It's almost 6 months here in Charlotte and finding out this place has such wonderful people in the lifestyle. I've been trying to attend meetings that concern me the most ( Master & slaves together ). Every day I learn more about myself, and the lifestyle. My slave is wonderful, he is attentive, creative, anticipates, and ever striving to be a better slave. I feel as a Dominant women I must strive each day to raise the bar for him to jump over..lol.
I did meet one 'person' on here that was not so great. They advertised they were 'submissive' but was not . Possibly this person just didn't know ? I know only one thing, I should be the object of your desire , once you are in my KINGDOM, NOT DRESSING, NOT telling me what YOU WANT. Remember IT'S ALL ABOUT ME.
Recently I had the joy of some nice CBT, from a nice YOUNG MALE. I am realizing more and more just how much I enjoy that. My slave is not a 'pain slut', but does endure CBT ever so nicely. I also know that I need someone that really is into whips, canes, hard spanking etc. There is something in me that just needs to get out, of course Rome was not built in a day, and know that trust is a must.
I've been like this all my life, just in a place where the lifestyle was so underground you had to wheel in sunshine.
So many people, players, posers. Submissive's that come into my life fast, and leave just as fast. They want a quick fix of whatever they are looking for and leaving with out as much as 'Thank you Mistress'.
I am learning that males give their gift of submission away SO EASY, do not even see themselves as a "gift", or value themselves.
Their submission is my " muse, toy " to play with, to trust me.
Also this month I'm a new 1st. time Grand mother, this brings me joy, satisfaction that the wheel of life continues. I will be going home for 5 days starting 02/25/11 to see my new Grandson.
I wish everyone good luck in finding what they needs from a D/s relationship.
Many Blessing's to you.
LLJ