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kaospyder

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NotSoInnocentBadAttitude
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Hi,
I realy don't know what to type here. I'm married to the most wonderful woman a man could ever ask for. I got four kids going from 9 years old to under a year. I got Hazel eyes and dark brown hair. My job sends me away for long periods of time so that causes a little bit of a problem at times with regards to making new friends. I have a change of status here.  Me and my wife have an understanding that I have not acted on in a long time.  I love her and her boyfriend is a great guy.  Even though its great for her, it means that I have had time to think.  I am looking for a female switch with a strong dom side in or around my area.  IM me if any of you are interested.  There is still a few more months before I get home again so that gives more time to get to know any of you who respond.
8/23/2008 9:41:33 AM
okay, im back for another installment.  Unfortunetly this one is so angsty that I want to kick my own ass.  *smirks a little*

To be frank its been years since I have been with a man.  So many year infact me and my lover we still really just boys.  16 was a very impressionable year for me. 

Now, I'm 24 and suddenly I want the feel of a mans skin against my skin again. To feel there strength against my body.  I still like women more than men though.
And worse my job isn't productive to "alternative life styles".  One of the few jobs out there that frown on anything other than normal hetrosexual vanilla relationships. Makes you a security problem. 

Yes I work for the government and that makes everything more complicated.  Untill im back in country I have to pretend to be something I'm not.  I have to hide what I am on the inside.

Told you it was an angsty  post.   The next year or so is going to be a little ruff but I will manage to survive.  For the time being I'm just going to have to deal with the hollow fealing inside, not just missing my wife, but everything else as well. 

Anybody got any good ideas?
8/13/2008 9:38:00 PM
I'm so tired of people and the bigitry that they bring you know? One group I'm a Breeder and another group I'm a Homo. Rarely will i get one that will tell me I'm just confused. Gah! WTF already. How about that I'm just me damnit! Keep your hatred to your selves and just love life already. Time is to short to waste it on stupid crap like labeling others.
HouseMisstress
 
 Age: 19
  Alabama