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Thank You for showing me who You truly are. I appreciate that. |
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Kamp Kink will be on September 22-24 this year, come join us for some outdoor fun!!! |
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Got the sun in my eyes and the wind in my face, yes it's good just to be alive!!! |
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Find a woman with a brain, they all have vaginas. |
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Testing my submission before we negotiate will always get a "I hope you find what you seek." from me. I don't have time for those who wanna see tits before I see some respect. |
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Have been listening to this song http://youtu.be/8v_4O44sfjM
lately. Christina Perri has an amazing voice. It takes the song a minute to load....titled Jar of Hearts. |
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I was kinky long before 50 shades of Grey..... |
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Is so thinking about hot chocolate and humping....mmmmm |
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I'm just a happy ray of fuckin sub-shine, baby! |
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Kamp Kink this weekend!! I love the outdoors and can't wait to spend some camping time with my friends. |
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I might not be someone's first choice, but I am a great choice. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, because I'm good at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past, but I'm proud of who I am today. I may not be perfect, but I don't need to be. Take me as I am or watch me as I walk away. ~ I am beautiful~ |
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"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
— Dr. Seuss
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Saw this....caused me to think quite a bit....liked it.
"The man who is proudly certain of his own value, will want the highest type of woman he can find, the woman he admires, the strongest, the hardest to conquer--because only the possession of a heroine will give him the sense of an achievement." -- Ayn Rand
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Making plans for my Birthday weekend...dinner with friends and a play party afterwards!!! i am excited and ready to have some fun!! |
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Home from Winter Wickedness. Had a wonderful time. Met many new people, and was so glad to see all of my old friends! Posting a few photos of my new corset. |
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My life is what I make of it. I have control of where my path goes at the crossroads...it goes forward and knowingly into a much better, happier place. My past is left behind me, That path traveled long and hard. The good remembered, the bad, forgiven, the people in my life who were bad for me, left behind with the best of wishes for their future, whatever it will be. Those who were good for me are still existant in my life, travel my path with me and will remain there, forever by my side.
~Happiness, Truth, and Peace exist in my World~ |
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Ready for whatever comes my way!! |
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Looking forward to the next big event, Winter Wickedness!! I am excited and ready to enjoy another fabulous event! |
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The games people play..tsk tsk tsk. |
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I have become very disenchanted with humans as of late. It seems in this modern day of technology excuses abound as to why there is a communication breakdown. I have grown to abhor texting. If You cant speak to me face to face, or dial my number do You really believe there is any form of true communication going on? Has it come to pass that texting is the new way to communicate? Is there any wonder the younger society coming up have issues with face to face communication and dealing with emotions and thoughts? I am tempted at this point to get rid of texting on my phone and go back to the good old days of answering a phone call from Someone who has true interest in taking the time to pick up the phone and actually use it for its intended use. Can you hear me now??? |
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It is very disappointing when you open yourself up and reveal your truth to people and they cannot respond to you with truth but instead choose to not respond at all. Has common courtesy become non existant in this world where communication is supposed to be of utmost importance?
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Fantastic weekend at COPE! I came away reaffirmed in myself. Knowing who and what I am and stronger in my submission and understanding of myself more than ever before! I know it is my destiny to serve One who desires me for who I am and not who they want me to be. :)
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Have You ever come to a moment in your life and stopped dead cold in your tracks, smiled and thought to yourself "I am there, where I wanted to be, and it feels so very good!" Just had that moment today and it felt great!
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Fabulous weekend at the Rodeo! Back home later today to catch up with all my friends I missed! |
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Easy Rider Rodeo here I come!!
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Back from KampKink had a fabulous time!!
Next weekend Easy Rider Biker Rodeo!!
Life is fabulous!
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I am not naughty...I am behaviorally challenged! |
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Two exciting weekends coming up! Camping this weekend in a kinky environment then the following weekend im off to the Easy Rider Biker Rodeo in Chilly!!! I'm pumped and ready to have a wonderful time! |
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Going to Cincinnati today....:) |
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Making plans to go visit the Cincinnati Commando's, very soon!! It should be great fun!! |
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I am organizing a horseback ride here in Ohio, anyone interested in going get in touch with me! |
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A great friend to the community has passed on. You will be missed Big Daddy Stone. :( |
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What you think of me is NONE of my business...:) |
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If we have never spoken and I do not know you well, please do not be offended if I do not accept your friends request. |
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Oh WOW!! The weather outside is stupendous!! I am soooooo happy to see the sun and feel it's warmth! I'm feelin it!! :)) |
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I had the most wonderful Birthday! |
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Getting excited about the Sterling Shadow Anniversary Party that is coming up!! April 16-18th. A two day lifestyle event with 2 play parties, numerous classes and great presentors! Gonna be a great time~ come join me and have some fun!!
http://www.sscbig10th.org/
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44 Years ago today I got my very first spanking!! |
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I Would greatly appreciate a Dominant who can write a complete sentence when messaging me. |
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I love this quote:
Seek those who find your road agreeable, your personality and mind stimulating, and your philosophy acceptable, and your experiences helpfull. Let those who do not seek their own kind.- Henri Fabr
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Back from Winter Wickedness. Oh my!! I had a wonderful time. Completed 18 of my 24 items on the list. I am deliciously in pain and worn out!! I can't wait til COPE!!! |
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Winter Wickedness is almost here! I can't wait! It is going to be an amazing time!! |
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Happy New Year to everyone! I hope You are blessed with great happiness and your journey this year is as wonderful as You wish it to be! |
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Going camping this weekend..of course with a kinky twist!! Gonna be an enjoyable weekend! |
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Heading to the Biker Rodeo in a couple of weeks for some R and R and some great fun!!!! Can't wait to go, two of my favorite things will be there...Harley's and Hunk's..mmmmm |
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I have added some new photos recently. Funny enough we noticed the date on the photos was way off afterwards..lol!! These are recent photos of me. |
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Getting ready for a fabulous trip to St Louis in August to meet up with some lifestyle friends! Also...COPE is coming soon!! I am getting excited and already have some play plans scheduled! Come join me at COPE!! You won't regret it!! Going to be getting back into the impact play i miss soooo much! |
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Heading over to Indianapolis this weekend. Going to an event with IMAS. Looking forward to it!! |
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I was browsing profiles the other day and came across this quote and thought it worthy of a repost on CM.
Seek those who find your road agreeable, your personality and mind stimulating, and your philosophy acceptable, and your experiences helpfull. Let those who do not seek their own kind.- Henri Fabr |
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Winter Wickedness is fast approaching again! I am getting excited about the event and gearing things up to go. There are a few who are on my dance card already so I am thrilled to be involved in this awesome event and ready to play and enjoy the weekend!!! |
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I am Back into the rope scene, enjoying ,learning the feel of rope again. Gearing up for upcoming parties in December and enjoying the time i am spending with special people. |
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In Kentucky this week, so i wont be online much. If You message me, please be patient and i will return the message. |
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Life is just amazingly wonderful!!!!! |
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As a submissive I crave consistency in any form, along with respect. |
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I continue to move forward in my search. Eager to find the One for me, but patient enough to know I will have to speak to many to find the One. |
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COPE was awesome again, can't wait til next year!. I had a blast and did a few new things. It seems even though I have been involved for quite some time in the lifestyle there is always something new and exciting for me to experience and learn about. I was given the great opportunity to experience some drumming. I have to say it's intense but at the same time relaxing! 3 days later, I am still feeling it in every move I make and i am relishing in it!! I added another brand to my body, this time the upper right shoulder. I so love the feel that the wand gives, but even so later,..the brand still burning in my flesh, someone bumping up against it..well, its multi orgasmic to say the least...*grins*. Also the great energy I am priveledged to share with those I play with, old and new alike is tremendously satisfying. Now I just need to find that One to experience these things with me!! Can't wait for that to happen!! When it does, the intimacy added will only bring it to a higher, better level!!! |
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This weekend is getting closer and closer! I am getting excited, can't wait to meet those from here who I invited to join me at COPE!! Friday can't seem to get here fast enough!!! |
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Well, it appears CM won't allow me to put the branding pics up on my profile...pftttttt...ah well, i tried! |
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Off to Chilly i go!! Bikers, Bikes, camping and more Bikers and bikes...Not really up for it but going, hopefully once i get there i will be in the right mindset! |
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Thank you to everyone who has sent messages to me about my puppy...It helps to know there are those who can relate and understand the feelings i am having. |
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I Lost my beloved puppy this morning. 14 years may seem long to some, but it just wasn't enough time with my sweet Golden. I am beside myself with grief, i already miss him so much. |
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COPE is 3 weeks away!! Getting very excited, and ready for an awesome party!! |
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Last nights open house was a huge success! There were many great people who attended and gave extremely awesome energy to the group! We had fun til wee hours in the morning and within that we each grew and learned new things.
BTW, I won't ever waste time on my blog slamming someone..I am above it. |
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I added pics of my branding today,..hopefully they will go through, its on my right ass cheek, and a couple of singletail markings on the side. The brand pic is two days after the branding was done so still some healing. It is coming along nicely....and i am excited about it!! I cant wait to get another one done! |
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Had a great time at Last nights event!! I was given the opportunity to experience a violet wand branding, hopefully in the next few days i will have a pic of it up!! i want another one!! LOL exhilirating and extremely erotic to me...and a wonderful souvenir of the nights events! |
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I Sat down this morning and looking at my Calendar, realized August is going to be booming with all kinds of D/s fun in the community!! Time to get out the leather, corsets, and high heels! Also keeping the leather out for the Chilly Biker Rodeo!! It's gonna be a great month!! And then COPE will be the second weekend in September. Can't wait to see everyone from last years COPE!! |
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If you are free the weekend of September 12-13th, join the Ohio community at COPE! |
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If You get a chance...go see The Love Guru with Mike Meyers!..It is hysterical! |
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I am growing more and more with the help of experienced Tops. I crossed a hard limit with help recently and am very very excited about it! Being claustrophobic i was never one to try a hood. But i have now been able to experience that and get past it. Am i a hood wearing expert , by no means no i am not! But i have taken that step in trusting Someone to help me get past that limit and it's just an awesome feeling! |
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** The ** * Fireworks* *** ** were * **** Outstanding *** * last***** ** ** night! **
** winks** |
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Thank you so very much for the many compliments I have received on my video and profile photos. I love to put smiles on peoples faces and it brings me great pleasure to know that I have put a smile on someones face today or tomorrow. |
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As I sat this evening and had a heartfelt conversation with Someone, they said something to me that made me go "Wow..thats how They perceived that??"
Well, I suppose in much thought of it...I had to sit back and think about it as well. I have posted on several journals and blogs about all the wonderful parties i go to..all the playing i do. I will say this, i do love to play, I do love to go to parties and scene...it's part of who i am...but it's not completely who I am.
I do get many things out of playing. And the socialization I get with likeminded people is wonderful. I had spoken to a friend a few weeks ago about submission and what it means to me..what it is to me. I had even voiced to this friend that i felt the masochist in me was all that existed anymore..that the submissive was lost because there was no One to serve...no one to please. Truth is...i haven't been able to feel that special feeling in such a very long time..that it has left a hole in my heart. I feel as if the submissive in me died long ago because i serve no One.
I miss the submissive parts in my life so very much. But i realize and understand that with patience and time i might again feel those things. They are things i crave and need and want. I won't settle just to feel those things again...so if two years from now i am on here still searching maybe people will understand....that when i post about parties and scenes and playing....its the masochist in me that is being fulfilled..and happy and content..but the submissive in me is starving for what she needs. |
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Never make Someone your priority while you remain their option! |
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Another great weekend, spent with friends! Thank You to my wonderful Friend who hosted me for the weekend and all the things You did to help me get there! Two wonderful nights in a row of S&m enjoyment!
Mr Smiley is still smiling...thanks to all of you who walked by and gave him a pat!!! To the Evil Sadistic One who felt the intense desire to make Mr Smiley cry, Mr Smiley is still smiling..but thank You for making me cry!!
I met some new people this weekend who had great energy and look forward to seeing them again at future events.
I am going to invent a new dance i believe...gonna call it tippy toe dancing...* grins* |
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 Ssshhhhh...Be vewy vewwwwwwy quiet...whirrrr hunting Masters!! |
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As my search continues i stop to pause and think about many things. Self growth is so important in this lifestyle. How we see ourselfs, how we embed our values and morals into who we are and what we desire to be. Values and morals to me are very important in this day and age. It is sad that one of those that i value dearly has been mangled and jaded.
I speak about respect. Respect for yourself and others. I am one who gives people respect up front until i see it is no longer deserved. i desire to be respected as well.
As a submissive it is a trait i look at in an Individual to see if they are who they say they are or not. If they have not respect for themselfs, how can i? If they show me no respect up front...they never will.
It is a part of my self growth to notice this and not allow it to affect me. If i am shown disrespect all that is required of me is to dismiss myself from the situation and not open myself up to it again. If someone doesn't respect me, that is ok. I respect myself. |
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