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As a submissive with a deep desire to serve and be controlled and in essence I want to please and obey and meet all her needs in an ideal world. I am probably limiting my chances mentioning what would work for me currently, yet I am looking for longevity that can build some meaning and in that honesty based what could fit and work. I wish the situation was different but unfortunately due to personal circumstances I am best suited to online interaction, but can do occasional meets should that be required. Though I would consider my self available 24/7 with the understanding of my work and home commitments, but don’t want these to be a blocker, just will need more time in certain circumstance

Looking for a Dominate that primary interest in cross-dressing submissive and instructing to take pictures or videos for her pleasure or amusement and treating as female.

In my heart I am submissive and have deep desire to serve and be controlled and treated as a female. So a Dominate that primary interest in cross-dressing submissive as it is important to me that Dominate woman that may take me on enjoys a submissive to instruct take pictures or videos for her pleasure or amusement. Though can be embarrassing for me to display my self in this way in pictures and videos its is a turn on to wear and be controlled in this way, though this not the reason I hope this to be an element in her control. Its because really push me to be different from my normality and hence enhances the affect of the power she has over me and my desire to please.

Something seems to have had an impact on me and now practice long term self denial, so if was taken on and I hand over the control of this side of me to control and use as she desires, it would be good if she would have a personal interest in this, teasing and push me to my limits of denial control.

I do strive to please and not to disappoint and get punished. I am not perfect and will not always to get every thing to her liking, so I need a Dominate that is understanding this is not intentional, yet punish in her way if I do disappoint and more importantly does not discard at the first mistake.