Michigan only. If honesty is too difficult a requirement, save us both the time and don't say hello. My expectations: Honesty Punctuality. Communication skills. An understanding that your interests/fetishes, etc will certainly be taken into consideration but will not dictate or define any activity between us. I may be asking too much. Hopefully not. I am not available for "sessions". I do not want your money. I move rather quickly from this forum to the real deal because life is too short to be spent in front of a computer where anyone can pretend to be anything. Best of luck to all. Goodness knows, with this type of inclination, we're all gonna need it.
3/21/12 Finding that life and it's multitude of commitments has left me with very little time to enjoy the offerings of the lifestyle. I do hope to one day have more time for non-vanilla fun. In the meantime, wishing one and all happiness and fulfillment.
7/9/12 In an effort to weed through the multitude of wonderful, and not so wonderful, people on this site, I have enlisted the assistance of my long term sub, hercuck. He has been mine for 11 yrs and knows me better than anyone. Should you have any questions, you may direct them to him. He has been instructed to respond honestly to any inquiries and to refer anyone who may be of interest to me.
LC
WARNING: Any and all law enforcement agents/ agencies, institutions (University/College), and/or media personnel, who are using this site, or its associated sites for projects, etc..., you do not have permission from Me to use any portion of My profile nor My pictures, in any form or forum, both current and or future. If you have done so, or do so in the future, it will be considered a violation of My privacy and will be subject to legal action.
Happy New Year! May 2014 be better to all of us.
It's been well over a year since I've posted anything here. Suppose that speaks volumes.
Wishing all a safe and happy 2012.
Needing a break.
Happy Thanksgiving. The day for giving thanks, officially.
In the scheme of things, as shitty as things can be, there is undoubtedly someone going through something far worse. We're all in this for the long haul. Reach out and help someone if you can.
Finding myself far less forgiving these days. Not really sure why. Perhaps so many years of just letting things go and moving forward has caught up with me. I do believe that is the better way to live your life. As a result of this most recent phenomena, I'm quicker to take offense, quicker to irritation, quicker to just dismiss an individual or situation. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe not.
I find it so terribly interesting when I hear the words "no limits. i will do as i'm told". What makes it so interesting is the simplest of requests are often ignored. Example: send me your phone number, complete the bdsm checklist, meet me @ starbucks at 10:30 am, send me your email.
If these "demands" are too much, what would make one think that I'd expect them to comply to something a bit more or that I would even test it?
Happy Halloween
May the best team win
Had the opportunity to attend a local party (something I've missed a great deal this past summer). So pleased that I went. Good company. Music. The sound of pleasure and pain. I really need to make sure I do this for myself on a regular basis.
Go Tigers!!
As an aside...it appears that there are in fact a large number of individuals out there that understand the concept of honesty and are forthcoming from the git-go. That small feat is deserving of respect. Thank you, to those, for restoring my faith.
Yup, it does work. ahahahaha
Hey cunt- When is the last time you had a big dick shoved up your ass? Send me some pics of you butt assed naked. You know you got them. If I like them I will let you dance nude on your webcam for me otherwise I will post on some sites for others to enjoy. You can contact me on collarme or gmail at: XXXXX@XXX.com I am waiting SLUT.
Does this really work? *shakes head* pathetic
Summer's almost over and I'm still waiting for that turn for the best. May be time to throw out a request to the stars. In any event, same book, new chapter. The journey continues.
Ever been to the batting cages? Life has me in the cage on fast pitch. Hopeful that the machine runs out of balls.
The recurring theme and question on collarme... Is anybody real?
re·al 1
(rl, rl)
adj.
1.
a. Being or occurring in fact or actuality; having verifiable existence
b. True and actual; not imaginary, alleged, or ideal.
c. Of or founded on practical matters and concerns.
2. Genuine and authentic; not artificial or spurious.
3. Being no less than what is stated; worthy of the name.
4. Free of pretense, falsehood, or affectation
5. Not to be taken lightly; serious.
6. Philosophy Existing objectively in the world regardless of subjectivity or conventions of thought or language.
Maybe?
The question of balance remains a constant. Family, friends, work, play, love, d/s. Perhaps nothing is easy so that one appreciates when all the plates manage to spin in unison. Seems it might be easier though to spin fewer plates.
Control is good when somebody has it. It's when nobody does that there's an issue.
OK, there seems to be a bit of panic as a result of my most recent entry. The lie was this...I'm 48, not 47.
Note to self: Update age on birthday ;-)
I have falsely advertised. It is with deep regret that I make this post. The correction has been made. The question is, who would notice? Hell, it took me months to do so. No excuses. No denial. The truth is the truth.
I'm scared. I'm excited. This could be it.
I've finally figured it out. I want a committed relationship.
I still recall the taste of your tears. Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears. My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head 'til I don't want to sleep anymore.
(Something I Can Never Have - Trent Reznor)
It's not often that I find myself feeling like I need to vent, but today is just such a day. Last evening, while speaking with a boy, he began to discuss his experience with dominant women online and in the real world. His revelations left me mortified, and to be perfectly honest, sickened.
In nearly every encounter, these women have taken advantage of him. He's had to prove himself by demonstrating his monetary generosity. Willingness to empty your pockets does not correlate with willingness to serve. To anyone who may be reading this, remember that.
I have no issue with those that are professionals. Goodness knows, there is most definitely a need. I do not begrudge any that have chosen that path and in many ways admire their abilities.
My issue is with those women that pass themselves off as lifestyle, when in fact, they're just looking to score some cash from whatever gullible person may cross their path. It's wrong. Plain and simple. How dare you take advantage of someone that so much wishes to serve that you would have them pay to do so. Servitude is a gift in itself. Such a gift should not be discounted, ever.
That concludes my rant. Moving on.
I'm not your fairy godmother put on this earth to grant you 3 wishes and make ALL your fantasies come true. Seriously? Seriously.
Since I no longer have a clue what I'm looking for it's probably time to stop looking.
I can still remember just the way you taste
- staind
I was recently asked about my feelings on corporal punishment within "the lifestyle". As my response appeared to make things crystal clear that there was a definate incompatability, I thought I'd share it.
If you fail to meet my expectations, my first response is to examine whether I communicated those expectations clearly. If they were, and you are fully capable of meeting them, your inability to do so is an indication that you don't actually wish to serve me. In that case, why would I bother exerting any energy on you?
Another year older and it's time to make some changes. The changes won't be easy for me, but it's time. Actually, way past time. Wishing myself, and everyone who is affected by the impending changes, lotsa luck.
Change IS good.
2011. Happy New Year. Much as we hope things have changed, they often stay the same. Same shit, different day. So much for being optimistic.
*throws up hands* I give.
It doesn't exist. Shocker that.
Do you enjoy cleaning? Are you handy around the house? Can you fix things? Does knowing that making someone's life easier bring you pleasure? Can you be in the company of other people without raising questions? Is a job well done it's own reward? Would knowing your service is truly appreciated give you a feeling of happiness?
Is this the definition of "no strings"?
Does such a rare and beautiful being exist?
Speaking of tributes....
A tribute of love was bestowed upon me today. One so unexpected and violent, in nature, that it stole my breath away. I know it was one of my boys...be it Ozzy or Spencer, I may never know. But from the bottom of my heart, I love you too. (Next time you can leave the shredded bird on the front porch rather than on the family room rug)
It's all about priorities. :-)
A remarkably interesting set of responses to my last post. It appears the verdict is still out.
Which leads me to another question. How is one a player and a tease simultaneously?
If Dominant A can accept Dominant B as an equal, is a relationship possible? Would Dominant A and B be able to resist the temptation to find out who's on top? Would one or the other have to concede position to keep the peace and harmony? Would the terms of such a relationship require negotiation? Would terms be needed if the acceptance of equality exists?
April showers bring May flowers.... I gotta say, it's raining like crazy lately.? The old adage "when it rains it pours" comes to mind.? Happily living each day and enjoying the time that is presented.
I'd like to be done trying to figure things out, but know it's just the nature of my beast.? Attempting to just let it flow.?
What a ridiculously nice day today. Sun, blue skies and conversation. Thank you.
Interestingly, whenever I take the time to just sit down and roll thru the list, a couple of recurring themes present themselves. A vast majority of people are looking for "real". A large number of people do not want to spend eternity chit-chatting back n forth thru this medium or some other online arena. Many are not interested in "pros" or spending any money to make their fantasies come true.
Which brings me to this...As one that is "real", perhaps too real in that yes, my life and priorities are not this, as one that dislikes spending time on idle prattle that yields no results other than perhaps an interesting exchange or sparring of wits, and as one who could, if she chose, join the ranks of those that require tribute for the honor of serving them...why, when an obvious interest is shown by myself, would you run away and hide? Why would you miss an opportunity to meet?
Curiouser and curiouser. Tis the ramblings of a madman.
You better crawl on your knees
The next time you say that you love me
Fall on your knees, because this time I won't be so kind
When you hide, hide inside that body
but just remember that when I touch you
the more you shake, the more you give away
lyrics by Evans Blue
Taking another moment to be forthright without any intention of ill will.? I can honestly say that I have no interest in any male sub that is older than myself by more than 5 or so years.? That means, if you're older than 52, I have no interest in ever pursuing anything other than friendship.? It's just how I am.??
Too bizarre. That'll teach me to post something completely outside the realm of my personality, although it was fun doing it. In any event, moving on.
A common question...what do you seek? After some considerable thought, I may have a bit of an answer, though being a chick and being me, that answer could change in 20 minutes.? So, here goes...
I want what appears to be impossible.? I want to strike a perfect balance between all sides of me.? I want to play. I want to have fun. I want to talk. I want to hang out. I want someone that understands that my needs are different. I want someone who knows that they are important to me, even when I fail to say it.? I want someone that supports me. I want to be alone. I want to share time with someone.? I want the trifecta.?
In the meantime, I'll just coast along and see what comes to me, it's just easier.?
Break time. Happy Holidays and a Happy 2010 to all.
Happy Holidays!
Yup, it's Christmas morning and I've finished wrapping all the presents.? Soon to head back into the land of blissful sleep.? Couple sugarplums will undoubtedly be making an appearance in my thoughts and dreams.?
Falalalala lalalala ;-)
grrrrrr *heavy sigh* damn I'm tired
And then he kissed me ;-)
I've tried to be depressed and oddly, it just doesn't work for me.
My house is a mess, but, it's mine. My kids are a pain in the ass, but I can count on them for unconditional love when I need it most. I hate my job some days, but I've got a job, when so many don't. Money's tight, but I'm paying my bills. I've got two legs to stand on, two arms, and a brain that manages to function, albeit slowly at times.
So ya, there's no reason to be depressed. I'm one of the lucky ones.
Time is a very precious commodity. There was a time when I can honestly say I had too much time on my hands and took it for granted. Were that those days existed once again. As a result, of time being so limited for myself, I assume that the same holds true for everyone. We all know what they say about assuming anything.
If you've an appointment, be courteous enough to be there on time. If you're running late, pull out that cell phone and call. Shit happens. We all get it. The point is, by not doing the right thing and calling you're fucking with someone elses time.
If you've an appointment and have confirmed the appointment it's a commitment. Someone, somewhere has set aside a bit of their precious time for you. If you change your mind, pick up the phone and call. Nobody should ever do anything they are uncertain of. Nor would anyone, of sound mind and body, expect it. If nothing else, it's a good test. Call, say you've had a change of heart and that you won't be coming. I doubt many would begrudge that.
Time is far too valuable to waste. Stop wasting yours. Stop wasting mine. Stop wasting the time of others. It's all about consideration and courtesy.
Whoda thunk it...my mom was right :-)
A time for thanks
I am thankful for the air I breathe
I am thankful for the love of family and friends
I am thankful for the joy and pain motherhood brings
I am thankful for the ability to self navigate
Thank you for the "circle of friends" request...thing about that is....if we've never spoken, a friendship is kinda far fetched...I know, a stranger is just a friend you haven't met yet...no reason to be too hasty though
Oh I see....I get it now....
You want me to do this to you. You want me to be available when it's convenient for you. You want me to make time for you in your busy schedule. You want me to fulfill your fantasies.
Really? Seriously? Of course, I'll get right on that.
Friends are something you can never have too many of. No longer looking for sub/slave.
judgmental:
1) involving the use or exercise of judgement
2) tending to make moral judgments
"the world is dominated by missionary fetishists" - BW
I want the world and I want it NOW - jim morrison
Isn't it a pity, isn't it a shame - george harrison
You better crawl on your knees, The next time you say that you love me - evans blue
Is she perverted like me - alannis morrisette
I'd rather die than give you control - trent reznor
I have to be a quarter, not a nickel and dimes - custom
Get On Your Knees, Time To Pray Boy - Alice In Chains
Too much time on my hands - Styx
lol
Polyamory. I wonder if it's a result of being unable to find everything you want/need in one person/relationship. There are no limits to how much one can love. Should that love be discounted because it is shared? The cycle of learning never ends.
In the midst of the chaos that surrounds each day, control and release bring order.? Thank you for giving me the escape I desire...or should I say deserve? lol
Done looking. Says it all huh?
Am I the only person on collarme that is offended by the pics/advertisements that feature what appear to be teenagers? Talk about harshing my mellow. Make them go away!!
It's a wonderful thing. Meeting someone, getting to know that person, learning what makes them tick, finding that there's something there that draws you together and for whatever reason, it just works. Those huge successes make it worth the effort, which is often, effortless.
ok, NOW I'm 46. Not a bad thing. New windows continue to open, new sights to see.? Each new experience paving the way for more.? Ya, things are good.
Of course, the question remains....why am I stuck cleaning? lol
Why would I, or anyone else for that matter, reveal the multitude of layers that exist within, upon first meeting or interaction?
What? I am not 46...geez, rushing things aren't we CM
OK, I finally have a day off and what am I doing? CLEANING. This is NOT what I want to be doing. ahem
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