I'm a kind, intelligent, thoughtful and attractive woman, seeking friends in the lifestyle.
I am not new to CM (formerly theobserver) but have not actively participated in events nor been involved in a alternative lifestyle relationship.
In regards to romance, I am open to whatever may develop through correspondence, as long as things progress in a natural way, at a pace that's best for all party's involved.
Feel free to message me but initial contacts containing requests for my instant messenger screename, webcam, phone number or other personal information will be ignored.
Getting To Know Me
So it's been awhile...
Yes, I have been gone from CM for a bit. I relocated across country. It was the best thing for myself, my sanity and of course my loving family. We are settled in and doing well.
What has happened in between the time I arrived and the time I logged in to CM again?
Well, my life has changed by leaps and bounds. A few short months ago, I was in a state of purgatory. In between living my life to the fullest and saying fuck it. Then, miracle of miracles. I told myself 'no more.' and wallah! Life just changed--for the [B]etter!
I guess if I sit and contemplate what this all means, one might call it 'full circle'.
I left Chicago when I was 18, set off to see the world and vowed never to return. I'm back now, not that I hadn't come back a few times before but this time was different. It was a decision I made not because I was forced to but because it was the best for me.
Now that I got that out of the way, for those of you who don't remember me from my other profile, this is the who, what and whys of me:
I...AM...
Easy...to love...to get along with...to be a friend of. I am sensitive, I am passionate. I have anxieties and fears that stretch conventions at time but getting to know me is well worth the effort.
I guess I'm a work in progress. I really want to meet people in the lifestyle but at the time and pace that feels right to me (and I have more to share on that but not now, I'll save that for a journal entry). I dabble in all sorts of things regarding the arts. I believe in volunteerism although I rarely get around to doing it as much as I would like. I also strongly believe in charity--that it starts at home...in your neighborhood...and so on and so forth...
I am a single woman with obligations of a parental kind. I do not introduce people I do not know well enough into that part of my life and I think that most reasonable individuals understand why. To those 'of age' that matter to me, my lifestyle and curiosities are not a secret. However to respect the sanctity and privacy of those I love, I am mindful what I share about who I am to the public.
My chosen career is as a writer. My steps toward success in this field have been slow but are moving along at a rate that encourages me to keep going. I am not a nine to fiver, it's never worked out for me, take that however you like.
I like all sorts of music, films and things of a artistic nature. I will not bore you with a laundry list because I think that will naturally come out in conversation with me but I will say that I am a horror buff and a film enthusiast. I even write for a popular film blog!
When I am confortable in my surroundings and the people I am in the company of, I can be very chatty and (like I said before) easy-going. If I am not comfortable in my surroundings, I will get very quiet and keep to myself. I am not standoffish. But I like to take in a situation before I dive in.
I am working on bettering my life in all manners of speaking, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I'm taking tiny steps in each of those aspects and everyday I get better and better.
My happiness quotient is a solid 50 right now. I have up and down days but I'm not teetering on the brink of insanity or exploding with euphoria.
I love people and I hate them. It depends on the day. I like to say, I'm an up fish and a down fish. Sometimes I want to be in the middle of it all and other days I want to be to myself. I think I'm far from unique in that regard.
What makes me unique if anything?
I've been told to have an amazing ability to adapt to all manners of situations and personalities. Even those I find a a bit abrasive.
I don't believe in perfection, only what's perfect for me.
Best way to get to know me is to write and do it often and of course read my journals. They are an open book to me until you get to actually meet me.
Don't be surprised if I contradict everything I said above.
-F
