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Hetero Female Submissive, 58,  Missouri
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Proudly serving the One i adore (and always remembering with love the One who brought us together, may He rest in peace).

Master and i enjoy meeting others involved in the D/s, M/s, BDSM lifestyle; especially those living it 24/7 and those interested in learning. We often arrange time to talk with, teach, and play with others.

We believe it is important to be actively involved in encouraging communication with new people entering the lifestyle. There are so many safety issues to be considered --physical, mental, emotional, and financial dangers. Please feel free to contact me if you would just like someone to talk with about the lifestyle. i use this same id on yah** chat. Or contact the One i serve, Big_Bearrrr.










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 Submissive Female


 5' 11"

 200 lbs






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Male

Submissive Female

Domme/Dom Couples

Mascdom Couples



 Horseback Riding

 Romance Novels



 Horse Racing


 Beachcombing (Beginner)

 Flea Markets

 Garage Sales



 Musical Theater (Beginner)

 Renaissance Faires (Beginner)





 Anal Play




 Breast Play

 Canes and Crops


 Corsets (Beginner)

 Eye Contact Restrictions

 Local BDSM Community

 Fire Play


 Hair Pulling

 Knife Play (Beginner)


 Mental Bondage


 Needle Play

 Orgasm Denial

 Pantyhose Fetish

 Plastic Wrap

 Public Play

 Sensory Deprivation



 Speech Restrictions



 Vacuum Stimulation


 Wax play


 Board Games

 Card Games

 Comedy Shows

 Online Chatrooms

 Cross Stitch




 Pottery (Beginner)




 Psychology (Beginner)


 1950s Lifestyle

 Lifestyle BDSM


 Classical Music

 Country Music



 Opera Music


 Seventies Music





 Humiliation (Beginner)


 Bar Hopping


 Wind Surfing


 Gas Masks



 Theatrical Scenes


 Arcade Games




 Horror Movies

 Heavy Metal Music

 Hard Limits:


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Journal Entries:
2/13/2012 10:25:29 PM

Seven years ago, i was sitting with the wonderful man i served watching Him lose His battle with cancer.  Rest in peace MasterJohn NOLA.   As i tried to fall asleep a while ago listening to the rain outside, i wondered if those gone on to heaven cry tears of joy as they celebrate freedom from the suffering so often faced in this world. 


i often wonder if they can see us and are proud of our efforts to go on as they have directed.  If so, i hope He understands when tears still slip down my cheeks at times as i miss Him.  i've learned by moving ahead, embracing life and new love, that it is (as He told me it would be) possible to love and serve again.  i've not forgotten His pleas that i not lose my faith in God if we did not get the miracle we prayed for, nor have i fogotten His absolute faith that whatever happened, God would be with us.  i have gradually accepted that God is not going to answer my "why" questions before i leave this world but i will get my answers then.


i've also learned that loving another in no way changes the love felt for one gone on to the next life and that hole in my heart still aches, especially at certain times of year.  i wasn't ready -- You told me that before you left, Sir -- and now i realize another day, another week, another month, another year -- none of it would have been enough --  i wanted forever.  i asked the one i now serve to promise me He'd not die too (silly, yes, but i was so afraid of facing that again). 


As i think back to those last days, i'm still amazed that you thought to order Valentine's Day roses delivered to me.  And yet it was so like You to be thinking of others rather than yourself.  i had no idea how many things you had done, how many things you had arranged to help me through thoses days, weeks, months after you left this world.  You were truly remarkable in so very many ways.  i do not shed tears of regret that our lives crossed each others paths not once but twice; i only shed tears of sadness that we were separated so soon.  On February 15th of 2005, God called home a wonderful son, brother, US Navy pilot and sailor, husband, father, grandfather, Master, and friend.  Your subbie, wife, lover, and friend, cinderella

11/28/2011 5:34:26 PM

i'm not much on writing in a journal here, but this month want to mention how thankful i am for two great men who have passed from this life -- the first i served, Master John (New Orleans Master) and my dad.  May they both rest in peace.

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