I don't really know what to say here.

Yes I do! Guys, don't waste your time writing me, I'm not interested right now!

I've had this fascination with orgasm control since I was very young. I used to imagine all sorts of terrible things happening to me and it used to get me really turned on and the helplessness and humiliation just seemed to make it really.....

I've had only a little experience with a pro mistress who I met giving a performance at a club. She would do things that made me tingle right down to my toes and then she'd flip on me and reduce me to tears. Then she'd make me beg her to do it all over again.

While I was serving her, she had severe restrictions on how I had sexual pleasure. Gradually she became more strict on what I could and couldn't do until I had to beg for permission to do humiliating things so she would let me mastubate. I ended up doing lots of things that I hated otherwise or found humiliating-but somehow I found I was wanting to surrender even more to be kept in that buzzing state.

Unfortunately, I was interested in being her toy while she has many other pets she plays with. I was getting too jealous so we had to part, though she has been kind enough to me since.

I'm not seriously looking, but I am curious whether I could make that sort of connection again. I'm not interested in guys though. I like guys ok, but the ones who I've tried to play with haven't been able to get inside my head as much as another woman was, plus they're too focused on sex. I like sex, but the mind-bending, world rending sex I get after I've really needed it for awhile is the only kind I want right now.

Most of my experience has been having to be "on my honor" I tried a chastity belt at a party oce, but it was just a toy. I have collected a lot of info on steel devices since, but they have drawbacks too. I have recently gotten two outer labia piercings, once they heal I plan to get 8 more and try infibulation. It won't stop mastubating but it's a start. If anyone has suggestions on practical methods to prevent mastubation, email with 'suggestion' in the first line, thanks. I hope to experiment someday on really long chastity control, that's my biggest fantasy right now.

Right now I can't move and I don't really want to get involved until I meet the right person, so no game players, please. I am open to moving toward a 24/7 situation as a kept girl someday, with the right person if the chemistry is right.

Again, guys, no offense, but right now I'm only interested in exploring a relationship with a dom woman. Maybe I could try a couple, but both would have to be dom and I the only sub.