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Male Submissive, 50, Nashville, Tennessee
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About MaxFisher
Please feel free to chuckle when I say ~ I'm a little bit afraid of women right now. ? Please believe me that I *know* how to prioritize a woman ? I've internalized it as my modus aparati. I really don't *care* about the sordid and sundry things that entice me as a male, my triggers and excitements ? not the way that I would care about making you proud of me ? not the way I would care about using all of what talent I have to show you that when you put energy and desire into me, you get what you want. I mean I could tell you I fantasize about all the things I love, that are so great about my Lady. But I care first that her den and her house and her life are 100% the way she likes it ? that *I* am the way she likes it. But I have fantasies ? I try to indulge myself, if in any way, by showing you how to exploit my triggers and desires in such a way that your success in training me will please you. If I'm being a bit verbose, please excuse it temporarily, I feel inspired.
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? ?I'm trying to explain how I feel emotionally ? it's hard to find a way to put it.
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I was in love with a woman last year ? ? I was unhappy that she wasn't interested in cuckolding ? ? I just did it the vanilla way for two years ? ? she insisted she was completely satisfied ? ? I *never* pushed, I just submitted, but I could tell ? ? we stopped having sex almost completely (once every six weeks) ? ? sigh. ? I really felt that even in the vanilla sense, I was not allowed to express myself sexually. Sex is *communication* to me, even if I'm more of an oral partner. I never felt I got to express myself, I felt muted. I didn't complain. I only tried to help. I tried in a funny way to show her she could have any man she wanted. ? ? She didn't want to admit to me or to herself that she wanted a real sex life and needed someone else for it to happen. We never had one argument. Anyway, we broke up. And right shortly after, she met a guy with a great build, and we talk, and just, he just really made everything happen that I couldn't make happen, and I feel really hurt by it. Not in a 'still hung up on' kind of way ? ? ? I just feel like I was in love with this girl, and this man just came and took her, and emotionally she was still reaching out to me like I was the one she loved, but he just had sex with her until she liked him, even though he's a big stupid asshole ; ) So that was my last relationship. I ultimately think there will always be D/s elements in any relationship wherever I'm involved.
I just want someone who is interested in me to know how I feel inside, which is just to say, a little beaten up. I'm disillusioned by the way vanilla women will lie to you right to your face, when all you're trying to do is give them everything. I don't want to say it and have it make you think I'm hung up on someone ? ? I'm hung up on what happened to me after that.
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Don't feel overwhelmed if I write a lot I'm really having a reflective period.
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I strongly desire that the female wears the pants and has the say. I'm a blabbermouth I will always tell you what I think but I like if my Lady is a little rough sometimes about showing that we both know she has the authority. And I think it would have to be that way. If I meet a woman like you and we show that we have the will to overcome the initial obstacles, I am going to want to submit and pledge my heart, for her to have. I would wake up thinking of her (but don't crowd her), the sound of her voice makes my heart sing, but I show her that she makes my day, as a *compliment* to her life. In my imaginings, there are some beautiful moments where I just know what she wants, and I like to think she could enjoy my attention all day without ever feeling crowded by it because I would know where she wanted me and what she wanted. I would thrill to think, she could talk to me all day and I would never get tired of the sound or of answering ? or she could say almost nothing to me all day and just know that I am her accompiant, that brings what she wants, and maybe I should just curl up nearby and let her enjoy the silence of knowing I'm simply at her attention.
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My last two relationships have just been vanilla women I loved, but ultimately they discard me; being vanilla, when a big male comes and takes, then he throws a fit that I'm in the picture, then I've done it all for nothing. I miss being a real cuckold. I desire sex, but I really just ~ a woman could get whatever she wants out of me there. I hope for some times, but if she completely denied me traditional sex, I wouldn't even try to bother her about it. I think I would probably eventually say something to see if she wanted to? But if she told me to just not bring it up I would just get a bit teary (which makes me feel cute), and kind of breathe hard for a little bit. But I would be SO, SO happy if I was, if that could happen, I mean.. If you had boys around, but I could feel safe in being so deeply committed to chastity.. it would be really nice. |
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I'm bored in (now) COLORADO SPRINGS. If you're interested, I really encourage you to say hi no matter what your interest. I'm not going to pursue desperately but I happen to think there are better things in life than just hooking up with someone who wants to stamp around until they get laid. Recently single since November. Would like to meet a girl who is nice and wants a funny cute boy to hang around with. Not looking for a long term relationship right now. (I'm not against them, i just got out of one). I just want life to be fun. Let's have some.
I'm fun and funny and skilled and a good listener, looking for a woman to be chill with. |
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