carnies lol :p ive always wanted to be a carnie ive also have wanted to travle too but i dont want to travle alone so im stuck in this crappy city if i could go any where in the world i would go to europe but i will write more tomorrow:)

July 27 2008

i dont mind being grounded this week not really anyways cause i wont be up to much even if i wasnt grounded owie i got cramps im not doing much to day besides laying down on the couch to day i feel like crap today i really hope my Master dosent make me do much this week because of my woman problems :( im in trouble again and i dont know what i did i sent my email and i talked to my ex and his new girlfriend and to be honest im not mad any more or either that ive finally repressed those emotions to a point i cant feel them any more but ya i had a good conversation with them i hope we will be friends i will say i do miss him he knew everything about me no body knows me inside and out like him but i need to stop talking about him im getting sad over things that will never be :( arg im sooooooooo bored i really want to go out but i cant im going stir crazy plus i have no one to talk to bored bored bored i think im gonna go and bang my head on a wall just for some thing to do im soo bloody bored i wana go out side im starting to go stir crazy yay my ex ralf is going to come over soon and fix my comp yay im so borded though im gonna have a smoke and hes going to do thoes pics for me wow todays going by fast i wish i had some midal i have such bad cramps right now and it sucks that i cant go out i usually walk to make myself feel better i think i might tyide up before ralf comes over hes here now but i need a copy of xp to fix my comp and listening to music im posting early today cause not much going on

July 26 2008

i had so much fun lastnight dude i got so wasted ended up crashing on a bed with 3 guys and a nother chick as far as i know nothing happend last night except for getting dumped by a guy that i wasnt even dateing he told me that i have issues and that my ego was too big i dont have an ego and he was sitting there assuming he knew me when really he dosent know me i show ppl what i want them to see and then if i think there worthy enough i may let them in oh ya and my ex and ikilled his roomates play i had so much fun lastnight 20 single and no kid sweeet but i miss my Master i wish he would come online. damit im grounded :( im sad no pot no beer no going out no clothes :( and now becaus i cant get ralf down here today i have 2 more days of grounding added on im gonna go crazy well im not doing much to day just sitting on the comp and later watching tv and maby cleaning up if i get really bored but im going for a nap now hey im up now and my friend devon is here and i get a massage im so luckey but supper is ready i got to go for to day really not much went on

July 25 2008

so its day one of my son being gone and its not bad yet ill miss him tonight but for now im online talking to a friend i havent seen in 2 yrs im now talking to a soldier boy form the states but im waiting for my Master to come online but if hes not on soon im going to go buy my camera its not going to be the gratest i dont know what kind of camera im looking for well i found it and still cant use it cause my comp is a peice of poop but i had a long talk with my master i got punished agiain for going out that night i got im going to say over 200 hits with my riding crop for at least 10 min after i couldent sit and my boobs are still sore im not going to do that again its been a quiet day today im going out soon so when i get home ill tell u all about it i love my Master so much i have no clue as to what to wear tonight i need to get my self some clothes my ex took all the cool clothes omg ive changed my clothes at least 3 times cause i dont know what to wear.ok make that 4 times (im not like this this is just one of thoes times you dont know what to wear. ok and then i got really tanked lol

July 23 2008

i was a verry bad girl last night. i went out with out my Master knowing i mised my bed time almost missed my wake up time kissed a guy and got really hammered now i have to redo yesterdays entry im also going to the ex. i went to the ex and we walked around they had a butterfly tent and draven and i went in i dont like bugs but i am trying to get over my fear of them for my son. he had two butterflys land on him and i had one on my leg right beside my croch i thought it would hurt me but it didnt i took draven on the train and he loved it he loves trains im so tired and tired but thats my own fault ok i know i did a few things i wasnt suposed to yesterday but i had so much fun i allways have fun when im with my guy friends i dont hang around chicks verry often (i dont like them) i dont like the compition and the drama i cant wait to talk to you tomorrow i miss you so much Master im waiting for my sons grandma to go to her friends to drink i cant wait for 11 o'clock i am soo tired and now shes not going out to her friends i hate my babys daddy errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr im so pissed at him and i cant make the agner go away so im going to rant on here im just so mad at him hes in another serious relationship and weve only been apart a month and a half im jus so angery i dont know what to do other than just rant cause i know no one except my Master reads this so im just gonna rant also im tired of his mom shes over riding every thing i say when it comes to draven i want my house back im going to have 3 people now living here at the end of augest i dont have the room for all 3 i dont know if they plan on paying me to stay here cause i really could use the money his other people are tellling me that i have to be nice why do i have to be nice he dosent respect me any ways so why should i have to oh i hate that pos so much i know this entry is short but ive had a busey day

July 22 2008

i know im starting this entry late in the day but ill give you the jist of what happened this morning i was up at 7am i went to bed at 11pm but had a hard time falling asleep. i made coffee for my gusts and fed my son breakfast chated with my guests found out last night my ex is skipping town on my son i am talking to sidetoside again and we are talking about my hour long panty gag and i just found out that at the end of augest my sons grand parents are going to be staying with me till they find there own place witch could take a while and then not to mention school im listening to the war of 1812-arrogant worms im still talking to sidetoside and he is giveing me advice on how to make my Master more happy with me and the services that i provide and giveing me positive feed back on my progress from what he can tell from talking to me im so happy that i have some one to talk to when my Master is not around because i get into trouble some times when im bored i had another dom thats in the city try and tempt me to dissobey and i siad that i was owned and that i couldnt talk to him anymore im currently waiting for sidetoside to get back to me im so mad at my ex so mad so mad so mad oh well i know he will never be in a long term relationship because he couldent commit to me and his son we were engaged and then he decied to be a deadbeat and go with these 19 18 yr old chick and i loved him with every thing i had in me and he treated it like nothing and its hard for me to trust people in general cause ive been screwed so meny times by men more ways then one lol :) I HATE MY EX im almost over him now that i have my Master to think about now. sidetoside gave me an idea for when i start school in sept his suggestion was that i take pics and give point form notes. now sidetoside are talking about fantisys my fantisy was a satanic seen. i really hope my progress makes my Master happy with me. not much is happening right now i dont know when my ex mother in laws coming back from west edmonton mall.i wish sidetoside would respond to my fantisy im sorry i have a fasination with abduction i dont know why but i find it so hot now im listening to behemoth and i still think they rock im writing my thoughts today cause this after noon im being lazy for supper we are having chillie cheese fries and salade i have to go and hook up a vcr for my son ya i said vcr. he got some videos from his grandparents.sidetoside told me that if i have any questions i can ask him. im listening to Opeth-porcline heart my writs hurt from typing so much lol i might be going out with my family tomorrow. im waiting for my Master to come online and im waiting paitently like a good girl and i dont think i have done anything wrong today...yet there is still lots of the day left. its only 3:30 pm listening to system and waiting for some one to send me a message on one of my vairous accounts lol im finding so many of my old friends on facebook ya i have a facebook account i said that i was never going to get one and made a hypocrite out of my self lol there really isnt much going on today. one of my friends that i havent seen in a year is going to come and chill with me when he gets back in town and he will be back aug 2 and hopefully i will get to see him on my birthday wich is on aug 15. i dont know if my Master is going to be online to day my Master said that he would be online around 3 and its almost 4 but thats ok i dont mind waiting i just miss my Master. My Master is so intreging and mysterious and thats what i love most about my Master :) errr so bored i wonder if my Master is unhappy with me cause my Master was online but hasnt spoken to me and my Master said he would. my Master made me rip my fave pants i liked it but i didnt cause they were my fave pants and still are i couldent get a pic for my Master i gave my Master the suggestion that sidetoside gave me and my Master love the idea well i dont know if my Master loved it but i hope my Master liked it at least.i feel clean now i finaly had a shower my Master is in bed now.you know what i find really hot soldiers and fire men but they gotta be in uniform mmmmm there yummy its there strangth that turns me on i love the idea of a man throwing me down on a bed. if your wondering how i got on this topic it was cause i saw a soldier boy out side my appartment :) errr i wish people that arnt allowed to talk to me wouldent talk to me i feel bad when i cant awncer cause im starved for attention lol but still its pritty tempting. i wish i was allowed t

July 20 2008

Got up around the same time as yesterday. Im thinking about taking draven swimming to day. Its going to be 30 above to day. Im not the smartest person for wanting french toast on a day like this. I dont think im going to get out of the house today, Draven is being cranky. I wish I didnt have to wait till monday to talk to my Master I really do miss him. I fed my crows this morning. I have crows that come and visit me. This morning im just sitting here listening to music. Im wondering how this is going to work when i start school. my sons grandparents are moving to the city.its so hot today im waiting for Draven to go down for a nap and then i have to clean the bathroom. Talked to sidetoside to day he asked what i was up to today. i told him about how i have to get ready for Dravens grandmas visit. also about how i didnt know how my Master was going to react to me not being able to be on all the time this week and he hasnt replied to after my last message and i put my boobs on my profile and my boobs read OWNED BY THEDRAGONMASTER. i have to go to the store later to get laundry money so Draven has cleen clothes im gonna do all my cleaning tonight its too hot to clean right now. sidetoside is talking again and were talking about how meny pics i have taken and given to you Master and now were talking about what i like to do and i told him listening to music and how i cant live with out it and how my self esteem used to be low to non exstant and then he told me that im young and that im verry good looking and that i have a Master that cares deeply about me and that made me happy. then he asked me what kind of music i listen to and i told him metal and hard rock and rock im so happy my Master talked to me today my original boobie picture was denied so i took another one im waiting for sidetoside to talk to me again im soo bored i gotta clean up my mouth im not allowed to swear anymore but i swear like a trucker oh well its not that hard to do i really do love my Master. im going to do a quick tidey up in the living room now. yay sidetoside is talking to me again and he wanted to know if every thing was allright with my Master and i and then he asked why i had to watch my mouth and i told him im not allowed to swear and talk to other doms that arnt my Master or sidetoside and im still listening to music BEHEMOTH rocks! sidetoside was asking if there was a "no-no" list of things were not suposed to talk to and hes honuored to be able to talk to me and he dosent want to conflict with my training im just grateful for being able to talk to anyone for that mater im eating pizza i love pizza i have to go grocery shopping tomorrow afternoon and then sidetoside started talking to me asking me what i had to buy and i told him i needed high heals and matching bras thongs stockings and a garter beltnow we are talking about whats in my toy chest im spending time with my son and then gonna get some cleaning done well trying to but he wont leave me alone but i dont have much just cleaning tables and finishing the bathroom the two things i hate cleening the most is bathrooms and litter boxes but yes the monster is down for his third nap to day he sleeps when its hot well i want a new vibrator the one i have is dying i think but i want a better one the one i have goes through batteries fast i forgot about my laundry im going to go and check on it now and switch it over ok so im back from switching the laundry over man its hot today. its 5:38 pm and im still listening to music but in about 20 min im gonna watch the news. now sidetoside are swaping fantisies and i just went to check on Draven and he is still asleep. im going to go and watch the news now. theres no one to talk to me on cm so im on my vampirefreaks.com account other than when my Master was online today has been pritty slow and i wanted to go out for a walk if the monster gets up early enough i just might still be able to go for my walk. i cant wait for hockey to start i love hockey. just fully filled out the BDSM checklist. im cleaning off my coffee tables. Draven got up for a bottle and then went back to sleep when i gave it to him so it looks like im not getting out today but thats ok cause i need to go grocery shoping tomorrow cause im running out of food so back to cleaning tables the heat is giving me a headache and i still have work to do so im seeing if it will go away on its own or if im gonna have to take something for it. all my coffee tables are clean i have some papers to go through and my desk to clean up and the bathroom to finish and laundry to fold.Draven got up at about 8 pm from his nap i let him stay up till 9 pm witch is a half hour after his bed time. now im filling out a differnt BDSM check list and am going to find a way to post it on my cm account. Darn it i was on page 3 of 6 and then i messed up and now i have to start all over now. yay i finshed that check list and heres my check list

July 19, 2008

I got up at 8 am I didnt go to sleep till 4:30am. I had a slice of pizza for brekfast and so did draven(my son), and then put him down for a nap and am working on my diary. Im trying to get my 12yr old sis to come watch my monster so I can go for coffee with this guy Ive been talking to for 3 weeks online. Im about to do some house work while the monster is down. Im also listening to my music. I cant live with out it. Now im not sure what im doing today im so happy I get to go out. I just wish my sis would wake up and call me. I cant wait to get my collar the ones they have here suck, but things like that are so much better when there from the UK. Im taking advantag of my 3 hrs. My friend Carona is going to help me with buying my outfit. The one thing i find worse than not having music is not being able to go out side, I go stir crazy. Im so happy Im dressed now and about to take thoes pics. Wow where did the day go. I feel really bad about being late. But thats not even the beginig of it. I triped on the stairs on the bus and hoped no one noticed but they did. Then not to mention I steped on a big rock with my bare foot. The reason why I was sooo late was I forgot my bank card, cause I was being rushed. I dont like being rushed, I forget things when Im rushed. So most of the time i was out I spent it on the bus. I tried to find a nice matching thong and bra but the store was closed. I didnt go for coffee nothing worked. I feel like a failure. The only thing that has gone right was the monster going to bed early. I have more house work to do. My sons grandma is coming on monday Im not sure how this is going to work. Concidering that my comp is in my kitchen and his grandma will be sleeping on the couch. The computer and couch are about 6ft away from eachother. Im lonely sidetoside wont talk to me now even though Im allowed to. My ex thinks im a piec of shit. One of the reasonsy why is cause he cant come fuck me when ever he wants to. Some of the other doms that I was talking to last night are mad at me cause I cant talk to them. What did I do to deserve this today? Why is every one mad at me? I feel so alone. I dont want to be alone. Errr im so mad at my ex and I hate his head games. He needs to grow up and he called himself a dom. But from what I saw here last night he was all talk. Hes nothing compared to you Master. I hope your enjoing the read. I need a shower tonight. It was hot and humid today. Draven might be going to my parents place so I can clean tomorrow. I wonder what my Masters view on weed is? I missed my Master while he is away.