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This D/s journey...
For me, it's all about acceptance and understanding that... first of all, not everyone on here is genuine. Secondly, in the past i have experienced periods of frustration because i am powerless over people. i have great faith in knowing that i will or will not eventually meet the right person. It's God's will...not mine. When i step back and allow relationships to naturally unfold...good things happen. When i try to control the outcomes of situations i usually find myself frustrated and irritated. So, i believe it's all about our perceptions; how we treat others and how we allow others to treat us. It's really very simple...
~ daígh
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This girl could not have asked for a more perfect weekend. The weather, the company, the ambiance, the laughter...collectively impeccable! It is with profound gratitude that i embrace each precious moment with which i am blessed. Thank You... for the infinite gifts You bestow upon me. ~ daígh |
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Life is good...Thank You, God... |
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Wondering aloud...
how we feel today.
Last night sipped the sunset,
my hands in her hair.
We are our own saviors
as we start, both our hearts beating life
into each other.
Wondering aloud...
will the years treat us well?
As she floats in the kitchen,
I'm tasting the smell
Of toast as the butter runs.
Then she comes,
spilling crumbs on the bed
and I shake my head.
And it's only the giving
that makes you what you are....
~Jethro Tull |
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'In spite of everything I shall rise again: I will take up my pencil, which I have forsaken in my great discouragement, and I will go on with my drawing.'
~Vincent Van Gogh |
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Silence
"Quietness is indeed a sign of strength. But quietness may also help one to achieve strength."
~Franz Kafka |
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I apologize to all of the people who have written to me that i have yet to respond.
I thought for a moment that i had met the one who would fulfill my dreams and desires and i His.
Mutual respect is imperative. Without this there is no need to pursue a friendship.
I'll write when i'm able... |
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Why would a Dom seek a weak sub other than to take advantage of her, exploit her vulnerability and attempt to break her? I have 6 brothers, all of whom are naturally dominant. A cursory knowledge of them i have, although I don't quite understand this Man's persona. There are times when i contemplate His reason for being in my life. His fears haunt Him, His pride, impermeable. My thoughts are... Maybe, just maybe, He loves the madness surrounding conflict. Maybe He seeks a sub who has no self-esteem, a sub who will gullibly submit to His every whim. If He's incapable of engaging in an intelligent conversation, an honest assessment of my work, a sincere exigesis...then maybe He needs a nice little doormat to provide Him with a mere piece of ass. So sad.... Loneliness is never more cruel than when it is felt in close propinquity with someone who has ceased to communicate... God has blessed me with the gift of resilience. Thank You, God! |
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Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
by fearing to attempt.
~William Shakespeare |
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It is only with the heart that one can see rightly;
what is essential is invisible to the eye.
~Antoine de St. Exupery |
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When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions
May wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
As the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you
So shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth
So is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses
Your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and
Shake them in their clinging to the earth.
From "The Prophet" by Kahlil Gibran |
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“I knew that I had come face to face with some one whose mere personality was so fascinating that, if I allowed it to do so, it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul, my very art itself.”
~Oscar Wilde |
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For the record, my last journal entry was not directed specifically towards any one individual nor was it intended to offend. I was merely thinking aloud in an obviously feeble attempt at solving the mystery of human behavior...smiles*
Conceivably many subs, including myself, learn more from exposure to the painful encounters than we do from the pleasurable ones. Could it be that Neitzsche had a deep understanding of a submissive's heart when he wrote, "What does not kill me, makes me stronger."?
And, after much introspective thought on my last journal entry, I've come to realize just how little knowledge I have regarding many different subjects, primarily discipline and humility...
daígh |
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After taking a much needed, yet brief, hiatus from Collarme I've returned to behold that little has changed. Is it possible that perhaps my perception of self and others, dreams and expectations, have been subtly altered over this most recent chapter in my life?
One distinct observation I have made is...
Many Doms claiming to display a sense of compassion and empathy towards submissives (who lack in experience, wisdom or judgement) are precisely those guilty of exhibiting such dispiriting insolence.
The practice of keeping silent, better known as my most difficult task to date, enables me to absorb these absurd declarations without outward judgement nor consequence. Ah yes, the gag, such an effective implement!
Oddly enough, with this new found awareness to the presence of such hypocrites, I embark upon the continuous journey of D/s enlightenment... smiles*
Happy Mother's Day to all of you mothers out there...hugs* |
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"Realizations come naturally through the practice of surrendering."
Jae Woong Kim ~ Polishing The Diamond |
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A warm "thank you" goes out to all who have welcomed my return. |
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