I moved here back in August to live with my girlfriend. She's been here 8 years but not with my eyes....

I'm looking for locations to shoot outdoor nudes. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

So, I'll start - did a shoot two weeks ago (today) at Ray Roberts State park - very nice - drive all the way in, playground at the end, boat ramp, several private areas on the water.

Tried to do a shoot today at Robertson Park on Lake Ray Hubbard - bad choice. maybe 2 small, limited, no interesting features locations. Don't bother.

What can you help me with?

thanks!
CapnJim

Apparently my slut has been doing some research. She told me the other day that she had read some more in the Fellatio book I bought her (see that post for more info).

I don't know if that has anything to do with it, but her cock sucking skills have certainly improved a lot over the past month.

She 'woke me up' yesterday morning, coming back to bed before I had gotten up and went down on me. She licked, sucked, teased, and deep throated my cock for almost an hour, taking me right to the edge of coming several times. It was all I could do to keep myself from throwing her on her back and banging my way inside her pussy for an orgasm.

Then, she took a break and went outside for a smoke (a bad habit she is giving up for me soon).

When she returned, she went down on me *again*, repeating the previous hour's worth of pleasure and delicious torture. Again, it was all I could do not to roll her over and fuck her hard and fast til I came. And again, she took a break for a smoke after almost another hour.

Only she didnt come back right away. Eventually I got up and found her in the shower. (she admitted later she was starving and wanting me to get up and get some breakfast - the shower was a 'hint').

She came back to bed and I spent the next hour licking and sucking on *her*, but she couldn't quite cum for me.

She *did* take another go at my cock while I was sorta in a '69' position on top of her. I'm not a big fan of '69' because I prefer to either lick or be licked so i can focus - and that position isn't the best for reaching your partner's pleasure spots either (for the guy or the woman). Not that it mattered this time. Between all the earlier attention my cock had gotten from her, I was hard immediately and within a few minutes shooting my load as she deep throated me to an awesome orgasm.

I love my slut *so* much!

My slut has been catching up on her journal entries a bit, but still has more to go.....

We have several videos planned with the HD camera - and a movie project with another local photographer that sounds *interesting* :-)

Stay tuned......

Another first for D last night - I'll let her tell you about it :-)

And she told me Monday night that she wants me to strap her to the bed on her next day off (while J is in school) all day and use her as I want, when I want, leave her alone and wondering what is next, blindfolded.

We;ll see if she gets what she wants - or *expects*. She says she *hates* surprises  :-)

D is really enjoying anal sex. She mentioned when we met that she only tried it once or twice, only because her partner 'made her' and that she hadn't enjoyed it. I told her that I enjoyed it sometimes but it wasn't a deal breaker if she didn't. As we got closer and explored this connection between us more she volunteered at one point that she was really looking forward to me taking her in the ass.

Since my previous entry, she has asked me to fuck her in the ass several times and we both enjoy it immensely. I think she enjoys giving herself to me completely, pleasing me, being my 3 hole slut. And I enjoy it for the different sensation/tightness and mostly because she is doing it to please me and she is enjoying it.

We make an excellent pair and the more we explore, the better it gets.

Baby girl surprised me the other night. 'Take me' she said. 'Fuck me in the ass'

She has mentioned before that she wants me to take her in the ass and that would be a first for her - actually wanting anal sex. So it wasn't *too* surprising, just the timing was. We purchased an anal bead vibrator for her on the last toy shopping trip (see her journal where she got kicked out of the store for having no panties on). It's one with increasing sized beads. We looked at several and she thought this one would help 'open her up' to a size that my cock would fit. We played with her new vibe once between then and now - I think I wrote about it. She could only take the first 2 (of the 5) beads inside her and then I slid my cock into her vagina for a simulated DP (another first she wants).

 She asked me on the way home from work how I was going to fuck her that night and mentioned that she thought we should try the 'anal intrusion'. I thought she just wanted to play with her new toy. I licked her a bit and then lubed and slid the first bead and then the second into her, telling her when and how many beads were inside her. I played with the level of the vibrator, licking her, and playing with her clit. She got more and more turned on and I applied some more lube and slid the third bead inside her.

 She told me she wanted my cock in her ass 'Please'. I was skeptical that she was open and relaxed enough, but who am I to argue when she wants my cock? So, I applied a bunch more lube to her ass and my cock, probed her ass a bit with my finger (she did seem a little loose) and then began to ease my cock into her ass. She resisted a bit at first, then relaxed and the head of my cock slid right in. She gasped a bit and we both relaxed for a few seconds. 'More' she requested. Of course I obliged and gradually, slowly slid the rest of my cock inside her tight little ass. I rested deep inside her for a short bit, then began to slowly stroke in and out.

 As I stoked in and out, of course I popped out of her once. And when I went to slid back in, my pussy sucked me in instead ;-) So, a bit of manual intervention and I was once again deep in her ass. Not too much more stoking and her tight asshole was making me cum loads and loads inside her.

 We fell asleep with me still deep inside her.

Things are going well. She is happy, I am happy, life is pretty good. Could be better, of course - always can be. Seems to be getting better, too. Except the damn automobiles which keep giving us grief.

This week will be interesting - her mom comes to visit. She's a bit nervous and I guess I am a tiny bit as well - meeting part of the family for the first time, having her stay with us, etc. At first, the plan was taht I would spend the week at my brother's place and 'just visit' while her mom was here, but D decided that wasn't going to work for her, so she 'admitted' to her mom that I am living here. I think that took a lot of guts on her part and I appreciate that.

The sex just seems to get better and better. She hasn't cum with me inside her yet, but seems to be getting closer. And she did squirt with me inside her the other night - that was an interesting first for both of us.

 It turns out that baby girl is quite the squirter. She had told me shortly after we met that she had squirted a few times before, but it took a lot of effort and practically being fisted for it to happen. Apparently she likes my techniques better :-) Read her journal for some details. She wants to capture a session on video, so stay tuned. We'll probably post it on FL - entitled 'Squirting to the Oldies' ;-) Sorry, Richard Simmons :-)

Things outside of kink are going well too. We finally got a lawn mower and mowed the yard, found a great buy on a used fridge literally 2 blocks from the house, turned in all her ginger ale cans at the recycle place for $34.20 :-) [and *yes* that is a *load* of cans - a whole Chevy Blazer *full*]

Life is good.

Baby Girl D is *way* behind in journal updates. lots of firsts, mostly very good, but one I don't like.

According to her we "didn't have sex" last night for the first time since I've been back. I think she adheres to the strict Bill Clinton definition of sex - e.g. vaginal penetration by a penis. I guess my definition is a bit more 'open' - if somebody *cums*, there was *sex*

What do you think? PM me.

Capn Jim

Well, *that* didn't go so well :-(

My slut has some self-confidence issues, one of which is that *she* thinks she doesn't give a good blowjob. *I* think she does a fine job - esp when she deep throats me :-) Could she be better? Probably. I think almost anyone can get better at almost *anything*. Ask one of the Olympic record setters from this year's Olympics - I bet they will tell you they could have done better......

So, since she has asked me to teach/train her, I've given her feedback - both in general about which areas are most sensitive and specifically - mmmm, yes! - and 'when I twitch and gasp, *that* is a good thing' :-)

But, I thought another opinion might be useful. So, I ordered a copy of a book that a previous GF had on her shelf. It arrived today and I left the package on the bed. (n.b. white package on white sheets - not so visible).

Oh - and as you know, she is reading '50 shades of Gray' aloud to me (yes, my timing sucks sometimes).

As she opened it, it was clear this wasn't going the way I intended. Her face dropped. She took it not as intended but as a verification that she was horrible at giving head and needed a book to tell her what to do. I tried explaining that I thought she does a great job already and (see above), that she probably already knew a lot of what was in there, etc. but she was not listening.

 After a bit of very one-sided conversation, she relented and seemed at least slightly open to what I had to say and willing to take a look. She read through the foreward/intro which I warmed up some pizza and gave her legs a mini-massage.

 Over dinner she read through the first two chapters. At first there was nothing but uncomfortable silence. Then an occasional 'Well, I knew *that*' or sarcastic 'well, *that* will be real useful' or smart-ass 'the book says you might be nervous about me going down on you - are you?'

 And then 'Oh look - I get a story'. And after she read it 'We are *so* not doing that!' referring to the 'High Tea' story after chapter 2.

We'll see how this plays out.

Obviously I should have been more sensitive to her feelings about receiving such a gift and not assumed she would feel about it like *I* would feel about a similar gift.

And clearly I should I pre-read that damn thing :-)

*her* turn :-)

Last night we gave the daughter her hidden *big* birthday present - she'd thought she got them all at her party Saturday, but nooooooooo. Saved the *big one* for last. She was stoked. And then dinner at Chili's (her choice as the birthday girl). And they didn't even embarrass her by singing. :-(

And then it was D's turn. Well, almost. She stalked off on a walk without giving me the option to join her as I turned it down the night before. She hasn't learned that she has to *ask* and sometimes *be persistent* to get what she wants.

Once she got back, we went to bed. As she climbed over me, she stopped on top of me and we kissed for a while. Quite a while. I played with her inner thighs, breasts, nipples and clit as we kissed and she seemed to enjoy it. Especially when I clenched her hair and forced her mouth on mine, driving my tongue deep into her.

 Eventually I rolled her off of me and climbed astride her, between her legs, but not *in* her. More kissing, force, licking/sucking her nipples, and *finally* licking my way down between her legs. After a while, she finally relinquished control and *came* for me, then relaxed completely, spent. I almost thrust inside her as I felt her pussy starting contractions before she came, but didnt want to risk her not coming.

 I lay my head down on her chest and licked her nipples slowly and tenderly, played with her hair, and kissed her again as she faded off to sleep.

 She *will* get a good, hard fucking tonight.

Another *interesting* day/night.

When I sent my baby girl off to work, I put a slice of baby swiss (her fav) on top of the pizza in her lunch. I like surprising her and she enjoyed the treat. She texted me a little while after she found it. And then again a little later telling me she 'got me something' but wouldn't say what.

We got her daughter a new mattress for her birthday(and springs/mattress for us as well). Of course we didn't tell her but D managed to convince her to clean off her bed. During all that she decided to swap bed frames with us. And to re-arrange her room. So she and I did all that while D was at work. The new arrangement looks good. And now we have a bed frame with plenty of places for me to *attach* my slut and restrain her :-)

The new mattresses arrived this morning (her birthday). She had *no* idea they were coming till the dog started barking. Our new spring and mattress are *pretty tall* - may need to get D a step ladder to get in and out of bed. Perfect height for me to bend her over and fuck her doggy style, tho......

On the way home last night, D announced that we 'had plans' for the evening. I asked if I needed to shower or...... But she was giving up no hints. Except to mention that 'everyone else knows' - now I understand what *that* meant. And since you *all* knew, I guess I don't need to tell you again, but she gave me a *great* blowjob, deep throating me, teasing me almost to orgasm three or four times and finally milking me dry. Afterwards she spooned up against me and we drifted off to sleep.

Didn't even get a chance to try out the puppy pads. Guess that will be tonight :-)

This past weekend was interesting - D's weekend starts on Thursday night due to her work schedule. The three of us went to dinner at a BBQ place we had seen with big letters on the front "BBQ & BEER". Wooden picnic tables inside and a smell to die for. She asked me yesterday if we can go there every Thursday night :-)

 Friday was spent running errands of various types, mostly centered around the teenager birthday party/sleepover. It was fun but tiring and baby girl was whipped by 8 pm - had to force her to hydrate throughout the day and put her to bed early despite protests (and no sex).

 Saturday morning she jumped up in bed at 7:45 am, thinking she was late to get ready for work. We ran some more last minute party errands and were back at home by 1 pm for the 2 pm party. Plenty of time, right?

 I convinced the daughter unit to let me 'try something' with the cake and turned a 9x13 single layer into a 6x9 three layer pyramid-ish looking thing with 3 colors of icing. It was great fun and she enjoyed helping color the icing. Putting up streamers, tablecloth, setting out the oriental crack candy/snacks... Her first guests arrived 'fashionably early' at 1:50 while we were still swirling things around. They hung out, played, more guests arrived later, we locked them in her room while we wrapped presents. They force-fed her cake (literally) to the point she had to use the shower to rinse her face and later sneezed icing out of her nose. Great fun for all. Sunday D wnet back to work, the girls went on to the *surprise* party for one of them.....

But I digress......

I read my girl's latest journal entry and would have to say it parallels my experience. I came to CM from FL based on 2 friend's recommendations. Expecting to find a bunch of fakes (yep - did that) and posers (yep), hoping to *maybe* find a few real folks. Found *no* one active in Hawaii at all :-(  Started searching the DFW and Houston area since I visit my brother and son there often. Didn't find much, then while I was visiting my daughter I found *my* slut/slave.

 She resisted at first - only wanted a fuck-buddy while I was in town, didn't think I was serious or real, was convinced I was somehow playing her [not sure ow that works since she was fucking me at the time and told me it was fine if all i wanted was to fuck while I was visiting in town].

 I told her I'd be back as soon as I could and she was skeptical. I told her she should give me something of hers to take with me and bring back. I have one of her dog tags. I told her she should start a bet at her local bar with all the patrons about whether I was coming back, because no one there thought I would and she could make a killing. She never did.

 I've been back a week and 2 days now and we are both *very* happy. I didn't give her dog tag back as it's on a chain around my neck and i like dragging it along her naked body. I told her I'd give it back but she agreed she liked that aspect as well :-)

Very happy. Very content.

Taking a break to perv on the video CD/DVDs of her she told me to take a look at :-)

Well, last night started a bit rocky. We went out to dinner a a BBQ place we 'found' the other day, taking a new route home. It had huge letters on the marquee saying BEER and BARBEQUE. Looked like a dive, so why not?

 We got inside and it smelled great. And they had wooden picnic tables. Awesome. I had the 1/2 chicken special, she had ribs, the young one had pulled pork sandwich. The fries and fried okra were done perfectly, the green beans were good, and she loved her mac & cheese. It was great. We will definitely be going back again.

When we got home, she decided to catch up on the journal she's been neglecting all week. I sat outside on the deck while she typed away but after about an hour I told her I was headed in to wait for her in bed. She said she was done, just proofreading and was right behind me. Apparently it took a few minutes because when she got there I was about 1/2 asleep.

 She took this as lack of interest on my part, got miffed, added a note to her journal entry and crawled into bed with her clothes on, said good night and rolled over. Well, I can be dense as a brick sometimes, but even I could tell she wasn't pleased. Eventually I pried it out of her, read her journal entry and we talked. I think I finally convinced her that being tired or 1/2 asleep was not an indicator of lack of interest. She finally relented and the clothes came off.

After a few minutes of kissing and stoking her, I moved to her wonderful nipples and started to tease them. I asked her if she had ever cum from just nipple stimulation and she said no. I suggested I work on them for an hour or so and see if she could cum :-) More licking and sucking her nipples and base of her throat and teasing her with the head of my cock between her legs, at her pussy lips for about 20 minutes or so till she finally reached down and tried to shove my cock in her. I plunged in, still working on her nipples.

Once inside, I encouraged her to show me her kegels and showed her my version as well. She's been working on hers and is getting better. I kept pushing her (and teasing her nipples) for about 1/2 an hour till she was too tired to kegel any more. I was hoping she could cum from the kegels and me inside her, but not (yet). I went down on her and got her close to orgasm a couple of times, but not quite. She called for her new favorite toy - the toothbrush - and after a minute or two wanted me back inside her.

Unfortunately, at this point I *really* needed to pee to recycle the 2 beers I had earlier. I did so, but when I got back she had 'lost the edge' and didn't think she could cum again. She took me inside her and I came pretty quickly since we'd been playing for about an hour or so at this point.

 She got up to smoke a cigarette and when she returned, as she crawled over me to get into bed I pulled her close and pinned her to me. I kissed her and at first she resisted, but after a few minutes she started to get into it. Soon she was grinding her hips into mine and really getting into it. I pulled her t-shirt off, rolled her over, and began to play with her clit and nipples. After 5 or 10 minutes (maybe more) she came for me - *hard*. She even asked permission first. Such a good girl! When her breathing had slowed back to normal she said it was *again* "the best orgasm ever". :-)

 She got up after a bit to smoke a cigarette and remarked "You know I used to think the sex was good when I wanted a cigarette afterwards. With you I know the sex is good when I *cant* get up to smoke".

Gotta get more towels ;-)

Poor little girl is staying horny and wet at work ;-)

After a dinner of home-made spaghetti on the back deck last night we *did* manage to get to bed early (well, 9 pm).

I had a surprise waiting (get your mind out of the gutter :-)... I had been shopping earlier and while looking for a Cowboys (or Saints) t-shirt (which I didnt find) I found a shirt too good to pass up for her. It was basic blue/black with a set of wings and a chopper on it and the words:

                      Ride on

                     Freedom

Too much to resist since i love to 'ride on' her...... I think she likes it.

After pulling it back (almost) off of her, over her head and tangling her wrists and hands in it, I leaned her backwards as though i *might* let her fall back on the bed. And caught her 1/2 way. She said before that she wanted to be scared. You could see the question in her eyes. I pulled her up, kissed her, leaned her back onto the bed and nibbled a bit, then plunged into her. i *love* the noises she makes when I do that. After teasing her a bit with my cock barely in her, then plunged full depth, I slid and nibbled my way down her torso and began to eat her. Eventually she had a small orgasm, but couldn't get the big release she was looking for.

 Being the good slut that she is, she asked to suck my cock, so of course I obliged. Grabbing a fist full of hair I held her at my nipples, then pushed her down to my cock, only allowing her to nibble on the head for a while, then shoving her down till my cock was buried completely down her throat. She is *so* good at deep-throating me. Mahalo! to whomever trained her to do that :-)

 After  a bit I released her to continue as she wanted with my cock. She worked on the tip, the shaft, deep throated me some more, tickled and licked my balls, then pushed my legs apart and up and licked my asshole. Then back to my balls, shaft, head, and more deep throat. Finally i pulled her off and mounted her doggy-style. I pulled her legs together, tucked her hands and arms in, basically a doggie-style fetal position with my hand wrapped in her hair, tugging on it. It didn't take much of that after the blowjob to get me to shoot a big load of cum deep in her tight pussy.

I stroked and rubbed her back, butt, arms, and hair while I recovered, then slid off to one side and wrapped my self around her. After a bit, she whispered that she wanted to squirt for me, took my hand and guided it down to her clit. She was wet and full of my cum. I started on her clit for a bit, then slid first one, then 2 fingers inside her. It was long before I could feel her pc muscle tensing around my fingers, so i slid my pinky into her ass and increased the pace. In a few minutes, she started to squirm and tense, then gasped as she squirted a little bit. After a few repeats, she had one good squirt or two and then seemed somewhat satisfied.

 But no....... I started to play with her clit, to see if she was interested in trying to have a more satisfying orgasm. As i rubbed her clit, she began to squirt again! So, I switched from rubbing to light pats with my 3 middle fingers. That seemed to really get her going, so I increased the pace and force of my patting to be more of a light, fast slapping. Wow, that worked - she sprayed and sprayed and sprayed, then begged for more :-)

After several rounds of that, she finally couldn't take any more and drifted off to blissful sleep. I pulled the totally soaked towel from under her hips and pulled the sheet over her - she never even wiggled.....

Well, since my slut didn't manage to cum Monday night (despite squirting for me the first [second, third, fourth] time[s]), she went to work yesterday horny.

She told me she read my journal entry from yesterday and it made her wet. Perfect ;-) I made sure to tease her (only a little) throughout the day to keep her anticipation level up. She confirmed (or volunteered :-) several times that she was wet and looking forward to being together and going to bed early.

That didn't quite work out as planned. The truck is still running a bit rough, so after I picked her up we made a detour to get jumper cables. On the way end I told her we didn't have to get all the other move-in related stuff on the list but she insisted we might as well since we were there and that as long as we were spending time together that was good.

[n.b. As a *guy*, if I knew there was wet pussy waiting, I would have been in and out of the store in 30 seconds with just the jumper cables]

So, an hour and a 1/2 later with cup hooks, dish towels, some groceries, nails, sandpaper, a file, toilet flapper, extension cord, plug adapter, weather seal(s), a throw rug, pillow, sea foam, storage containers, plastic laminate film, sink strainers,

*AND* jumper cables, we hit the parking lot. To find another nasty storm brewing.

We got home before the rain started (barely), unpacked all the stuff, made some dinner, *had* to watch 'Glass House' (her addiction, not mine :-) and finally hit the sack after 10 - not exactly *early*.

We got naked and I asked her about last night's experience, getting her to *tell* me about it so she could mull it over and vocalize her thoughts. After a bit of talk, some kissing, and light stoking, I asked her is she was wet. She replied 'yes', so of course I commanded her to 'show me', which she did. When required to 'show me' she has to take one of my hands, move it to her pubic area and slide one of my fingers up inside her (wet) pussy. I don't help do this, she has to do it all. Then she must wait while I satisfy myself that she is indeed *wet* - and anything else I might like to do while my finger is inside her (or play with her clit). Once I am done she again takes my hand and places it near my lips so I can smell and taste her juices.

I began to nibble my way down her neck, nipples, stomach and to her inner thighs. I gave her a quick lick and then lifted her hips to put a pillow (and later a towel) under her.

Much like the previous night, I licked her lips, thighs, and clit; gently massaged her nipples, occasionally mashed her breasts together so I could rub both nipples with one hand (or lick them), and then slide first one and then 2 fingers inside her. I began to massage her pubic bone and the area around her g-spot, she responded *immediately* this time. After a few minutes of licking and massaging her g-spot she was ready to squirt, but she was also *resisting* it. With a bit more (verbal) coaxing, licking and rubbing, she finally did squirt a little bit. I praised her for squirting for me and then (of course) immediately began to stimulate her further.

She squirted *a lot* the second time, and again a third and fourth and maybe more. At some point she said she had an orgasm as well. She *didnt* ask permission (we'll work on that once she can cum easily) and it must have been subtle or I was too engrossed in the squirting to notice. Perhaps it was when I briefly slid my cock inside her after her second or third squirting?

She asked to suck me, so of course I did not refuse.... once I was hard I mounted her and pounded into that slippery, wet, cum lubricated pussy of hers. So tight and yummy, it didn't take me long to cum (of course).

As I lay there on top of her in bliss, her breathing got more and more regular and she drifted off to sheep [n.b. I could say I fucked her into unconsciousness, but..... :-) ]  After lying there a while, I rolled to one side and she rolled over without even waking up. I kissed her neck and told her 'sweet dreams'.

She doesn't remember *any* of this last paragraph :-)

Got the truck issue sorted out - bad fuel pump. Back there again today for 'check engine' light - bad EGR valve. Oh joy. Se la vie.

Baby girl hasn't been able to keep up with me, orgasm-wise. I've had *way* more than her at this point. She makes me cum *very* fast and *very* hard where she takes more time and sometimes just can't quite 'let go' and cum for me.

She didn't cum night before last (i did *twice*) so last night was to be 'all about her'. I tried to get her to bed early, but other stuff got in the way. We finally went to bed about 10:15 or 10:30. I started with a little mental prep by having her tell me a bit about each of the many toys she has (the ones we've found - some are still mia from the move). Apparently the toothbrush is still her favorite (see her journal). Apparently there was some confusion on my part from the other day about which one(s) she has taken up her ass. I was playing with her face down and asked about a toy I was using on her, she didn't realize it was a (fairly) large-ish one. More work to do.... :-)

I asked which toy(s) she wanted to play with and she replied 'you', so I pushed the toys back to the nightstand and started to play, first with her dogtag that I wear on a chain around my neck, then my lips, teeth, and tongue on her neck, nipples, stomach, inner thighs, labia and then her clit.

She was getting into it a bit and I pushed first one, then two, fingers inside her. She has a new G-spot toy and had mentioned earlier she hadn't been able to find that spot though others had made her squirt in the past. I probed around a bit while working her clit and lips with my tongue. When I starting putting pressure on her pubic bone and the area behind it she really started to respond. It wasn't too long before I could feel her vaginal muscles begin to clinch down on my fingers. I increased the pace and pressure and could feel her 'sucking' my fingers in, onto her g-spot. More pressure and pace and it wasn't too long until I could feel her pushing my fingers out. i knew she was close to squirting, so I let her push my fingers out. I repeated this 2 or 3 times, with her getting more excited each time. On the third or fourth time i let her push my fingers out, she squirted a tiny bit.

I congratulated and thanked her for squirting for me and asked if she wanted to squirt some more. Of course I knew the answer to that question :-) I could feel her vaginal muscles contracting hard around my fingers as I repeatedly got her to squirt several more times. Finally I mounted her and plunged my cock balls-deep into her soaking wet pussy. She spasmed and *almost* came but not quite. I could feel her muscles clinching down on my cock and I pounded into her and it didn't take long before I had a great orgasm and shot a huge load of cum into her. She didn't *quite* cum for me but it was pretty close she told me later. More training to work on :-)

We dozed off to sleep a little before midnight. She got up around 3 to go pee and when she came back to bed I was about 1/2 awake. She went down on me and as soon as I was hard she mounted me and began to really ride my cock. I could feel her clinching her muscles on me as before and thought she might finally cum, but it didn't happen. She rolled off and asked me to take her doggy style, so of course I did, pounding deep into her pussy from behind. Again I could feel her vaginal muscles clamping down on my cock, but she couldn't quite let go and cum for me. She rolled to her side briefly and then I rolled her onto her back and alternated pounding into her with short strokes pulling out and barely penetrating her. After about 30 or 45 minutes we were both worn out and collapsed into a sweaty heap.

I think she's finally drained all my pent-up cum from our separation as I wasn't able to cum this time despite being inside her and hard for over 30 minutes.

We'll see how things go tonight :-)

Back with my slut - very happy. helping her unpack from her move, encouraging her to keep herself healthy, fucking her brains out (I came 4 times yesterday, she only came twice - she needs a *lot* more training :-)

Settling in, dealing with cranky car/truck, learning my way around the area.

Happy, happy!

In the airport, on the way back to my baby, my slut, my muse, my other half. The universe is *driving* this *now*

Yesterday, I had changed my flight back to be next wednesday (instead of October) because I felt I *had* to. 3 hours later I got a text from a friend telling me that one of our mutual best friends had died. I talked to him last week - he had been diagnosed with cancer, of the most treatable sort. Minor operation, one dose of radiation, light, light chmo and he'd be all good. I found out today that he coded on the way from pre-op to the operating room and never revived.

I *got* the hint, universe. headed to my girl *today*.

After 2 days o no text, no email, no phone, I texted Di's daughter, trying to find out what was going on. Finally heard back from my other half an hour later. Seems she's been not well, didn't have her phone. At first she wouldn't admit what was going on, but I could tell there was a real problem and she was exhausted. She finally admitted *being admitted* dehydrated....... We'll talk more tomorrow.

She kept pushing to talk more, I kept trying to get her to go back to bed and get some rest, now that I know she is okay (but tired).

The past two days have made it even more clear to me that this separation was a bad choice on my part. Doing what I can to fix that.

Arrgh. Another frustrating day.

Couldn't communicate at all my my special girl. No Internet here after the trip - turns out the cable company is convinced we has some file-sharing thing going on despite the fact I wasn't home for a week and haven't even had the net up much of the previous week since the solar system the landlord installed doesn't really work too well.

Communication nightmares - baby girls couldn't get my texts all day, she couldn't call me and I couldn't call her, email problems... But at least we were managing to get in touch *somehow*.

And now today, nothing. Can't get her a text, didn't get any texts, sent an email, left voicemail.

Separation sucks.

And today my slut slave wants to go on slaveregistry.com and register herself as being owned by me.

Good Girl!

What a great, amazing, sexy, kinky, funny, slutty slave I have.

Life is good. Soon to be better when I am there again with her.

Wow.

Can't recall the name of the damn 'dude ranch' movie from the 90s? with Billy Crystal and 'Palladin' but I do recall the quote:

Best Day ever? Worst Day ever? Same day.

That is very close to how I feel today. Certainly the former.

I talked to my baby girl this morning and it started out poorly due to my comments about how separation went yesterday. I totally miscommunicated what I felt and why I felt the way I did and she took it poorly, thinking I meant something else and that it was *her* fault.

But she did at least *talk* to me and *listen* to what I had to say and I think after multiple attempts and exchanges we (mostly) sorted it out.

A short while later I got a text from her:

"I am your slut. You may call me *your slut*"

This made me *very* happy - it was something we had talked about, again her resisting giving up control for something I *know* she wants to give up.

I texted her back. And then again. and then again. for about 4 hours. With no response.

Frustrating to say the least. Then she texted me (5 hours after mine) saying she hadn't heard from me and wondering if I was 'getting back at her' for not communicating with me the day before. I texted back and heard nothing.

Finally we talked an hour later.

She asked if I'd seen her port here (which I hadn't). She wanted me to go read it. Which I couldn't since I was on my phone and getting to the Internet eats the battery in about 10 minutes. I didnt want to read her post and then not be able to talk about it. So I asked her to read it to me. She refused. I persisted. She resisted. I persisted. She finally relented.

Go read her post.

And then realize how much more impact it had for her to *read* it to me rather than for me to read it here online. I cried. Yes, you read that right.

She is mine. Always will be. *forever*.

She is posting her journal entry on her refrigerator. She asked to mail a cop to my brother, but when I told her to, she backed down :-) She confirmed that she will read these as vows at the wedding. I told her mine would be much shorter, probably (off the cuff): Be mine. Forever.  (actually that isn't it but now I can't recall the much better version - I hope/know *she* does).

Best day ever. Bar None.

Except maybe the day when I am back with her. forever.

There seems to be some confusion in freed0m's head. *she* seems to think I said I would release her (to fulfill her needs while I am gone). *I* *know* that she suggested that when I *offered* to allow her to let someone else fuck her because I knew she was struggling. I *refused* and continue to *refuse* to release her.

What I told her was:

If you can't stand the separation and feel you have to violate your agreement not to let any one else's cock in any of your holes, then:

Call me and give me a chance to 'talk you down'

If that doesn't work I will give you permission to do what you have to do.

Knowing that 'having an out' would make it more of a challenge to her to live up to.

I should have trusted my instinct and offered this to her the day *before* she violated my trust, but that is on me, as I told her. I often don't 'go with my gut' and it usually winds up about like this, not working for me (or others involved).

This post is *not* about adding more guilt to my baby girl or rubbing her face in it - it is about my side of the back story behind *NOT* releasing her.

She is *MINE*

*FOREVER*

My hot, slutty, kinky, sexy, horny, *wonderful* slave baby soldier girl came for me on the phone yesterday. I had asked her to cum for me but she has been resisting (see her journal). She still is resisting giving up total control (she thinks :-) ), but was able to have a great orgasm for me. It was intense in many ways - I wasn't sure she would be able to even though she wanted to, but she did and it was so emotional she cried afterwards. She was embarrassed to admit she cried, but I told her that her crying was a great indicator of how intense and emotion experience it was for her and it *pleased* me to know that we can connect that strongly from 3500 miles away. (she cried once before when we first had sex, with much the same reaction from both of us).

I talked to my slut this morning and she told me that she had spent a lot of time writing in her journal her bu wouldn't tell me (at first) what she had written about. I asked if she had read my most recent journal entry - she had not. As we talked it became clear:

1) she confessed publicly to her disappointing me by going to the Lido and letting someone(s) else fuck her when she had been told explicitly that was off limits.

2) she wrote about cumming for me

Just as I had written yesterday that I would leave it to her to write about. And she did. Without ever having seen my entry. This connection is very intense, even with 3500+ miles of distance and I think she is finally beginning to understand that.

More later.....

baby girl is struggling with the separation more than me - not easy for either of us.

We've connected more tightly in the past few days, though and today/tonight (5 hour time difference) she came for me over the phone. We talked about it a few times and she knew I *wanted* her to please herself for me but this was the first time it happened since I've been gone.

It was intense - she cried afterwards. i will leave it to her to tell your more about it.

Baby girl is moving today into *our* new place. Looking forward to those nekkid unpacking pictures and moving in with her - soon!

Damn. Suffering through separation from my baby girl. This sucks.

Sitting here in Paradise. On a mission, now. Must get the property renovation done by Oct 3rd for return trip to my baby girl freed0m.