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With regard to tribute; W/we do things differently. The slave surrenders it all and then I allow him what I want him to have or feel what is appropriate. I’m not opposed to him walking if he can’t manage what he gets. 

We are very interested in the engagement with both Female and Male Dominants, hopefully local the area. The Owner wants to use Others to help teach the boy to be more submissive, obedient and experience real service.

The boy has some experience with sexual service but needs a great deal more experiences.

Feel free to introduce Yourselves and see what can happen to make Everyones day?

i am feeling especially grateful to Ma'am for helping me experience real dis-empowerment or helplessness in my life. as i walk the road of surrendering and serving, it is so impactful to experience how total enslavement might be. Even if only for a few days, it teaches me such good lessons and able to feel how a life of total surrender might be. The Supreme Famine Power draws one in to the intoxicating affects of the suffering and surrender to the delicious fruits of darkness. 

i'm feeling especially blessed to have both a true sadist as well as a HS English teacher to serve the needs of. it was always a great desire within me to connect with a Female teacher but always seemed so far out of reach. Maybe not so much if i had only known better.

i got the opportunity to be orally face fucked with a large black dildo and to learn to accept it whether i gag or not. She then entered my ass as painful as it was to accept it. Then, once opened up, fucked again deep and long, with intense painful pleasure. She laughed a great deal as She pumped the tool. beyond the hurting, it felt a bit of pleasure within my body, touching something that felt right.

Today, my skin is on fire from the abuse but my brain is happy knowing i've taken a step in the right direction.

i have learned that part of worshipping is to adore and love feet. i have been allowed to suck toes and love it. Really love it.

i'm healing well from the recent events and thank you for all the kind words and encouragement.

my status with the Mistress i serve has been positively impacted.

She told me how delighted she would to be the One to take them. She sees me as a slave. No more sense of issues about me as a man or person but as a tool. 

Simple instructions with no thought of my interest or time required or whether i care or not. She told me that i had better do a good job because as of now, she would have no difficulty in giving me to Another if i don’t please Her.

Mistress took me to another Mistress this past Thursday and i was able to serve Her in Her household and got to experience more of what a slave should be.

Yesterday morning, Mistress came back and my joy in seeing Her again was off the charts since i was not sure when i would see her again.

Last evening i was tied to a medical table and then instructed that They had decided that it was time to have my balls removed.  Removing my balls would make me a better servant and take away my bad instincts. She was going to do the actually cutting with instructions and some supervision for Her friend. i was instructed to be quiet and concentrate on being obedient. They would not use pain medicine because She wanted me to feel the impact of what was taking place.

It was a very painful experience as I thought i  felt the knife cut sharply into me twice. Intense pain! The pulling and sounds were there.

the end results were that They did not cut me but it felt like it as i lay there, wondering what life would be like as a neutered boy? 

She showed me the little cut balls and how pathetic they really are. How glad She was to have them gone. She then showed my a jar of what looked like many more balls and She dropped mine into the jar to join the others.

i'm committed and my life is set on a path yet to be lived.

During the past few months, a Lady I met, who is a take charge kinda lady (Mistress) has been working with me to be better at serving and obeying Her.

We have agreed that my real purpose is to be a slave no matter if i serve Her or Anyone else, my best place is being obedient and slave-like until i am a total slave. Part of my self-discovery came while being hypnotized and feeling the freedom that came while letting go of my old hang-ups. After each session, it was easier for me to move closer to giving up any resistances that were slowing my journey.

We agreed that anything that brought Her to a place of more power or that brought me to a place of less power was good and right, without any other discussion.

i accepted and now have a tattoo on the back of my neck that simple says, ‘slave’ and will be there the rest of my live.

i am going to live my life with that purpose from now on.

i realize i don't have a great deal to give you now. i hope One can see the value of the investment with a lifetime for a return to get what You want from this boy.

i’m very available to serve on most any level.

Young enough to make me into what ever You want me to be.

Normal limits do not really apply to me. Do what makes You happy as long as it is satisfying to You.

Consider me a lump of clay to be moulded into what shape You want.  open to body mods, piercing, hypnosis, mind control, tats, gender bending, pain slut training, sex slut training. i'll eat your shit if that is what you want but You will need to deal with it if it makes me sick.

I’d like it to be real and total and not played with and thrown away. Make me a good toy to be enjoyed and used up. Have a plan and make it happen.

access to the internet is still very tentative. 

Over the past month, i have been learning about being a good boy in respect to the ‘elders’ in my life.  It is curious and very stimulating to be a good ‘grand-son or being the best nephew to some rather demanding elders.  Having a new relationship with the Mistress’ sister and learning my place so my uncle is happy with me has been my fortunate position to learn.

i am finding it my best place when Others are happy with me.

i've not had access to a computer until now and may not have access again.

Recently, i had the experience of being held captive in a small cage. Two days of confinement and only allowed out to be beaten and to satisfy Their sexual needs, then returned to the confines of the cage. i ate/drank from a bowl in the cage and peed on to the cage floor to sleep in it.

While confined, i was taught that my place in life is to be so used and enjoyed and my condition was exactly as it was meant to be for a boy of my nature.

my reaction was that when allowed out, my energy was able to explode into serving and showing how good i could be. i know i can be a great servant when allowed and given the opportunity. i also learned that my liking or not liking makes no difference and only my devotion and service is what matters.

i have learned that i respond to some kinds of pain in a very powerful and erotic way. my sensitive parts are sore today but what i endured and how my mind responded is still hot in my head and wanting more.

True punishment is the spanking of the bottoms of my feet and that just hurts so bad. But when my nipples are twisted and squashed, my penis punished and whipped, i get really excited and if it is intense, i have no ability to resist the climax.

OK, i have agreed to serve exclusively as a slave for 2 yrs and then, assuming i do well enough, then i can go to a education program. i’m sure i can do this well enough to impress You.

Recently, i was introduced to Foot Worship. There is built into me a pure joy and delight to kneel before One, to massage, to kiss, lick and suck on toes or the feet of a greater One than me.

i was given a gift, after i was able to do hard, physical chores all morning, that i could show my gratitude by spending a few hours to worship the feet of the One who taught me more of who i am. i was instructed to beg appropriately to be allowed such a privilege. They did not easily allow me to provide this service but with my begging and promising to be worthy, i was given a chance.  It is wonderful to feel the opportunity of pure surrender and how worshipping One can be through this type of experience.

i woke this morning aching to be again on my knees and having a chance to suck again. my body reaction was simply so powerful, it is hard to imagine but i just experienced it and know it is real.

i will acknowledge my awareness that being in another country would facilitate my total surrender. Arriving on a one-way ticket, not really able to speak the language, being picked up and taken some place to who knows where, having zero personal resources, no pass port and a powerful Dominant to serve; all would combine to inspire what i have wanted to live.

i love to feel vulnerable and challenged to perform and in my experience the awareness that i am nailed or have no options but to obey is a great situation for me to be in.

i would like to combine what has always been a favorite fantasy into my real life experience and have the combination result in what my life will be. Waking each morning with the understanding that my day is lived in devotion to what You want and there are no distractions or other priorities seems such a wonderful life.

my thinking is i need to develop some skills that would allow me to earn a living and pay my bills. i'm pretty good with my hands and becoming a plumber or carpenter seems a natural thing to do.

But what i am hearing from the Dominants here on CM is they want me to simply become a full on slave and live in and take care of household duties along with becoming a sexual servant. 

So, i am wondering where that leads? Can i expect to fully embrace slavery and live my entire life that way? What happens if after some years, things change and i am left on my own again? Today, it seems fine and rather exciting, knowing my existence is completely dependent on the Owners.

Any thoughts?

Yes, i am open to gender bending, if it's really done well

Yes, i have a passport and going to another country would be fine. i only speak english thou

had a great weekend.

learned i may be a real pain boy. pretty sore butt and my balls are still burning, can't do anything to make it less intense but can live with it.

was taught gagging is not so bad and not my problem, really. i loved the complete loss of contrrol and being used up. was taught my throat is meant to be full of cum and to do all i can to make Them happy with me. 

it worked out just fine.