happyownedsubbie

Still here...lol.  Enjoying each day as it comes.  "R" and I have found our niche and loving our life together.  How blessed we were to find each other.  There has been some changes and that includes his newest sub who I happen to honestly like!!!  She is perfect for him and makes him happy.  Whatever makes him happy makes me happy so it's just a lovely circle.  We have busy and very fulfilled lives.  We are playing house and really finding ourselves.  We have furnished our home with beautiful things and changed colors on walls, new fluffy bedding and all the things we both love.  A Holiday Gathering soon with dear friends on both side coming together.  Life just does not get better.  Happy Thanksgiving to all.  I am thankful for my life and all of my friends and family.  God Bless our Soldiers!!!

So much change.  We are living together and enjoying every minute.  "R" has found another sub with my blessing and has enjoyed her.  I had a total hip replacement and am feeling amazing now.  What an amazing life I have at this time.  I have never been happier or more fulfilled.  So lucky am I.  We have not played in some time due to my health.  Soon we will begin again.  I look forward to it and my piercings going back in.  I had to remove everything for surgery.  I am so very blessed and grateful for this wonderful man who has shown me what real love it about and what partnership truly means. 

It is a beautiful morning and I sit here typing my thoughts and look down at my striped breasts and I sigh that lovely sub sigh.  It was Saturday and we had just come back from a movie.  I suggested dinner at our favorite mexican restaurant and he "suggested" I go upstairs and put on my collar and cuffs and wait for him on hands and knees in the bedroom on the rug.  My heart skipped several beats of course and I literally ran for the stairs.  It's amazing what those words do for me.  I am fortunate in that I have an extremely creative owner and I am never sure whats up his sleeve.  My breasts were wrapped in his dyed rope. (I love the blue one) and I was ordered downstairs to the basement where he had set up the "pole".  From the moment he attached me to the pole (very tightly I might add, ropes around the waist, wrists and ankles on the bar very wide....I was totally his.   He had given me a very hard spanking up stairs and my bottom was already feeling the warmth and the sting. The cane came out I beleive but I have trouble telling the cane from the crop at times when I am beginning to fade into that "place" I go.  Tap tap tap...harder and more tap tap taps...My bottom could feel every single tap and it felt magnified for some reason.  When he moved to the bound breasts the tapping was excruciating...YUM.  The nipples are well healed from the piercings and I am quite happy with the results.  He was gentle with my pussy piercings as they have only been in for two weeks.  Thank goodness because I don't know what I would have done. 

There is a connection between the Dom and the sub that is like no other in this world.  I give myself freely knowing that he will protect me and watch over me, yet I belong to him to do as he pleases.  The pain he graces me with  and the body modifications he does to me in my opinion are my gifts from him.  I need it.  I want it and I crave it.  He does as well.  Each sting I feel, I feel for him.  My hands wrapped in rope and tied tightly to the pole above me begin to feel cool and I do this for him.  I know he knows when I have had enough so I go with it.   I do not beg for him to stop.  Sometimes a "no" will escape my lips but there are no safe words here.  I can feel him smile when he hears it.   The tapping begins again and he whispers into my ear. 

"You are going to receive 20 with the cane as punishment".  I am confused at first until he asks me to tell him "why".  Because I said no I ask and he tells me that isn't it.  I try to think of something else and he says no to those as well.  He leans in and whispers to me something that I did just a few weeks prior when he was away.  I thought he would forget it.  That it was behind us.  Not that it should have been.  It was wishful thinking on my part.  He asked me if I thought I deserved to be punished.  "Yes" I told him lowering my head.  He told me to count each one and that is so hard.  When you know each one is for soemthing you did.  The tears spilled down my cheeks and I realized I was not crying because of the cane..I could take that.  I was crying because I knew I disappointed him and I felt very bad about that. 

My owner does not like punishment.  I'm an obedient sub I really am.  But sometimes I will do something that I shouldn't.  I know it.  He has never punished me before for it although I always wondered why.  This time he did and I respect his reason and I accepted it willingly because I knew it was what I needed and what he needed to do.  Once done of course any guilt is gone.  I've paid my dues and he is satisfied I've learned my lesson.  It's a cleansing of sorts I think!!!

When he released me from my bonds we headed upstairs and I took care of him the way I so love to do and he took care of me the way he so loves to do.  We went to dinner with a glow to both of us.  Me sitting tenderly on my poor punished bottom and peeking lovingly at my cleavage that had small remnants of the ropes.  The bruising has gone down just a bit, and I'm already ready for more.  

At dinner with the sexy spanish music playing and all our friends around us I reached over and pushed my hand threw his hair and he leaned his face into it and looked at me with such love.  It was a moment.