enchantedkitten

Update: this kitten seems to have gotten herself wrapped up in quite a ball of yarn. i'm not currently available to explore relationships with prospective dominants right now due to some major changes in life circumstances (moving, job stuff, starting to exercise, fixing the diet, the works). it seems i've been letting some important parts of my life languish for far too long, and i need to get back on track. i'm not sure when i might be available for social things again. please know it is nothing personal, i've just got a lot of things to work on.

You are smart, wise, experienced, sane, ethical, honest, and communicative. You deal with the situations in your life with integrity. You are dominant without raising your voice. You carefully keep me safe because you know I can't submit unless I feel safe. You are kind and ruthless, easy going and demanding, the best sort of paradox. You are patient. You accept my fallibility and I accept yours too. But there is never too much slack in the leash. You are not a micro-manager. You expect me to follow general directions and ask questions if I don't understand. You like to caress every part of me, and make me feel how very much you own me. You are strong enough to stick around and work problems out instead of just fading away. It is going to take a little time to learn to trust you. You are ready to put in that time if I am. You want to meet me in person sooner rather than later, though, because we both want to work on real things. You do not smoke, use drugs, drink heavily, or gamble heavily.

I'm a sensitive, empathetic, smart, wise, sane, communicative submissive who is wants to give herself to an experienced dominant. My life is together: I've got a job, friends, and a place to live. I'm not a pain slut, but if you let me know how much I am pleasing you, if you ask me to, I can sometimes take a lot of pain. In deep sessions you'll need to watch me carefully since I go non-verbal, and may not be able to find my safeword until it is way bad. I want more than just BDSM or sex with you, and I want more than a one-night stand with you. I'm a complicated kitty. I hope we build something that lasts a lifetime or two. I have a lot of things I like doing outside the bedroom/dungeon and I like to learn new things.

If you are the right dominant then I want to wear your collar and give you as much pleasure as you want. My faves are simple bondage, flogging, paddling, cropping, and caning. I like thuddy more than stingy. I love being fucked in whatever hole pleases you the most, when it pleases you. But mostly I love the amazing connection only deeply submitting to a powerful dominant can give me. I feel this most after a hard session during aftercare.

I am a BBW, so if you are looking for HWP, perhaps this isn't a good match. I am successfully working on the weight thing, and for sure a skilled dominant could help that along.

Although some of my play has been as a top (and I am skilled at it), I know with all my heart that my true nature is a submissive one. I need to find a dominant to serve, and ultimately to live with. I expect he or she will want me to continue to earn a living, but I see now that once a week "play" isn't going to work for me. I need to be more of a part of my dominant's life.

I've recently learned something important about myself. I'm not really going to be happy with just a male lover in my life. I either need to be with a single female lover, multiple female lovers, or a male/female couple where we are all lovers. Sorry single guys!

There is more ground to cover than can be done with a profile. If it pleases you, why not send me email, we could chat, we could meet and see where the road takes us?

Everywhere by Michelle Branch
Turn it inside out so i can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and
who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there

Chorus:
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

Chorus

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

Chorus x 2

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?