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hello been gone awhile life does that to you ...you get caught up in your life and time flyes by . I am working more theses days so my life is almost at a stand still in other aspects . but soon I hope to change that . more later |
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hello again everyone it seems most people have their little click on here and if your not a part of it you can get in on the conversations but your opinion still does not matter. yes I am a slave but I still very much have a brain just because I am with someone who in most controls my life I would not be where I am if I did not allow it so you see one does not need to be stupid to wear a collar ..it is not always yes Master ,no Master when we talk there are times He learns things from me as well ...education goes both ways in this life style other wise there would just be Men and woman who control mindless blobs .now if that is what you want more power to you . |
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well hello again ,I went into two different rooms tonight and was ignored for the most part after the usual greetings . it seems things have not changed with people even online people are rude to people they do not know. if you wish to make friends then one must talk to those who you just met not ignore them . |
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hello people it has been awhile as you can tell most people have a life outside of the computer,I myself work full time and I am still a mother and wife first and formost . while at this time it seems everything else is taking over me I still love to play yet when we do have time it seems to be few and far between . I question myself sometimes as to if i am being a good slave by not taking time to play every week then my job calls or one of my grown kids needs me or i am too tired from a long day of working you can not add hours to each day i wish i could .when there seems to be a little time we spend it as we want to everyday yet are unable just us Master and slave those are the most precious moments in our lifes right now . i see alot of people who say they are willing to do anything yet never really take the time no matter how small the time might be to bond to grow and to love . well i may not write in here every day but i will try to write more . |
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life outside of the chatrooms seem to pull me more and more ,life right now is very busy . this girl has played the game of it just is not the time or plce to make friends with you because your married . ok so i wear a wedding ring i am NOT dead why is it ok for a married man to find and play with another woman but when a married woman does it she is a slut? do you live with me ? are you married to me ? to know what aggreement we have about our marriage is something you must ask both of us not just one . to think I am going behind the back of the Man I married 16 years ago is on your part stupid . I hide nothing from him and He from me our world is intertwined in more then just our marriage , to say we know each other well is a small statement to say the least .there have been those who thought they knew but found they were not even close. I can be a fun loving person or push my buttons wrong and I can be a very big Mega Bitch. to find friends on a BDSM site when your married is hard because most think your just here to cheat on your spouse. please think about it we have been married for 16 years why would I need to cheat when he appartently makes me happy in all the right ways that count . some people are just so close minded about those who are married and in the lifestyle . look at it this way if your dating or living with someone and your on this site seeking another is that not cheating ? at least i am honest with people and do not hide the fact nor do i play little games like i will leave my husband for you ... grow up people this is an Adult site seems we need more adults . |
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well I have been busy of late with moving and other things. yet when I returned to this site it seems nothing has yet to change , there are still those who think they are better then others and then there are those who play thier little head games. just because someone is in the lifestyle does not mean it gives others the right to prey on them, if your going to place yourself on this site at leaset be honest with everyone in what it is you seek and if you seek something other then long term or friend ship then maybe you need to look else where this is not a sex site nor is it a pick up site for those looking for one nighht stands . most think because your in the lifestyle and a female slave or sub your here for sex ...hate to bust your little bubble but it is not and I repeat not sex ,you must understand there is a spiritually ,an emotally as well as a physical aspect to this lifestyle and to only have one is just not what most seek from others who truely are into this lifestyle . for those who speak to me I am a slave who is collared by my Husband and nothing you promise will change that so stop trying . friendship is all I seek can you not understand that or are you that stupid???? when I enter a room it is for friendship not sex not a Master ,so give it up try looking for others who want to talk about their experences and how everyone is different and learn you just might find yourself enjoying the true company of others on this site . |
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hello everyone .to greeting everyone is polite yet at times it seems to be a waste of time . some do not care if you greet them while others do .so it would seem that the first thing one should say in a room is starts recording ....greetings to those who want them and none to those who do not seem to care..... yes i am very tired of being little miss polite to all . i am learning that a lot of people on ever site i visit are either true or players , so i am going to just watch and see if i want to continue to visit these sites or just walk away
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well it has been a few days since i wrote in here as you can tell i no longer speak third person ,i am still a slave however i have dropped the third person talk. life has continue to go on weither i am active in the lifestyle or weither i put it on the back burner . you see the is life out side of collarme ,alt and all the other BDSM sites . i am trying to live my life in the now instead of waiting around for people to deciede what and who they are where the lifestyle is concern . i see it this way either you are in the lifestyle to learn proper or you think being in BDSM is another way to get laid . if it is the second one then i feel sorry for you because your missing out on alot this is a way of life and to think so little and with just your cock or pussy is wrong . this is spiritual as well as physical and metal so if it is a quick fuck you seek i would suggest a bar . to speak the truth hmmm for some the lies over ride the truth in their life . if your going to be with one person and your going to trust this person with your well being do you not think it would be wise to be truthful in everything you say to them ? it is like a normal relatesonship if you want it to work you must be honest . trust is not something you should give freely to everyone you meet in r/t or on the internet to do so is signing your death warrent . ok so i feel there are some who are here for a quick fuck and some who enjoy head games ,then you have others such as myself who speak the truth and still have others trying to play them ...give it up i am not stupid because i am a slave please . does it say door mat on my forehead ? think not . okay so i am done preaching now have a great week all .
lubhyat
SLRN#300-800-451
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well it seems some things have changed on here ...now when you go into a room if they do not know you they do not speak to you not even if your polite and say hello to everyone in the room . seems some people will never grow up.
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well today is this girl's 40th birthday and to say she feels different would be a lie .no this girl feels nothing she is still a slave she is still a mother of five and a grandmother of one with two on the way .so to say this girl feels different or older would be lieing and she is not about to lie . the age of someone should not matter but the heart and soul should . have you ever heard someone say my heart feels old? the only thing this girl has ever heard is someone say they feel their soul is old . think about that . ok so that is all for now .
lubhyat
SLRN#300-800-451
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wow have you ever took the time to go through and just read different profiles on her ? well this girl has and to tell you the truth some of them have made me laugh some had made me have questions for that person and some just made me want to scream. the ones that made me want to scream were ones asking for a younger slaveor sub under 30 as if the older slaves are not worth anyone's time. this girl is proud of her age and feels it is not your age that should matter but how much a slave or sub is will to give to a relatsonship. if one can not give them self completely would it not mean they are what most call a weekend sub/slave? for to them the rest of the week is for the vanilla world . at time this girl just wants to scream because it makes those of us who want something deeper then sex or a weekend session look bad . if one is into the lifestyle is there not a way to have both a vanilla life and also live as a slave or sub ? this girl can live her vanilla life yet she is always a slave in all that she does or says .there is not a switch on this girl that can be turned on and off it does not work like that .that would be like saying you are only a parent when it suits you to be one . with every thing this girl has read the last couple of days she is beginning to wonder if this site is just like alt only using a different name .
lubhyat
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greetings today this girl seems to have the attention of several Doms on this site ,yet it seems they can not truely understand how this girl is feeling and how to help . sorry just the fact only you know how your feeling and why your feeling that way . life throws everyone a curve ball now and then and it seems this girl has gotten quite a few thrown at her. thtis girl is not into playing games not pretending she is something she knows she is not . the truth is harder for some to speak then it is for others . this girl has not and will not hide the truth for you . life is too short to try to remember lies . so with that said this girl hopes to find friends who are willing to just listen and not play head games with her . just because this girl looks at your profile does not mean she wants to play , this girl enjoys reading how others view the lifestyle nothing personal it is just how this girl is . so before you email or pm her know this she is happily married and will not be leaving him anytime soon . or anytime in the future . thank you for taking the time out to read this . lubhyat SLRN#300-800-451 |
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this slave feels lost ,she feels alone , she is scared to move for she is alone. this slave feels sad her life feels over yet her heart still beats it waits to be woke up by someone who can bring fire to her heart to her body to her soul.
lubhyat
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well it's a new day and this girl is feeling much better. went into the room tody for a bit but felt out of place so did not stay. feels as if everyone is waiting for this girl to fall apart. well not going to happen . it's sunday here and this girl is cooking a ham dinner. instead of being on her computer she is on her husbands he is downloading and copying movies to dvd on her's . it is a raining day here so going for a walk is out so sitting in our room just looking out the window as this girl types this. now that this girl has a Master hopefully things will get better and she will get in more play time ...yeah right .miss feeling the flogger hit my skin the feeling this girl gets when she has been flogged is more then she can put into words. doing other things as a slave but not being able to play is not something this girl wants to continue . a bored slave is not a good slave . this girl has read alot of other slaves blogs and wonders how they can truely say they are happy when their master's do not spend time with them other then to give them orders for house work or other chores if there is no together time does one not start to think she has done something to displease master?
this girl feels as though at times people take advanage of her being a slave thinkning she is a slave there for she can do it all so i do not dirty my hands or break one of my nails .
this girl may be a slave but she is not everyone's slave she serves One and only One. however she has never really felt she is serving him to the best of her ability. it is girl starting to question herself? the answer is yes
when you live as this girl does you question alot of things going on in your life but that does not mean your unhappy .
well it is another day and this girl must get things done for they will not get done by anyone else. the house does not clean it's self nor does the laundry. thanks for taking the time to read what this girl puts in this blog noone really reads and time to get back to work ...which is what this girl does best. lubhyat #300-800-451 |
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well this girl got a good scare tonight on CM and thinks for her peace of mind she will not enter the cht rooms for a few days. those who were in the room know but it is just how this girl feels .everyone says don't let it get to her yet they do not know ,the last person everyone told this girl not to worry about got ahold of her and almost killed her so to her it means something . sorry if it seems this girl is running but until she feels safe once more here she will only check her mail . this girl however does want to thank IRCop for helping her tonight. the one room this girl felt safe is now a place she must stay away from . lubhyat#300-800-451 |
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well it's another day in the life of this slave and as it goes this girl is still learning ,one thing this girl is learning is to know when not to speak her mind to certain people. it seems some want to take advanadge of theis girl because she is a slave. it is not for others to seek this girl out and expect just because they are a Dom she will allow them to speak to her like a dog. for one get over yourself even though you claim to be a Dom gives you no right to this girl or any others out there who are sub/ slave . this girl for one does not take kindly to be talked to in such a manner you expect respect from a slave then by all means show respect. there are those this girl has spoken to who seem to think she is here for sex well just let this girl make it clear to everyone .... Sex is not something this girl wants if that was the case she has a husband with whom she can have sex with at any given time . so you have a big ...thingie who cares this girl does not . those who knows this girl knows she can do very well without ever having sex again . so please don't bother trying to talk to this girl about what type of sex she wants it is not her who wants it but you who ask . does this girl not make this clear enough for you ? if not just do not bother talking to her in fact do not bother checking out her profile . this girl has tried to be a nice person to people on here yet there seems to be this thing called we do as we please even when it come to the lifestyle well this girl is one who follows protocol so do not waste her time or yours trying . |
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well it has been awhile since this girl last wrote here so here we go .....this girl has agreed to take BigJuneFlirt as her Daddy,however we are still in the beginning stages and we are taking it slow that way if for some reason it does not work out we part as friends . most start out fast and end up getting hurt this girl has learned to do things at her own pace. we talk alot and are trying to agree on things however his work is keeping him busy right now. so we really are going slow. there is never the perfect person in this world and like others this girl has made mistakes and is trying to learn from them . for those who have made it work for them good , for those still seeking give it time don't rush if it is ment to happen it will. well that is it for now thanks for reading this .
lubhyat
SLRN#300-800-451
p.s.. for those who might not know this this girl is a SLAVE not a sub |
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well as some of you know this girl had a dinner date last night however it did not happen due to this girl falling and hurting her ankle.however he did come over and check on me and we were able to talk. things to me are going ok but there is still alot we both need to learn of each other,as in most cases there are things this girl does not care for that he does and she is sure there are things he does not care for that she does.this is a learning experence on both our parts it is to find out if we will be good for each other or if we would be better with someone else. time will tell until then we will continue to talk ansd see how things go but for now we are just getting to know each other.
lubhyat
SLRN#300-800-451 |
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well this is a little update went on a dinner date with a local Dom and the evening started out pretty quiet, then over drinks we talked about things which we both seek.there were times during the conversation this girl felt at ease then there were times this girl felt very uncomfortable ,however during these times we talked about why the feelings of be uncomfortable was there the time seem to go by fast and soon he was saying good night .this was no date itwas a time to see if we had the same goals the same likes and dislikes,yet at times this girl forgot why we were having dinnerand meeting.this girl was pleased with how well things went and a second "date" has been set up. and yes for those who know me this girl dressed nice in a pants outfit. things were worked out that this girl had problems with where others were concern and her mind was put at ease. will there be a future for us well only time will tell. we are taking it slowly we do not want mistakes made and regret to enter the D/s relationship. at this time this girl is very pleased and will continue to speak to Him and we will just see where it leads.
lubhyat
SLRN#300-800-451 |
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well it's another day and this girl still feels lost at times. there seems to be times when she just wants to walk away from her life and then there are times she wants those who she cares for closer to her. this girl has met and talked to alot of people and still noone seems to truely get her. it is hard to put it into words yet at times this girl wants to however it may hurt others feelings so there for she does not. today it is nice out and people are enjoying the weather yet this girl can not . she feels trapped inside and has no way out .it is something she must live with. if this girl had a chance to change a few things in her life she would however at this time it is not right . there are reasons for everything that happens to someone and this girl is still trying to figure out what reasons there are for what is going on in her life. it seems my slave soul is dying and this girl feels very lost and alone ,the fire in her is almost gone will it ever flare back up or dye out all together? right not this girl is not sure but the thought of losing it scares her to death. time will only tell but in time it may be too late as well. the pain this girl feels inside is unbareable yet she must bare it alone . to lose that which means everything to you how does one recover? time will tell if it is to happen to this girl .
lubhyat
SLRN#300-800-451 |
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well this girl is not sure if things will ever change for her yet she does count her blessings and continues to seek that which seems to be out of her reach. the more profile this girl reads the more she wonders if what and how she is as a person has something to do with how others treat her? it seems this girl allows people the benifit of the doubt untill they step out of line before she understands they are not who they seem to be but then again all this online meeting makes it harder to look into someone's eyes and know if they mean what they say. you know the eyes are the window to the soul . please learn to tell the truth for your not hurting others the way your hurting yourself. you only get one real chance at happiness and only you know if what you type is true or lie . this girl does not hide anything from those she talks to yet by doing this it in returns is used against her . not wanting to be like others and turn into a lier yet tired of being played . so take the time to really get to know this girl not just for your purposes but to really know if what she does in her life is something you want in yours .
lubhyat
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well it seems life has hit this girl with another curve ball. her computer is going in for repair next week and will no doubt be gone for two weeks ,if not longer. people on here keep wanting to know id this girl is ok, however they only ask because they have a hidden motive when asking this girl that question. so this girl was lied to and made to think something that was not true ,she is over it for it is not worth her time or her energy . what is worth her time and energy is getting back into the swing of things and continuing her search for the One person she seeks. life will throw you curve balls it's how you catch them that counts .so when talking to this girl do not ask her how she is doing now or tell her your sorry for what happened to her just send her another curve ball and see what happens .
lubhyat
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seems there are those who enjoy hurting others. this girl learned today not to trust anyone, some people seem to live to hurt others. this girl is not one that will just sit back and allow someone to play her ,just because this girl is a slave and some think that means an easy target think again if you make this girl mad know this you better run ,don't mistake friendiless for stupid because this girl does have a temper when you think your going to get away with using her . this girl may only have a few years as a slave but a lifetime of knowledge and to try to treat her as if being new is in a way a easy target think again . this girl has learn from experence that there are those who are only out to get what they want and don't care who or what they hurt in the process of getting it . you know if people would really take the time out to talk to really talk to others on here they would find that most on here are real and their wants and desires my just be what you yourself are seeking in your life . instead we have those who wish to only hurt ,lie and use others . you know those people need to start a group called *users and abusers *motto * to use and abuse others ,to lie and make others believe all gthe trash that passes my lips as the truth * |
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ok for those asking about the wand and floggers my friend wants 600.00 for all. |
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this girl is putting a notice on here that she knows of someone wanting to sell their voilet wand with three floggers .anyone interested please contact this girl on here . thank you |
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for those who know this girl for some odd reason she can not access her lubhyat account on here so had to create a new one so please come to this one not the other one |
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