dAsIjana

"Was she then of stone or wax, or rather some creature from another world, and did they think it pointless to speak to her? Or didn't they dare?"

OK, so we've all (or should I say most) read the book. But how many have carried this quote as a thought while going about their everyday public lives? I find it sits with me often: the man looking at me admiringly across the aisle at the grocerey store, the woman on the mat beside me in Yoga class, the neighbors gardener watching me play outside with the children, even interacting with my own family... What would their reaction be if they knew? If they could see the marks I carry from the beatings I crave, the peircings adorning all parts of my body; if they knew the symbolism behind certain things I wear (and were aware of what I don't); that the strength they see in me is born of his love, his guidance, and his utterly thorough use of me. What if I came right out and said "I am merely his property, he owns me...my purpose is His pleasure?" Would they be intrigued? Horrified? Curious perhaps? Would any find it beautiful?

I don't ask this because others thoughts particularly matter to me. This is the life I've chosen, the one in which I find happiness. But I am curious... How many would walk away, refusing to acknowledge such things even exist? Who would pity me and see me in need of "help?" How many others would simply condemn? Who's lips would turn with a knowing smile before glancing away? And how many would look into my eyes only to be startled by a mirror of their own denied desires? A metamorphosis awaits... "Do you dare?"