LydiaSciKitten


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	About LydiaSciKitten First and foremost, will NOT answer to inarticulate one liners. Please, stop it. And also, I have a Master. I go by the name of Lydia, and I am a Cambridge university student. Moving recently in the UK, I left my beloved scene and contacts behind, and feel slightly lost and bereft. I am currently seeking a good Dominant to help me get to know the local scene without being assaulted, as I tend to be, and offer me some more experience. My interests include psychological domination, spanking/flogging, worship, corset training and especially breathplay. IMPORTANT: I am under Collar of Consideration with a Master I have been with for over a year, but since I have moved away, and until He joins me, I have His official permission to seek experience and improve myself. Yet, keep in mind I maintain a relationship with Him, and am not available for a relationship more profound than temporary protection or Domination, in the absense of my Master. My pros include intellect, culture, sensuality, natural submissiveness, craving for new knowledge and the will to be improved and corrected. Cons include stubbornness, and maybe a bit too much self-love. Lydia

IMPORTANT: To all those I have been in contact with, and mostly those that are my real-life friends that I promised to keep updated, and have not replied to for a long time, please understand that I am in a very special situation, with very little opportunity to focus on much else than deciding about my immediate future. I will reply to you all once I have some space to breathe.

And so I am back to floating detachedly above life, nothing really reaching or interesting me except from my academia. Impatiently awaiting for the next time something can sweep me off my feet. I miss feeling something else but the enjoyment of composing music or solving equations. I need something intense and real.

AND what are you that, missing you,
I should be kept awake
As many nights as there are days
With weeping for your sake?

And what are you that, missing you,
As many days as crawl
I should be listening to the wind
And looking at the wall?

I know a man that's a braver man
And twenty men as kind,
And what are you, that you should be
The one man in my mind?

Yet women's ways are witless ways,
As any sage will tell,?
And what am I, that I should love
So wisely and so well?

I've always loved this poem. But never before had I felt such an affinity for its actual theme.

Can you talk about Bach and Boyd Rice with me? Can you appreciate different kinds of sundried tomatoes? Have you watched The Night Porter, Salo or The 120 Days of Sodom? Can you look refined but brutal under a visor cap? Do you have articulate views on politics, bioethics, determinism? I am sure you can't.
So how can I forget that man that so beautifully could...?

All this tenderness has come to nothing
All that we require is being rearranged
I've no wish to look to the future
For my expectations will no doubt be changed

What is the chance of us living
Some of our simplest dreams
Are all the structures we build here
Really as frail as they seem

...

From 'Nothing at all' by Anne Clark

I miss you.
But I can't afford to think of you.
Too much.

A bit like Europe after WW2, I feel like I need to get myself back together, rebuild, and learn. But also unlike it, I refuse to be seen as a void of power, an opportunity to be seized. I will not let anyone from the outside define me, change me. The ones that have power over me do so because I willingly chose to let them. And I don't regret having made myself so vulnerable even though I am now hurting, because the strenght I needed to manage to open myself up will forever more make me a better person.

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