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Looking for a dominant guy who likes to get to know someone before embarking on what is to me, one of the most intense and beautiful ways of expressing affection to another and breaking boundaries. In other words, I like the other things as well, such as conversation, debate, going out together, doing things together. The kind of social activities that help to bond one with another.
Likes: all of the above and music, people, nature, the sea, sunsets, food, reading, new places, etc.
Dislikes: Lies, judgemental attitudes.
Craves: An interesting single dominant guy in my life. Preferably, a romantic.
Please read the following as well.
It really is important to me that I get to know someone and they get to know me. I really don't know how someone can expect to dominate another otherwise. Unless it is someone who really does get a kick out of being told what to do and will submit simply on demand. That isn't me. I see no point in trying to be someone I am not. Submission for me is something that I truly believe is in me to give and have given, but it isn't so much that it has to be earned by a Dom, more something that I give as they give more of themselves to me. I can write a list of things from a BDSM perspective that I am interested in but none of it will really be of relevance if I am not connecting with the other person and them with me. My Dom, if I ever find him, will be a constant in my life and in my head. I know that there are those who think I am dreaming or looking for love and think that I am stupid to think that I'll ever find that with someone on a site like this. Well I consider myself a very human human being so I am happy to admit that I do dream and am looking for love with a Dom. Afterall, dreaming is done with the head and loving with the heart, both of which I have.
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Well another August Bank holiday weekend. It would be so nice to meet some one to spend the next one with. |
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I truly did love being in a relationship with someone who I cared about which had a very strong Dom/sub dynamic, but I think that perhaps my wish to find something similar with another is not as strong as it used to be. Life is about growing and change comes with that. I used to be almost desperate to find someone but I would not say the same now. I hate being questioned about that seem irrelevant to me, such as my living arrangements. I'm not looking for a housemate and if I did meet someone who became important to me then perhaps they would.
I appreciate that it can be difficult to start up a conversation with a stranger in a place like this but the kind of person that I would warm to would be someone who is quite confident and good at putting a stranger at ease. They do exist and I have no doubt that there are many on this site.
I just had to get that off my chest. |
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Regarding going to the gym, it did take a while to get going but I have to say that I have taken to it like a duck takes to water. I also think that being a bit of a pain masochist helps because I enjoy most of the challenges that exercise pain can present. Besides which it's fun and, I'm aiming to try the the spin bikes which i think will give me some of a sense of what it's like to ride a bike. I have never been able to master riding an actual bike you see because I have a fear of falling off...lol.
Also I want to go horse riding. |
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Happy New Year to anyone who reads this. I love new beginnings. The last couple of years have been tough. To anyone who has recently lost a parent, I wish I could tell you that you'll come to terms with it but I don't think you ever do. I think that it is possible to learn to carry on living life and keeping that person with you in a less painful way, if that makes sense.
On a less sad note, I am so looking forward to this year. I have plans. From a BDSM perspective I hope to discover more about who I am in that respect and be the best I can be. As for the other things I would like to achieve well the first thing is to get fit again. So much so that I have bought my first pair of trainers and I'm joining a gym. I'm really more of a walking and swimming person usually but I'm giving it a go. It will be interesting.
Oh and this is funny. I have a young neice, she's 9. This is what she said to her mother recently.
Neice - Aunty Sally is like the Queen.
Mother - Why is that?
Neice - Well she doesn't say a lot but when she does it's always interesting.
Well, anyone who knows me knows I am nothing like the Queen but I did feel flattered and especially because one so young finds me this way. Pretty cool I think. |
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I am sure this is of no interest to anyone but I just had to fight my way out of a nightmare. I was in a room full of earwigs, which I have always found difficult to have any afinity with and then this huge snake appeared, which seemed endless. Someone, who I couldn't see, caught the snake but then proceeded to tease me with the tail end of the snake. I know I am a bit of a masochist but this was horrible. I literally fought to wake up. Now I am sitting here, not very keen to go back to sleep again. I rarely remember my dreams anyway so am not a happy bunny to have had this one. I'm writing about it here as it may enable me to attempt sleep again, soon....lol.
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A few days ago I wrote something in this journal which was a way of indicating where my head is at the moment. I've had a few messages from some people here that have been much appreciated. I now want to express that I'm not doomy and gloomy, despite my recent bereavement. I'm sad but still the person I usually am as well, which is basically someone who laughs easily and smiles a lot. Just thought I would share that. Have a good day.
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I haven't written anything here since May last year. My mother died in January of this year. Since realising that the effect on me has been responsible for creating what I can only describe as thick fog I have begun to come to terms with my loss and am slowly finding my way through it. As for finding that special person, well I'm still looking. If I have learnt anything so far from my recent bereavement, it is that definitely life is short and that I am even more determined to not make do with less than what is right for me.
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I haven't written anything here for a while. I've been busy with other things I guess. Nothing has changed though. I still have a burning desire inside me to submit to one special person. I hope that soon I can act upon this desire but in the meantime I'm glad it is still burning because I wouldn't be me otherwise.
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At this time I really am more interested in the D/s dynamic than specific activities although I do like the pain/pleasure thing and always will. So when I am asked what I like and what are my limits I can be a bit vague because, for me, to create what I would like is more about the mind than the physical. It's with my mind that I learned to switch off from the negative aspect of pain and take the pleasure.
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Still haven't found what I'm looking.....and feeling a bit like a puppet on a string. At least my humour is intact....lol.
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An explanation about my nickname. 'cleopetra' is a play on Cleopatra. I know, she wasn't exactly the submissive kind like me but I believe that in her personal relationships, particularly with the likes of Antony, she was at the very least devoted to him.
I changed the 'a' to 'e', to indicate that I like the idea of being someone's 'pet'. If I was going to become a 'furry'(loved that episode in CSI), I think I would probably be a cat because I like to be stroked...lol. I am also quite playful at time, particularly in my humour. Oh and I decided to become cleopetra when I realised that I wanted to portray my dark side more obviously. Whether I have achieved that in this name I don't know but I like it. That's the explanation.
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I am not looking for a play partner or to be controlled from the word go, just in case that isn't clear in my profile. Actually, to kind of rub along with a compatible male of the dominant kind might be nice. Compatible, in my dictionary, means that we share common interests and goals in life and also that initially there is some kind of connection that makes wanting to explore if we have compatibility fairly easy going. I just thought it might be helpful if I added this to what I have already said about myself. |
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