| I'm beautiful and magnificent|
Deserving of love
I'm highly intelligent
I have unwavering devotion to those I love
Hardworking to a fault
I pride myself on my compassion
and my desire to constantly grow
I make it a point to continuously learn
I am aware of my faults and attempt to correct them
But I am far from perfect
I am also human
I tend to be forgetful
Sometimes I procrastinate
I even make mistakes... often
My pride gets in the way
My heart is very guarded
I get defensive, often too quickly
I find it difficult to trust
I often run away at the first sign of emotional pain
and I'm even capable of hurting people I love
I am often quick to judge but I expect others not to
I can be catty, sassy, bitchy, and vile
I love who I am, the good and the bad. I recognize my faults and I realize I have much more room to grow. I will not give up.
I'm ever evolving. I'm trying to grow into a person that I can truly be proud of, I want to be who I am not who someone else wants me to be.
I'm constantly learning, about myself and about the world. I'm finally taking the leap to be independent, to do for myself and to secure MY future.
I feel like I'm starting to figure things out, I'm starting to settle into my skin. For so long I needed to be with someone to exist, to have purpose, and now I feel as if I can have purpose as an individual. For once I don't need to have a partner, I don't need to be loved, I don't NEED.... I'm finally taking the time to truly find myself, to find financial freedom, to build a life that is my own and cannot be taken away. I'm finally learning to love myself, to be who I want to be, and to live life on my terms.
The pain... it's much more than just sexual. It's almost spiritual. It brings me to a new level of emotional awareness. I feel like it purifies the soul, breaks away any bad choices I've made, it re-aligns me.
I keep changing my profile because what I want keeps evolving, I really have no idea and I won't until I experience more of the lifestyle and explore more deeply. I'm having fun the way I am now and I feel it would be a bad idea to make a drastic change currently. Do I want to be a just in the bedroom type of sub or a 24/7 sub? I am not sure, there are parts of each that appeal to me and parts which I do not like.
The facts I do know:
I am submissive in the bedroom
I want to experience more
I like pain.. immensely
I'm having fun being free to explore as I wish
ALSO! Message me before you send me a friend request or I won't accept it!
~My Favorite Quotes~
"It's only pain dear.... and it's only yours." Unknown Sadist
"I don't want you to love me, I just want you to hurt me, before I hurt you."
No kind of sensation is keener and more active than pain, it's impressions are unmistakable. -- Marquis De Sade
"Thou art to me a delicious torment" - Ralph Waldo Emerson
~~~~~I am only seeking playmates and friends currently because I plan on finishing college before entering a long-term relationship. ~~~~~
A slave submits primarily to her own nature… That she requires a material, extrovert focus for her submission, i.e. the dominant, does not alter the fact that on the spiritual level her submission is essentially introverted. One could say that through the dominant she submits to herself by proxy… Each makes the other possible, tied together as they are in symbiotic interdependence.
~ J. Mikael Togneri in Spirituality In Slavehood
"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.” Anais Nin
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