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Update 11/17: please check my latest journal! will attempt an audio, make no promises~!
Hi! I'm firefly. I'm a highly-motivated submissive who is looking for a dom who can also be a mentor, friend, and support system. I'm seeking to expand my knowledge. My experience is limited (as you know, if you've spoken to me before) but I find that my curiosity is broad. I've had exposure to spanking, breath play, biting, hair pulling, some restraints/bondage. I'm curious about more impact play and potentially interested in humiliation (ask me about the potentially and I'll explain). I've discovered a fondness for duct tape. I have also recently acquired some rather beautiful 'designer' duct tape; the favorite of which is blue with flowers. Just so you know.
Before we go much farther I must tell you that I have several knights in armor who are more than willing to come to my defense if you're a creep and just won't leave me the fuck alone. Now, I try and stay professional and calm and kind but a girl has to protect herself. Especially in this type of community where finding a real, actual dominant man who isn't just looking for a girl to abuse is difficult at best. I have had my run-in's with the Instadoms of Collarme and I don't appreciate messages telling me to get on my knees, or that you will break me. Honestly that just makes you sound creepy. If you know ANYTHING about D/s then you know it's not just about sex. It's about the connection the subbie has with her Dom. It's about knowing you are cared for and about and protected and respected. I am MORE than just a plaything, and I am most certainly NOT a doormat.
In terms of non-kink I'm a young professional who has had intensive orthopedic surgery and is recovering with her folks. Pre-injury I was working 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. I may or may not go back to school when I return to the Boston area.
I'm not seeking a 50's type household or complete d/s relationship/TPE/24:7. That's just not my thing. I require an equal, even footing with You in order to be able to respect you. I must feel like I'm being treated like an adult instead of a child.
You must, must, must have your own way of meeting up with me. Please. I just don't have the time to be picking you up. It's partly a safety mechanism for me as well, so I can bolt if things turn...less than pleasant. I must trust you before we can even consider getting into any type of arrangement. It's important for me for this type of relationship to be built on trust; if you aren't willing to take the time then that just indicates to me what I'm not looking for.
That's a personal preference. That's a personal need. I need my Dom to be somebody I can turn to, confide in, and trust that I'll get objective advice. I need a sounding board. Somebody I can turn to.
I understand not everybody is looking for that and that's fine. I'm always just up for friends! So feel free to send me a message. I do try and reply to everybody =)
-firefly
WARNING: Any
institutions or individuals using this site or any of its associated
sites for studies or projects - You do NOT have my permission to use
any of my profile, messages, or pictures in any form or forum both current and
future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of
my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications and sued accordingly. So please; save yourself the trouble. Unless you want to make me rich.
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11/18: oh goodness has it been FOREVER. i've been around some and boy do i have progress to tell you about. my hand is better. i'm almost out of the brace entirely. now i just wear it after marathon gaming sessions (of which there have been plenty). i'm actually just coming off a six hour CODBO2 zombie binge. i love the maps. lovelovelove. like how on the farm...THE BOX JUST STAYS PUT.
been playing a lot of AC3 and borderlands2. been doing a lot of reading. schoolwork. physical therapy. holy shit the physical therapy.
i cooked a full meal for the first time in over seven months yesterday and it just...was out of this world. you have no appreciation for anything until you can't do it anymore.
needless to say, the hand is good. making serious progress now. contemplating going back to school to get into the other side of The Industry. i just want to get home to boston and spend more time with my master and sis. it's been..........too long. being home with my folks has put a serious damp on the kink life for me. i barely talk to anybody anymore who isn't here with me now.
i miss cm. i miss kosh and recalcintrantt and hazel. i have no idea if any of them are still around. i need to check.
the hurricane fucked some stuff up here, badly. i was without power for almost two weeks which is partly why i was away so long. everything's fine now, thank god, but then we got all that snow.
i'm so sick of this weather.
anyway, i'll try and do an audio. PM me. i need more friends.
-firefly |
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watching el dorado like a boss while waiting for the master to wake up. heck yes.
-firefly |
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Hi all, firefly here. No Internet for me till Monday at least :( do no audios from this subbie. |
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5/15: so it looks like CM is doing the idiot audio journals thing again. where i have no idea if it's going to work or not. haven't really been doing too much. lots of reading. first day of my medical leave so i'm actually fairly bored. at least i have something to do tomorrow. and i may be changing my hair up in the next few days as well.
we shall see.
-v |
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Hey guys it's firefly here taking a break from work. Internet should be up around Sunday, or so they say. Life has been pretty busy for me, lots of working. Lots of pain in he wrist but I'm seeing my doc tomorrow so hopefully we'll get all that shirt sorted out and it'll magically get better and my entire life can move on and I can do what I was supposed to do.
I'm so tired of it, to be honest. Everything hurts it and there's no way it's getting better. I'm supposed to be resting it but what can you do when you're working 50 hours a week? I have a sneaking suspicion I'm infor cortisone shots and a referral to the hand/wrist guy.
Fuck that shit. It's just one thing after another these days and there's no way out of it. I feel likebim going to be permanently broken and there will be nothing I can do to actually fix it. I wish I was kidding when I tell you that literally -every- joint in my body is hyper mobile.
What does that mean, you ask? It means everything lives more than they should. My joints are just too damn loose. Genetics. My bio parents both have the same thing.
Hopefully my wrist takes care of itself.
Well I gotta get back to work. Firefly, signing off. |
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Hey guys, it's firefly. Can't sleep for the life of me. Place just doesn't feel like home. I need to put things on the walls, get some rugs. Paint the damn walls. The white just makes it feel so surgical and while some people are into that it's not one of my strong suits. Naturally my wrist is killing me. I finished my book, by the way, and I'm not sure how I feel about the end of it. I've finished two books tonight and I'm still freaking awake. I wish I could sleep like a normal human being but...guess that just isn't possible for me. I'm one of "those" people.
I think I need a pet other than my fish. Folks in my life say a dog is a bad idea, but I just want something I can count on to be here, I guess. I'm not sure where this loneliness is coming from but it makes me so sad. I wish I had more friends. I wish I had the time for social interaction. I wish I had the gift of social abilities. Some folks are born with that but I guess I lucked out in the gene pool. Seems to be happening a lot lately. I'm tired of joints that won't work. I'm tired of constantly being injured in one way or another.
Truth be told, I'm scared. Things with my hand are getting worse and I'm randomly dropping things both at home and at work.
You can imagine what happens when i drop a souffle. Needles to say it doesn't end well. I can usually salvage it. I'm just that good. But it's the principle of the thing.. I'm scared Of what I might have to do (or not do) to get my wrist back. This is the hand I need for work. I don't know what else to do . It's hurting and my phone keyboard is stressing the injury so this is firefly, signing off. |
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Hey all it's firefly here. Move went well, parents are finally gone, place is mostly unpacked. It's kind of lonely here. The building doesn't have a ton of people :( so its pretty much just me.
Waiting on the Comcast peeps to come and hook up my Internet do you can have those audio journals back!
We're looking at thursday, folks. I'm dying I'm so bored. I have done nothing but read. I'm making progress in catching fire though and let me tell you it's phenomenal. I'm dying to see what happens :)
My wrist is still killing me. Calling the doc tomorrow.
This is firefly, signing off. |
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4/6/12: hey all, it's firefly! today was a not-so-good day at work. you-know-who was up in my face again. this time, i made an error. i had 16 tickets with 22 plates and i didn't check the machine like i should have, and so i missed his order.
but...for a man who doesn't put IN his orders...he sure gets pissy when somebody makes a mistake. he 'forgot' to fire a table tonight and they were waiting 40 minutes for their entrees because he claims he fired it.
no, he did not. you can hear in the back when they fire. the whole situation is just so incredibly frustrating. because yes, i'm human. but that is my FIRST serious error in three months, despite this bastard breathing down my neck.
but anyway.
i'm moving in like, two days. words cannot express how freaking excited i am to get out of here. as i type, elephant toddler is having a fucking field day upstairs. at 2am. well, she's 4 now. she was 2 when i moved in. hence the nickname elephant toddler.
so yes. moving. very exciting. my new place is freaking gorgeous and i have a reading nook and EVERYTHING. my comfy chair is going up there and i'm buying another piece of furniture for downstairs, after i figure out how much cash i need for my new tattoo. it should be a pretty extensive piece, soooooo that might have to go on hold. sucks for people who visit. dining room chairs for them.
i'm cowering in my room and hiding from my mom. god, i want it to be JUST ME!!! I MISS MY SOLITUDE!
bah. i may be around for a bit, if you happen to check this right away.
this is firefly, signing off. |
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4/5/12
hey all it's firefly here. as promised, la madre showed up today so it's radio silence for me! today was interesting. my ex swore that every time he came up to visit he saw an asian guy with a knife just walking around and i never believed him.
well, i do now.
and i called to apologize, too.
-firefly |
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3/30: so I'm transitioning to audio journals!! Go check it out. You may hit difficulty around 1.40, so pause and play again and it should get back to working! |
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3/21/12: WHOOO-eee has this been a hell of a ride. I'm a week and a half away from completing in my internship; which, my dear friends, is why I was absent. I've been working 10 hours a day for 12 weeks. And dear God almighty has it paid off. Graduating in late april. Date is set. Hopefully I'll end up with a job I like. Moving to a better place. Getting a dog. I'm officially a young professional out in the working world. And now I have time to focus and settle down and actually go about potentially finding myself a top. |
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1/5: well hello, hello, ladies and gents. I am back indeed. Procedure went well, mostly on my feet. don't be afraid to say hello. |
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10/26: I know I've been horrific with answering messages, and I apologize so much. My life is craaaazy hectic right now, and will be for the next week or so. I'm essentially in finals (and drowning in them, I assure you =/ ) and school and school-related stuff is just my top priority. Think of it this way; once I take on a project or any type of commitment I am dedicated. Think of the potential that could hold for you, and keep sending me messages! I love them and try to reply to everyone. |
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10/18: food for thought. I'd love to try topping another woman. I'm wondering if there's a side to me I haven't had the chance to figure out yet. Perhaps I'm mislabeled. But labels are for soup cans anyway. Do I need a label? Sometimes I feel like I do. I also feel like I don't 'fit' into a category. I'm just weird. Gotta love the weirdness. =D |
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10/12: won't be around till monday, have a hell of a week/end ahead of me. feel free to leave me messages! i'll get them soon as i can monday. |
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I have been attempting to upload a photo with no luck... 9/8 |
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