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These past few months have blown me away...  I can't believe you are finally ready.  I will be ready when you change your circumstances...

Thanks for reaching out.  I am blown away  that you contacted me  again out of the blue ...  not surprised though not after the last few weeks... what is old is new again...

Unbelievable  week...  all I can say is wow...  I think we know  where this is going ... thank you.

I wish I knwew what you want from me at this point under the circumstances -  I KNOW what you want LOL and you know what has to happen to make it work so ... you know how to reach me when you take care of your big mistake from last fall.

Unbelievable... all I have to say.  I can't believe you reached out to me again after everything... even more surposing is that I accepted you back on a limited basis meaning I will talk to you and be polite because that is who I am and I can't not be that way and you know that.  I just won't be foolish again.

Thank you for reaching out again.  It was great.

DO NOT contact me if you are going to propose anything illegal or if you are not local or within my preferences.  READ THE ENTIRE JOURNAL PLEASE.  Don't demonstrate you are an idiot by not following directions.

DO MOST PEOPLE ON THIS SITE JUST NOT KNOW HOW TO READ??  I am SERIOUS!  Do NOT view full profile if you are older than 40 and younger than 30 and outside of Virginia.  I also know I am just not attracted to non-caucasions.  There is nothing wrong with mixed relationships but I won't feel that chemistry and therefore neither will you so please let it go.  I already know off of that that I will NOT be interested. 

I am not even sure that this is for me any more.  I aim to please but not interested in pleasing creeps like several who have reached out to me.  If I respond favorably, you are not one of the creeps I am referring to.

I still am involved with my first Sir to a degree.  I hope to find someone new though.  I need a strong dom who is NOT a massive jerk.  You don't have to be an ass to be in control.  Frankly we subs are in control because we give you doms control and we can walk away thereby taking your control away so really, who is in charge?  If you want to own me, you have to earn that privilege. 

READ THE FUCKING JOURNAL.  IF YOU ARE OLDER THAN 40 OR YOUNGER THAN 3O AND NOT IN VIRGINIA DO NOT LOOK AT THE FULL PROFILE AND DO NOT SEND ME MESSAGES.  HOW HARD IS THAT?  I AM TIRED OF DELETING SHIT.  THANK YOU.

DO NOT VIEW FULL PROFILE IF YOU ARE OVER 40 OR NOT IN VIRGINIA PLEASE.  IT TAKES TIME TO CLEAR OUT THE VIEWERS TO KEEP THOSE I MAY BE INTERESTED IN TALKING TO DEPENDING ON MY OWNER.  THANK YOU.

Please read the entire journal before viewing my profile a second time... nobody older than 40 or younger than 30 please.  Also ONLY in VIRGINIA.  Thanks.

out with the old and in with the new.

I want  ULD and MistressKaren26 to know that if you want to test me and my obedience and loyalty before you make any decisions because this isn't something to rush into I'm ready.  I did what you asked me mistresskaren last night - froze my ass off but I did it and yes my nipples were hard as a rock.  I don't have a web cam but I do have a regular cam and can take some videos I can upload. It just takes time and please understand that we have had intermittent internet outtages.  Also know that sometimes I can't get pics with my new camera if the lighting is bad.   I hope to get a webcam for Christmas.  :)  I know I can pass any test you can lay on me.

I will always love my old dom and he will always be able to come to me for anything but I won't cheat and never have on anyone I have ever committed to. I am as loyal  as they come.  Cross me really badly though and it could get ugly.  I am intelligent and independent and punishment is one thing - once it crosses into abuse that is a whole nother story.  I know he can't say the same but that doesn't change how I feel about him.  I'm fine with sharing and poly if that is what we decide from the beginning but once it is stated monogomous that is what it is.   I am still in great stead with all of my exes.  You can stay friends.  There is never a need to not be polite.

A lot of changes are coming into my life soon and they appear to be very good so be ready for some big announcements.  I am hoping to make some decisions very soon.

One last thing again I have to say it if you are a dom male PLEASE put a pic of YOU and not the woman and if you can't do that don't even bother viewing me.  Thanks.

Let me be clear, if you are over 40, non-caucasion do not live in Virginia are a bisexual MALE bisexual females are great DO NOT EMAIL ME OR VIEW ME MORE THAN ONCE.  I have too many friends on this page so I am only going toaccept one more male friend and he knows who he is. If you are a hot femdomme, bisexual or lessbian and extremely controlling and not learning about bdsm , and we click, you're in too.

THANK YOU.

Wasn't sure if a certain someone hadd a clue but I do know now that he does and it's ok.  I am ready to totally submit to the right person and give it my all and then some.

I have never wanted anyone more than my old Dom so I am hoping I find someone who makes me feel the way he did when things were perfect.  Unless someone claims me soon, he can reclaim me while I am unowned.  I won't turn on a new owner.  I am always loyal and obediant.  I understand his hesitation but anything bad that didn't work had only to do with the his uncontrollable need for many women who aren't into this lifestyle so he needs even more women to satisfy this need.  Believe me I am enough woman for anyone.  My old Dom knows this and it didn't help. I still have no limits with him.   Nobody else would put up with what I did if they knew about his compulsion unless they were in denial.  I let him do or try anything with me.  All I need is time for him or my new domme/dom to really play.  My submission and slavery is a precious gift and I can take it away if I am abused.

I hope when he reads this entire journal and I hope he knows I never did anything to hurt him and never would.  Ijust want to please him or any owner.  I am about the easiest sub/slave  to own.  I always will be. 

• I swear some people on this site have no sense.  My old dom knows me better than just about anyone or anything he knows  and yet still doesn't have a clue.   I need to find the right owner soon.  I refuse to believe that he doesn't know.  I am hoping for a special invite from a special person tonight and he knows who.

My old dom was stupid to cast me aside. for so many reasons. We were so perfect together when he gavve me the time.  I want him to mold me and train me more.  I am willing to bet that I won't have to be punished one single time over a weekend if he gives me that chance.   I hope he knows he can get me back unless and until I am committed to another.  Right now I have 5 suiters but I am being very careful.  They all know how I feel about my Sir and that I am not technically owned unless Sir re-claims me.  Once I committ to another it is too late.  I don't break my word.  I am SO hoping for  a special invitation Monday night ... that I hope I get early enough to give my Sir a taste of what I have learned since last time.

As hard as this is to accept he wants no contact from me - at least not until I hear from him.  I hope I can do that as it is his wish.  His birthday is soon and I want to send him a happy birthday.  I am exactly what he has always wanted and desired and I wish he would see that and know I am totally ready to submit. Good bad and ugly.  I am ready to submit to the right person right now and not just him since he won't talk to me now.  I do love him though and whoever claims me has to accept that.

Its going to take a miracle  for me to get him back.  I wish I knew how to do it because he can be  tough to talk to and read sometimes..  If he would talk to me more and tell me more about what is going on, I would not make mistakes nor would he ever get hurt by me.

Also I am not looking for someone older than me.  My age or a tad younger please - man or woman as long as you are extremely dominant.  I wish I could forget him but i just can't seem to.  Please be the one who can make me forget if he refuses to accept that I am the perfect slave for him.  Thanks.

I hope all you doms and dommes out there truly appreciate what you have.  I have gone through troubled waters found the PERFECT dom for me even though it has been a very rocky road and I am not sure if I will ever be privliedged enough to serve him again.  I wish he really understood what unconditional love devotion and servitude really is because he has exactly what he has always been seeking in me.  The best part is that I didn't have to change a thing to be this way.  We love all the same things and did before we met.  He did open my mind up to two things and no BDSM is not one of those two - country music and nascar... the rest we both always loved so he made it easy for me to let him make all of the decisions and to serve him.  No matter what he does he can really do no wrong in my eyes even though there are others in his life because while he hurts me I can't not forgive him.  What I want is to be included in that... I want to be the no. 1,  I am more than enough woman and sub/slave for him and it is too bad he doesn't see that. 

Whether or not he chooses me as 24/7 ltr tpe permanantly and I get to serve him as I know he wants for the rest of my days, I will always love him and there is nothing I won't do for him no matter how he treats me.  No limits - FOR HIM .  There is a lot of good in him too.  He has done wrong by me many times, but I am not innocent either.  I have not done nearly as much and it was for good and understandable reasons, but I am still guilty of hurting him too.  I am so sorry for that.  All I seek is to please him or my new owner if that is how it ends up. 

I have done and will do things that I really don't enjoy doing except for and with him.  With him I enjoy it.  If I find the right new owner and he or she earns the same devotion I will be the same way.  We have everything in the Vanilla world in common which is how we came togther in the first place.  We both still do those things only separately and would have amazing experiences if we were doing it together.  I would make his and any owner's life so much easier because I learneda lot from him.  If I had my way I would work make enough money so he wouldn't have to and could live a life of leisure and  serve him when I got home and keep the house and all other responsibilities.... that is what total submission is about.  Neither of us ccould afford that now, but I'd love to be able to do that in spite of all the pain and other  things he has done to me that he knows was wrong.  I am extremely forgiving and hopeful that things will work out.   I am the only person in his life who really knows him and all the aspects and ins and outs  of his life and his dreams and desires and loves him in spite of it.  I am just that intuitive and picked up on things just from talking to him being with him and serving him and there is nothing he can't say or do to me.  I love him in spite of ithe bad and trust issues and other things.    No other woman would put up with what he does if she really knew. 

Unfortunately I have to keep my eyes and ears open for another right now  becaue he isn't ready tio accept the truth yet and realize he has everything he wants with me. I need to find someone who will own me and treasure me.   Right now he claims he doesn't want me.  He has done that before so I never know what to expect.  He hasn't even seen my best yet.  He has never spent enough time to get it or given me a real chance.  I hope someone out there willl soon and that he realizes what he's really lost when I'm gone he observes but does not experience my best and nobody else stands with him when they  learn about the other facets of him.  While I am a great slave and will do as I am told, It will take someone very special to earn that same devotion and love from me.  I am working on letting go and open to try new things.  I want however to serve a very dominant person be it man or woman, but I am not propertynor do I choose to be abused.  Right now I would prefer a woman that will allow me to show tbe one of whom I speak how willing I am to totally submit to the riight person., hopefully him  I am willing to relocate but only in Virginia.

Stil looking for a femme dom for me and my SIR.   I can't wait to surprise him with it.  I love him so much there is nothing I won't do for him.

Thank you for today.  I so can't wait for the next time and am still looking for a femdomme for my sir.

We are still looking for that female playmate for some fun and adventure.  We would prefer a total dom as I am a perfect sub slave but my SIR wants to call the shots.  If you want to explore and become all you  can be, hit me up.  While I am not sadistic, or have a fetish for pain, I love all aspects of the lifestyle which is morer than about sex.  I want  more training so a very experienced Dome would be the best. 

Looking for DOM Fem in Northern VA who enjoys being watched.... and occasionally being told what to do to me or what he wants me to do to you by my Sir.  He is totally in charge of me and wants to see me dominated by a woman and I so want that to and I want to please my Sir.