MasterJoshua


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	About MasterJoshua OK, First profile attempt sucked so lets try for round Two: To start with I would like to say that I recently got out of an online/RT long distance relationship after 3 years. I was engaged to my Ex for over a year of that, and while the conditions of the break up really don't leave me any reason to feel remorse it has opened my eyes to some major pitfalls to look out for when looking for someone. I am looking for that girl who is supposed to be mine this is true, but I want it noted that I don’t plan on moving fast with anything. I want to make sure that if I start in a relationship that it is going to work out. I have had enough emotional turmoil. I will note first that I have a form of autism, or more precisely I am on the autistic spectrum. It is a condition known as Aspergers syndrome and while it was only detected recently I have suffered socially in life because of it and even now with the diagnosis I am in many ways limited by it. I suppose I always was but now its becoming more apparent in dealings with my family members and my mother in particular. Please note now that you have to be up front with me about things because I won’t pick up on nuance. If you have ever read the children’s books about 'Amelia Bedelia' then you may get the basic concept. At this point in my life I am working on an associates degree in Electronics at a community collage and currently live with my mother and stepfather to save money. I moved back home after my car blew a head gasket and had to make a choice between getting my associates degree debt free or getting a new car and starting down that financial spiral. The plan is to go to ITT after this and take Game design, though from there its hard to tell what jobs may be open and where. The idea in the end is to find a girl who will be more than simply a doormat to say "Yes Master" and "No Master" all the time. The doormat line is used a lot but it is the truth so really you can’t complain about that too much. Personality counts for a lot in my book and at this point in my life I can afford to be picky. In both looks and personality I prefer the ‘shy quiet librarian’s aid’ type over the ‘spunky, boisterous cheerleader type’ because really I am not an overly energetic or adventurous person in most respects. A meek little mouse is better than an affectionate kitten any day. I have a lot of interests including D&D, Magic: the gathering and literature such as the works of Tolkien. For most anyone to put up with me for long they have to know about these kinds of things or else get lost in a sea of confusion. Its not that I can’t discuss philosophy, theology or politics rather it’s the fact that I color my speech with references to these things. Part of the reason my last relationship ended poorly was that my interests did not sit well with those of my Ex, nor hers with me. I am not a social person by nature, but I am trying to be. While I do hope to find that girl to call my own here, I would not be adverse to requests to simply talk on most any topic or play a few games of 'Magic' over Yim. I have little knowledge of the social aspect of the lifestyle and I am not sure I will any time soon but I would also be glad for constructive advice from others be it lifestyle related or regarding anything else. Also, on a side note, This profile will probably get updated again soon, it still wasn’t what I wanted it to be

Well Its a long story, but I think its time I start looking around again. (Warning, long story follows here)

I have decided recently that it is about time I move out from my mothers house. Yes I know how that sounds, and I will admit part of the appeal was the lack of rent, but more to the point this is because I have come to some rather difficult realizations. I love my mother, she has given up more of herself for her family than anyone I know. All my life she has worked and sacrificed so I could have a good life. Now she is in a situation with two very young children and a husband who is admittedly ineffectual at best. Every instinct I have tells me to stay longer and make an attempt at taking the pressure and stress off of my mother so that she can perhaps recuperate and avoid any serious stress related health issues.

Sadly I realize now that my mother is far too strong willed and set in her ways to let anyone help. I try to do dishes so she has a few moments to sit, and she will complain that I have done them wrong, redo them, then go off to take my six year old brother rollerblading. I ask her where the CLR is so I can clean out the bathroom a bit and she refuses to tell me on the grounds that I 'won't know how to use it'. I try to watch said six year old for a few hours and she gives me absolutely no authority with which to make him behave. The bottom line is that my mother will not let me help her, and the more I try the worse it seems things are going to get.

So long story short I will most likely be out of the house in a few months and into my own place budget willing. It is high time I started living my own life instead of trying to take control of and fix the problems in everyone elses.

Also to anyone who has managed to read all of the way though this little rant, I appologize profusely for making you endure it. All of this really had to come out somewhere, and I needed to put something here anyways.

Well, I haven't posted here in a while. Been spending most of my time on my last class, working on a game and a book (Writing them, not reading) and trying to get back into shape. Its rather hard as my back never seemed to fully heal from when I pulled it a couple years back. Its going to take a while to be able to move like I used to, let alone get back to 190. At this point I'm Semi-not looking for anyone. I'm still trying to get on my feet and that's not easy in the game industry, especially in Michigan. I really don't think I can advance myself as a person until I have a stable job and have spent some time further away from friends and family. Granted if the exact girl I'm looking for ends up falling right into my lap more power to me, but at this point I see really no point in looking actively.

You never notice until you are almost finished with a degree that most of your skills in life seem to have nothing to do with it. Maybe its just me but I find it funny that in the home streach of this Degree I find I know next to nothing about Electronics, and feel that I know more than the masses about a wide range of mostly useless topics. I suppose at some point knowing the Con damage dealt by a grappling Dire Weasle animal companion, or which Arthurian myths are stolen from which Celtic Myths, or even the fact that Final Fantasy VI is simply a huge elaboration on "The Barber of Seville" may come in handy. Still I don't think I want to know the situation under which this would be a career making bit of knowledge.

Put on a bit of weight, Lost a bit of muscle mass, sleeping four hours a day at most, I can't wait to get this degree and move on to one at an ITT campus where I can keep decent hours. Ive noticed the funny thing about this site is that most of the good girls are taken, and most of the rest are not local. Considering how badly things ended with my Ex, I really can't see taking a girl online, or trying to mantian any kind of long term relationship. It would take one HELL of a girl to pull that off with after last time.

Well in spite of classes flooring me recently, I have decided to try my hand at doing something worthwhile. I have decided to write a book to help parents whos children are gamers, be thay video or table top. I have no idea if I will ever get a publisher to even look at it, but I feel I have to give it a try. Also on a side note if anyone here is a gamer whos parents give them greif, or a parent whos children are into that strange, scarey world of gaming, please send me a some mail with your experiences. I would love to have some case studies to work with and I promise anonymity.

Also on a side not. Go to www.childsplaycharity.com and find a way to help out. We can all do our part.

A quick note: When you find plans for home made bondage gear and the only thing you can think of at the time is "Wow, This will be alot of fun to make." Odds are your an Engineer at heart.

Here in the shadows
Theres no wishing well
May hte blessed one forgive me
Like so many times before
Theres no savior at the door
It won't matter anymore.

Touch me now while we reach the end.
I wonder where you are right now, right now.
Oh my dear.

She still has sunshine in her weary eyes
A bed of roses to testify my love
Her promise made, now I will make a try
There is no power on earth to tear us apart

Loves tragedy asunder
Oh, set your spirit free
Loves tragedy asunder
Do I beleve

Deep in the shadows, there's no release
[I beleve] Deep in the shadows you wont find peace
[I beleve] We live in a dreamworld, its over now
I'll take your hand, our time is sure to come

On broken wings I try to fly
Im sorry I couldnt get it right
All praise and glory,
All praise and glroy to love

I burried sunlight when I shut her eyes.
Dead leaves to dust the seasons bloom
A glimpse of heaven showed an angel bright
Ten fold the cries the crack of doom.

Love's tragedy asunder
I will be free
Love's tragedy asunder
Falling misery
Love's tragedy asunder
I do believe
Love's tragedy asunder
Still I believe

~Demons and Wizards

Best.... love song... ever.

I have noticed that I've gotten few emails as of late on this site, or to be precise, I have gotten zero in a good long while. Frankly thats ok by me. I'm not on top of the world, and I'm not where I would want to be. I dont have a basement dungeon because I live in the basement, well I guess that counts but iin an odd way. I dont have a car because while I finish up these classes I need to live with my parents, and frankly I need to save up and take some of these extra 'special driving lessons' they sometimes offer people. Lets face it, if you spend the first ten yars of your life taking speical therapy sessions to learn how to catch a ball, and STILL cant do it properly, it may be a good idea to invest in your skills at the wheel further. As far a being a Master go I will say that I am more than simply the guy who will call you trash, humiliate you and lock you in a cage, and as far as my life itself goes odds are that anyone who ends up with me is going to have to overcome my general quirkyness. I dont forsee giving up on D&D or video games in the next few decades, I get an SSI check and have no job thanks to living in a small town with a university and two high schools, and quite frankly I think I look a bit too scruffy lately, but then the plus side of that is that if you can find somone who can see past all that, your set for life.

On an unrelated note, I have decided that having younger brohters with over a decade in age gap really prepares you for having kids of your own. Watching my brothers grow has given me an insight into what to do, and what not to do. The fact that I want to scream and beat my head into a wall till the drywall is stained red when trying to babysit my spoiled youngest brother for my mother because my jerk of a stepfather is not picking up his end of the slack like he should has nothing to do with it really. Kids are, quite frankly, great. The only gripe I have is that kids programming today sucks, I say we put 'Thundercats' and 'David the gnome' back on the air, after all it has to teach you more than 'Dora the explorer' or any of that crap. Between that and 'no child left behind' I can see the events of the movie 'Idiocracy' taking place in our lifetime.

WOO HOO! YAY FOR SHODDY FOOTWARE! A club at my school, the only one to which I belong, decided to collect money for the charity 'Childs Play' today, but its a small campus with few people coming in or out and now commons. Just one building, or at least one main buildling, within 30 miles. So what did I do? I had the bright idea to walk all over that buildling, going into every room and asking, or rather verbally mugging, people to get donations. I think I will probalby have a hit out on me after today but we made 100 bucks for the charity and thats waht counts. Problem is that these rip off DMs I love so much really hourt when you walk around that much in one go when they arnt broken in. All I can say is they had better not blow this money on some crappy game like HALO because I worked too hard and frankly these poor kids suffer enough.

YOUMACON `07................. MAN did this suck. I dont know if it was the fact that everyone was dressed as a naruto cahracter, or the fact that there really wasnt much to do, or how expensive it was that got to me, but I dont think I will be doing this for a while. Interesting note was that there were a few couples who were obviously D/s in one way or another, and managed to work it into their cosplay, but all that really does is make single people, like myself, feel kind of lonely as well as deepen the feelings of sadness that people actually take the time to make these costumes. Though the guy dressed as the mech from 'samurai pizza cats'... I dont know that one just confused me. Still I learned to play 'munchkin' and I picked up a new sword. But for now, I guess I just want to go home, fire up my Wii, and pretend this weekend did not happen. If anyone asks, I phased out of existence Thursday and phased back in late Sunday.

The closer you get to finishing a degree the more you realize grades dont matter. Sure it is important to get good grades but there are so many factors that enter in to the real job that dont enter into class, and while you do get the information in class to deal with your job what is really going to prepare you is the on the job training, and the practice. What sucks though is the attempt to find a real job. Finding work itself is not hard, especially when you have a stepdad who works on homes, but people dont realize how iportant a steady, normal job can be. Honestly I blame the state and national government for letting corperations run them, and for not funding the schools the way they should. Better schools = large number of good employees in one state = that state gets more work. oversimplification i know but its true

James Dobson is evil, just a quick note. The man is totally antitheme to what Jesus talked about, and is no better than the leaders who condemned him to death, in fact he has the exact same mentality. The man is so obsessed with how 'evil' Homosexuality is and so blind to the plight of the less fortunate even within our borders its disgusting. I implore any of you out there who are christian, read the bible then take this mans works and words in context, he is a dangeorus false prophet, and twists the words of our lord for his own use. I am sorry I can't go into more detail, as it would take too much time and I would have to find too many htings to site but the basic fact of the matter is that the man, and others like him in focus on the family and elsewhere harm the faith, harm humanity and harm themselves. If nothing else, please, take what these men say with a grain of salt, and remember it was the 'religoius right' and 'moral majority' of Jesus' time that killed him, and that was what he fought against.

well it seems Halo 3 is out, which leads me to the question, are there any submissives or slaves on this site so strongly enough into suffering and degredation that they will actually buy this game and play it? I know that this comment may confuse many people and probably provoke some flames but hear me out. Halo is hwat happens hwen you take the works of Orson Scott Card and books like 'starship troopers' and use it to rip off Metroid. Allow me to deconstruct this overhyped abomination of a game. First there is the overall gameplay, which is standard FPS fare but with rather bland generic weapons spiced up with just a bit of a light show. Covenent weapons are boring at best and ripoffs at worst. now I can understand that perhaps some people enjoy the challage or realism of disposable weapons and a more realistic weapon capacity but honestly, truely, do we need a laser rifle that works like an M1garand with plasma rounds? The rather pathetic excuse for a sword and the regenerating armor give a bit of innovation but not enough to justify how bland it feels otherwise.

The space pirates, im sorry 'covenent' do have a decent AI set, but the difficulty scale creates a rather laughable learning curve. The game goes from far too easy on one setting to shokcingly hard on the next one up with little slope even if you beat the previous setting. That mixed with the almost non exsistant AI of your fellow mariens really tends to kill immersion. I owuld like to think that humanity will not devolve to the point where we get killed for our inabiltiy to seek cover in the middle of a fire fight.

Aside from a story that reads like an eight grader trying to rewrite Enders Game, the B movie voice acting and cheesy lines really serve to make you regret having to sit though them. Mix that in with the annoying little chibi pirate munchkin covenent, Eleits that look almost exactly like every representation of space pirate from Metroid and the Head crab... im sorry the 'flood' just make it feel like cobbled togeather bits and peices of other Sci Fi, which in turn breaks alot of the immersion.

Level design in single player works well enough, though compared to Games like Half life 2 the innovatoin is lacking, and it feels like the the only thing they really added was a bit of a graphical touch up in that department, Its great eye candy dont get me wrong but thats only going to go so far. Games like oblivion easily blow HALO away, and even morrowind and half life 2 had more innovatoin in level design, Halo just looked nicer.

Sound wise the game was decentish, but nothing spectacular at all, If anything its just a decent point in an otherwise sub par game, my one complaint is that the laser weapons all sound about the same and guns, as always sound alike, and the covenent voices blend togeather, but otherwise it adds good atmosphere, not noticable but not bad enough to distract.

Multiplayer is just a joke, where the poor weapons, laughable multi player level designs and the simple fact that some malasian 12 year old is going to come on and insult you in netspeak while beating the pants off of you seems like nothing more than a laughable, or it would if it was not so painful.

The only thing I see Halo 3 offering is an ending, and honeslty the story from 1 and 2 were both so weak I dont see why anyone would pay for it. I understand the deep psychological need for the full cycle of hte monomyth but its really not that vital, especially when you can play adventrising which is like halo, only with more creative attacks, better gameplay, and a story that WAS written by orson scott card instead of ripped off of his work.

I could go on, but those are my basic feelings on the game. I really dont see the facination other than makret hype.

I finally got my WII and metroid prime3, and I am SOOOOOO happy. I know most people will not understand, but honestly this is the kind of system you want to build a hyperbaric chamber for. The look is small, sleek, and very cute to be perfectly frank. I love the common thread of the simple rectangle with a knotch in it similar to an SD card, the simple faceplate with the lighting around a CD drive that automaticly takes in the disks, Everything about the WII just screams simple, cute, and amazing. I have tried a bit of the 360, but not the PS3, and I will tell you the WII is the best of them. It goes toe to toe with the other two systems but still has an innovative new feater as opposed to beefed up 'more of the same' construction and it costs alot less. It dose not have the EXACT same support from 3rd party titles but honestly with all the new games coming out for the 360 going to PC at some point, for the same cost one can build or upgrade a computer to beat it. the PS3 on the ohter hand will not have the same ports, but I advise you to wait untill it drops in price.

Side note, I have talked to a few people here who are or know people within the autistic spectrum and I have to say it is a refreshing feeling to talk to people about it. The older I get the more I realize how much my autism has seperated me, though the things that are my autism are still me in my mind. It dose get frustrating when dealing with people and my family in particual gets rough because I don't understand what they want or need and They don't understnad what I want or need. Still when all is said and done I like who I am, and would not trade it for anything in the world.

You know I have a thing for mouse girls. Some like Pony play or puppy play or Kitten play, I like mice. I really can?t help it I guess, as far as animals go mice fit right in there with the kind of girl I have always been attracted to. First off they are just so cute and tiny. Dogs I like ok but they are too energetic, and cats just tend to be too needy most of the time. A shy, bookish, meek little mouse is always preferable in my mind and frankly I think that they are really overlooked in many ways. It makes you wonder why people restrict themselves to a handful of animals when they decide what a sub/subbie will be or for that matter in most situations. Maybe it simply is not advertised as often about what things people pick when matching an animal to a personality but still I think its something to stop and consider a moment at least.

You know, Its late, Im tired, This damn acid reflux or whatever is keeping me from laying in my bed to get a decent nights sleep and The most insane thoughts are going though my head. So here they are.

I wonder why I have yet to see a profile here that says something along the lines of "ths 1 iz Pwnd!".... Submissives and netspeak seem like they would work so well togeather righit now.

Are you more of a geek or a badass if you have 'Beowulf' tatooed on your back. I dont mean the word, I mean the epic in its entirty, in really fine print.

Why is it that I can watch Hells kitchen, the F word and kitchen ngihtmares and feel my palet improoving simplyy via osmosis. I am a vegetarian and should NOT know automaticly what meats go with what simply because I watch his show. Its kind of creeepy.

The Skrull plotline slated to run late this year is basicly going to ruin World war hulk. There I said it. Beause Tony stark and Reed Richards wont get the whooping they so VERY richly deserve it makes one wonder why they ran WWH to begin with.

Paladins suck. There I said it. Lawful good alignment sucks to play unless you shift it and have some tragic event in your life... and whats more its annoying having somone there who always pesters you wtih the need to work though the system while your intimidating a guard out of his keys to free a political prisoner. The fact that they shouldnt even be able to BRING their mount into most Dungeon crawls is just an added frustration.

Halo is the most over-rated under-developed POS game I have ever seen. The environments dont make up for Gameplay that barely imiproves off of doom, uninspired weapons and a game difficulty that shifts from laughable to insane if you go up one step. The only saving grace I see for this game is the multi player online setup. Frankly if I want to lose a game to a 12 year old ill wait two years and play my own little brother in guitar hero. at least then i wont have to deal with idiodic prophanitys.

There are no X-box exclusivs anymore. Games just come out for the PC a few mounths later. Once again rerason to NOT buy a 360. Consols should be designed as consols not as an akeard gaming PC that replaces the functionality of a computer with hype and..... hype.

Furcadia will never ever die. I have attempted that second life crap and its too complicated, and it costs money. There is no reason at all to mess with it, none. Furcadia is better for you anyways, if you are not a furry its simply beecasue your scared. let go of that fear.

And now considering how late it is and how tired I am, I imagine that Everyone will wonder what was wrong w ith me when I posted all this. Honestly its probalby a good insight into the inner workings of my mind.

my profile dosent really fit me as well as I would like, so im trying to write something better. its hard though because I havent been in the mood to write lately. I watched something on TV though that reminded me of my great grandmother. She helped raise me while my mother went though nursing school and she died only two mounths ago. Its been hard since then to really deal with things and so I have been struggling with any form of writing. I hope to have something up soon though, along with a picture of myself. I guess I just really need to get my act togeather.

On a lighter observation, why is it that people have an 'advent children' AMV for EVERY Blind guardian song? Go check out youtube if your a fan, type in any of their new songs and chances are you will find a music video set to advent children. I mean dont gett me wrong I adore advent children and guardian is one of the best bands still going today but honesltyy how did it get this far?

Ok Picture it:

A Black/Blue deck focused around control/discard. Use migrem and copy enchantments to cause massive life loss with each discard, and Throw out Dream halls to both create mana flexability and possably tempt your foe to take life loss on a gambit to throw out some big mean creature or spell. Liberal use of Two cost spells to make use of Isochron scepter, things like Counterspell and dash hopes to keep things from coming out, after all who dosent like to deny the big bad spells/creatures and rebound because it will make them think twice about burn spells. Now throw in a few nightscape apprentecis and familiars for low-end creatures, and empress Llawan for her alter reality fueled bounce capability and Szadek, Lord of Secrets for your own all else fails attacking and blocking... thats the basis of my newest deck.

And yes, I play Magic:the Gathering... ALOT. I just figured this was the best way to let people know.

Well, I decided to sign up here to try and meeet some people and ease myself into the more social aspect of the lifestyle more than anything, at least a bit. So why is it that I am already obsessed with this hexxagon game? Its really addictive. Met some nice people in the chat rooms though, and one person who literally understands my disorder. I must say this site has yeilded nothing but good things so far.... though Ill say again that hexxagon game is just TOO addictive.

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