saforakajira

Taking a short break before school holidays.  Hopefully will have ability to check email but unsure at this time.

Cheers

Saf x

Country life is so much healthier, I suppose.  Every time I take a trip out bush, I smell the air and hear the sounds around me and a calmness permeates my being, I know I'm alive and at peace.  Time stands still and there is nothing to do but prepare for the next day whilst relax in the present one. 

I doubt I could ever live away from some body of water though.  Water is life to me.

A Master is like water to me.... so each day without a Master, although I do not actively search, is like a day my lush lips become parched, my skin dries and my heart becomes attuned to the thought of being alone.  It doesn't sit too bad, but the potential and the energy created from a dynamic relationship, keeps me restless and hopeful that I too, will experience such a wonderful and unique partnership sometime soon in the near future.

Lashes down, fanning, gently pressed against my cheeks, the image of me serving my Master both relaxes and excites me.  I Know I live because I can still hope and the wish still burns within me.

Good Morning,

So early, but having trouble sleeping.  I'm hot.  You decide the rest.

I realise that this site is akin to 'normal' dating, obviously with a serious twist... however, I want something more.  Something with meat on it. 

Someone I can lay my head on and someone who can shelter me from the storms.  I love strong arms, strong chest and a brave soul.  A manly man.  Not a dick (but one who has one is very good...  as they say 'A hard man is good to find'). Oh dear, look at how coarse I've become...not a lady at all... tsk tsk

Perhaps its a pipe dream...  am I looking in all the wrong pipes then? 

What if I said I wasn't actively looking...is that okay?

It's just I believe, fate will take it's course eventually and all the pieces of the puzzle will come together with ease.

Sleep well or have a great day,

Hugs and kisses

S x

Good Eve or Morn to you!

I'd love to say moving is a cathartic experience, but quite frankly the entire exercise is overrated.  If Aristotle had meant it as a Poetic Tragic Comedy, then Cathartic is the term Id use to describe it. Even the the more literal 'purgative' or purification process is still amiss.  Intellectually cleansing, perhaps, but as my house looks like Armageddon, the task is not yet complete, although I'm totally over it.

It's a bittersweet end to an old book, the new chapter once only in concept, is now almost an actuality. 

Why is it that when one is at the most busiest, the most delectable and fruitful offers come my way?  Is it because I am meant to deny sweet temptation?  Or is it to reward my hard labor and efforts? 

Should I succumb, or be strong and overcome?

The desire flows deep within me...and I like many, search to rest that core of fire deep within the heart of my one's true love.

Sleep well, rest well and be well....

Tomorrow is but moments away....

S x

New Young Doms....

Strange happenings, but not to be unexpected.  They start out so intent on mastering and conquering.  Bulls at a gate. Situation:-

A friend is going out with a new young Dom.  He's inexperienced and so serious he can't take a joke.  I'm cheeky, so between myself and her cheekiness, his hackles were raised.  As he's not my Dom, no skin off my nose.  BUT, she's my friend and I care about her, so that was the big sting for me.  Lesson learned.  I apologized and took the blame.  I'm the eldest and lead by example.  Jokes can go too far...it was an easy, carefree and frivolous one, but he didn't get it.  Hit a nerve apparently and as I don't know him (or really care to) although it appears his irritation is petty, it's not my place to judge.  Feelings are feelings after all.

However....

Some of the new kids on the block are scary, rigid and so inflexible, I just hope as they grow in confidence and skill that they actually learn to grow in their skin, loosen up and realise that this is life, not a tick sheet to fulfill a kink diet or to put a notch on their tight belts.

If someone can't take an apology and ruins a relationship over it, is it worth that relationship to begin with?  Your call.... 

Saf x

I love Birthdays!

It gives me time to reflect on the year past and see how I've grown as a person, look at the experiences I've had and put everything into perspective.

What I perhaps took for granted when I was younger, I know cherish with an intensity which can be quite scary at times.

This past year, I've watch friends go onto beautiful things and those question their lives more.  I haven't got the answers for them...but one can but try and walk beside, watching the lessons as their learned, taking them on board and also experiencing growth by watching them too. 

Every thing we go through, both as spectator and as someone who partakes of life, teaches us something more.

I love learning.  I love experiencing things, revisiting things and having new cherished friends.

So, as I face my 40th Birthday, I thank all those who've shaped me and helped me learn new things (from all ).

With affection

Saf x

HONESTY:

 Seems like I can't hide in here, nor can I retire my profile. So I guess I will just keep it as a journal entry.

 I'm too honest and I deliberately will scare people away.  Only the very strong person will understand this and not run.  I think nothing less of those that run, it's not about that, its about selecting a true Alpha male a true Master and one that can walk through life facing any challenge with me at their side, knowing that as a 'team' we are invincible.

Romantic notion, yes. And why not? If it means I don't find HIM, then I will be alone.  I am not afraid of that at all.  Life is Beautiful and precious and abundant.  To share my passion with someone would be the ultimate.

FEAR:  I am brave and will risk all for HE that I will meld with.

As soon as I find someone I think is a possibility, I must give the option to run.  If they stay with me, then I will give of myself.  I wait and see.  It is not for me to choose as it is too important for me as it is so easy to give of myself and become the completion for someone else.  Its as easy as breathing as I am an empath. 

So for now I wait, I see...  I relish in the thought that could be...

It is everything to me... to find my soul mate, just like everyone else who wishes that, but for me it means so, so much more.    

Men  generally take more time with seeing things clearly...  the logical side kicks in and ?'s clutter the thoughts and hurdles appear and that's why those supposedly insurmountable obstacles become too much, when really it's just a small wave not a tsunami.  Its all periphery really, for life throws many curve balls and if you make excuses for why you bail at each whopper that comes your way, then there is no commitment to really making a relationship work.  Not all men are like that.  I'm just old fashioned though, as you may have read with past entries.

The beauty is, this time, for once, I believe in Him.  I tremble with thoughts of him and I.

I'm shocked, in awe and frightened at my vulnerability, scared and yet I am calm, patient, serene and hopeful.  It will be as fast or slow as it should be. 

My arms are open.  My heart is free to love.  Who walks with me?  Is it he? .....

Thank you to all of the Dominant males, who told me I had  no place being 'romantic' because I'm a slave and should "know my place".

To you gents, All I say is that not everyone will fit your script of what a slave is, so perhaps enforcing your 'ideals' on others is not a tactic that will work with  some.

Thankfully, there are true Dom's who understand and are patiently waiting for someone with the same values as I have, who although have been in the scene for a number of years, have not given up hope of finding someone who understands the true possibilities that can come of a D/s, M/s relationship and then some.

As it stands, I am someone who is new, doesn't fit the mold and will challenge ideals so that both, myself and to the person I choose to give everything of myself to, will grow in ways that possibly neither of us could ever imagine. 

I am monogamous, as I don't feel you can create a bond with someone whilst out playing the field, so to speak.  If you're not working on your relationship because you're giving of yourself (in any matter of time,shape, way or form) then you are effectively not giving all that which you can to the relationship you are establishing.  Foundations of trust and honesty to build any good relationship can only be, when two persons are working on building that together, for the betterment of each other.  Scary yet exciting too. Pioneering in many ways, as today's idea of a relationship can almost be seen as a reflection of today's idea of a 'throw away society'.  That can't be good for anyone's soul if you are trying to create a real dynamic.

Successful poly-amorous situations working long term, within today's definition of poly-amourous relationships, is something I haven't seen happen to date.  Melbourne women that I know are possessive, yes, subs and slaves are possessive of their Masters to a point where I'm confused who actually is the master and who is the slave (sic - lower case).  I'm not interested in disrupting anyone elses relationship or on being the 'other woman'.  If you are married, in a relationship (however empty or devoid of love, sex, devotion, affection, affliction, etc etc) then you are not for me!!!

I'm predominantly looking for like minded souls who understand the depth of what a relationship can bring  to the D/s, M/s dynamic.

Some of you want a svelte, sexy, pin up model who will just bow down to your feet and say "Yes Master, I am yours, do anything you want with me". 

I've watched "I dream of Jeanie" to, when I was a child.  I've grown up since then and know that life is NOT like that.  If you do have a 'Jeanie' then enjoy her as she is a rare artifact.  I am not a pin up model and I have scars borne of traveling though this journey called 'life'.  I am happy to send you a picture of myself, once we have had some interaction and I feel safe to do so.

I am educated and don't like my time wasted as I'm sure you don't either. 

So, even though I have closed my account, for some reason it seems to defy logic and I keep getting messages, so posting here may give you an account of where I stand.

Cheers

sk

Like most, I get weary...not of the people I meet, but because so many have no inkling of what BDsM is.

I enjoy a mature gent who understands how a woman works and knows how to use his abilities to enhance the D/s relationship.  What a breath of fresh air to meet such a someone :)

Someone who understands the value of a women's gifts, her mind, her body, her everything with which to enhance his life, creating peace amongst war, order amid chaos.

Does not mean she is doormat, yes sir, no sir, three bags full sir...but when she calls you Sir, it's with respect earned...how much more valuable then to demand something you don't deserve but just because you deem yourself Dom/Master/Daddy, that ye shall receive? 

Please...if you are a jokester BDsM'er a player or just into Kink...  go find someone who will appreciate your 10 minutes of attention.  I am not she.

I enjoy educated, intelligent individuals who understands beyond mosts idea about servicing their need to be a dick-tator.

Fortunately I have had some excellent conversations with educated gents.  Yay for those men who retain my faith there is a heaven after all :)

Have a lovely weekend,

saf

Recently a friend on a 'normal' (whatever that is to you or I) date site, found a gent who was a natural male Dom.

He didn't have the prescribed expectations of someone who'd been in the BDsM realm, because he wasn't in the scene.  In fact never knew it existed and thought it was quite amusing to think there was terminology to describe things he considered as a normal part of his life. 

Actually he couldn't believe that people 'advertised' themselves in such a way, as he'd thought it difficult enough to put himself on a 'normal' dating site when his LTR crumbled.

In truth...

He was just a gentlemen, who knew his mind, respected the genuine affection and adoration she gave him and treated her with respect. 

A fairy tale... yet so very true...

So where does this leave me?

It leaves me questioning why I'm on this site, when I can find, rare though it may be, someone who knows what they like, but it is not a list that any Dom/Master has on their tick sheet?

When someone told me to come on this site, I had no idea what it was for.  I almost wish I hadn't. 

I've met some great people, but friendship aside, where are those real Dom's hiding?

Well this gal needs her zzz's, so I'm going into hibernation too... 

If someone wants me to come out into the cold, they are going to have to entice me to somewhere warm and inviting...

Great Weekend to you all...

Busy Busy girl here...went to sleep early, so I apologize for no reply status.

I guess the body wins sometimes, even when the mind is unwilling.

At least I slept well.

It looks like beautiful Melbourne weather today and so I may have a few hours to take advantage of this and do some photo snapping at the beach...

Tonight I am going to the venue Abode, for the even The Gateway and SINthetic.  Apparantly its the last time for this event and as I haven't been out in a while, I will be going. 

If anyone wishes to meet me there, I'd be happy.  I find it safe there and I know some people have a 'pollitical' objection to going there,

but it was my first point of call and  I was treated well.

Politics does more to destroy this lifestyle then to enhance it.  I will not be part of it, because essentially it is the individual who suffers as a result of drawn lines.

I'm going to have fun dancing.  If you are going, there is no doubt you will recognize me.  If you think  you know who I am, stop me and talk with me... I don't bite....

well not too hard anyway ;)

Till we meet.....

Have a lovely weekend,

s x

Well the week is almost done and it has been a train wreck... however, I hope to salvage something of tomorrow and the weekend. Ever the optimist.

I look for the good in people and pray that those who seek to do harm, stay far away.

Most I know are genuine people looking for companionship of a varying nature.  That's okay. I am one of those people too.

Have you ever wanted to know what was beyond that which you see? Are you afraid to crumble at the possibility that what lies ahead could cause massive life changing situations?

How afraid are we as individuals?  What I fear is fear of stagnation. I fear ignorance.  I fear injustice.
 I fear being misunderstood....although I know not why considering many are misunderstood and they still survive.

I've had a rough day and although 'pressure makes diamonds'., this gal is ready to kiss today goodnight!

sweet dreams zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Good Day everyone,

I had severe Monday-itis and as I sit typing this, I wonder how to put the words on the screen that convey my feelings.  Should I even try? 'sigh'

I'm not looking for Mr Perfect.  I'm not perfect (well I am, but it is my imperfections that make me 'perfect' )

In fact I'm not really 'looking' at all.  I tend to want to run away now, hide and shield myself from those who play on the deepest rawest desires of peoples souls and have absolutely no gumption to use it to hurt that very person who wishes to please them.

It would sound that I have been hurt, wouldn't it?  I came close but I wasnt.  Yet it brought reality to me and it is not unheard of for people to witness or be involved in a car crash and then not want to drive afterwards.  Similar here.  

What am I doing here?

In truth, I should drop the kajira from my handle as I am not Gor, but I liked the sound of the name...

till next time...

s

Oh patient ones, I have kept you on your toes.  I have been very busy, keeping the promises that I make in order to please those I love and care about.  The rub is that I miss out on being on the internet to chat with you.  My connection via phone is dubious at best. I will give my number out to a select few.  Kudos to you for getting to the next level.

For whatever reason (be it as it will) If you are married, in a relationship, or even an open relationship... I can offer you friendship and my feminine company.  However, can you truly say you have something to offer me if you seek something more from me than that? 

If you answer truthfully, then you know what to do.  If you do not, then I will tell you....

If you are with me, you will have too much to handle as I am new, untrained and need guidance and protection.  I do not open up easily, nor should I have to.

To put things into society terms...  I am not to everyone's taste, but for those who like quality, abundance, fruitful lives then I am ripe for your picking... 

Think of the fleshiest, juiciest, exquisitely delightful and tastiest fruit you may enjoy... perhaps a mango, or a nectarine, maybe a raspberry.... you pick.  It sits before you, just out of your grasp...you look at it, imagine what it would taste like.  The memory of that sensation you have known before and want again...  It's always the first bite that tastes the most delicious. That burst of flavor that explodes in your mouth and makes you sigh with delight as it texture, moisture and fullness, overwhelms your senses with recognition of delight.  The next bite, is sweet and comfortable, the next bite after...familiar...  what happens when it is totally consumed?

You want more.  Men seek for more.  Men can do very strange and odd things for more.

One thing many men learn oft too late, is when they take their eye off the prize they have to seek that sensation of delight again, they fail to see the metamorphosis that occurs with the item they have already just delighted in. 

Shall I explain further?  Am I already too much, too overwhelming for your senses? 

If you want more, if you want to understand the transformation that occurs...it happens in nature...is anyone looking, noticing, in awe in the wondrous splendor that takes place with organic beings? 

email me with your questions...  if you want more...be primal and tell me so.  Perhaps you will enjoy, perhaps you will fall back...  It will teach me and yourself what you need to know.

safora k