lilboo2


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	About lilboo2 I'm checking back ion CM as of May 9th 2009. That means that I lost all messages sent before November. So please resend. I'm again looking for friends and LTRs in the lifestyle. i am seeking friends as well as an LTR. i am not looking for a sex partner nor a fuck buddy. i am not a masochist, painslut or cumslut. my main need is to be disciplined and controlled through spankings and other such punishments both in and outside of the bedroom. seeking a Mentor IRL : -Who is local. -Who loves to spank, discipline, dominate and train girls -Who understands that girls need consistent rules and consequences to feel loved, taken care of, and safe. -Who is strict and controlling as needed. -Who can love and indulge the lil girl, brat and slave within -Who has hobbies and interests in common with this girl and is a friend AND a Menter. girl doesn't have a car. *(NOTE:the T in my journal is a friend and is vanilla. i am still looking).* *longterm plans:* Seeking: Domestic Discipline (DD), Head of Household (HOH), protocol and rules, some degree of TPE, and a strict and firm Master/Dom/Daddy. A lifestyler. My main BDSM interests: spanking and corporal punishment, Domestic Discipline, training, TPE, some aspects of RL Gor, metal handcuffs, leashes, collars, exhibitionism, voyeurism, hair pulling, puppy play, cages, ……among others. *My Philosophy of how to find an LTR:* -i take things slowy -i take time to get to know You -i expect to date and talk for awhile before committing -I want more than a play partner or just a Mentor: i want friends to hang with and go out with and soulmates to share life with. i do not have a large sex drive and am not built to cum easily and continuously. i have a *brat side* that can be controlled through dominance and discipline. i seek One Who won't put up with my bullshit. i have a *lil girl side* but i am not into the diapers or other such child play things. she may pout, stomp her foot, or sulk. i do not necessarily seek One Who indulges the lil girl in me. she wants to be controlled and disciplined and taken care of. My *slave side* seeks to be "owned" and to know her place and be in her place. she seeks to put One at the center of her life and to seek to please Him. i am bicurious: i would interact with a woman to please my Top. i also have a less- prominent Sadistic side. I want kids. Pics will be sent after we have gotten to know each other and before we actually meet. Since you live in my city, i don't want everyone who sees my profile to also see what i look like--the vow of anonymity has been broken several times over on me. Vanilla interests: SCA, Fencing, dancing, video games, board and card games, sailing, beaches, swimming, boating, acoustic guitar, filk, singing, colored-pencil paintings, Star Trek, Red Dwarf, other sci-fi, Monty Python, medicine, horse back riding, travelling, other languages and cultures, movies, reading, among others. If I am not the one for You then I wish You well and good luck in Your search. --} lilboo )-- Hard limits: children, blood sports, skat play, snuff play, fire play, scarification or modifications to body that causes scarring or permanent markings (will get a tattoo for the "One" that will take me for the rest of my life, as He pleases), among others. For Those that read this profile and think that i set out the conditions and sound self-centered----i am trying to find One with similar needs and wants. How can i do that without stating my own? Perhaps i am self-centered. i long to lose it to the One that becomes the center of my life. i have a deep desire to please and i long to share good times, our common interests and many years together. i long to be Your lil girl, your sub, your slave-as it pleases You.

was ot of town an dnow sick as a dog :( so haven't been back on CM in whaile. will respond when i am feeling better.

sowwy :(

boo

Wow I just checked back on CM after being away for 7 months and OMG I do RAMBLE on in my journal entries!! LOL I am sorry.

I wanted to join the local BDSM community here but most of hte activities require a car and a contact in order to attend :(. I am still seeking friends and LTRs in the lifestyle.
I have not yet attended Ohio SMART, if they still exist, and am kinda shy to go by myself.

I have gotten together with T once but the poor man is just so vanilla. He tries cuz he is a friend and when I screw up it saves our friendship (spanking). But that's about it.

I gotta admit that being over his lap or being disciplined by him when he is in uniform is just suuuuuuuch a turn on! BLUSH. Well, OK, not when he is really angry but all other times! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!

I have spent the last year and a half or so as a Domme at a distance I even almost collared a slave. I love to Domme, discipline, and train but only second to being disciplined and trained.

I can tell I am rambling again.

Anyone go to that scifi convention that seems to also be a fettish event in Ohio or nearby this past winter?? I can't remember the name but we were going to go until we saw you had to sign a photo waiver. UH OH NO WAY!! is anyone putting pics up on the web of me having anything to do with BDSM. :P

Would like to know, though , is it fun? Is it a small group of regulars? etc. etc.

OMG I DO ramble! OK shutting up :P

B/boo

Not feeling so hot these days.....hopefully will remember to make a new journal entry when i feel better and up to playing.

If i sound like what you are looking for PLEASE DON'T HESITATE TO WRITE me and i'll reply the next time i am on collar me. i am stilllooking eventhough i don't feel wellenough to play right now.

lilboo

sighs.....wass set up for a weekend of spanking and discipline last weekend but ended up with migraines, fever and nausea instead. OMG it's been over a year since i was last disciplined :(

i am terribly scaired that i am giong vanilla! PLEASE tell me where to find the help and support groups! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

For HALLOWEEN i am gonna dress up like a 'nilla....something i find VERY scarey and hope that i will never be.

wonder how many i'll scare??? hehe

I seek and need discipline and spankings for many reasons.

They make me feel loved and cared for and safe.

They lallow me to pay for a wrongdoing and to let go of the guilt.

They allow me to vent strong emotions such as anger, anxiety or sadness.

i have to admit that, sometimes, when i can't be disciplined because i don't have a friend or an LTR Who will at that time, i sometimes want to do things to myself to feel better.

Before i found the lifestyle, i would chain puff an entire
package of cigarettes.

Spanking myself rarely works and i don't try it often.

But i am not a masochist and i don't LIKE pain.

A week or two ago i seemed to have ignored this major fact and i picked up a hot glue gun and plugged it in. i waited until it started getting hot and i wrote on myself with the hot glue. It hurt and i didn't like it. It hurt for two hours and i wa ssorry that i did it and i was worried that i would scar.

And yet i took some delight in those raised letters in glue on me and running my hand over them and the words left in red lines underneath. Part of me liked those aspects and thought about doing it again.

If i hate pain so much that some types of pain actually make me NAUSEOUS, .....

could i really be seeing the beginning of a submissive turning masochistic?????

OMG i so hope not!!! Anyone have any thoughts or views on this?

Hrm..i guess i need to find a forum to paste this on rather than ask from my own journal page lol.

Good luck in Your search.

boo

Recently a(nd as i have done repeatedly over the years)i find myself recalling alot about the household i stayed with. i find myself telling people stories and wat i loved and hated about life there.

i find myself missing being a member of a household and longing foranother one.

i had Two Masters, a Mistress, a brother and sister in chains. They did everything as a family unit from cleaning hte house to shopping nad meals. There were rules for everything in the house: no slaves on the furniture (that was me) no doors closed for any reason (including the bathroom door), etc etc.

Dinners were served with the slave serving the Master of hte house first, and then the subs wuld sever the Mistress and other Master next.

i got to sleep on the floor by Their bed and was not allowed to wear anything but what they told me (which was usually a lingerie and nothing else).

i miss os many things from there and crave and yearn for so much of it.

sighs.

i don't see why i can't find that again in cleveland...find people who live the lifestyle and share a hhouse as a family. i know that they are hard to maintain and it is hard to keep everyone happy but it CAN work and HAS workked for many other househlds.

sighs longfully ....eyes glazing over......

boo

I have found that I hate my maple paddle and don't remember WHAT I was thinking when I bought it. It burns right away and wore than the bathbrush. Everytime I am sent to go get it tears rise to my eyes. I remember how much those blows hurt and I don't want to feel that pain again.

Hehe...you would think I could learn to be good if i hated it so much huh? But nahhhhhhhh how quickly i forget and move on.....right into the next bit of trouble. Sighs.

i'm still trying to find a Dom or couple on here who want me more than just for sex. For some reason, all I find are those that only want to get together for play and nothing else.

The problem is that i am NOT a bedroom BDSMer. i can take or leave the kinky sex.

i am a lifestyler. i crave and need the dominance, discipline and control in my daily life in and outside of the bedroom. i don't want a date to consist of only kinky sex. That is not what i want or what i am looking for. But that IS all i am finding on here.

So where are all the lifestylers? All of those that have a life outside of hte bedroom? Who carry their need to dominate and control and discipline into the rest of life beyond sex and the bedroom??? n

Why can't i FIND THEM?????

::whistles as if calling for a dog or a cat:::
HERE LIFESTYLERS COMMERE! COMEEEEEE TO BOO COME ON AND GET ME HEREEEEEEEEEEEEE SIRS AND MA'AMS!!!

girl RUNS for her life!!!!!

lol :P

boo

i meet these Doms on here and son after I give them my yahoo ID They ask to be my Dom. They only just met me..maybe talked fo rtwenty to thirty minutes...and all of them are so anxious to start to Dom me and play with me in real life.

We haven't even talked on the phone yet.

i cannot understand Them. How can they be so sure that they will like me or want to play with me? Do they need sex that badly that they don't CARE if they will like me or not?? i'm just a something to fuck???

i don't want to be somebody's fuck toy. i don't want to be some guy's slut.

i want to be lpved and cared about. i want to be a friend...some one they WANT to go to the movies with or take home and spank and dominante.....

What is wrong with that?

I have been so honest in my profile and in my journals. i am hnest in the replies i send to the messages.

Where am i going wrong that i'm not finding anyone who will take their time to get to know me and who wants to be friends as well as lovers??

All 6 of hte guys that had my yahoo id this time talked ot me ONCE or twice....and said thaey wanted me as theirs...and ALL SIX dumped me right away after that.

To me that means that They didn't care bouat my personality or likes or dislikes or how much we have in common....they only cared that they could use me and abuse me at their whim.

i know it is not me as a person that they are judgging for they never took the time to know who i was. But i can't help but feel a little less lovable each time this happens.

my lil side is SO fuckingneedy. she wants tso bad to be taken care of and dominated and kept disciplined nd in line. she is almost codependent.

It is for this reason that i can't handle letting my little side out. she never finds anyone here. It devastates her to crave and seek and need discipline and not get it.

i've only fond one or two people on here who really know and understand and love brats for what they are and what they need.

i guess waht i am finding is that is what i really want: a Top that loves brats..that wants to spank them and discipline and control them as much as i need the reciprocals.

i just don't know where to find them.

blue blue blue Boo

Deep trouble methinks...

I was supposed to call T to take me somewhere and pick me up today. I only called to have Him pick me up. And I didn't reallise He was still talking to me when I hung up the phone....so He wasn't happy about that.

Then, when I called the second time, He mentioned that He needed the adress but my phone was going to die any second so I told Him to "stop talking" so that I could give Him the adress. He stopped talking alright-He hung up.

So He finally picks me up and tells me that I wasn't sitting where He could see me and that He wanted to take me there so that He knew where it was.

We get to His car, which is right out front, and He tells me I'm sitting in the back today. OK....NOT really a good sign....

And then at dinner He puts finger to HIs lips when I try to make idle conversation and says "I don't want to hear it. Hush." So I did...for the rest of the evening.

Was most uncomfortable. If He was that mad at me then why even take me out? I didn't really enjoy time with HIm tongiht cuz of that. I felt bad all night...and bored.

And I'm not sure what to do about tomorrow....if He still intends for me to call for HIm to pick me up to take me there and then come get me...or what.

I just know that I managed to get in even more trouble than I was in already and that W/we hadn't even settled the previous matters yet.

What I don't think I posted was that He had finally gotten in touch with me in the past week. He told me that He intended to "whip [my] ass" because He was quite upset with me.

But He didn't tonight.....I escaped.....more or less....sighs.

What a day of tension :( and then to bed....UGH.

lilboo

I called T two weekends ago to get some support and comfort. He listened and simply said "There's nothing I can do for you." I had said well you can't even show understanding or support??! I got mad, told Him to remind me not to call HIm when I need support, and hung up on HIm.

He can't stand me hanging up on HIm. He has spanked me for this before. But I was pissed and I was still pissed about the crap He pulled in July. I've only spent time with Him once since the July incident.

I get a call on Sunday?? after not calling Him or hearing from HIm since I had hung up on HIm. In the voicemail He says that He is pissed at me and not to make plans for Saturday because W/we are going to "have words." Well I was a bit worried about this-I don't like being told off by Him and I don't like His badgirl spankings very much (the last time I got in trouble with Him, He broke a paddle over my ass!). I was so not looking forward to it.

Fortunately, for me, I have been preoccupied every day this week with illness: either the infection in my jaw or the migraine and nausea. He has called every night and i tell HIm i can't talk. i know He will keep calling and i have not gotten out of Saturday. Atleast i am starting to feel better.

i appreciate the fact that He got all Dommy n stuff but i also know He's only doing it cuz He's mad at me. And as soon as He gets what He wants it's back to the same ole same ole.

Just wish i had my DAddy/Sir/Master :(. i crave and look for the power exchange, protocol and discipline every night. The only Men i meet in real life are kinky vanillas. I don't want a kinky vanilla...they take too many years to corrupt. i want a lifestyler :(. sighs.

whine whine whine :P

lilboo

i just can't find what i want here. i don't know where to go to find some one local either.

i want a Man or a Couple Who have a passion to spank and discipline through spanking, cornertime, and stuff like that. People Who are into Domestic Discipline or Head of Household type lifestyles.

i do have slave in me and some BDSM interests but the spanking, discipline, and power exchange are what i seek and need the most.

i find People Who say "you are the one," etc.....and then when They find out i don't have a high sex drive or don't want to be a sex slave they drop me instantly.

How can People say they like you and want you and that you are the one if they DON'T EFFING MEAN IT?!!!!

i don't understand people into BDSM i guess. Maybe there is some game i'm supposed to play: say what they want to hear and not what you mean???

i am who i am. i tell you upfront what i want and what i am looking for and what i think i can give. Don't feed me what You think i want to hear in exchange for my honesty and forthrightness in some twisted control method trying to make me want You too even though You don't match on basic needs and wants.

You just waste Your time and mine.

Be honest with me in what You want and seek and what You are willing to compromise in order to find Your girl. Save us the time and frustration.

Life is too short for games and dishonesty.

i am lost and frustrated. i have a ton of old messages in my mailbox but i've yet to meet anyone.

W/we'll start sending messages back and forth and then, for some reason, just stop. i have a bunch of yahoo contacts that talkto me once and stop. People keep giving me their yahoo nick but what is the point of adding another nick to my list that will only talk to me once and that's it? Then i look at my list and don't know who the hell half hte people are on it.

i don't get why people stop talking to others. Do they find their girl? Are they only playing games or only want ol and then stop when they find out you aren't playing and really want rl? Or are they really only looking for kinky sex and don't want the committment of a relationship?

sighs. i dunno but i'm gettin awfully sick of this. i don't even know how to keep up communication any more. AFter a few messages i don't even know what to say or ask anymore cuz so many have stopped talking to me by that point.

i'm really thinking that this is not the way to meet people: that i should just stick with meeting people at real life places instead of online.

Y gets mad. Boo gets bad. Bad boo gets beat.

T took me to run a number of errands. while shopping in Michaels for things i could use in my lessons, i found a paddle in the wooden crafts secion. It was five bucks so i bought it. Got what i need and got in line. Gave T a hard time about how women are alays righ so whatever he complatning about get over it cuz i am STILL right...blah blha.

T expressed his annoyaance once we got outsied of that store.

Then we went to Dom Depot for some items to fiz my curtains so that i wouldnt be seen by ebvery car that drives by or parks atthe store can see me changing and sleepng But it had to be solved that night and neigther T nor the salesman seemed to understand that. So my voice got loud and louder as i adamantly tried to explain that it had to be solved and it had to be solved toonight.

T thanks the emplee for helpong uss, grabbed me by my arm and turned me away: and wagging his finger at me he said in a soft voice but with muchdomliness "don't you ever argue with me in public again!" tHEN hE told me "i never said you could let go of my arm! and ...."get in tHe car". He gets domly when He gets upset.

We get to WalMart and he lets me get what i need. we end up back in hte games section of the store and im trying to get him to buy agame and i'm showing him different ones. He has told me twice already that he wanted to leave the store now but i kept stalling as i found another game we would like. This last time HEld up a starwars game and said "but but starwars!"
T reached over and SMAAAAAAAAAAACKED me soundly on the thigh. OMG i was so dumbFounded that i simply stood up, put the movie baCk, and got In line to pay.

On the way home i asked him if i was going to get a spanking when we got home. He said no.

so i thought that meant we woulndnt have enough time to play when we got home. But i'be known this guy for twenty yearss and He always has something he isnt telling you. ....

so i asked, "am i going to get a badgirl spanking when we get home?" He said "yes".

i was left to sweat and fret in silence for the next twetny five minutes.

When we gothome and upstairs he told me to take off my pants but he also started to help me take them off. He's never done that before. Ne puilled them off of me and then had me lie over the edge of the bed. He lined up my brand new paddle i got at Michaels while we were out having no clue it would be used on me that verynight.....and He spanked me soundle with it. i squirms and wirthed and could not hold still Every time a heel kicked up to save my burning bottom the heel got strck back down by the paddle.

He had to keep His hnd on my back to keep me from squirming all the way off of the bed.

i got three separate paddlings that night for the things that happened during shopping. I found that paddle really burns bad and11
wouldn not break when i wanted it too

now that is some MAJOR owch.

ariana

LESSON LEARNED; NEVER BUY A PADDLE WHEN OUT WITH A dOM THAT SPANKS YOU. VERY DUMB IDEA. DOH.

2007 May 12

Today T took me to Home Depot after a movie. I wanted so bad to go both for a chain that I could put on the front door so that dad wouldn?t go wandering again when I was watching him but also because I wanted TOYS!! And I had some ideas I could make on my own even without being skilled at woodworking or artistic and being the accident prone numskull that I am??

I?ve got ten minutes: I check out PVC tubing for canes but it?s too flimsy. I find the chain aisle and I quickly find something that will do and I am looking for a store employee. T comes walking down the aisle as I?m telling the employee I would be using the chain (more like a metal rope covered inplastic) outside (where will you be using this?). I say that I want two lengths of 28 (inches implied) and I go down the aisle to look for metal eyes for another project. I come back and T hands me a huge section of this thin metal rope stuff and I?m looking at it gong ?something?s not right here??

?I wanted two segments.?

?He?s not done with you: he?s gone back to cut the other 28,? T says.

It?s then that I realize I?m holding 28 FEET of this chain in my hand and I?m about to get another 28!!! OMG! A 28 foot long flogger???!!! Uh?no!!!

?Uh?.wait?..um Sir????? I go back and try to explain to this employee that I meant inches.

T tries to be funny and (having no idea I really WAS buying this for a spanking toy), says ?well is this sturdy enough to beat the crap out of her?!!!!?

The employee picks up a remnant that?s much shorter and I have him cut that in half and I say, ?see?! Some one will be able to use my 28 feet remnants?..i used some one else?s remnants!!?

T says?.?yeah?.your own!? WHOOPS

Well i find myself searching every night for One to control and discipline me. i probably waste an average of two to three hours a night online.

i guess since i can't find what i'm looking for in real life, i seek for it online while i keep looking.

i've decided what i truly want is a best friend: one who has our biggest interests outside of BDSM in common. Some one i can grow old with and won't ever feel lonely when in HIs presence. We spend most of our time together doing what we like because we have so much in common in the first place.

The BDSM comes second. i am willing to sacrifice many of my needs if i atleast have a best friend.

The ideal situation is to find both though: a best friend AND a Master and Daddy. One Who loves to and needs to spank and discipline all the time. One Who wants and needs to take control of such things as how i adress Him, approach Him, command myself in HIs presence, what i wear and what i do, etc.

Daddy? Where ARE You? Your lil girl is lost and lonely :(. Please come get Your girl.

i wanted to add to what i typed earlier. i have found atleast two people on here that have much in common outside of bdsm and things in bdsm in common as well. Though both are out of state, i have renewed hope of finding some one some day to spend the rest of my life with.......Daddy??? Sir??? Master!!! Your girl.....she's waiting for You! :(
-lilboo-

     my friend picked me up yesterday. W/we had a little time only. Again, this is the vanilla friend. WEll i am going to focus on my aspects because i feel i can't freely talk about anything else. i was made to lie over the back of a couch and was whupped with a plastic cat toy. Man those things are wicked nasty. And i took it trying to take the pain and trying to wrap it around in my head to pretend i was being punished for soemthing or to use it as a release. It just phlucking HURT :(. It had been so long though that i just tried to take it without moving or resisting. i was teased as He thrust up against me but not in.....and it was obvious the affect He had on me. Again, i lay there mostly passively only pushing back once in awhile when i thought to do so. i think it is my automatic way of submitting: to just passively take what is given to me. i'm not sure but i do that when spanked, etc as well.
     It drove me wild and made me reallize that maybe i do and can enjoy more than just the spanking and discipline part of the lifestyle. i still believe that i do not want to spend most of my time being teased or teasing or sexually serving another but it is verrrrry nice on occasion Another reason i might just passively take what is given to me is because i love it when a Man takes control. i like when i have to obey because i have no other choice. He whupped me for as long as He wanted and then grabbed the welted areas of my backside in HIs hands and squeezed.....again i yelped and cried out but i did not pull away or fight (well....i was still pinned against the back of the couch anyways lol....i wasn't going anywhere lol).
     Later i gave Him a show as i lay on the floor at HIs feet and teased and played with my breasts. Didn't do much for me but i was glad He was pleased.
     i had to ask for a spanking. i really HATE having to do that. For some reason i simply do not enjoy and am not able to release when i am spanked because i asked or because a Man says so. i lay over His lap and He spanked me with the wooden bathbrush until it was impossible for me to sit still. We ran out of time and i ended up with only one spanked cheeck lol ah well. He said He had paused to ask if i was done squirming yet but then saw what time it was and decided not to resume. i had really really needed that and so much more. i can sit confortably and i was sulking afterwards. i think maybe because i needed so much more than i could get and have been needing it for such a long time. Usually spankings do the reverse: if i'm sad they make me feel better, grumpy or sulky...they adjust my attitude. Shrugs.
     So all day today i have been wanting more and i'm wondering if my search for a rl partner and friends is making me so much worse than i was and if i need to go back to pretending that people just don't live this lifestyle and it's all fantasy.

i'm miserable and so needy :(.    i know many of you can relate to me whether you Top or bottom.

Good luck in Y/your searches.
-boo-

GRRRRR i get so tired of the manipulation "if you don't send me a pic then you are just playing games and aren't real" shit. No it means that i'm not having a pic of me floating on the web so that when i want to seek a job it might come back to haunt me.
Dominance is not about twisting and manipulating some one you don't even know to do what you want. That is BULLYING and is not at all the same thing.

Why people have to have a pic of me before we even know if we are a good match or not , i can't understand. Take time to talk to me and find out if we are even compatible geeeesh. Why collect my pic if you are gonna just mark me off the search list anyways?

For about four years i've been playing with a friend of mine whom i've known for twenty years. i totally trust him. Problem is that he is almost totally vanilla. He only has one kink.

For years i have been trying to get Him to meet some of my needs for dominance and discipline. i fouind that just a spanking for the heck of it does very little for me without any kind of dominance or discipline. He has incorporated some things such as what i should wear and where my hands and feet should be in the car or on the couch. He's been a little more dominant when we get together but still i need that discipline. i gave Him an article to read about DD. i thought it would help him to hear that others live this kind of lifestyle, why they need it or want it, and how it works.

WEll......hehe....last week i was 20 minutes late meeting Him. By the time he drove back to the spot where we were to meet i was searching but looking the wrong way. He got out of hte car and came up to me and, in front of two lanes of traffic and a bus shelter full of people, chewed me out royally. i was stunned into submission.

Whne he got me back to his apartment he told me he wanted to try a role play. OK i was game. See how he does after reading that article. WEll he orders me to take off my shoes and pants and informs me that i'll be wearing handcuffs as he slips them around my wrists. He grabs me by the hair and pulls me over the couch and He then proceeds to lecture me about the trouble i had put him throuigh that day, how it wasnt at all appreciated, etc etc.......as he spanked me with his baton, cat toy (that thing STNGGGGS) and duty belt. This was the first time in four years that he's ever punished me with a spanking for anything he's really been peeved about. The rest of hte role play went quite well with him controlling everything and laying down two new standing rules.

He may not have it in Him to WANT to dominate and discipline but he CAN do it. Sighs. I just need to find One Who lives for it.

Yes he knows i'm looking.

OK that's it for now :D Happy hunting hehe

Ok. apparently on here if You don't send pics when demanded then you are a fake. pfffffffft whatever.

i'm not gonna be manipulated into handing over my ID to some one i dont even know who could easily spot me in the
same city.

i have had WAY too many people blabbing about my lifestyle and interests. seems that "confidentiality" is a concept only applied to others in Cleveland and not to me.

i will send my pic if and WHEN we decide to actually meet and not before.

You dont like this???? well....i'm kranky and tired and i'm putting my foot down.

It's three am....won't talk to me with out my pic? fine.....get lost.

yes i most likely will edit this when i'm awake and semiconscious but gods am i pissed right now.

WEll, i was reading through the many profiles on here that matched what i was looking for. So far there were 75.

sighs. i found one that looked perfect.....had the same vanilla loves that i did.....seemed to like in bdsm what i did but......wanted some one a year younger and doesnt want kids :(. He's also attractive and probably can have any girl He chooses.

gods the burden of being less than perfect!!!

So of those 75 (i didn't look through all of them yet but some ...) i found two that i want to meet. One i would like an LTR with and the other would make a great play partner though we don't have much in common outside of bdsm.

How the heck am i supposed to find some one who is a good match in bdsm, vanilla intersts and family interests????? it's damned near impossible!!!

I'm not holding my breath on this site......only hoping. i want to be more involved in the local community but i can't afford the costs of dungeons and munches. iThough 35, i'm still a student.

geeeeesh :(

i tired one of the chatrooms but it was hard to get anyone to interact with me. i almost think i don't belong on this site because i am more into Dominance and Discipline than BDSM.

sighs.

WEll that's if for now.....

lil_boo

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