Lapis2

Every now and then life just seems to make sense. Hold on to those moments!

Some of them are fleeting and won't be back around.

Becoming more complacent in my search. some responses are entertaining, some are just plain annoying. Either way, life marches on. 

To chase or not to chase... that is the question.

I am genuinely amazed at the number of Doms / Dommes who have attained perfection. Bravo !!

But it has led me to have an epiphany... I'm flawed!

I used to enjoy looking at pictures of young girls with pixie type bodies. But now the realization is set in stone. I am so turned off to the extra petite frame that i instantly pass by those type of pictures wherever I find them. Even in advertisements.

A little meat on the bones. A little junk in the trunk!

And what is the reality of a fantasy?

Well I figure if I can bitch and moan like the rest of the moaners on CM, then I can write something positive like the rest of the positive scribes on CM. 

I am presently talking to a submissive lady who is fairly new to CM and the vibe is nice. Not referencing any prospect for the future, just mentioning that the communication is nice.  

I guess I have finally completed this phase of initiation to CM. I have recently been amused by what some on Collarme call game players and that I prefer to call bullshit artists. Fortunately, I do not get as angry as it seems some do on this site. After all, it is the internet. Home of anonymity!

Growing and learning with experiences. Still so much more to understand. Still so much to experience.

Pressing on...

Not into body mods but a little mind mod can go a long way. Clarification of what best suits me. Daytime / early evening fun as my nights are preoccupied. That should eliminate some of the 'fake' name calling.

Will engage in some cyber chat as long as there is absolutely no expectation of meeting -EVER! Expectation seems to get under my skin in a wrong way. I'm already expected to do so much in my vanilla life.

Thinking about leaving CM. It just is not working relative to the time that I have to view the site and anticipate a response if I send a message. Damn that's a lot of time...

Changing - evolving - broadening one's mindset

no details included !!

Time goes by and I'm still new to the lifestyle...

Time in my life is like that tiny crack or crevice...

if I don't look carefully for it, I won't see it

If only busy weren't part of my life...

"ask him his dreams, what do they mean...he wouldnt know. can't be like the rest is the most he'll confess, time's running out and there's no happiness" CM modified

meeting some really interesting people... some plusses and some minuses but all interesting

prefer that if you contact me that you are at least driving distance to me or willing to travel.

If you just want to make a passing comment, then do so and pass by.

And always remember in regards to me that DISCRETION is the better part of everything.