peanutjackie

Female Submissive, 25, Huntington Beach, California

Dominant Couple, 38, Austin, Texas

Male Submissive, 48

My mom called to tell me that she had to have Mystik put down today :( Blood tests confirmed he was in renal failure. He was just at the vet 3 weeks ago and everything was fine. He was only 6 years old :( Mystik was a very special cat to us. We adopted him from the Vet's office we have used for about 20 years. They told us Mystik was a female, and Mookie was male. We named "her" Sheba. Sheba then became greatly ill with a respiratory infection and had to be bottle fed by my mom for awhile. "She" was down to 1lb! On a visit to the vet's office, they heard us saying she and said, "why are you calling this cat a female? It's a male!". Talk about a shocker. So can you guess how I came up with the name Mystik? ;) Say it R-E-A-L slow ;) Mystik was my baby and I am going to miss him greatly. Even though I have Leia and Wookie, Mystik was very special to me. He always looked forward to me coming home and would wait at the top of the stairs. RIP Mystik

Wow has it been awhile since I updated my journal here! Lots of things have happened. Master and i are still together and going strong. I just uploaded new pictures so be sure to check them out soon! Sad news - I'll be moving back to Wis in January

Yep, it's official...I spend way too much time on-line typing. I had an interview today for a data entry position at a trucking company, and had to take a typing assessment. The results came back with 63 words per minute, 92% accuracy in data entry, and 10,608 words per hour! And that was WITH long fingernails! :-D We'll see what happens with the interview though. The woman I worked with at the staffing agency was blown away by those numbers and said she was sending my information over to the company ASAP. :) She said I should hear from her about setting up an interview by Friday at the latest. Keep your fingers crossed!!

A friend of mine posted this on another site, and i just had to post it here. This is exactly what Sir is! :) A Dom is: - sensitive and pays attention to the nuance of things. He drives the relationship but His hand is always lightly on the wheel and he never grinds the clutch - in control....always. Even, no especially when, His submissive is out of control, flying. He watches closely, moves her higher, slows her down. He is in charge, and this plays out everywhere...in the office, in a group of people... - introspective. Power is a heady thing. A Dom does not take this responsibility lightly and does not ever abuse it. He weilds it for the pleasure of His submissive, for the betterment of His community...for the benefit of all those that know Him. - Compassionate. It is only through a true awareness of others, their needs and their desires, that a Dom can effectively be masterful. If those needs are ignored, or demeaned, or abused...the man is NOT a Dom. - Intelligent. It takes a certain level of intelligence to be able to motivate others. To move them to desire to please you. Sure, there are manipulative SOB's out there, but that is not a Dom. A Dom does not manipulate...He proves the rightousness of a path and leads you on that path to a place of surrender and enormous fulfillment. - Patient. A teacher. A student of life. A person who does not take the obvious as the only. Who looks beyond the words to the meaning. Attempts at all times to be strong and good and generous of spirit. - Protective. He cares for His neighbors and His colleagues and His family and His submissive. His choice to serve them is a conscious one and He does it not out of needing control, but out of a loving and giving heart and a recognition of His duty and responsibilities. And now the sexual side... - A Dom know the beast within and allows the beast its moments...the key word is allow. - A Dom will know what you want, when you want it, and if you deserve it, and will ensure that you get it. If you try to top from the bottom, a Dom will shut you down immediately. - A Dom has sex with his heart and His head. It is His job to ensure that no harm comes to His property. And He walks a fine line, with grace and certainty. They are unmistakable. Comfortable in Their own skins. Alert to everything. Charismatic without being pretentious...and SO bloody alive! i am so lucky to have found Him! He is my everything and i would move heaven and earth for Him. Thank You Sir, for an absolutely wonderful year of pleasure, learning, trust, and guidance. i look forward to so much more. :)

my love for You is like a rose It grows more and more everyday. And when You think that all is done Our love will find a way. Alone We will wither But together We will grow. my love is forever And that We will always know.

Happy Birthday........to ME!!! :-D

Mmmmm, 50 minutes with the floggers and belts on Tuesday. Sir is so proud of me, and i am too! Before we knew it, 4 hours had passed! It definitely helped to have my mp3 player at this stage. Now i just need to find more appropriate music to listen to, that won't distract Sir so much. If A/anyone has a suggestion, please feel free to let me know. He suggested something that doesn't have so many ups and downs in tempo. Music that is all one really. And without breaks at the end of a song. Something like chant maybe? This music is only to help me relax during flogging, as a preparation for subspace. i broke down on Tuesday, so i know subspace is not far away. i am so very ready to go there. Have a wonderful weekend E/everyone :)

Well, after a short break, Master and i are once again searching for the elusive submissive bi female. If anyone is interested, please feel free to contact me. Heck, feel free to contact me just for chatting too. LOL i am always interested in making new friends, so please don't be afraid to say hello.

Another wonderful evening with Master last night. Oh how i love sessioning with him. He completes the part of me that had been missing for so long. He was very proud of me last night (and so was i). i took about 40 minutes of the crop and 2 floggers. i cannot believe that i was able to do that. In the past, i have been far too tense to enjoy the crop, even though i am very relaxed and comfortable in His presence. i am truly hoping that i can take much more from Him and be the painslut he so desires. i do know that he will take me as i am, painslut or not, and i am very thankful to Him for that. But i want to fulfill his every need. i came one step closer to this last night, and man did it feel great! i can't wait to explore the flogger and crop even more, and then move on to other means of pain. Thank you Sir :)

I'm so happy. I took a new pic on Wed, and it turned out great! Just added it to my profile (pic #4), so watch for it!

What a night last night :) I was able to spend 4 hours with Him, which has got to be the longest time we've had together since the first night we met back in Feb. It was so wonderful seeing Him again after being back in Wis for 12 days. It felt like an eternity we were apart. I am so very lucky to have Him in my life and have Him guiding me through this Lifestyle. I can't imagine anyone else training me. We connect in ways I never imagined. Not even a minute after walking through His door and we were in each others arms, kissing and touching. It felt so good, so safe. And of course our session was wonderful. No bondage this time (I think He was taking it easy on me since it had been 2 weeks since I was last tied up, and I'm thankful for that!), but regardless it was perfect. And afterwards? We relaxed on the couch and He held me while we watched tv for 2 hours. It was so nice to just be held in His arms, feeling His hands holding me close. I wish He had the time for that more often, but there's something about sessioning and leaving right away that excites me as well. I don't think I'd change a thing. And the fact that I am His Alpha means more to me than I think He knows. Thank you, Sir :)

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