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Just received this. So I now take back what I said earlier--patience pays off. I didn't want this one to get away and lo and behold, she's overcoming her reluctance: 

"Hi there Master Nate. I hope you're not angry with me for not responding to your messages. I did get them but chose not to, trying to let this go. It still riddles me with shame sometimes. Since the whole wooden spoon thing I didn't do much for a while. I wanted to regain some respectful control if that makes sense. Wanted to stop creaming my panties and thinking about all the dirty things that went flashing through my mind. But now I find my thoughts leading me back to this again after trying to avoid it. If you choose to still speak to me please send me a message. I've been raking my brain for two days now, looking for something that can make me feel as good as I did while following your orders. But my cunt is rebelling and my frustration building. I even did everything over again, from the pillow fucking to the wooden spoon but to no avail. Just typing the word fucking to you makes me feel something I swear. I hope you get this and that we can go on where we stopped. Tell me what you want me to do, what you want me to think while doing it. I feel better after typing this message and a little horny. I'll be waiting for your reply Master Nate.

Your cunt, 

xxxxx"

(No I won't say who she is. I don't kiss and tell like that).

Happy Chinese New Year, indeed!

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It seems to me that some people using this site are only on here when they feel very horny. In other words, it's not a way of life for them. Perhaps guilt settles in after a particularly nasty online domination session? Or people move on to try another Dom's style as well, I suppose. 

I have to say I really dislike it when people fill up their journal entries with complaints about CollarMe or online fucking in general. I accept that it's a crazy, insane wilderness, and I'm prepared for literally any situation. But I am making an observation, and a statement that it's important to be up front about whether you intend to be online and engaged often, so a Dom can make  serious investment in training you, or whether this is an occasional thing, just for when you're bored or lonely. Just so there are no misunderstandings. I'm happy with either--one of my best fucktoys here is someone I've known since 2008, and she comes and goes with irregularity. But I understand her life situation so I am OK with that. 

I read Jezebel. All the time. I like it! I also read Wonkette and to a lesser extent, Gawker. I like snarky writing.  

But, one thing I find kind of funny, reading the comments on some of the stories posted there: people keep throwing around the words "patriarchal" and "paternalistic" like they're BAD THINGS. And that's not necessarily the case. 

OK, I've updated my profile with pictures!

Some of them are obviously of me, or of me with someone. The others are things that interest me.

One of the things I do for a living is teach college students. I've been doing this for around 6 years now, starting in my late 20s. One adage in the profession is that while you get on in years, your students never age. (Beloit College even publishes an annual "mindset" list to bring professors up to speed on what this year's incoming freshman are like in terms of life experiences). 

I bring this up because I believe we're witnessing a real sea change in behavior. When I was in college (and I went to a party school), things were raunchy, there were hookups, we had that one girl in our dorm that gave everyone handjobs, etc. Things are different now. I've noticed it in just the past few years. Casual lesbianism is now a norm. Having a waxed pussy is as well. Anal is no longer "kinky" it is standard. Instead, kink is now, actually, kink. College kids are going to Giggles or whatever your local sex shoppe is called and buying butt plugs, crops, strapons, handcuffs. It's not "edgy" to own sex toys. Your average girl probably doesn't enjoy facials, but she knows it's part of the job now. 

Why, I wonder? Was it the invention of Flash, making online porn ubiquitous? Was it Katy Perry's "I Kissed a Girl?" Or Lady Gaga's "Telephone"? Who knows? Who cares? 

I do play with women my age or older. I'm not in a mid-life crisis (yet). Hell, I'm only 32 but I'm already writing "in my day" journal entries. I embrace the aging process. 

But I do spend most of my time, online at least, playing with college-aged girls. It's just worked out that way. And I wonder where all of this is headed. I mean, if everyone has a bald pussy, will a hairy bush be considered edgy? Will chastity make a comeback? What happens when most teenage girls in America have watched 10+ hours of hardcore pornography before they reach the age of 18? Will my tastes change to reflect these changes? 

I think I'm developing a preference for what I'd call a "virtual slut." Someone who is actually not very experienced, a virgin even, who's read tons of erotica and masturbates 3 times a day, at least once to porn, but whose hymen is still fully intact. A total skank and slut, completely willing and obedient, but saving herself for the right Dom. 

I think it's sad that now, wedding nights have zero suspense. And the whole "can't see the bride before the wedding" thing? Kind of hard to do when you're already living together. What, you go and check yourself into a hotel the night before? Not quite the same thing.

I think I'd like to take a woman's virginity on our wedding night. Very old-fashioned, I know. But despite being a depraved pervert, I think I'm beginning to realize I'm actually quite conservative when it comes to certain things. 

So, on the to-do list: find a woman who is fluent in sex, has extensive knowledge of it and is extremely kinky, but who has never fucked a man (sex with girls never counts). You know who you are! And I know a few of you already, so I know you're out there. Keep it up! Fight the good fight!

In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy watching some more HazeHer.com porn.

I'm watching reruns of The Office (USA) on Netflix. I'm really drawn to the character of Angela. She was raised by a very strict father, and she is very well-organized, judgmental, tightly wound. Your first impression of her is that while quiet, she is very "Type A" and a ball-buster. 

But no, what she really wants is to be caged and totally dominated. 

I like this kind of woman. 

There's a good chance I'm going to spend this coming summer in Europe. Work will take me there, and I'll likely travel through multiple countries. Looking forward to it for all of the obvious reasons, but also because I'd love to see what BDSM is like over there...

I think it's fair to say that when playing online, lots of things don't really matter. 

Things such as life habits, worldview, goals, ambitions, etc. don't have to filter through in an online session. It's one of the things that I so enjoy about fucking online. People I probably would not find attractive, or have much in common with, but who do have something to their personality that, when isolated and focused on, I can connect with. 

In real life, I wouldn't tolerate drug use in a sub, nor heavy piercings, and definitely not tattoos (you're my property, after all, and all of these things lower your value). But online, what do these things matter? 

I tend to be bookish and very in to politics, certainly not every girl's cup of tea. And yet I've abused and degraded women who I would not connect with at all, were I to meet them in real life. 

Obviously it's always a big plus when it turns out I can connect with someone on multiple levels. But I like that being online expands the realm of possibilities. 

A new year, and things are off to a good start.

I've had women perform for me on cam quite a bit, and that's sort of par for the course given my interests. Today, I jerked off on cam for someone else--not as a switch, but because I wanted to make her watch me and get me off. It was a nice new experience and I enjoyed it. I think I'll want to do it again some time. 

Also, it's very interesting to see Gingrich cosy up to Santorum in his speech tonight. I wonder where that will lead.

Should I start keeping a journal? Sure, why not.

I doubt I will do it with any consistency, however.

Let's see...I've been in touch with my Dominant side for 3 years now, or thereabouts. It's funny--I look back to prior failed relationships (ahh, the misspent early 20s, sigh...) and I notice that I've always attracted shy, submissive types, but before I was too much of a nice guy to fulfill all of their needs. I am attracted to smart, ambitious, disciplined, motivated women, and for the longest time I imagined that they all wanted total equality in every thing. 

Whoops.

(Oh and failing any of the above character traits, simply a great body and a cheerful personality will do; finding women online has certainly expanded my horizons! Not to sound like an asshole or anything, but I've connected with and genuinely enjoyed the company of many other kinds of women from this and other sites, not just former double comparative lit/anthropology graduates of Vassar College).

So I think what I've most enjoyed, in my three years of adventures on this and other sites (mostly babblesex, where people don't really go to meet up in real-life but for cyber and roleplaying), are those women who were just total depraved perverts regardless of anything else going on in their lives (and I rarely learned or cared to learn what else was going on), or those who were like the types mentioned above--successful, driven, accomplished, and having to come to terms with the fact that unless they are humiliated and degraded, or at the very least positioned to eagerly seek out and give pleasure, their lives are incomplete. I had to come to this conclusion, over time, and so I most often "gel" with women who've had a similar journey. 

But, being a man, I'll also just fuck anyone who wants to fuck, without any deeper probing of our psyches, backgrounds, wants & needs, purpose of life, etc. 

OK that's all for now.

I saw this on someone's profile and liked it: 

"Simplify things. When you serve your Master, simply it to his cock. It is his cock you serve. And not even his cock. Just cock. The pure object...Then you follow those thoughts into the response: I am just cunt. I am my Master's cunt. I am cunt for cock."