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	About xokinkyswingerxo I am COLLARED!! - I will update the rest of this profile latter. ____________________________ Forgive me if my responces are slow.THIS DOSEN'T MEAN I AM NOT INTERESTED cm is sluggish. ___________________________ PLEASE DO NOT BE RUDE ___________________________ I am looking to book photo shoots contact me if you wish to offer me modeling jobs I will update more latter! ___________________________ A bit about me: I am 24 years old, white (Irish), long legs, size 6 feet, long hair that is currently black, I have 2 tattoo’s, blue eyes, beautiful face,great smile, 5feet/93lbs, amazing shape, 36b tits. I am college educated, well traveled, I am clean of STD’s, I am not a heavy drug user. I am a smoker: but lately I switched to the electronic smoke- I would prefer to date a smoker but that is ok if your not. I have NO kids, I am bi, Switch with women and a sub with men. I do have a job- more then 1 actually so I work a lot and I volunteer. Rescue work is my passion. I have many interests and I am into BDSM and have REAL LIFE EXPERINCE. I am into: Uniforms (I am really into military- Semper Fi), Age play, rape fantasy, role play, flogging, collars, cages, leather, spanking, leashes, puppy-pony role play, Chains, Domestic chores, Restrains, struggling, Saint Andrews cross, public play, after care, whips, sexual slavery… the list goes on and on. I do have hard limits:No kids, No scat, No real animals, No mutilation of my body, NO SUB MEN, NO MARRIED MEN OR WOMEN, please no men that are over 30 (with rare exception), No Electric play, I do not want to play with a cpl, Sorry I am not looking to meet people out side the USA I seek REAL LIFE. There are a few other hard limmits that I have. WHAT I SEEK IN A DOM/LOVER or a MISTRESS: Please Read my journal as it details why I have the requirments. DOM MEN: * Must be 23 to 30- HARD LIMMIT… I would say that if I meet a man who is perfect for me but is 31 then I would make an exception * Must be D&D free * Must more then HWP must be in amazing shape * Must be HANDSOME, CLEAN, TALL * Must be MILITARY or at least RESCUE PERSONAL- HARD LIMMIT * Must be intelligent, well educated, and going places with your life, hard working. * must have compatible BDSM interested as me and have exp. * must be Dom- but NOT ABUSIVE : fair warning, I am lethal with a fire arm, I have training, and I have a guard dog and will also call the police. I will defend myself against a violent man. * must be single - Not part of a cpl, or a poly house hold, not looking to be involved with anyone who has kids, is going through a divorce or has been married before. * must be STRAIGHT- I'm not homophobic just I ask my lover be straight * must have other interested out side of bdsm * REAL LIFE NOT ONLINE PLAY ONLY, this requires you to live close by I am not looking to relocate right now I might in the future but that a long time off Switch/Mistress: * D&D free- I do not mind light drug use however no iv drug users or people with addictions that are out of control we were all in college once and a party is a party but not looking to get involved with anyone out of control with the drug scene * Beautiful * shaply body- hwp- well groomed- clean. * between the ages of 21 & 40 (I am a bit flexsibal on the age) * REAL NOT ONLINE. * in the USA, close to Chapel Hill, NC- REAL LIFE * intelligent, well educated, going places with your life. * Must be SINGLE- not looking to be part of a cpl or to entertain your bf * LIPSTICK, I am sorry but I am not into Butch * Bi or LEZ * similar BDSM interested as me and if you wish to be my Mistress you must have exp. * Interested OUT SIDE OF BDSM Note: I am NOT a SWINGER. I am unable to change the name becuase of CM. I tried the swingers sceen a few times and my ex was into it but I am NOT. so please take note of that.

I am headed out today for a nice day on the weaver st lawn to work on my jeawlary & hopefully sell some. Life has been good to me so far- I feel joyfull today. it's about today- and today is a good day.

-xoxo

I moved out of the hood!

Sorry just had to take a moment to truly cellebrate that . I had been saving up here and there as much as I could to try to have enough cash in the bank to move to a nicer and safer apartment. It's not that I moved into a ritz-e exstravigant place- but it is just a healthyer place to call home. I have in the past lived in a few places that most "single" females. scratch that most women whouldn't live in.

So the new apt is in Chapel Hill, it's in a great location. I got a 3rd floor apt, which puts me on the top floor. Vaulted ceilling, washer, dryer, dishwasher, mud room. Tons of storage place, a little padio/balcony- more space then I really need to just myself but it's a one bedroom. 703 squar feet, pluse the vaulted ceilling makes the entire apt feel bigger.

I am now in the unpacking stage, heck even still in the thoughing a few things out stage. I find myself sitting here sorting though bits of my life trying to deside what is important to hang on too. What random letters, notebooks, postcards, clutter do I keep in a box for the rest of my life? It's more chalenging becuase I've always tried to document everything in my life though my journals & photographs.

long story short- I moved, the new place rocks, and yes I am exsasted.

laying in bed with my Arwen... I can not wait to see my Moose!?

I woke up on the late side today- my head is still pounding. The snow has started to melt so I took Wolf on a small run, just a cpl of laps around the apt complex. Now the snow is melting things are going to return to normal, the storm did goof up a romantic weekend. It was helpfull in terms of getting the dishes done & a few bills paid.

I orderd dinner from Med-Delli (Meditaranian food) due to the snow storm 90% of the food in the house is gone. I am happy that NCIS is on the TV, ok I will try to write something latter that has actually substance.
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La sigh, today has been going alright Woke up took wolf out for a run. Got some stuff from the grosery store. I had coffee and a bite to eat with L (a friends father who lives in my building- nice guy). I am looking through some emails and what not for work. I have some dishes in the sink calling my name and just some cleanning to get done around the house.
There is still quite a lot to do interms of moving or trying to move it's gona be a rocky road. A lot of random people ask when and where I am moving- compleat strangers offer to help me. It's very nice of them at times a bit troublesome a cpl messages from some people who are more like stalkers then friends or chat cm friends.

Anyway I need to keep working- xoxo

6am: I am sitting in my apt having a cup of coffee and I realize I have writers block.

Home from work.
Walked dog. Fixed my internet connection.

Kicking it and watching Judge Alex. I know I know court room TV gets a bad rap but honestly it can be informative and interesting. I also like to be informed of current laws and cases even in something like a small clames court becuase honestly in this world you never know when you need a peace of paper to hold up in a court of law or if you have problems with a room mate or what not.

My New Years was quite but loving. I also saw my ex yesterday- it was wonderful a touch emotionaly rough but that is how these things go. I was sick over New Years but I am getting over it- thankfuly. Got to work today free and clear thanks to Tommy.

I made a good dent in the apt as far as cleanning and packing. I need to power though the rest of it.

I am sorry btw if my responces have been slow. Thank you to everyone that sent me kind words I am going to get around to messaging everyone but cm is slow and of course there are the few wacky people messages. Tom is over right now watching some tv with me and keeping me company.

ewwwwww- bug! Damn it! I am going to need to bom the house, to do this I am going to put kitty and the dog up else where when I do but this bug issue is pushing a limmit. I spary, inside and out, I clean, I keep the pets up to date on there stuff, and I let the apt do there exstermination but I am telling you these bugs are bloody immuned to all of it. It makes scence though, that they would build up a tollarence to the poisons and chemicals- much like the germs that attack are bodys get more and more drug reselant over time becuase of antibiotics. Yet I though that most sparys were desinged to be nearologic toxic agents so I am not sure if the same rules apply but I guess they do- and the little crawing creepy bug to my right is the proff.

Alright- I sat down to right something meaningful but all I am getting is statick and brainless chatter. I will try again latter.

Happy and healthy New Years everyone!
cheers

I just put some water up to boil- making coffee- sure it tasets like mud but it's my mud. I still need to keep cleanning- the apt. My day got messed up do to the knock at my door in the middle of the night; didn't get to sleep till after 6am.

Damn it- this month is going to be tight. I had to pay down a bill that was not my responsibility to get the net and cable back up and running in the apt that was $314.04 I am not happy happy to say though that $192.69 (@ least) needs to be repayed to me and was not my responcibility. I need that cash back and fast. I am will get by some how- I always do.

coffee's up. Today is a bit better got a cpl of e-mails 1 or 2 look promissing.

Air Mattress Manifesto III
(revized and yet compleatly unspell checked)

I walked back into the apt a few mins ago after walking Wolf (my wonderful dog). It's a rainy cold night out the kinda night where even with a sweatshirt & a leather coat the cold still gets though- it's funny becuase when I first moved to NC from NY the winter cold was a joke compaired to the cold of NY. Now though I am used to the mild to warm weather. It was so beautiful when it snowed the other day I took the dog out and I walked for at least 30mins- it felt as if I was in a snow globe. So beautiful.

I feel jittery, it's uncomfortable- I know it will not help my body in the long term but I light a smoke to steedy my neirves. I fight with myself about taking a pain killer (Dr proscribed) I know how easy it is for my body to adjust to the pain killers and, like my father, how easly sedused it could be to become a junkie and everyone would understand becuase I am sick. Insteed I fight with it, adjust to the pain- for months I took nothing; partly becuase I wanted to feel my body to know what the new "normal" is for me but the last week or so I been taking them, low mg pk.

I watched the clock role over to 2am and to be honest happy to be putting the holidays to bed. This Christmas was a rough one just a bit on the lonely side of things this year.

It is nice to be back on CM- I have had some very nice conversations with some friendly people- a cpl of nuty messages but nothing that was rude. I get a little frusterated when I get messages from people who are just clearly not what I am looking for but truth be told I think that we are all (those of us who are real) just trying to find that person to share our life with.

It's a shame I can't post photo's up here- I am thinking of starting a blog. I had just created a new sn for yahoo due to the fact my other was swamped with spam. So I might start one under that email. I was talking to a very charming guy who lives near by about journaling. I have kept hand writen journals since I was 12 years old- I love to write- despite my bad spelling.

My apt feels cramped- I need to clean it, also there is a ton of shit in it that dosen't belong to me. I feel frusterated that I had to renue my lease here for the time being. Also what adds to the mess is the fact I was supposted to have a apt with a washer/dryer/dishwasher but they messed up in the rental office and I got a unit without it. The rent is low though can't complain- the whole apt has a bug problem, sware to god I am going to wind up one day putting 9mm rounds though my walls and floors becuase I shoot the bloody bugs- I might just if I see one more water bug. ewww.

It's funny becuase my gf is really helpfull and is going to give me a hand with the apt, which I need, yet I feel frusterated becuase there were 2 apts I had looked at that I had very much wanted to move into but such is life.

I took some time today to cattalog on my laptop my medical records, emergency contacts, even pet info. I keep all of that info and other info in my mole skin note books but the new dell notebook laptop comes with some cool Microsoft Works Templates that help me keep an electronic record. The way I see it is it can't hurt to have another copy of everything in case I am hospitalized.

Forgive my rambeling thoughts but it just helps sometimes to write it out. I need to hit the beauty parlor- I think I am going to go back to my blonde hair, they colored it red (to be honest though they did a 1/2 assed job) and get a cut- nothing drastic just get rid of split ends and take a little length off.

Besides now that I have internet and the laptop up and running I need to get myself bussy with modeling and booking for my models as well. That and being more intouch with the world and work- I love my current job and my Boss is great. I am just happy to be more intouch with the damn world again.

am going to make a new blog- I feel perhaps CM is not the place to write down passing thoughts. I am sure that I will still post up on here though and also if people want to read my blog when it is up and running I will be happy to share (as long as your not a nut job) I do have a myspace and a facebook- facebook was so slow tonight! I couldn't get on it after 11pm.

ok I am going to work on setting it up and I think I might have picked out the journal for 2010- it's not the normal leather type I typical pick which is odd for me but it is beautiful.

wow it's 2:49am and someone is knocking at my damn door... great.
cheers

note to Women:
I am seeking a Misstress- I am happy to play with a Female/female cpl or be friends but I am not going to get emotionaly invested in a cpl becuase lets face it that always ends with someone getting hurt. I am a Switch with women however it is rare that a women brings out my Dommie side. A bit about what I am looking for- not writting this to hurt anyones feelings happy to be friends but this is what I seek in a lover...

* D&D free
why?
I take my health and the health of my partner very seriously. I get
tested every 6 months. I have had cancer problems in my past so health
is a priority for me always. Also I do not mind if someone has drugs in
there past (we were all in college once!) but I need someone who is
clean of drugs

* Beautiful
why? since I am seeking a Lover there has to be physical attraction. As Iam sure you must also be attracted to me. I keep myself in very good shape, clean, beautiful- I look for a women of equal beuty.

* shaply body- hwp- well groomed- clean
why? same as above- I do all of these things.

* between the ages of 21 & 40 (I am a bit flexsibal on the age)
why? under 21 your are not really in the same point as your life as me. I am sorry but I really look for a women my own age or older. If you are over 40 by alot the odds are you are not going to be right for me.

* REAL NOT ONLINE
why?
I am NOT into online play. SORRY people I got that out of my system at
14 years old. I am an adult and want an adult relationship.

* in the USA, close to Chapel Hill, NC
why- Again REAL LIFE ONLY

* intelligent, well educated, going places with your life.
Why?
I am college educated. I work 6 days a week. I pay my own bills and I
am very intelligent- to be honest I tend to pick lovers Dommies-
that are smarter then me. I need someone who can keep up with me or
ever out smart me :) I need someone who if I give myself to in
submitiion- that I can trust there desition. Also I need to be albe to
talk to them and conect with them.

* Must be SINGLE-
why? I am not looking to fuck you Dom, husband, sub, or bf. Not looking to get emotionaly hurt bye having feeling for a women who loves a man- would you. I am not the come in 3rd kinda women- never have been, never will be.

* LIPSTICK
why? I am sorry but I am not into Butch

* Bi or LEZ
why? How is a girl on girl relationship going to work if your straight... it's NOT!

* simmilar BDSM interested as me and if you wish to be my Dommie you must have exp.
Why?
Becuase I grew up around the life style. I started to get interested in
at age 12. I hit the scene at 16. Have been in it personal and
profeshional. As far as compadibal interested go- I want someone who
can rock my world and I will rock theirs. I am a good lover and want to
make who ever I pick as my Dommie happy. Also if you look to become my Dommie you must be exp.

* Interested OUT SIDE OF BDSM
Why?
If all you are is sex and bodage 24/7 you are not for me. I need
someone who has alot of interested, hobbies, and skills. Like myself. Also a Job- I am not looking to support you and not looking for you to support me.

- I have a myspace and a facebook I am happy to share them with you and vice versa :)
Please feel free to contact me reagarind this note.

A note to: DOM MEN
the following is a list of requirments and things I seek in the next men I will take as a lover/Dom/Partner. I will not consider submitting to you unless you meet ALL of these requirements. Understand I am not writting this to be rude to anyone or hurt anyones feelings. I am happy to be friends with you- but do not contact me for play if you are not what I seek becuase it is a waist of your time and mine.

* Must be 23 to 30- HARD LIMMIT
why? Becuase I want someone in the same point of there life as me, I am 23 years old and I want someone in their 20's. Also my birthfather died at 39 Aug 06 a very young man so it is a turn off if a man is 30 and over. I am into Age play NOT actually age differences. Also look- I do not do flings or nsa- if I become your sub I am also going to be your gf- and I am not going to have a relationship with a man who is 30 and up, and futhermore- I am not gona interoduce you to family and friends if your over 30 that is not gona fly. Sorry.

* Must be D&D free
why? I take my health and the health of my partner very seriously. I get tested every 6 months. I have had cancer problems in my past so health is a priority for me always. Also I do not mind if someone has drugs in there past (we were all in college once!) but I need someone who is clean of drugs

* Must more then HWP must be in amazing shape
why? I stay in amazing shape- I run every day and work out, eat right ( I am not a health freak) but I take care of myself I shower every day take 30 mins to do my hair- put on some light make up, and well put together. I exspect the same from my lovers- I find it a turn off if a man is over weight and a slob. I also grew up and dated Marines for most of mylife so I need a lover that is in amazing shape. not trying to hurt anyones feelings but I will not sleep with you if I am not attracted to you- happy to be friends.

* Must be HANDSOME, CLEAN, TALL
why? Again- look everyone has a type- sorry but if we gona be burning up the covers baby you got to make me wet and I will make you hard!

* Must be MILITARY or at least RESCUE PERSONAL- HARD LIMMIT
Why? Honestly I am not uniform chasing. the truth is my dad was a Marine, some of my friends and squad brothers are Marines and Military. Even the man I was collared and engaged to for 2 years was a Marine corps Officer. It is a life style I am used to and respect. Also with my own exsprence with the USMC.
I find it hard to conect to civilian men in part becuase of my own work in the emergency med and rescue work and the Marines. I need a man who understands what it is like to be the Job . I need a partner and I need someone who I know if we are driving down the highway and we see a car flip over will pull over and rush in with me not just call it in as a 911 call. I need a man who can understand me waking up in the midle of the night in a cold sweet becuase of the child that died in my arms-the things I have scene. I want a man who knows I will be faithfull while he is over seas I want to be as much his rock as he is mine. I want a Dom and a Master yes. But I need a PARTNER.
Also I'm sorry nothing turns me on more. I am not gona lie it's very suductive & honestly I can see myself devoting my life, love, and sex to a good man in uniform and serve him.
THIS IS A HARD LIMMIT!

* Must be intelligent, well educated, and going places with your life, hard working.
Why? I am college educated. I work 6 days a week. I pay my own bills and I am very intelligent- to be honest I tend to pick lovers espeshaly Dom's that are smarter then me. I need someone who can keep up with me or ever out smart me :) I need someone who if I give myself to in submitiion- that I can trust there desition. Also I need to be albe to talk to them and conect with them.

* must have compadibal BDSM interested as me and have exp.
Why? Becuase I grew up around the life style. I started to get interested in at age 12. I hit the scene at 16. Have been in it personal and profeshional. As far as compadibal interested go- I want someone who can rock my world and I will rock theirs. I am a good lover and want to make who ever I pick as my Dom happy.

* must be Dom- but NOT ABUSIVE
Why? I AM A sub/slave with men. I am not into sub men- and honestly I almost never ever Swtich with men. so please I need a Dom. But if you are ABUSIVE- if you violate my hard limmits- if you do not stop when I say my safe word- I will brake your face and not hesitate to defend myself and report you. I was raisded by Marines and I do own a fire arm. If you are an abusive ass whole you will pay the price. I am not afride to protect myself against a violet and dangeruse man.

* must be single - Not part of a cpl, or a poly house hold, not looking to be involved with anyone who has kids, is going through a devorce or has been married before.
Why? I am not the come in 3rd kinda women. I am not looking to be the other women. I am not a slut- I will not help you cheat on your girl. I am not looking to edit my life around childern at this point (sorry I am 22- I want to be 22). Also I am just not looking to fall for a men that has an ex wife- it's a personal choice- but that is how I feel I am just being honest.

* must be STRAIGHT
why? I have nothing against Bi or Gay guys, I am bi myself. But I want a Dom and a lover who is straight. Sorry just a personal choice.

* must have other interested out side of bdsm
Why? If all you are is sex and bodage 24/7 you are not for me. I need someone who has alot of interested, hobbies, and skills. Like myself.

* REAL LIFE NOT ONLINE PLAY ONLY
why? I am NOT into online play. SORRY people I got that out of my system at 14 years old. I am an adult and want an adult relationship.

This is the way I feel- if you have questions just ask me directly.

Home from DC

>sigh<
I sit on my comfy chair- smoking a bowl and sipping a lata- coffee drink, dressed in a night soft long cotton black dress with wooden beads on the straps- very comfy.

So I got home from DC late last night- I had to go take care of a family emergency but I did get to see one pleasurable thing on my trip but I am not up for posting about it online. Safe to say I don't think I am going to ride on a Grayhound bus anytime soon. Cheep though it was it was long and made many stops- in all honestly I was in DC only from 2:30 am to 4:30 pm. I spent the rest of the time traveling to and from. Tiresome.

I have a flood of notes on cm. Some were very kind and friendly notes from people who understood that we were not right for play but are friendly and interesting. I had one or too moronic notes, and one from someone inquiring about buying panties:)

I am happy to do panties sales for people via mail or if they are local in person. It's tabo and fun and I could use the money. when I do it via mail its a bit of a leap of faith that they will pay me since I mail it first.

I need to clean the apt today - I have a shoot at 10am for $50 tomorrow. Anyway best to get moving.

cheers

A relaxing afternoon

I am sitting and enjoying a light smoke after running around this morning. I woke up at 5am with a tight pain in my chest and side but went to the grosery store and got a few things- then I did some research about ideas for my bento boxes. Bento boxes are Japanese style lunch boxes that are very tasty but require some preparation. I also did the dishes

I hit southern seasond after that and bought a cpl of wonderful things- I got a bottle of Saki, a saki set, 2 nice pairs of chopsticks, 4 little fresh dessurt tarts, some sushi, a nice little summer bag, a candle sented evening breeze, and? a fresh pack of smokes.

I got into my mail box and reseved a wonderful note from some family that lives in NJ and a $200 check. Unfortaunatly I had a wave of medical bills in the thousands so it was a bit of a catch.

It is so beautiful out side- Wolf is over toying with packing a hookah. Kitten is sitting at the open window (I am airing out the apt since its so nice outside) Siren came over for a min to give me some smokes and a hug but she is out running errends but will be back soon.

My life is stressful- my life is hard- but my life is beutiful and filled with love and joy. You just need to find the joy in the day to day.

I do miss Moose something horribal (my former Master- who I am still close with) but the Marines come first and I wouldn't love him if he were anyother way. Besides he is just a good friend now, what ever that means.

Air Mattress Manifesto II

Today was alright- I felt a bit better. Stronge enough to do the shoot for $150, and then do some studying and cleanning. I cut my old collar in 1/2 but I saved the little tag to it. Nostalga? I wonder or perhaps that story is not done and that little tag maybe used once more.

I lay here on my air mattress and smoke a cigg-e and sip on some urbal? tea. taking a few moments to respond to peoples notes before I get more work done.

I had taken a long brake from cm but I thought why not see if I can't at least meet some interesting life style friends. To be honest meeting friends in the life style for me was never hard and honestly all have been in real life and most (oddly enough) not through BDSM events or other BDSM out lets.

Not to much else to say on my end at the moment other then the normal daily run around- but today was a light day but I made a sizeable amount of cabbage so I can't complain- a bunch of stuff did not get done but that is why we have a tomorrow. I just hope the bank is open.

cheers

Air Mattress Manifesto
I just got done eatting a bowl of strawberries and oatmeal- I lay on my air mattress bleetching my teeth- looking up at the celling fan and watch the shadows in the room dance- despite the fact that it is mid-day? the apt is still a bit dark and my side hurts something awfull. Living with this damn cancer I have bad days and good days and today is just a bad day.

Although it was not unproductive I managed to set up a $150 photo shoot for tomorrow, and line up a cpl more for the next few weeks- Siren is going to stop by in a bit and I am making her some lunch. I need to clean the apt today but I have been unable to stay on my feet.

I am toying with the idea of taking another pain killer but the thing is I took my limmit and I am alone in the house other then my kitty so I don't want to get into trouble- looks like I am just going to have to ride this one out.

I did however get around to making a few changes to my profile- no sooner did I alter it just a little I got a ton of messages from people who were not even close to what I am seeking, it is frusteratting but the port is long so perhaps people just aren't reading it to the end.

I am lusting the new body lotion I got from bath and body it smells and feels so incredibal on my skin- lately I have been so much more tacktile odd, I wonder if there is a corrilation between that and the increas in pain meds, but I could do with out the persistand nausa. It's most unpleasent.

The new apt is wonderful I signed a 13 month contract back in Jan- but I still need to order a bed, but I have gotten a few peaces that make it feel like home- ley sigh- well nothing for it I have to get up and get moving.

-xo

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