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8/28/2012 8:57:01 PM

It's been ages since i last updated this but i am afraid more of the same is true here. SO many flakes and fakes here. Never seen so many people that are so wishy washy and just unreliable. i am not sure this is the right place for me as it's so much muck to sort through here and even when you think you have it figured out you meet people here that are compulsive liars and when that happens you don't know if anything they said was true. There has to be a better way to meet people than here, surely other sites can't be this bad? This site is like the Queen song Another one bites the dust, where person after person shows their true colors as a fake or flake or both!

True story here tonight. Someone adds themselves as an admirer of mine and then when i send them a short little note it is deleted unread. Oh well par for the course here!

1/2/2011 12:18:35 PM

I find it absolutely amazing the lengths people will do here to scam others. Absolutely fricking amazing how people will prey on others emotions, weaknesses and desires in order to satisfy their pathetic greedy wallets. The BS I have just encountered here is beyond pathetic. I have had some nice encounters here and am thankful for that but for those few bad apples here that have soured my taste really need to stay to themselves and do something positive. I just hope that they get their due, Karma baby. Still, as I begin this New Year and hopes of relocating to either the Midwest or back to the East Coast i will still remain hopeful that i can find that special Woman and be allowed to be the person I want to be.

9/4/2010 10:10:12 PM

9/4/10 As of now, i am seeking to relocate back East, yes that is vague, as most places are East of where i am now. However i am attempting to find a job that is best suited for me and allow things to fall into place. i know now what i desire, it's not much different from the things i desired when i was younger but was too shy to act out on them. And i also realize that i am extremely attracted to sensual Women, older Women and BBWs too. Namio sure knew how to illustrate that in his drawings. It is a powerful desire to find a Woman that doesn't need to raise Her voice or use profanity and can simply control (er, manipulate!) me with Her femininity and sweetness of course interspersed with tease and denial and other mental games to make life interesting and me totally devoted to Her, as it should be!

8/22/2010 12:14:42 AM

Time for an update as this is long overdue. Within the week i shall update things on where i might be heading.

8/14/2009 12:18:21 AM

As i wonder what the future holds for me i feel compelled to reflect on my life and where i am going as i gather myself and try to plan for the future. This is a daunting task as i am wondering where i will be 6 months down the road, not only with attempting to find a job that i can hopefully retire at, but also with a Woman who is compatible with me and has similar needs as i do desires, namely ownership and as close to a 24/7 lifestyle as feasible. i have met some interesting people here, some very legitimate, some that just aren't seeking the same thing as i am, and others who just don't have a clue as to either what they are looking for, what they believe this is all about OR, frankly aren't into it as much as i desire my future Owner to be.

Having said that i am still hopeful that i will be able to connect with the right Woman at the right time in the right location. This is not only about chemistry and compatibility, but also timing, as are all relationships, but what we seek here is a bit more special. i know my strengths and what i bring to the table and i am well aware of my shortcomings and will not deny them or attempt to ignore them. Instead, i shall attempt to work on those weaknesses, those areas that seem to hold me back at times and hinder me from reaching my full potential.

As i have told several Women, i am a work in progress, and those that know me from the heart, will vouch that i am sincere and truly want to live as much into the lifestyle as possible, but also need some help at times.

7/24/2009 9:13:07 PM

Sometimes we have trouble understanding what others say and believing their exact motive. This is compounded when that person is someone we care a lot about does something that yet has far-reaching implications that tests our trust in that person and makes us not only look at the situation at hand, but the confidence that we thought we had in them when it appears that what they did goes against what they preach. Far be it from me to criticize when it comes to communication, but it hurts when it seems that retaliation in the form of something vindictive hits home. It makes things very difficult to get back to the point they were before the trust and confidence one had took a big hit.

7/19/2009 7:29:56 PM

We are all here for a reason. Whether it is because we are submissive or a slave or Dominant, or whether we seek a session, something part-time or 24/7. Whether we are after our own kinks or those we aim to serve or dominate, whether we seek a lifetime of an intense relationship and servitude or something less restrictive.

i am here to apologize openly to a Woman that i had an opportunity to have it all with and for reasons known only to myself subconsciously, i made grave mistakes. Lady Rowena is the most sincere person i have known and without going into details here, i had an opportunity to spend a lifetime with this wonderful, sensual Woman and be the person i, in my heart, i know i can be. If i could turn back the hands of time or think carefully about the mistakes i was making at the time i would do it all differently, but i can't. i can't undo what i already did and that hurts. i CAN learn from my mistakes because this was surely a large mistake and one that i am having difficulty dealing with.

i, now more than ever, desire a 24/7 lifestyle given the constraints put on my life by my vanilla side which is unavoidable (working, being out in public), have the desire to be all that i was put on the earth to be for a Woman and learn from my mistakes, otherwise this all means nothing. Again, i am so sorry for what happened and if there was a way to right the ship i would do it in a heartbeat, i really would.