The dominate man, verses the alpha male. 

Can the two exist and not be the same? 

chime in.

Why is it that people feel the need to not be on the same page when having a relationship,

Double standard rules are not fair. Especially if it was already negotiated between the two what was expected from both parties. I do not like being told, I'm to walk a certain line. But same said party crawls through my world without hesitation with no regard to my privacy. My fault, assuming the rules were equal. 

As the twenty-somes say..."My bad." 

Its okay though. Just reminds me to put the wall back up. 

If you can articulate through a profile, then please read all of it, before emailing me with demands, requests, subjects that I will not even discuss,

IF YOU DO NOT MATCH MY REQUESTS OF WHAT IM LOOKING FOR (SEE JOURNAL ENTRY) and still feel the need of emailing me. I will delete and block. 

                                Education, Its a beautiful thing. 

This message is for any and all submissive and slaves. In my personal opinion, I feel you do no justice to come on here and throw around your bratty attitudes. Thinking that every Dom/Domme will come running, yes, you might be the sexy little kitten Daddy wants to be at his beckon call. But lil ones, here's a hint. Daddy has to have his arm candy be able to articulate back to him, what is going on within his world, which is you. Please do the world a favor and get an education.  Its exhausting for me as a submissive to wallow through some of your profiles. Im sure a man of substance is probably burnt by now. With the "baby daddy, sugar daddy, give me" mentality some of you possess. You are not subs, you are gold diggers, who are ignorant. Catch a clue. 

Me, being voluntarily submissive; within my personal and private life, I have noticed a serious pattern. Subs seem to assume that being submissive is okay with also being stupid. Yes, I said it, stupid. Not naive, retarded, moronic and or ignorant. Just plain stupid. 

Some examples; as to things you should be able to work through on a daily basis alone, if need be are the following... 

Be able to pay bills, 

Balance a check book,

Hell, be able to fill out a check, to pay bills, 

Be able to hold a valid with weight conversation with anyone, publicly, socially, politically, economically, spiritually,

Iron his clothes, 

Cook for him, (microwave doesn't count)

Work a coffee maker,

Clean house the correct way. Straightening up doesn't count.

Change a tire, 

Refill the oil in your car, 

Pick up a newspaper and educate yourself as to what is going on within your world. OUTSIDE OF YOUR ZIP CODE. 

Now outside the home, a professional education is a beautiful thing. Get certified in something, get an associates in general studies. A degree equals a bigger paycheck, which makes for better life, which will make any Dom/Domme happy to have you as a pet/slave/sub 

<3 Pet. 

So excited to be surrounded by so many Doms and Dommes, who are very healthy mentors.  

I'm receiving wonderful thought provoking emails, from people who are taking their time and actually writing long lengthy letters. 

Thank you so much for all of your kind words and moving thoughts. I truly enjoy intelligent people, who have self respect, express how they feel about their worlds. What they consider to be a healthy, honest BDSM relationship.

I thank the Doms. Who have their pets, slaves and subs subscribe to my page. My admirer list is now over 10 pages long. 

I will answer any and all emails. SO AS LONG AS it's respectful. If I come across one that just plain trash. You will be deleted and blocked. 

Keep sending me those emails. 

Attention world. 

If I workout and take care of myself.  And if I make it a point of keeping my appearance appealing to anyone who comes across my path. Then please, by all means consider being the same way.

I am far from vain. But, this is the only body I have and I will show it the respect it deserves.

Lazy overweight Doms and Dommes, need to keep it moving and do not even waste your time emailing me.  Laziness is not in my vocabulary.

 If you think I'm a bitch...Okay..... 

Pet  

Came across this news article.  A must read. 

"Dear son, don’t let Robin Thicke be a lesson to you

Love intelligent men, who are true mentors. 

Received this in my email box. With this Dom's permission, I am posting. Thank you Sir, You're words ring music within my soul.  And I thank you. 

He wrote "I have watched happen far too often in this world, not just here in Colorado, but anywhere I have lived. Many "Doms" have very dominant personalities, but have not gained control over themselves yet. Rather they are insecure men, and use their "supposed dominance" to inspire confidence in and control over women, thus making themselves insecure because they can always keep a "backup plan" so to speak, either in the open or hidden behind the scenes. It makes me sad.

There is something I wrote a while ago, that you would probably appreciate. This is the way things should be:

I love emails like this..

Im posting this with the Dom's permission.  And Of course out of respect for his privacy. His screen name will be left off. 

To find a good healthy mentor, who isn't on here playing games entices me. 

How can a Pet have 7 pages of people, who are my admirers and no one to talk too?

I do not understand. 

My screen name and writings were sent to a well known Dom in Cali. He emailed asking what I wanted within the opposite sex.

For the longest time, I thought that was a rather shallow question. Well, after receiving some of the craziest emails on a daily basis.  It's suffuse to say. I guess, I do have a criteria. 

While doing my morning rituals in the snow this morning. I've decided to express the following:

If you are into ANY TYPE of illegal activity. Do not send me anything. Ill delete it and block you. My list grows daily.

If you cannot pass a background check, move on,

If you are from a very large city. Move on. I like clean open air, country setting. Working within a city is fine. Traveling and visiting are great. But living? No thanks.

I am always willing to relocate.  The East and southern Coastal plains are off limits. Maine to Key West to southern Texas. Do not ask. I wont budge on this one. Reason? Hurricanes. Dont get me wrong, I love beaches to visit. Not live.

If you have drama. Move on. Do not need to explain. Its self explanatory.  

You will be a minimum of six ft.

Im petite, I like big men.

You will not be "ghetto, thuggish or have swag"

You will have an education.

I have my life together, you know what my next thoughts are, as to your life.

You will be DDF.

You will not be under the age of thirty or over forty-five.

You will be very active..

If you think having a good time is sitting and watching tv every day, ALL DAY. Move on.   

Laziness is not an option. 
I pull my weight and I do not mind waiting on you hand and foot. (See profile) BUT being your "slave" because you are just too lazy OR TOO POOR to do anything. No thanks. You require a butler or a maid, Not a pet. 

I do not mind sharing. (Poly life! To have a sister wife would be perfect. Let it be known. I will not be topped by an abusive, controlling woman. So do not ask. If your in a poly house already, You already know how your number 1 is. If she is the above statement keep moving)

If you have a "wife, wifey, girlfriend, fiancee, number 1, main squeeze" whatever you wish to label your current woman. She better be in the know of this life too.

 Males who come across as supposed "Doms" Their current living situation is under assumption she is the only one in his world. She thinks she is living in a vanilla relationship. BUT he isn't. He has emails, play dates, sexting, etc. Coming and going from multiple pets, slaves, ongoing toys. He assumes each of us are actually thinking. We are the only one that he talks too. We are not stupid. So stop playing us. The only one you are truly playing is within your house.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST want a taste of Reality?

You "players" all do realize we  do communicate within the local CM, FL, ALT, BDSM online communities. There are quarterly educational munches for newbs and the first thing "appointed Doms and Domme's" do, is educate the newbs with the predator lists for the local area. So get over yourself.

As always 
Pet.

HAPPY 12/12/12. A very good luck number day. Christmas is coming! It's so cold outside. I'm being festive and decorating my casa.  

Thinking about doing some wonderful for another human being,  for no reason at all. 

What can a sweet submissive pet do for someone else?

Just to simply remind them, they do count in this ugly vast world??

Oh the mind wonders.. 

Any suggestions?? 

Pet

Haven't left a journal entry in a while.  I do apologize to my followers. 

Within this past summer; this Pet has grown within her world. I've had to take a hard look inside and see where I failed as a submissive to Dom's. Where I need to work harder at reminding myself daily to know my place on this planet. 

I still play with those around me who are not of the vanilla world.  Im still alone and am eventually wanting to find the Dom who would be the person that would collar me. 

But for right now; I choose just to be friends who those who have mentored me in the past year. Its healthy to have safe friends of the non vanilla world. Keeps me grounded.  

Players always show their true colors when confronted. 

BDSM is now main stream. 

 http://youtu.be/5Yi69wFEDQU

Amateur! 

Good Morning all, 

I have some simple questions for all the Dom's out there. These questions were proposed to me this am in a lecture. I sat in on, Just so i can keep my mind broadened. So to break up the mundaneness of life. 

How are you spending your days being a productive member of the vanilla society?

What are you doing in life that is helping others in a positive manner?

If you've wronged someone, and only you know the truth, what have you done to right the wrong?

If you cannot answer these questions,  Then you need to fix something inside of you. 

Pet. 

- Be true to others, but make it an ironclad rule that you be true to yourself. 

Anything less than that; invites imperfect situations into your life that will ultimately lead you down a Path of regret. 

Being honest with yourself targets the really difficult question of: "is this situation the one I want, honestly?" 

We tend to give into our dreams a bit too much and offer ourselves freely to others when we normally shouldn't.

Then we look back at what we chose and what we walked away from and realize what a horrible mistake we truly made.

50 Shades of Grey! 

"If you take sexual advantage of her, you're going to burn in a very special level of hell.

A level they reserve for child molesters and people who talk at the theater."

What a funny line from a a great show. 

Can this semester hurry up and end already?

I know Im to be a patient lil Pet. 

But these set of rounds and departments are not my cup of tea. 

Chivalry verses Femininty

There is nothing more attractive than a powerful woman, except when she loses the

power of her femininity and the allure of a power couple becomes a power struggle.

There is a certain balance required in a relationship that keeps the harmony between yin and yang. This balance refers to masculinity and femininity. Both of these energies are equally important in the relationship and one depends on the other (the more masculine the male, the more feminine the female needs to be, and vice versa). This is what makes us want, as well as need one another in a relationship.

The emergence of female power and respect occurred after women burned their bras, learned to lower the pitch of their voices and refused to wear makeup. They surrendered all things feminine to prove they were equal to their male counterpart. Prior to that time period (known as the Women’s Movement), roles were clearly defined. Men were bread winners and women were homemakers. Men were hunters, women were gatherers. These roles were innately decided based on a woman’s natural instinct to nurture and a man’s natural instinct to provide.

For the first time in human existence, women have now achieved equal power, respect and rights. They have the opportunity to hunt and gather, be the breadwinner and homemaker, provide and nurture. They are completely independent. And although they don’t need to have a relationship with a man for the reasons they used to, most women still want to have a relationship with a man.

Most men, on the other hand, still need to feel needed. They want to feel like a man by having the opportunity to provide for his woman, protect her, care for her, cherish her and love her. In a modern woman’s life, it is hard for a man to feel that sense of being needed.

In conclusion, most men need and want a woman. Most women don’t need but they want a man. A man needs to feel needed to give a woman what she wants. Therefore, a woman needs to make her man feel needed to get what she wants.

So how do you balance that yin and yang in your relationship?

Embrace your feminine or masculine energy based on your gender. Learn to provide for as well as receive from one another and show appreciation when that effort has been made.

Realize your true power is not about being equal in every way to that of your partner, rather it is what you can provide him or her, which he or she cannot provide for themselves. This is what creates balanced and harmonious relationships.

As much as a man should harness his masculinity by being a gentleman and acting chivalrously, a woman needs to embrace her feminine elegance and grace and know that by doing so, it will make her even more powerful and successful in the boardroom, as well as in the bedroom!

http://eligiblemagazine.com/2012/02/29/the-power-struggle-chivalry-vs-femininity/

Hello all. 

I wrote a journal entry about "Bad Karma being a fickle bitch". To my shock my email box became slammed within hours from Doms.  Expressing how they all felt. Each conveyed to me that they too have  come across this type of "succubus female."  

One expressed to me that he felt a chemical change within his brain something was a miss. He stated a lot of men go thru this. Women go thru menopause men go thru mid life crisis same difference he stated. Thus, him having a mid life crisis. So he felt the urge to let his own version of "bad karma" into his world. He said she came in batting her pretty little brown eyes at him. Making promises of love boasting his ego. All the while gently wiggling her way into his world. Before he realized it, she destroyed everything around him. He said he now looks back and he misses his ex, his kids, his family. She cleaned out his 401K. his stocks, his bonds, maxed his credit cards. She took his dog, his car, and drove off.

A couple of the emails I received were from the women who fit this bill. Cussing me out etc.

This is an email from one of the USING walking women of bad Karma

___________________________________________________________________

Misssingtouch, Your a fucking cunt to run your mouth about us women your one why would you attack your sisters like this openly how dare you put my business on the street im going to walk thru life fucking men over I do not care they have used us through so many generations that I feel the need to get them all, before they get me.  Its the century of women so we are going to fuck them over before they fucked us over fuck you and your submissive bullshit lies, your a fucking cunt for letting men know how some of us act, Why do you give a shit what we do anyway yeah i took him from his wife Yeah i alianated him from his kids yeah I took his car, his furniture he put in the apartment for us after he left her And you know what bitch ill keep taking from every single man i can find"

___________________________________________________________________

Well, I thought about this and You know what? First and foremost. You have to use men. because you are to lazy to get an education. Shows in your lack of grammar. You will reap what you sow. Ignorance is bliss. The men you rip apart for your own self gain. Will have to repair the lives they hurt. After they swallow their pride and go back and apologize for their wrong doings, Their families will still love them, their ex's will still forgive them.  and If anything their relationships will probably be stronger now because of you, you and your supposed sisters can rot in hell. You are nothing but trash. And you will pay for your sins in due time.  

Bad Karma You need to learn one thing "Because we cannot truly learn until we have nothing left to loose." You will get yours. You will wake up one day and realize that no one  will ever love you for you.

So if you think Im a cunt. So be it.  I'll still be submissive and I will find happiness, You on the other hand "bad Karma bitch" will find nothing but emptiness at the end of the day. 

Hello all, Still here. Just kinda lurking for awhile.

I kinda was rocked to the core yet again.

Why do true pets have to endure such pain and prove they can sustain the world on their shoulders only to be cast aside for women who are not worthy of Dominants, who do nothing but use and confuse and make things worse?

Well hello Doms. and everyone else. Today's topic is BAD Karma. 

I was having a rather lengthly in depth conversation with someone about said topic. Since they do not want to see what the truth is. Or they know the truth they dont want to face it. 

My thoughts are this, 

BAD Karma is one fickle selfish Bitch.

If you have done something wrong to your friends, family, loved ones.  She will come and claim her rewards when she is ready. 

She comes in the form of, "roommates, lessons, users, mistress's" who claim they will love you to the end. Claim of love, marriage, and children. Which was never their intent. 

Reality check:

She stumbles across your world.

If your military, its pay grade and rank is what she sees, bottom line.

If your a business owner its your professional position in life. And she wants to OWN YOUR BUSINESS Eventually.

She will enquire on your finances, so seductively that you never noticed it. in the form of watches, cars, homes, trips, what you think is just boasting. BAD Karma sees it as ($ cha ching) as quick way out of her current world she has already crashed. What you thought you were the first she did this too? Think about the way she treated you at first when you met her? You are not the first. Im sure if you chatted with her other past "victims" youll find Bad karma fed them the same line of lies. To get into their worlds.

She will creep on your networking pages. twitter, FB. Your families. etc. Yeah BAD Karma is a sneaky bitch. If she sees a window of opportunity. She will wiggle in very quickly into your world.

She will help spend your money quickly. Use you up and take the things you bought her graciously. Dont you dare touch her things, Karma doesn't share, remember she is selfish fickle bitch.

When your empty.

BAD Karma doesn't care if your crying.

She doen'st care if your family is gone,

She doesn't care if your world has been shattered all for the sake of YOU "HOPED life would be better with the new found, what you hoped was love" When in reality she is nothing more then just another USING WOMAN. 

She will throw you aside for her next victim. She wont be around this time next year and Youll be kicking yourself for YOU LOST EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. For one person who wasn't worth it. (80/20 relationship rule youtube)

I was told by a woman who was dying in Hospice. "If your going to sell out, at least sell out for someone who is worth it. Who would go to the end of the earth for you.  Not your wallet, or your status in life."

BAD Karma 

Today, 

Pet is doing community service for her family member,

All the while; she dresses very pretty underneath her plain boring work clothes, 

Freshly shaven, smells like flowers. matching bra and panties. 

Hair in a pony tail. 

Make up done to enhance her spirit, not cover it up. 

mowing grass, washing windows, scrubbing trash cans..

I can still be a pretty lil thing for my Daddy to look at cant I?  

Poor neighbors look at me, while I mow the yard.

Have the following songs coming from my ipod

Pussycat dolls "Dontcha wish your girlfriend was hot like me"

LMFAO "Im sexy and I know it"

LMFAO "Everyday I be hustling." 

 newest addition. NIN "Animal"

 etc

Dancing and wiggling my bottom. thinking "maybe the right guy will see me, just maybe! while i mow the yard and dance"

Cant wait for my package to come. My first official REAL corset. Its a waist synching training corset.  An hour glass figure eventually. To go with my 1950's thought process, that I ultimately wish to obtain.  

A pet can have a fun day cant she? 

This one is for my Dark Prince... He knows who he is... 

"The Beast knows the man within,

 just as the man knows the beast that shares his soul." 

Let there be pleasure and ecstacy

on Earth and let it begin with me. 

I haven't written in a while. I thought I was to be collared. But the Dom, Who for whatever reason grew cold feet.  

I was very much becoming his pet. 

He had control over me. 

Whatever I wanted outside of the vanilla world,

I would ask his permission first.

But all the sudden he vanished. 

Im starting to wonder; AM I TOO SUBMISSIVE? 

Signed 

Pet

“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… 

You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things…

They push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

Steve Jobs. 1955-2011

http://urge.info/1950s-household

I am a submissive woman
~Author Unknown

i find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive
to my Master in a loving relationship.
i am not weak or stupid. i am a strong woman,
with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life.
i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.
i will look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never
will i be more complete than when He is with me.
i know that He will protect my body, my mind, and my soul
with His strength and wisdom.
He is everything to me, as i am everything to Him.
His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me.
Only in serving Him do i find complete freedom and joy…
His punishments may be harsh, but i accept them thankfully,
knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind.
If He desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Him
and take pleasure myself from knowing that i have brought Him happiness.
However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of O/our relationship.
The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt,
those are all parts of this relationship.
My body is His, and if He says i am beautiful, then i am.
No matter what i look like to others, i am beautiful in His eyes,
and because of that i hold my head high.
If He says i am His precious jewel,
then i am that…a beautiful, sparkling gem.
If He says that i am His pet, His slut, His whore, then i am that..
as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be.
My mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know only as He can.
i have no secrets from Him… for secrets are a thing that would
keep me from being more perfectly His.
Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself…
and i do not want walls.
His lessons are not always ones i would seek on my own,
but they are lessons He has decided that i need, and so i learn from Him.
My soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be
when i kneel naked at His feet.
Never a moment goes by when i do not feel His presence,
be He miles away or standing over me.
If i were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul,
worse punishment than any lashes could be.
The anguish of my soul that i feel when i disappoint Him
is harder to bear than any physical anguish i feel.
i am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend
His time and energy so freely on me.
i have the easier job, to feel, to experience,
to let myself go and abandon everything to Him.
i am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously .
i am a submissive woman.
i am proud to call myself that, my submission is a gift that i do not give lightly,
and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.
Only to my Master who has that strength, will i give myself fully,
because i am strong and proud.
i am a submissive woman.

~Author Unknown

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNSxNsr4wmA

Don't Cha you wish??

Word of Advice.. 

Never leave your phone unattended, when your logged onto collame.com

You never know what will be posted on your behalf. 

I really dont like people who touch things that do not belong to them

Signed Pet 

New found reading.   "The  L'image"

The Image (or in French "L'Image") is a classic 1956 sadomasochistic

 erotic novel

, written by Catherine Robbe-Grillet

  and published under the pseudonym of Jean de Berg by éditions de Minuit

 in 1956.

Cant wait to wrap my hands around this book! 

Signed Pet 

I'm a Naughty, Nice Girl. 

Princess out in the real world. I behave accordingly to man's laws practices, rules, rituals. You will never have to worry about me acting out in public. I know Im to be a lady in public at all times.

But behind the locked doors. You'll find me on my knees begging to be fucked as hard or as rough as your mind will allow you to go.

Pet. 

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TO be the submissive that catches the Dominants Eye,

To be the one who he cherishes the most is a submissive's dream.

To be the essence of which he nurtures would be the culmination of excellence to me.

You see if your a Domme, you wouldn't understand my world.

I am more happier setting at the foot of the man who treats me with love and kindness. 
Then trying to control him. his finances, his house, his bed, his mind.   

I am more happier when my Master at any time claims his pet. 

Who at any time. will treat me as he's my "Daddy"

Trying to top a Dom to me is completely ludicrous. 

It's as if Im treating him like a dog. To me this is alien. 

Im not attacking your personal preference But I do have a question to ask and some things to ponder,  if your a Domme: 

Domme's;

 walking all over a man where does that get you? 

It might be sexually gratifying to you to treat a man with such disrespect as to make him think he is there to serve you.  In my personal thoughts. this is wrong. 

Our world was built on the back of a man, thru their strength their undying push for better. Where were we women? I Do not ever recall reading in any history books. WOMEN were in charge of any major battle, any major structures being built.  Leading any nation into freedom,  Discovering any new "worlds"  

We have symbols of women all across the US. One major symbol comes to mind. Lady Liberty. She stands in the harbor of NYNY. She isn't a "Domme" She is wearing a dress,  her hair is put up in a way to show her shoulders, her essence of what a woman is to be. Her nurturing of people who she does not know. There is no whip, or Boots attached to her.

To me she is, a submissive woman! She's holding a tablet with that reads: "JULY IV MDCCLXXVI" inscribed on it. It is to commemorate the declaration of independence. That was written by who?  

I was asked  today, "what she was wearing under her dress" I said "A chastity belt."  The Dom (WINK) said and "red marks on her ass."  Too cute. 

NOT women. BUT men. so we submissives are still on Que... March 2012.  So if our forefathers knew better. Who are we to try to control our homes?  I stated in one of my very first journals.. "Do not go there ladies" I still mean that.  

Signed Pet 

Popping in and popping out of my world

You would think, I would be used to this. 

Lesson in life, 

Patience is a virtue.

To have someone who mentors you is truly a gift.

To have someone who doesnt judge you is truly a gift

To have someone who puts their foot down when you step off the line is a gift 

To have someone who looks forward to talking to you is truly a gift

To have someone who says I missed you.  Is truly a gift. 

To have someone. 

To be in a vanilla relationship is all fine and dandy,
but what does it cost if your truly miserable as a Dominant Master?

If your vanilla partner is not willing to change.

Your vanilla partner is not willing to place your needs first.

Dont they realize that when they are with a true Dominant master by placing his needs first and foremost then their needs and extra's in life are fulfilled?

When a true master has his prefect submissive/slave he will stroke her like a sweet little kitten for she fulfills all of his needs and desires.

I wish Vanillas could undetstand this lifestyle.. they think its all about getting our asses kicked by men. 

quite the contrary. 

I give my all to him when he accepts me for What and Who that I am.      In return Im treated the way I ache for.

Signed Pet  

The Olive Tree

 
 

A confused sub came before a wise Master who adored her.
She felt that to submit to Him would mean she would open her heart to unbearable pain should He ever leave her. She hungered for Him and needed Him, but was ready to walk away in panic.

The gentle Master knelt her before Him and started a tale of love and devotion. As she looked up at Him, His arms began to widen and open like a large tree stretches it's branches to the sky. At that moment the Master appeared rooted to the floor and His impressive size towered above her like a giant tree. Then he began to speak.....
 
 

I'm here for you...now and always no matter how far time and space takes us...Whether you walk away from Me today or you stay and serve Me, I will not turn from you. I am as patient as time itself, I will take not from you unless you give freely and completely of yourself, but I give onto you regardless..for My love is unconditional...
 
 

Like the olive tree that can both feed you and shade you, I am there seemingly eternal to your short life on this earth. If you need My fruit to feed your hunger, I will give you all the fruit you need. If your skin grows dry and loses its luster, the oil from My fruit will restore it and make it glisten.

When you need comfort, My leaves will gently caress your face with the slightest breeze. When you need discipline, My branches will correct you when the wind blows strong. If you just need My shade to protect you from the sun, My branches will shade and protect you. If you need warmth at the night My fallen branches will fuel the fire to keep you warm and safe.. If you need a refreshing breeze, My leaves will fan you and cool you down. You are my gardener.
 
 

When you submit to Me, you tend that which keeps Me vibrant and full of life. When you kneel under Me and till the soil, you give breath to My roots. When you water Me, My sap flows strong through Me raising my limping Branches. When you soil yourself collecting fertilizer with your bare hands, you strengthen and humble Me with your devotion.
 
 

Although My life will go on, life would not be the same without you.
 
 
 

Your dedication and unconditional care for Me keeps Me vibrant and nurtures My very core. The sustenance and protection I give you seems little reward for your servitude. Still the gardener serves the tree from her heart and the tree gives to her heart all the He can!
 
 

I am planted firmly on the ground and cannot follow you if you walk away from Me...But be assured I will survive. One hundred years later and two of your lifetimes; I will still be there, waiting for you in the same spot to offer you all that I do now.
 
 

Stay with me and be my gardener. You cannot get lost in Me for we are complementary to each other. I am your devotion, and you give meaning to my existence. Apart we live life and survive; together we bloom eternally!
 
 

....As the Master finished His last words, the sub cried herself to sleep at His feet. That night, He stood planted there like the Olive Tree offering her  His unconditional love and protection as she slept. As she would tend to Him with her devotion the next day...and everyday thereafter!

Author unknown but admired

Thank you to the emailer of this journal posting. 

No Matter How Good or bad you think life is,

Wake up each day and be thankful for life.

Someone Somewhere else is fighting to just simply survive. 

Very recently I ventured into a adult shop. I came across a young gentleman and we were discussing our lifestyle and all that entails. 

He mentioned the word "Vanilla" to which I asked him "Well if we are not vanilla, and those who are less adventurous then us are. I dont see it as exactly fair, that they get a spice name and we do not. What spice are we?"

To his reply. "We are cloves" I asked why.  His reasoning, "When you burn a clove, It becomes arsenic. Which is very bad for you." as he grinned devilishly. My response was simply "bad for who? Not me. I love bad." 

At that point, I had a gentleman walk up to me and ask if he could spank me with a very large leather paddle. He stated he was wanting to see if it would last threw a very hard wack, before purchasing said item.

Of which I so dutiful replied, "YES!" 

I braced myself and told him to hit me as hard as he could.

WACK! 

 First wack was not of correct positioning. As my upper leg and lower ass cheek probably at this point are bruised.                      

In true submissive fashion. I remained silent, I did not care. It wasnt about me. It was about his experience  I did not want to hurt his feelings and so I simply asked if he could hit me "Here" as i pointed the correct place... (sometimes; we as submissives have to guide the Master trainee's as to what is a healthy punishment and what is not healthy. But at the same time; guide the master trainee so gently to not hurt his ego. 

He again raised his hand high above his head and swung with a siftness. i actually wenced in pain. But as a good submissive stayed prefectly still for the master trainer. For him to feel as if he just conqured Tibet. What a perfect swing open my ass. Was kinda sexy in public having a total stranger try on for size his possible tool for his future "pet" 

I love being a clove. 

My ass is still stinging. But my pussy is still soaked. Mmmm.. 

What a cunning thought process. I love crawling threw people's minds. 

Signed Pet  

     Pride

Talking with males this past week in school and speaking with a Dom this past month, Im noticing pride and being humble are the two hardest things that males have to contend with.  One spoke of it and the other pointed it out to me. 

While listening to the classmate speak I thought,  (We women set males up for failure with the way they are raised well until their adulthood. From early on, a male child is told how to act at home and in public. He is forced to swallow his pride, and emotions. In and out of the home. Until adulthood. When he becomes what society considers a"man."

Then Corporate America steps in and finishes the squashing of said male and any thought process of him having any emotions that he might want to show.   

Classmate stated "I would rather build up ten times more then my opponent, So i end up on top at the end of the confrontation. Regardless of if Im wrong or right. Then i wont be hurt" I asked him. what if your wrong? His response "Well if Im wrong, then I've hurt that person, I drove them away from me, And i will not have to deal with the pain that I have caused them." To my response was. "Then you might have just lost the one true loving person that of which you might not ever be able to replace ever due to pride" he agreed.  

The Dom stated to me within the past two weeks. AND how I comprehended his thoughts; when faced with an emotional situation. How does said male react.? He goes instantly on the defensive. he will destroy everything around him emotionally to cover up his true emotions. He will lie, cheat, manipulate, blame others for his actions. He will assume the world is ignorant around him. Regardless of the situation. He powers up to protect himself. Because of That word "PRIDE".  

So now said male walks thru life looking for someone like that original person theyve hurt for their rest of their life, that of which they will never be able to find again. Their pride just destroyed something that truly cared for them. For no other reason but for them. Not their finances, lifestyle, creature comforts etc. Because of one word. "PRIDE"

Taking on the above thought process of said male(S) makes for a very dangerous precedence. If you walk thru life hurting others to protect yourself. You end up alone. For life.  Who wants to die alone? Why not take the other side of the coin instead. Being a humble, gentle, caring well thought out male, comes across as the strongest male of them all.  THIS DOES NOT MAKE YOU WEAK. Quite the contrary.

 In our world there are certain words that will rip threw a Dominant male instantly.  Do not dare call him OR assume he is any of the following words; "switch, submissive, weak and or fragile."

 Now other side of the coin,

What if he is at fault?  Instead of attacking back. Why cant males just sit down and say"hey this is what has been happening.  I feel lost, Im confused, I need help, I am being humble, Im in fear of what my actions have now caused. Can you please hold my hand thru this?  I screwed up, Im in a fragile state. Im sorry"  Do you males know how many vanilla relationships that would still be going strong if you just do these simple statements and trust your collars enough to help you threw the fire. You've placed yourself in? 

Doesn't make you males weak. Makes you males even more empowered and in control, because you have shown compassion and vulnerability, humbleness, shows your fragile. 

Which will make a true submissive love you even more.  We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we dont have, but rather recognizing and appreciating what we do have. If you had something truly good and replaced it hoping the replacement would turn out better, and later down the road find out that the replacement was not what you thought it was going to be. STOP being prideful and fix what you left.  80/20 rule.  

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wcd2haXsCPk

Just something to think about in your dominant world. 

Signed

     Pet.  

     "Strength is not power, but the ability to yield."

Loosing a Dom.

Loosing a Dom to his duty and Honor, 

I cannot be sad;

 For it is within his right to take care of something greater then I. 

I will miss my conversations between he and I. 

For he kept me on the edge, made me think outside of the box. 

My Mentor,

My Friend.

My possible collar. Of which may never happen now. 

 I choose to wait. 
What's two months? 

I yearn for his return and our next conversation.

Signed 

A Lost Pet.  

A very good read for Dominants, Submissives, Slaves and Switches. 

She is now on my daily rituals,

Thanks JUJU Momma.  

http://www.jujumamablog.com/

From A Dom's email via CM. 

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"Your profile reminds me of someone who once called me a misogynist and hypocrite, both if which were simply untrue. Her reasoning was that someone who supported the women's movement, as I do, can't hold the dominant attitudes that I do. I told her that aside from completely lacking any understanding of D/s she missed the whole point of the women's movement. The point wasn't to get women out into the workforce, it was to get them equal treatment. To give them a choice. To tell a woman she could not serve as she pleases and desires is to make them as much a slave to her whims and strip them of choice as much as others had in the past. This is what reading your profile made me think about. What I want is a pet who makes me think such thoughts. A pet who I can boast of and show off, who is capable of serving intelligently on my arm at a dinner for work just as effectively as she will upon her knees or on the prowl for playmates. You strike me as just such a singular pet. I hope I will hear back from you soon, If I do not, I envy the master who earns your service."

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Thank you ever so much Dom. 

Signed Pet. 

From a Dom's CM email

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"Hello there.

After reading your profile, I sat there before the keyboard and screen to think on things for a few moments. Not my life persay, but more about the Lifestyle. At times we all reach for the dream, some being different then others. Rest assure, in the end we obtain that dream of our own. When going back, thinking on your well written words I wonder. I wonder why such a lovely, gifted talented person on the inside as much as on the outside is so far away. Is it another dream we reach to connect? Or as you put it, another fairy tale that came to life of non-existence... ( Edited a mistake.. Oh no, guess that makes me a real human being that is not above making mistakes. *grins*)"

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Thanks Dom! 

Signed Pet. 

I heard someone making this statement today. I thought it was rather hilarious.

"So of course; killing innocent people and blowing shit up, is now the way to solve problems. Damn, This makes me so mad I want to make soup with a sexually frustrated werewolf and pour battery acid down an orphans nostril!!"

That is pretty fucked up, funny but still fucked up to say. 

Signed Pet

Qualities of an Embodied Conscious Spiritual Man

Or in our case, 

A Conscious Dominant Man.

Remains Centered

Balance Of Divine Masculine & Feminine Energy

(to know a submissive female, you need to think like her)

Lives with Integrity and Honesty

Honoring, Caring and Respectful of Others

A Living Example

Conscious of His words and Actions

In Devotional Service 

Committed to His own Healing and Awakening 

Positive State of Mind

Open Compassionate Heart 

Anchors Divine Light and Consciousness

Courageously And Humbly DOing his best 

Connected to this Sacred Earth 

Trustworthy

Clear Conscious Communication

Joyful Spirit 

Stands in his Truth. 

He gives promises of a true bedding. 

He will kiss me with fervor to quiet the storms.

 Take his time in removing my clothes to take in each inch of my flesh gaining goosebumps to meet his gaze. 

He's voiced that he will hold my face in the palm of his hands, 

and stare into my eyes as he penetrates my womanhood.
Holding my attention rapt, he's spoken of fisting my hair as we share breath, 

and I cry his name out. 

He has promised me a forever of intimate endevours between us. 

A forever I want with a desperation I've never known before.

 I was asked today why I choose to be submissive.  This is a metamorphose of one's soul.

Now politically...

My thought process is this. I cannot fight a system of corrupt Master's and Dom's who live in D.C. and NYNY. 

There is still a glass ceiling for we women. SO I choose to trust a male on a personal level to make the right decisions within my world. 

If i even tried to fight this system that he describes in the video below. Ill be eaten by the system.

Im awake politically. I know exactly what is going on. But Im a submissive female personally. I vote yes, I have a voice, yes. But I also know those who are in charge do not give a fuck about me or my female sisters.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wV1lZMTCqf8&feature=related

Hello Doms, and fella" Pets

I found a new site that Im ever so happy with. It will be my new best friend. As for reading goes; when I'm not cramming college books in my head. 

http://www.submissiveguide.com

To be the best submissive I can be. 

Thrills. glass of wine and this site on my Nook! 

Signed Pet.

"Silence prepares the heart to pray:
Naked and empty of all things;
Withdrawn within from disarray,
And the disturbances it brings.

Recollected, silent, and still,
her soul awaits the MASTER’S touch:
her emptiness His love will fill;
her naked heart clothed with His clutch.

her heart listens, watching, in wait;

The time He’s coming is unknown.
Should He arrive sudden and late,
her soul stands ready near His throne.

The MASTER wants a waiting heart:
Which listens for His quiet knock;
Withdrawn and still, not pulled apart;
Attentive, without bar or lock.

In silence, her heart is readied
To worship– attentive and steadied."

I found some poetry I thought I’d post.

"REVOLT

Hey you!
Will your puppet men
Protect you forever?

Will they die for you

When they notice their strings?
Won’t they revolt against the hands that control!?

What makes you think you’ve got them tied up?
Revolt! Revolt!

What makes you think you’ll hold them forever?
Revolt! Revolt!

Hey you!
Will your puppet men
Defend a nation of masters?
Will they let themselves
Be sent by those that command?
Won’t they revolt against the hands that control?!

What makes you think they’re yours?

Revolt! Revolt!
What makes you think they’ll be yours forever?

Revolt! Revolt!

Let them live alone.
Free the fighters and send them home.
A country isn’t weak and no longer needs the protection of shepherded flocks.
Stop sending the men, women and children of our heart to fight for you.
Stop sending them to die for you.

Revolt.

We choose to die for the ones we love,
not to satisfy a government, or misguided monarchy.
What we do, we do for the freedom of others."

To truly be a submissive; is to allow the other to breath,

To truly be a submissive; is to give of oneself and not ask why,

To truly be a submissive; is to ask what can you do for your master daily, 

To truly be a submissive; is to live a life of love for Your master. 

Signed Pet. 

 The ultimate "switch" female in your life. 

She greets you every single day. 

She shows you unconditional love,

She embraces your every move,

She lets you do as you please to her,

She does get a bit tired of the things you do to her somedays.

She will throw fits wherever she pleases when she tires of your shit.

You cant walk away from her, 

Your addicted, 

your obsessed. 

You cannot deny her strength regardless of how dominant you assume you are.

Regardless of how dysfunctional you assume she is,

There is no denying this "switch" woman...

You still love her.

What is her name?

Earth.

Hello everyone.. Long day with best girl friend.. Normal vanilla stuff. 

When I came home to check my email. This video was waiting for me in my inbox. 

F-cking Awesome! 

I cannot wait till it gets warmer. Since Im a little thrill seeking junky. I want to do this so bad I actually squealed outloud while watching it. Thanks! 

http://www.mostwatchedtoday.com/tag/utah-arches-rope-swing/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Ig3mJ0KPDI

I also cannot wait to start sky diving.. It is required to do 1000 jumps in most states within the US. before even being allowed to do wing suit jumping. Or base jumping. 

I CANNOT WAIT!!!

 COME ON SPRING

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFQc7VRJowk&feature=related

Patience.

Good Morning Everyone.  

I had a moment this week where sadness set in. We are all human. It happens. I do not care how strong you are. A sweet Master who is going thru a personal hell right now. Actually listened to me cry with patience and concern. Then stepped back and said you need space and some time.. 

What an amazing thing for a Dominate male to do.  Speaks volumns. 

THANK YOU SO MUCH from the bottom of my heart! 

Signed Pet

Email from a Dom,

"I have been reading your journal for an hour now. you are like a dream. A woman with all the intelligence and self awareness and deep thought that takes you deeper, yet also higher than others without your attributes can ever hope to achieve. you transcend the woman we all hope to find. The attitude, understanding, and mentality we all seek as Dominant Men. I often give subs/slaves reading. yours will now be included."

Thank you. 

Pet 

I'm Sorry I have not posted anything today for you readers. My personal PC  caught a virus. I spent my time off today at the computer store. Pushing two hundred dollars later. @@

Im only speaking to one Dom currently. 

But whoever reads this and had corrasponded with me since opening up my cm. account in 2010.  DO not open any personal email from me. If you have my yahoo email address. 

Apologies. 

Pet. 

She cries thru her days hiding so the world will not see,

For she is a wolf that was thrown away with no emotional key. 

She wants to beg for his forgveness, but knows it will not come.

She knows of how horribly bad he hurt her,  

yet she still cries in the night for the pain of his mother's son. 

She is told to have closure. To move on, 

But how does one have closure when she knows he was the "one"

Signed Pet

 

1. I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience. I realize that failing to do so will not only prevent my Top and I from from having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm.

 

2. I will not try to manipulate my Top. I will not push to make a scene go the way I feel it should. In other words, I will not top from the bottom.

 

3. I will keep an open mind about trying things that I am not comfortable with and expanding my limits. I will continue to grow as a submissive and as a human being.

 

4. I will accept the responsibility of discovering what pleases my Top, and will do my best to fufill his wishes and desires.

 

5. I will not allow myself to be harmed or abused. I know that submissive does not equal doormat.

 

6. I will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives. I will share my knowledge and experience with others in the hope that they will learn and benefit from where I have been. I will take the time to help those new to the scene start out on the correct path.

 

7. I will be responsive to my Top. I will not try to hide what my mind and body are feeling so that I may assist him in his responsibilities as my authority. I know that Dominants are not telepaths, and will not expect my Top to know thoughts or feelings which I do not share.

 

8. I will accept in the responsibility of a scene or relationship gone bad. I will not place total blame on my Top when it is not warranted simply because he is the Dominant. I realize that things may not work out as they should at times, and will do my best to put it behind me and move on.

 

9. I will give my gift of submission only to those that can responsibly accept and desire to receive. I will not place anyone in the position of Topping me non-consensually, nor will I give my respect to someone that has not earned it.

 

10. I know that D/s is not a contest, and will never think myself a "better" submissive because I choose to submit on a different level than another. I will not be boastful of the experiences I have had as a bottom.

 

11. I will be obedient to my Top even if I disagree with what he is requesting. I realize he has my best interests at heart and often knows better than I what I need in a particular situation.

 

12. I know that my actions reflect upon my Top, and will do my best to help others see him in a positive way. I will not intentionally embarrass or displease my Dominant.

 

13. Above all, I will wear my title of submissive with honor. I will never cause others to think that being submissive means to be weak or sub-human. I will take pride in who and what I am and will never show myself in a negative way.

Having a Super happy Day. 

Can two weeks from now get here any faster? 

March 1st. 

Sigh, One can only hope. 

Signed Pet. 

 "Eyes wide open" 

      thats all I have to say. 

O

On this Valentines Day. 

I Felt this the day he left. 

It hurt to the core. 

My Master, 

My soulmate,

 My World. 
At this point I dont care.

 That she shares his house,

 his bed. 

Forever Love is forever 

Where is he?  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0kMbuSrgZ40&feature=related

Until then, I shall remain "o"

Valentines Day. 

Good morning to you Doms out there. Today I wish to write about this holiday and the importance of loving yourself. Thru this day if your single.  

When we are with someone on this day its magical. Each of us has so many expectations from our partners. But remember. We are being subjugated from the media. Buy, buy, buy. A vanilla night; Dinner, dancing, romance, sex? 

Recently a Dom reminded me that romance is a daily thing. Not something to be set aside just for one day.  Everyday should be valentines day for someone in love.

If your single. Then by all means love yourself.  Now in our C.M. world. That can be mean masturbation. Go find a temporary pet for the night to use. etc.

But what I truly mean in today's message. Is simply love yourself. the possibilities are endless. You know what you like. Buy yourself some flowers.  Some chocolate. some new music for your Ipod, something anything. Take a shower and use a sugar scrub to deeply clean your body. Go get a massage. Just for you. Or Light some candles in your bedroom, spray your cologne on your sheets. Read tonight. while listening to some soft jazz music. Go to the movies alone. Its actually very calming.. Once you get passed the weirdness of seeing couples, you can remind yourself being alone is okay. You were born alone (Unless your the product of a mulitple birth) So sitting alone for 90 minutes is okay as well. 

You dont need others to love you. If you cant love yourself. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhHjurehIYU&feature=related

Patience. 

What does patience mean to me. 

It means not snapping off at my master. he knows what's best for me and my world. 

It means because the Master knows what's best. Who am I to second guess his judgement.

It means that yes I am a gift sent to him possibly from above. 
It means that he is a gift sent to me from collarme.com > sorry lmao. 

It means to know my place. To know my boundaries. 

It means that I may not be the "one" in his world. But its okay. Im might be the one right now. Till she comes back. And thats okay too.. "Notebook" 

Patience for me means to sit back and be quiet.. collect my thoughts before expressing my mind to another.

Signed Pet. 

You Doms think about this one thought. 

Women are like cars,, The new fast ones. Look nice. handle well on the road.  Have that "wow" effect. 

But take warning..

New cars. Never will hold up as well as the older tried and true classics.  NEVER.

A classic has already worked out its kinks, and break downs, and failures. They sit in the garage waiting for their master to pull them out and play with them. They dont fight, do not break down as easily. Do what their supposed too.  Do what their told.

What does this mean if it doesn't click so far??

You Males want the young sex kittens in life.  But the issue with that is.. The 20-something crowd. Are childish. Do not have their shit together.. Are harder to manage.. Consistently will fight with you. Make demands for they feel they are owed something.. They are the "ME" generation. 

Talking to a Seasoned Dom. Who said the following.

" She was bad ass looking.. had a tight little body. made me assume she had it together.  Life was perfect. OR so i thought.  Come to find to find out she didnt have her shit together. Was out for the easy ride. AKA Sugar daddy.. 

Once collared. All the sudden she was ill, sick. couldn't work. Sat on her lazy ass. Took classes to keep me off her butt. The classes didnt add up to any degree to help the house's finances.. pushed her non meat life style on me.  Was constantly fighting with me.. Assuming she had a valid thought process in my world.  Sponged off me.

 Ill be damned if I ever chase another woman under the age of 30-something. Waste of time and energy. 

A woman who is out for her own self worth is nothing more then a child. Of which i do not feel like raising."

Well said Dom, well said.   

Signed Pet.

The Grammy's are on tonight 

Adele

The essence of a strong woman. The sexuality of inner strength. But she chooses to carry herself as a sweet, gentle, caring person. Her words are so deep. Her music speaks volumes.

She has moved my soul like no other singer. 

I feel she is within the same category as the late Etta James.

Rain

To me he represented rain, 

Always has; always will.

His gentleness, warmth,  

him embracing everything that was beautiful.

He would dance with me thru this life,

that was sent from the Heavens.

Rain falling from the sky.

Renewal, rebirth to cleanse the filthiness of the Earth.

To this very day when it rains,

I try my best to stop what Im doing and go outside.

As it comes down;

I close my eyes.

As it washes over my mind;

My soul cry's out.

I gently whisper his name;

As I feel the rain drops touch my face. 

Even now that I know what the truth is;

He will never admit to it. 

I miss him. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlsBObg-1BQ

From a dedicated reader. 

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"Firstly, let Me just say that I greatly enjoy reading... and even look forward to reading your posts.  It is rare to see such passion, conviction and interesting writing style within this lifestyle.  Kudos... and thank you.

Pride. 

The word pride can take on so many meanings.

A  prideful father who is so proud of his son walking across the stage at a college graduation!

A a prideful Mother who just watched her daughter for the first time give birth!

A prideful bird pushing her baby out of the nest for the first time and watching it fall until it catch's a breeze and soars! 

The word "Pride"  can also have a negative effect.

An emotion swallowed up; when a man walks in his house. Knowing he just left a playtime pet. Only to come home to his collared LTR pet. Then lie to her. Knowing she knows different. 

Reason being; something as simple as pride wont allow him to be honest. He goes on survival mode. He lies to her. He assumes that if he is honest with his LTR pet. That she will not accept him and sees him as weak. 

Quiet the contrary. It shows strength. To say something as simple as "I screwed up. Can we work together and fix this?  AND be 100% honest about the entire fuck up."

from both sides. 

Now looking back on how my Master reacted. Bottom line, it was his pride beating the crap out of him. Not me. 

BUT pride also walked in beside him without him realizing it, carrying a " preverbal battle axe" in the house. Gave it to me to swing on the master.  It was the beginning of the end.  

Words cut like knives.   Empty Threats destroy the soul. Acting out in anger; destroys solid relationships.

Pride. Do not let it destroy that which you place above all things.. If your going to sell out, sell out for something worthy. Not for a passing by pet. Who will maybe be in your life possibly for two moon cycles and nothing more. Most certainly do not sell out for pride. 

 Signed Pet.

Who am I? I asked myself this today.

In Asian theory. there are 5 categories that each of us can fall under. 

Earth:  Persons, whose representative element is the earth, are faithful to their masters, have an idealistic character but are highly ambitious. These persons have dual character. They wish and desire that other persons should accord importance to them, and they desire a loving treatment, in return for for their love. They should avoid and stay away from moisture and marshy lands.

Fire:   Persons of fire element have magnetic and attractive personality, remain happy and excited. They wish to remain bound in the love- bounds of their relatives, as they despise seclusion. They are hypersensitive and quick messengers. They should avoid hyper emotivity and planes where there is too much heat.

Water: Such persons are imaginative, philosophers and thinkers. They are clever, scholarly and believe in free lancing. They take up multiple professions. They believe in conferring secrets to themselves only. They should avoid water-laden places.

Metal:They are excellent calculators. They wish to lead an orderly and principled life. They also like hygienic and balanced environment. 

Quality is the creed of their life. They should avoid dry places.

Wood  They are high class artists or artisans and perform their work diligently and remain committed to their work and are adept in their profession. They wish to remain busy, and believe in the sort of life which is hard work oriented. They indulge in wasteful expenditure. They should avoid such places where strong wind blows

In the spirit world.  There are three types of human's

 Wolves, Sheep Herders and Sheep. 

 Basic principle of the three are as follows:

Wolves;(There are also three types of wolves. within the species. Ill explain later) 

Wolves in general prey on everyone. Everyone is a subject, a tool or food. nothing more, nothing less. A wolf can smell another wolf within an instant of being around each other. Wolves do not cross each other's path. this is an unwritten rule.

Sheep Herders; who protect the sheep plain and simple.

Sheep who walk thru life. Clueless as to what is going on around them.

Within the wolf classification. There are three types of wolves. White Black and Grey

        White wolf is is quiet simply pure and clean good.  But still chooses to to be a wolf because this is their nature.. they will hunt and take what they need regardless of others affairs. Its their destiny. They choose to lay low and stay in the back ground. Until the hunt calls for them.

        Black wolf; You know from get go, this type of person is a pure asshole from get go. They make no bones about it. They are absolutely bad. Not caring who they destroy for their own ill gotten gain on this planet. 

        Grey wolf.  They flip back and fourth between the two above wolves.. depending on what's going on within their worlds.. They go on survival mode, They become black. They go on protect mode if someone hurts a sheep. They become white. Just depends on the situation..

Now if you have read to this point. And if you follow my journals..

What element am I? What spirit animal am I? 

 I Know exactly what I am.  I have known for the last two years..

When my master left. the world collapsed on me. Everyone around me was coming after me right and left to do this and do that and take this and take that. And walk away from this and walk away from that. Roll over and play dead, let him destroy you. It literally ripped me apart. 

To shut the world off. I found comfort within my buddhist teachings..  Im not Buddhist. But it made sense.

One simple statement; that I found so deeply profound.

There are two important days within each of our lives. 

"The day we were born,

The day we discover why"

 Today I came across my new necklace.  "O"

To me this represents what Im to become. So as long as I give of the flesh. My heart that which lies under the necklace will never be cut up again. I will wear this for now on. To remind me; my place on this planet. 

For truly loosing "The one." Who, I chose to collar me. To something I could not fight.  Broke my heart and my spirit. Now I let go and let the world have my soul. 

I embrace what is my destiny. What is my true nature.  I will become the very thing he desired and wanted for all women to be.   "O"

Maybe one day. He will come across my path again. See what has become of me. Sweep me back up into his world. Like a lost kitten, let me come home to him. 

We have only one life. Only one time to walk this Earth... 

                                             Today I think again. Where is he? 

   When your looking down at your "little one" your submissive pet.

Just remember as strong as she may seem, even her heart can break. 

Please be gentle with her. She isn't a dominate woman, her soul is a precious gift. 

Cherish her. For what she gives to you freely and openly is something the average woman would not dare cross, would not dare to give to any man freely. 

What you do today. Might scar her for life. 

 "The Story of O"

This is now my passion.  

To become like O, would be a dream. 

I watched the movie last night.  

Went to sleep and dreamed of his face. 

He came to me silently. Holding a blue satin ribbon. He commanded for me to come to him. Did as I was told, tip toed quietly across the bedroom floor, wearing nothing but a very small lacy thong. 

He holds my shoulders sternly. I feel so small within his presence, He is bigger then life. Im trembling for I do not know what in store for me. But i love my Master. So I do not fight i stand perfectly still in silence.

He smells me, as if I were his prey. He growls quietly, smiles with contentment. Then turns me around abruptly. Binds my hands behind my back. Places a blind fold on my eyes. Reminds me that Im to stay silent. Regardless of what is to take place next.

Being led down a long hall way. My senses are whirling around me. I can smell him. His sent is truly amazing. Masculine but a gentleness to it. He says nothing. He holds me firmly as he's walking me down hallway. Its dark, I cannot see. Only glimmers of light every once in a while. 

I hear doors being opened, I feel a warmth on my naked body, But I hear nothing. I can feel there is another presence in the room. But i do not know from what direction. 

My Master leads me to the center of the room. I feel softness under my feet. Is this a rug? A blanket? He forces me gently to the floor, My knees become resting on a satin pillow.

I can feel and hear the crackling of a fire within the fire place. I know this room. Im not allowed within its chambers.  This is the first time i've been allowed within her walls.  This excites me. But i stay calm and quiet as instructed.

As he is taking off my blind fold. Im trembling with excitement, and fear. Im only looking at Mlord as he leans over kisses me on the forehead and tells me "if you want to serve me and show me love Pet, you will do exactly what I say. You will not fight them. You will allow them do take whatever they want." He steps back and walks over to a high back chair and sits by the fire.

I, at this point am so scared. For now I see who he is referring to. Women and men walking up to me slowly one by one. Until I cannot see Mlord anymore.

Im laid down and taken from every direction from every male. Some force themselves onto me as if I were a wild wolf that needed to be tamed. Others treated my body as if it were crystal;  that was so fragile one hair could shatter me. They say nothing. But moans. Mlord says with a stern voice from nowhere. "You will not touch her ass. That belongs to me."

One by one as the males finished. They would leave the room. 

The females that have been kneeling around me as the males took their turns finally come forward. Laying me down on my back and spreading my sore legs apart. Some washing my body with hot steam towels, then rubbing light oils all over my skin. As if to purify me again for Mlord.  

Some drinking the essence from my wet dripping pussy. Lapping the males seeds from within my hole. Ensuring I'm prefectly clean from inside out. My body hurts from so many males taking turns within me. But, I want Mlord to be pleased. SO I stayed perfectly quiet, during the entire time. 

There were two females left within the room. Ive been placed back on my knees on the same satin pillow.  My hands finally unbound. They dress me in a silk gown. The two females at this point; walk up to Mlord sitting across the room. Handing him the satin ribbon then leave the room. 

 At this point the room is silent. I tremble for fear that I possibly did something to displease Mlord. I stay silent and perfectly still kneeling on the pillow for him. 

Mlord puts down his smoke and walks over to me. Kisses me on the forehead yet again motions for me to stand up. picks me up in his strong arms. Rocks me gently within his masculine strength and walks me back to the bedroom. Telling me how proud he is of me and how much he adores his pet.

O.

My two favorite women of all time..

Betty Paige  and Marilyn Monroe.. 

Where does one begin? 

Betty brought fourth an unadulterated rawness to men across the planet. Her version of what sexiness should be, during her reign as a sex kitten was purely amazing. Her essence of what a vixen is to be, poured across the camera from her pictures and or film.

She in her final days. Would not allow any pictures taken of her. For fear mankind would loose their fantasies of what she was at the peak of her existence.. 

Marilyn, a once innocent soul twisted by society. She played a stupid submissive woman, But was she? Yes; some took advantage of her, from what the media portrayed. But if you peak deeper inside of that sex kitten persona. She was very much in charge of her own sexual being.. 

If all women could be this way to their Masters.. 

We wouldn't need places like CM. now would we? 

MASKS

Why do we have to wear them? 
Why do we have to carry them around in our hearts, our minds, our souls?

We are so worried about being judged. ridiculed by others, slammed for our actions, we cover up, cover down, twist things, dont acknowledge others anything and everything to hide the shame of that which we have deep in our souls.

Im just as guilty as the next in judging people. I know this. Another thing I personally need to address. As in like yesterday. 

What beckons us to put on facades to push forward what society says is normal.

What the hell is normal anyway besides a setting on a washing machine?

Talking to a new member this morning, I was helping build his profile. (why you might ask? Because Im a hopeless romantic) I know somewhere his love is waiting for him. His profile was bare. When he crossed my path.  We ladies; like our Dom's to be aggressive and to put out their calling cards.. His was bare. 

Its hard enough now days to find your "soulmate, your partner in crime, your true love."

The one that makes "your heart sing, the person who completes you" 

He said the above things to me.. Made me think. What is it that drives him? What is it that would make his life perfect, what you and I might not want. For him. Might be the perfect lady.

Each of us has to ask ourselve's. What is it that we crave in our worlds that makes us whole.

A passing dance in a snowy night. Throwing snow at someone you just met?

A gentle wave at someone who actually acknowledges you in the gas station?

Texting back and fourth hoping a stranger who you wish to be the one to fill the hole that was made by someone else. 

I wake up daily do my rituals. 

                    Then my day begins. 

                     Daily; I think where is he?

This to me is what i hear when i come across a man a real man. You ladies know what I'm talking about..  He came out of his mother's womb kicking the world's ass. 

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUFCZHWK89k

Tossing and turning. Couldn't sleep at all last night.

I was horrible to another human being yesterday. Even if my feelings were true. I went about it the wrong way. I guess when thinking, I know in my heart what is true. Instead of taking things as they come. I judged. Wasn't my place. Now i have possibly lost a friend.

 Im a very smart, confident woman. But when I feel i've been possibly taken advantage of. I become protective over myself. 

Question: Why do we as submissive women when we go on the defensive, we become dominant? Is it because we have learned to imitate that which we crave? 

How quickly can things change in one day.. 

From one male who i caught in fictional half truths or lack there of not being honest.

it was nice to come home this evening from a very cold day to find my email box flooded from Doms (males and females) rallying around me,  reminding me in different forms or fashion, that not all who are on this site are good and honest and I needed to be mindful. Most agreed with my rant. Stating I had every right to put my foot down. I gave trust where it wasn't earned.  I was lied too; when i confronted him, he just moved on like its a game. 

Now insert the gentlemen Dom from Aspen, who I just recently met.  He shines thru like a perfect glass slipper.

He laid his cards on the table from the start.  It was nice tonight to play out in the cold with him. We went for a walk and talked.  

"I dont want this night to end"

 http://www.youtube.com 

A man on a horse to rescue me, or spank me, whichever comes first.

Thinking I loved being in Aspen. two weeks ago and this past weekend. 

"Tell me what a man finds sexually attractive and I will tell you his entire philosophy of life. 

Show me the woman he sleeps with and I will tell you his valuation of himself..... 

The man who is proudly certain of his own value, will want the highest type of woman he can find, the woman he admires, the strongest, the hardest to conquer--because only the possession of a heroine will give him the sense of an achievement, not the possession of a brainless slut."    

Ayn Rand

When reading this, i pondered about what some of you masters end up with.  At this moment in life. I see truly see now. A man that replaces his emotionally healthy pet with trash has no self worth. He is not living; but existing. He isn't learning. He is stagnating.  To truly be a dominate man. He needs to find a woman who gives her submission to him as a gift. Not to bully her into weakness. to raise her up as a mirror image of him.  The teacher, has to ensure his students learn of his world and mirror his world to bring fourth a stronger world for all. 

If your home is currently filled with a person; who just does nothing but take from you, bitch, whine, moan, groan, complain. Reminds you she is doing you a favor, You missed the message. 

If you left a partner for that individual right now sitting within your dwelling that fits the above description. WOW YOU REALLY SCREWED UP. 

When you men levitate towards females who are a succubus's. 

You know the type. 

She goes thru men and their finances until she bores then she moves on. She doesn't care what she destroys in the process. She will never be a "true life long pet material" for anyone to be honored with. If the woman isn't good enough to come around your family. You have no business being with her. 

There are playtoys in life then the women in life that you will grow old with. Best believe the playtoys will not stick around when shit gets deep. 

Some of you Doms need to understand the difference between LTR pets and the pets that just pass thru your world. if your to live in a monogamous relationship. But want to ask for a "hallway pass" from your pets every once in a while.  JUST LET us know. 

she stands in the center of the dimly lit room, 

soft blue eyes covered in black silk, 

she knows He is near, 

His scent fills the air, 

His presence all to clear. 

her mind races at the thought of what He has in store for her this night, 

her bare flesh tingles against the cool air.......

she begins to shift on the balls of her feet, what is He doing? 

What is He thinking? 

The anticipation almost more than she can take, 

suddenly His warm breath circles her neck, 

His strong hands parting her moist inner thighs, 

He slips a single finger deep inside her tight fuckhole.......

He inspects what He owns, 

the warmth of His mouth moving to her ear, she listens......... 

He whispers, "you belong to me..."

she can feel her heart start to race. 

As her tight hole starts to drip with ecstasy. 

She stays silent.

For she knows if she moves or even udders a whisper,

he will punish that of which she did.

I was asked a simple question this week.

In my opinion; the difference between a slave and or a pet

Slave to me has no weight within the home. She has no value, She is nothing more then a tool for the master to use at his whim, whether it be to pay his bills, use her car. She is there simply because no one wants to be lonely. Which at this point the master is, but for the one he truly wants. 

new it would be a better day with you in it.................

steal up behind...................................

hair wrapped in my hands................................

taste and tease........................

the nape of your neck..............................

hot breath ...........................

makes you shiver................. 

morning beard.........................

scratch and tickle.............................

take my time......................

Met A Dom this past weekend during a road trip. 

The local one who i was interested in, jetted so,

Im going to play with this Dom and his newest pet.. 

ALL WEEKEND. 

They asked me if im the jealous type.. Nope.. I think a poly house is the perfect form of trust and tenderness a couple can explore together..

Im just a mear play toy for them. I cant wait.. Is it Saturday yet?  

Im submissive with males and dominate with females.. this should be fun.. 

To have the taste of a woman on my tongue..

I want for a man who can appreciate and understand the saying "the stronger the woman, the deeper the submission"meaning I need a smart, strong Dom (not a bully). 

I can't do just vanilla anymore, I enjoy the D/s power exchange dynamic too much. 

But I am a firm believer vanilla compatibilities come first when meeting someone new, the D/s will naturally takes it's course and the erotic banter can begin. 

Submissive for sometime now, hence my desire to find a seasoned Master.

 They are likely to take this lifestyle more seriously. 

If possible, please attach a photo when emailing me.  

"Honesty"

 Communicating with possible Doms, made me see that some people are into this lifestyle 

BUT REFUSE to play by the rules of the lifestyle. 

HONESTY. 

You want me to open up to you. But you cant be honest with me, and your become vague? When simple questions are asked of you. Well tip toeing,, lying etc. wont get you far.. Some of the things you say to us subs,, we can see right thru.. 

"She's just a friend, a roomate, on her way out, time changes.. she is already looking for other options, Im just helping her out."

If i cant trust you over something as simple as what kind of relationship your in, then how can I trust you over something as complex as possible tying me up and spanking me and going to far and truly hurting me physically? 

You Doms need to understand.. We subs (not all but some) just want to have playtime.. NOT white picket fence, house on the hill etc. Most of us can provide that for ourselves now days.. 

A Dom said to me today.. 

NO truer words can be said.. 

Face it regardless of where your from, what you do for a living, etc. If you cannot be honest with your partners, subs, slaves. 

YOU cannot be honest with yourself.. what good are you? 

Your' a tool. 

Well that didn't work, So now on to find the next real Dom. 

Ladies, Im learning.. 

DOMS are private,, they have hurt in them just like us.  Some say they are ready for the next submissive to collar.. But havent worked thru the hurt of the last submissive that they took their collar back from, Not our fault.. 

Be patient.. wait for him. he will come to you when he is ready. 

Just be patient..

Remember there are rules to this dance we do, Ive made a solemn vow, that I will be a lady always, I can be a bad little kitten in private but in public, always always be a lady. Gentle and kind, to others. Sweet and polite to all around you. Rudeness gets us no where.  

To thine own self be true.

Signed Pet.  

Heart felt thoughts on the subject of Doms who walk into your world

Ladies, 

Have you ever assumed:

you click with a dom so much so that you send them personal pictures? 

Have you ever opened yourself to a Dom about your personal business within the first week??

So much connection that you await his texts, his emails, his collarme conversations and yahoo conversations.  You get excited when you hear your notification sounds on the cell phone.. Is it him?  YES!  Conversations back and fourth for hours. exchanging of pictures, files, lives, thinking this might be the one..

Till one day..

nothing..  

No explanation nothing.. 

thought process,, 

   Did i allow myself to be pulled into quickly? 

   Was the chase not long enough for him?

   Did he tire to quickly?

   Was my conversations to personal?  

   Was i thinking this was more then it was?

    Was I being led on? 

    Was I nothing but a mear puppet on a string for him?

Sometimes they say they want an LTR, and truly they want a driveby.. 

Oh well. 

Its easy to take off your clothes,  and have sex.

People do it all the time

But opening up your soul to someone, 

letting them into your spirit,

thoughts, fears, future, hopes,

dreams.....

That's being truly naked. 

Today, before I go out and welcome the Sun, I want to share with you one of my favorite things, I do for myself and for my Master. When i have one.

Corsets! 

I love them. I love the ritual of placing one on. Whether it be from myself. Or my master synching the strings.. 

I love the feel of the constraint I give to myself. As i snap each individual hook. 

I love walking up to my master and asking if he would be so honored as to finish the synching process for me. 

As he instructs me to grab onto the railing of the bed, staircase etc.

I love standing facing away from my master, as he synchs me up.

How he rubs the waist line to inspect his work in progress. The curving within the corset, how is gives an hour glass effect to the body.

I love the sounds that come from the garment as its tightened.

I love the feeling that it gives me, confines my breath more. Synch by synch. 

To me its the ultimate form of body confinement, and modification.  

Having another human being control my stature, my breath, my look of my waist line, my bosom shoved compressed upward. 

I love the way the satin and lace pokes thru my clothes ever so gently.  To remind me and others that i am not vanilla. I am a woman who is in complete control of her world and her destiny and I am honored to have a master who wants to do this for me. And i do this for.

Ive worn them over my clothes, under my clothes,  walking thru the house with heals and hose and just panties and the corset. Ive slept in them. 

I should have been born in the 1950's 

IM going shopping this evening after my day of work and toil are thru.. 

http://www.corset-story.com

I was asked today in an email, what is it to be in love with a Dom,

Its self sacrifrise. It's the ultimate form of love, 

Its pure 100% unadulterated trust. 

It's intense. Its as deep as the human element can fathom.

Your body actually aches for them when they are not around. Physically and emotionally. Its the essence of who we are as a submissive. 

Its longing for his touch. As he walks thru the front door. You stand there waiting in silence. Anticipating his first move. 

Will he ignore me? Will he walk past me and demand for me to come sit at his feet?

 Will he come to me and be silent as he breaths gently on the back of my neck as he silently circles me without saying a word as if he were a hungry wolf waiting for me to flinch, feeding off of my fear. 

Its that breath that we loose as soon as Our Master walks near us.. 

Its that feeling that no one else exists on this Earth but him.

NO ONE.  

What does it mean to be a "Pet" in today's society.

I've received emails from other pets asking me, my thoughts on the subject of being a pet. and making it work. 

First and foremost Im a submissive woman, when I'm with a real dominate male.  Submissive males, are simply alien to me. I've tried to be with a switch or submissive males. Submissive males just simply get under my last nerve.  I end up being the Domme with them and this just doesn't work for me. 

Since my last Master walked out.. I've had to take a very hard look at me, boy was I wrong in some aspects. 

Ladies, these are my rules and guidelines to being with a dominate male. 

Do you assume the following?

You only have to be submissive in bed?  wrong.  Being submissive is a way of life. Not just playtime in bed only. 

You are equal to him completely? Wrong. You will never be equal to him. Males go thru so much more then what we could ever imagine. So dont ever consider you are ever equal YOUR NOT. 

Financially yes, in this day and age.. Pets.. we have to pull our weight to ensure our Master's world is secure. Got it? 

Educationally yes, cant help take care of the castle he has built for you on a Mcdonalds paycheck plain and simple.

Spiritually yes. This doesn't mean you have to be a bible thumping person. Just be equally yoked with your Dom.. It even states it in the bible.. You two should mirror each other. 

Should you have final say of the major goings on within the home. Maybe. Depending on what is agreed open between you and your master.

Master's or Dom's love the term "ritual" This doesn't mean ceremonies every single day. But consistency is the key to a happy Dominate man within his world. He likes his world his way. So who are you to change it?

Since my Master left me. Ive had to do a complete 180.

My daily rituals now are as follows

Get up when the sun comes up, I dont care if its my day off. Should be up to greet the day and give thanks to Mother Earth for the day she has given us. 

Every morning. I stand outside of my home and face the morning sun. I give thanks to the Grandfather for this day, thanks to The Sun for the light, and the control he shows us daily. Thanks to Mother Earth for the oxygen she provides us. Regardless of the weather I still do this every single morning, meditation can take place while doing this. Calms the soul grounds the mind. (Now you pets may think this is crazy, but i have something for you to ponder) If you cant give thanks to the three main things in life that provide you with your mear existence. How can you have the mind set to take care of your Master's world?  Something as simple as  a "thank you" Is the most humbling act of all on this Earth.

Shower, shave daily, unless he is into hair. Freshen your self for your master and all those around him. You are a reflection of his self worth.. No one wants to look at a pet who is not well kept.  This reflects on him as the man of his house.  This is by simply not overeating, being groomed, exercise, daily cleansing of the body. keeping home and car clean. Being respectful of him in public. And when you have guests within your home. 

Wear perfumes, unless instructed otherwise.. Find out what his favorite scent is.. spray your clothes gently with this scent.. I spray the bedding as well.  Do not wear so much that you smell like a whore.. Your a pet, not trash.

Keep your nails, your hair, your clothes groomed. 

Bitching, nagging, whining, talking down, snapping at him. DO NOT EVEN GO THERE.  Whatever your upset about,, Im sure his day was just as worse. We females are allowed to vent .Society has taught our Masters to keep their feelings stifled. So how is this fair? You get to be a bitch and he has to remain silent? 

Greet him with a cheerfulness, does he smoke, be ready to light his cigarettes and or cigar for him.  takes maybe two seconds.  

Does he drink beer, coffee, soft drinks  and or water regularly? If so every chance you can get. ensure his glass, cup doesnt go empty.  

Cook for him on a regular basis, and ask him if its okay to make his plate.. Serve him and when he is finished take up his plate.. this doesn't show a sign of weakness, this shows a sign of respect for the man within his own home. 

When he goes to bed. you go to bed, enough said. Unless instructed otherwise. There is a reason why the bed in the master bedroom is built for two. You do not take turns. Your his partner and you want to ensure your there for him. 

Being attentive to his sexual needs and understand that its not about penetration every single time.. And if it does involve sex, It should be a "dance" each and every time. he decides how this performance takes place, when and where and how. HE LEADS, NOT YOU. 

Learn his traits, his likes, his dislikes, his wants his needs.. 

Thank your' Master on a regular basis, Face it ladies.. We still have the glass ceiling within a lot things that go on with our gender professionally. We all know Males are the main source of our lives. Verbalize to him how much he is appreciated. 

and above all.. to thy own self be true.. 

what does that mean to me? Im a submissive woman completely and 100% for my master.. But Im also an educated woman. Who can make decisions on her own. Who can take care of myself on my own if need be.  But i choose to allow him to be head of my world. 

I hope this finds you ladies well.. 

 . Signed Pet . 

I only deal with full grown adults, If your underage, DOING DRUGS, hurting humans truly, anything illegal, DO NOT talk to me. GO AWAY. YES, this is a lifestyle choice. BUT I also have a normal life outside of this. I will not sway from my morals, convictions, and or the LAW! 

Unless you have pictures of your supposed life to proove who you are, Do not bother.. 

On Collarme, I have had more millionaires, CEO's, owners of sprawling ranches. Men who "own huge homes"  email me. 

 First off lets be clear about this. Im not a gold digger. Im a normal person. Ive lived in huge homes, Ive had Don poured for me with maid service attached, Ive been all over the Earth.  Wore diamonds all over my body. Sports cars off of show rooms floors handed to me.  SO STOP.  

I dont want anything but the right master to take care of me and allow me to take care of him.  I get it. You are all  wanting to shower your possible pets with a lavish lifestyle to capture her eye. 

BUT

Want to know a secret Masters? If you cant treat her like a lady outside of this lifestyle. she wont stay for long..  be honest, be REAL

I don’t know what to say,
I don’t know how to say it
I wake each morning feeling like I am alone
I know I’m not but, its hard not to feel it

He is out there, waiting
Looking for me
But where is he?
That I don’t know.

All I know is that he is out there….
Out there somewhere,
Waiting, and looking for me
Somewhere….

I can feel his collar around my neck,
I can feel his control of my body
I can feel him and his power
I know I will belong to him

Where are you Master?
Where are you now?
When will I know you?
When?

I can hear your voice,
I can feel your control,
I know you care for me,
I know I will serve you fully

Time does pass
Time passes slowly
Time, time, time….

Why does it take so much time?

When I first saw you I was not sure,

I didn’t know who you where,
I didn’t know you where for me
I didn’t know I was for you
I just didn’t know….

My mind is a blur of memories
Memories that I tried to forget
Memories you need to know about
Memories that I must now face

You are with me
You guide me
You care for me
You are there when I need you

I never new it could be like this,
I never new life could feel so full
I never new things could be this way
I am glade I trusted you to show me

I look at the world around me

Nothing really has changed but me
Yet I feel that things should have change
Because I know that I have changed

I look back at what was,
I look back and see what might have been
I look forward and I see a future
I look forward to more then before

Who knows what tomorrow will bring,
Who knows where I will go
But I do know now, that I have a place
At your side, and in your life. ♥