In my eyes this is about TPE since for me a huge part of any BDSM is affection, TPE is the truth in the bipolar human mentality that everything is permitted but morality prevents it from being so, It that I want you, I wanrt to cuddle and adore you, I want to kiss you, I want to rape you, I want to pet you, I want to comfort you, I want to consume you and I want to be loved by you, I want these things but I NEED them, I need them to be whole, I need them to be able to breathe.
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In my eyes I am a loving dominant, I want to rape my kitten and I want to make her bleed, I want her on her knees, I want her mewling pittifully to me for attention and I want her to want that, she HAS to want that or there is no point. So while I want to have all my sadistic fun with her I also want to her her gothic knight, I want to be able to protect her when I see guys harrassing her, I want to put my self in harms way so that she can be safe, I want to devote my every fibre of being to being there for her as a lover and partner but her being there for me as a lover and a partner, it is perfect symbiosis, nothing less that two perfect halves matching each other flawlessly like key and lock. It really bothers me when she says something like "I need to loose wight, I'm ugly or I'm a monster" It makes me die a little inside, it makes me rage at the people that put that idea there, it makes me want to really let out the animal in me and just fucking shred them, it kills me insdide because I'm not a hard arse, don't confuse being a dom with being indifferent, I do care and it cuts me when I know she's hurting inside and all I want to do is make it better.
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TPE is the absolute devotion to your partner, follwing every order given unquestioningly or at least, questioning inwardly. It takes immense trust to achieve this and if it's not there then the couple are doomed to failure. So what is TPE to me? It is love, a measurable, quantitive and tangible love. In my part as a dominant {what ever other title you want to use on this end of the spectrum of s/d} I must look out for her in her every day life, make her feel needed and wanted, make her feel like everything she does for me helps make my life better and I will do that... these things though, are contingent on being shown trust and obedience first. This does not mean the sub is a doormat, not at all, that is what communication is for. With time and experience of each other a doms duty should become easier because a doms duty in this sort of relationship is not easy, having the weight of every little thing you demand, every little task you set, every word you use, every risk you take with a sub is weighed, every action analysed constantly to find a perfect balance, it's the hardest thing on earth.
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Never forget to use your TPE selfishly to make them feel owned, never forget to say thank you and make them feel respected, never forget to hold them and show you care for them and never forget to allow them just a touch of leeway to stamp their feet to show them they do hold your attention. Above all don't be afraid to love your sub it won't make you less of a dom, when you earn their love back through a rigid adherence to principles, then you truly are in a TPE.
I don't want to love her, I NEED to.
I'm adding this now because someone wanted an example of what an ideal day in my life would be... so here it is:
it seems best to start from waking up, myself and kitten would snugged up naked, if I was on top, spooning, wrapped around her it matters not, suffice to say that I am affectionate and there would be much snuggling. I do not carry the nick name sadistic teddy bear for no reason. We'd lay there in the comfort of each other, waking in our own time and be damned to society. Her neck would bear the teeth marks of last nights savagery, her poor abused rear fuck hole would be crusted with the nights passion, her lovers cock would lay at rest still pressed firmly against her intimate supple curves, possessive, demanding, adoring. She'd wake and slip away gently, bringing a glass of fruit juice to ease her poor sirs suffering throat, to wash away the nights dryness. I'd thank her for it and kiss her tenderly, the nose, the forehead, and those plump silk kissed lips. Pressing firmly, my tongue would tug kittens upper lip into my teeth where I'd tug and nibble it gently.
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I'd pull my baby gurl down on top of me and embrace her, groping the irresistible arse of hers, squeezing it in a possessive crushing grip that tells her it is mine alone, I'd stroke my fuck toys feminine thighs and run my hands down over the fence nets married to 8 inch strappy platform boots I make her come to bed in. I wouldn't be able to help myself I'd have to take her, there and then, to destroy her, to violate her, passion is my guide now logic and reason take a back seat and I rape her, raping her in so much as I do not ask her, she is my toy, my possession and I make full use of her, ravaging her anally, and filling my baby gurls fuck holes up, showing her how much tenderness and love I have for her through my darkest most feral savagery.
We'd lay in bed, spent, a short nap is in order after happy giggling has subsided and appropriate cuddles have been given. Waking peacefully a short time later we shower together, washing each other. She is a good girl and cooks up some wonderful breakfast for us and I sit her on my lap as we eat, cuddling my adored baby gurl, kissing her cheek with greasy lips I leave little marks on her cheek. After we find some activity to do, for me it'd likely be gaming and I would hope that she would be gaming with me, music in the back ground contentment in our hearts.
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Come evening we sit outside and set a fire my hand in hers, hers in mine along with the leash to the collar about your neck. The evening turns dark and I flick her skirt up her back, spanking kittens arse till I can feel her wetness dribble down her thigh and I'd know she's ready for me. I'd lay her down on the grass, on her back and spread her thighs placing her booted ankles over my shoulders I enter my fuck toy... slowly, soooo slowly, I want her to feel every atom sliding into her insides as I ram my cock into her cervix, she'd hear me growl quietly {I don't moan}. With one hand planted above her head for balance the other wrapped around her throat and squeezing, I know how much my fuck toy loves it. "Tell sir how much you love his cock, tell me how badly you want my cum, tell me what a good whore you are for me", I pound my rape dolls hole until she needs to squirt but do not give her permission to cum. The sound of her moans and my deep throated, barely audible growls is interrupted by my sluts frantic begging "please sir please please please daddy, kitty has to.... oohh fuck please please please please I have to cum sir sir please, please masters let me cum.... I ca... I cant hold..." I break in "cum for your master you dirty little bitch, cum all over sirs cock and show him what a good little fuck toy you are" she does as told and coats us in her release.
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Afterward I forbid her to wash off the stains on her thighs. As a treat I get us a table somewhere nice to eat, I take in her shame as we take our place, she still crusted in sirs passion. They were staring at your collar and short skirt, she is not sure if they noticed the dried cum under her slutty skirt. We don't care, she is mine and I am hers and that is all that matters. Our dinner enjoyed we return home and leave most of the lights off. Wrapped in my arms she sits and we watch some none sense on TV, talking about matters great and small just happy to be in each others company. I cuff her hands behind her back for my own sport and make her fetch us both a bottle of cyder. She fetches them back in her mouth and I tell her what a good, obedient kitty she is. How much I adore her, my little slut. She sits on my lap and we snuggle up, she purrs happily all the way til bed time.
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At bed time I carry my baby kitten across the bed and throw her down onto it, I chain her wrists and legs before caning her cunt till it's swollen and just a little bit bloody... then I move onto a knife which I use to cut a tiny cross into her nipples before I suckle them tasting a mix of blood and sweetness. I kiss her, sharing her own flavours, this is how we live, this is our perfection and in the moment we're both heady, content and utterly tranquil. I take the knife to my cum dumps anus and slide it inside her very, very gently "DO NOT MOVE KITTEN, it is important you stay very still, daddy wants to hurt you, not harm you, hold very still" being a good girl she nods and remains still as I cut tiny, tiny cuts into her sphincter. With that done the knife is cast aside and I rape her shit hole mercilessly, knowing she can feel the tearing, the agony washing over her tender face. I place a ring gag into her mouth as I rape her, looking into her eyes as my cock sinks into her anus, there is nothing better than looking into my victims eyes as I take her arse. Once the gag is in I move my hands to her tortured tits and pinch them venomously, twisting them to up the pain stakes. As I begin to feel my release building up I pull out of herr arse and stuff her mouth full of my hard cock. That sexy, fuckable, whore hole full of my throbbing cock, how could I resist those fucking lips, they beg me for cum, for my cock, they scream at me in deafening volume. I just can't deny it and I ravage her throat as if it were her arse. Sliding my whole shaft down kittens throat I cum waves of sticky hot seed into her belly. I see that look of gratitude and happiness on her face, I hear her try to talk around my cock as she tries not to gag: "tak oo daheh, thah ooo thaooo mashaa" I pull my cock out of my fuck toys throat and squirt the last of my molten cum on her tongue for her to taste, appreciate and swallow. I wipe the last of the cum left on the end of my cock on those fucking sexual lips, making them even glossier "Daddy loves you".
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Spent we snuggle and I cup her tits and pull her arse against my cock where it belongs, shielding her, taking her, claiming her, defending her. She is my hearts best treasure and she knows it from the love I show her, my savage love and we drift into blissful sleep.
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