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About WhoreSlut82
I am a slave and serving is my future. I have a master so I'm not interested in anyone trying to take me from him. Chatting is fine but please respect I'm his property I belong to him and its him who's allowing you to chat to his property so respect him for that.
This is not just some fabtasy workd for me, this is my life and future, Feeling my purpose in life is to serve him and put all his needs and desires first, inturn they will become what i enjoy and want as i know it will please him.
I have had some training which I know will be an ongoing progress until I become his perfect slave. he will train me to change my personality, sexual desires, dress code everything until I am exactly how he wants me. Regardless of any of my own needs and wants, they will all be given up to make him my primary focus, to serve him and for him to use me for his own desires in any way he wishes. Whether humiliate or degrade myself completely in order to prove I am worthy of a Master's control and care.
I will commit my body, soul and mind to him where ultimately he will control everything about me as I will become unable to make any of my own decisions, from what I am allowed to eat to when I am allowed to masturbate and cum! This is something I feel I need and want in my life to be dependent on 1 person to make my decisions for me. Rules which I have to live by including food, underwear wake time etc inorder to give myself to him.
read my journal which I keep regularly updated on my progress to become a perfect slave, you will hopefully find it very detailed and interesting reading
I know it was a long read but it is important you all know I am here to satisfy and serve for pleasure xxxx |
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What a busy and intense few days I have had with my teacher he certainly keeps me on my toes and pushing me all the time to get better.
We have established at present we don't work as a master and slave so instead we just see it as him being a teacher and me being a pupil and him teaching me so I improve my mentally and learn study to be a better slave which I think is very nice of him and appreciate his him and effort to teach me.
Sir refers to me as wetspot which I like as my little pet name from him as very appropriate considering I get wet very easily and remain wet.
I can't totally remember what we have done with my lesson over the past few days as its been long and intense bit there have been a few big changes. Starting with diet and exercises. As ok as I am with my size everyone wants to improve the way they look and I should be healthier and loose some weight, so sir has provided me with some gentle exercise to do twice a day morning and night and will develop on these as I get better unfortunately he hasn't been as gentle with my eating habits and all sweet things have been removed which is differcult as I have a sweet tooth also for a month no bread is permitted as a detox. I really hope I can make sir proud of his work I would like to loose 3 stone. My cigarettes have also been reduced to make me healthier not sure if I mentioned this before in journal but I used to smoke 20 a day but as soon as sir took me it was reduced to 15 and not on 13 which I'm reay happy about and I am feeling the benefits.
I am trying my best to be a good pupil and work hard and impress sir. So at the weekend I decided to customise my bras sir knows I need to get used to not wearing them and I try when he tells me I have to remove it I do as I'm told so people can see me hard nipples freely under my clothes, hower to be creative so my nipples were on show more I cut out my nipple holes in varies bras so I can wear these and my hard nipples are poking in bras I love this abd have worn the bras everyday since but has only been 4 days lol sir was impressed with this abd instructed me to do the same with thongs which of course gets me wet and excited wearing them as I know when I have them on I feel naughty underneath my clothes. I know you can buy crutchless underwear and peephole bras but sir and I think it's better to be creative.
I didn't mean for this entry to be so long with what I have wrote so in the interest of not boring you I will stop now and write another entry later on my intense lessons I have had with sir starting with Sunday when things went up a class |
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Seeing master tomorrow. Nervous and excited as I know it will be great fun but a long tiring afternoon.
He will push me far and hurt me I know that but its all good as it will improve me to become a better slave. There will be time it hurts but also pleasurable, draining but satisfying.
Writing this just realised I haven't been given my instructions on dress code for when we meet but suspect will be fully naked wearing heels as we are at home but I know he does sometimes like me wearing clothes be it very little ones but something that reflects me showing my big tits but easily assess able
I will update journal after our session maybe later tomorrow or Monday |
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Wow what a session I had last night with my master. I told him I wanted to feel some pain to get some release and I certainly felt it. Was mentally and physically tiring but well worth it. I have to be careful I don't give to much information away as he doesn't always like me to. So I will say raw stinging nipples, stinging ass from nettles and raw stinging nipples, ohh and not forgetting my pee hole is getting more like a hole now rather than a pin prick but was all definately worth it. The nipples inparticular were very sore today so they will be out of action for a few days recovering due to masters very creative ways of torturing me. I have spoke before about how creative he is with things and it amazes me and makes it all the more enjoyable. However I did seriously struggle with parts of it inparticular the nettles and worry that I might not be able to handle enough of masters sadism and he will get bored of me however I keep trying my best to try and ensure that wont happen. On the plus side I must have done well as he even decided to meet me at lunch today for coffee and chat very vanilla even though I know he would of loved to abuse the hell out of me there and then, he respected I had to leave for work. All I can say is definately looking forward to seeing him again Saturday who knows what might happen xxx |
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Like a lot of slaves master enjoys putting my in chasity and teaching me its not about my own sexual desires but those of his and what he enjoys.
I must admit it does remind me of my place not being able to touch my body in any way other than washing and to use the toilet.
Now I know a lot of slaves are put in chasity for a long periods of time but for me just a few days are differcult wanting to feel the wetness of the cunt or play with my hard nipples to get some relief but know I mustn't unless I want punishment which I clearly don't.
After a week of my chasity master decided to let me play with myself however it wasn't total pleasure. Outside in the garden squatting in the evening I was permitted to play with the cunt and cunt only no clit touching at all or nipples. I'm not sure if this was better or worse great being allowed to touch but worse as made me want to touch my other parts so much it's all I could think about tweaking my hard nipples outside in the cold air it was making the cunt get wetter and sticky imagining it and wanting to cum but that hadn't been allowed. This wasn't just a little play I was made to stay there and continue to play with myself solid for 2 hours finger fucking and rubbing but no cumming unless want punishment.
I was eventually permitted to cum and boy did I cum all that sexual tension built up inside me so glad of some relief I enjoyed every minute of it. After that I thought that would be in for a few weeks but master must have considered me to be a good girl by allowing my to cum again and again abd again the only downside was after the first time the rest were in bed for me to sleep in a big wet puddle but I didn't care as I was allowed to enjoy the fun and get the release I had been begging for .
That was last Friday and didn't expect to be permitted anymore release for some time. So the teasing and humiliation began again to make my cunt dropping again. Master knows I do like my tits as they aren't pert and get embarrassed by them so loves to make me feel uncomfortable yesterday before leaving work I had to remove all underwear and leave the office in just wearing a dress before going to the supermarket, the leisure centre and few other jobs, I felt very uncomfortable not wanting to make eye contact with anyone as felt they were staring at my saggy tits and knew what a dirty tart.
Writing this journal entry has got me all wet again but know I can't touch. Maybe master will be pleased by my doing my journal so give me a little reward ( well I can dream can't I ?! |
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I have had a busy few days of exploring other avenues and also punishments
The lines are still continuing and seem to be going slow. I was hoping master might reconsider it with it being so lengthy instead he told me it will teach me the important of being patient abd sticking with something which I guess it is.
It's a refreshing change and nice that master wants to improve me mentally and also my day to day life so I continue to keep a food diary For him so he can review my eating habits and decide on how I loose weight to be more healthy and happier with myself. I am not sure yet when the diet will start. 1 rule that was implemented straightaway regarding health was my cigarette intake which he has limited daily so I reduce them and eventually give up. This is going really well I am happy it is improving my health and thank master for this.
He seems to like my dripping wet cunt all the time and teasing me and knows some pain really excites me. He stuck some drawing pins to tape 10 to be exact and sent me to work on Friday with them stuck to my tits so every now and then I would catch them or push them on my breasts as I constant reminder of feeling him as imagined the cunt was very wet and sticky. When removed in the evening they were very sensitive so master decided to re-pierce my nipples to be left in until further notice ( I was away for the weekend so guessed whey would stay in whilst away)
I was also issued with a further shopping list of household items I had to puchase for him for so he had them readily available for when he likes including lemons, deep heat and Tabasco sauce to name a few. I went off to do my shopping then told to remove my bra and knickers before entering the store. I don't have the most pert tits so it torture not being permitted to wear a bra but I did it because the decision isn't mine to make. I did my shopping and could feel cunt getting wet as I did it and could start to smell it. So imagine other shopping knew what a dirty little slut I was. The excitement gets worse knowing I can't do anything to stop it or release myself without master permission. |
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So after a few days I have already broken a rule of playing without permission and now being punished I regret it so much.
My nipples get really hard and sensitive and Tuesday I was made to wear nipples clamps for a hour whilst doing chores which got them obviously hard abd excited so I wanted some relief but wasn't allowed any. Last night it became unbearable as I needed to feel something on my tits as I'm not allowed to touch them so decided to learn my nipple of a drawing pin so it went through the tip. Master saw this as playing so decided to punish me.
I have been given a sentence that I have to write out 500 times and make each one 1-500. Whilst doing them I have to be naked with a paste of chilli powder and mustard rubbed over clit with legs closed tightly. My calculations I have done state it will take me 25 hours to complete it and 25 sheets of paper, it all has to be hand written in capital letters
I spent 3 hours last night doing it and about 2 hours tonight master tells me when I can stop. The slight pleasure I had is not worth this torture it's mental boredom repetitive and tiring. It gives me back ache and cramp in my hand, but lesson has been learnt is just a shame I have another 20 hours to go and it's got to be completed for next Friday for master to view
I will not be deliberately breaking any of masters rules again I know that much and this is only my first punishment. I am sure there will be a lot more punishments to come during my training to make me a better sub for him
Wish me luck I feel I'm going to need it. |
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Journal almost upto date and current but what a long job it is I hope master will be proud of the time and effort put into it despit him now talking about me setting up a blog
So as of the weekend I became officially owned by my master and now I have a set of rules to get me started which will be added to with time and become part of everyday life.
I am very thankful to master for his time and attention he takes into owing me as I can see already it will make me a much better person and also improve quality of life
Rule include a variety of things like the obvious masturbation and body hair to control my cigarette and alcohol intake.
The journey has now become and no going back it is going to be challenging draining, torture and degrading but is all to improve and devlop me to serve my master
I intend to unpdate my journal as regularly as possible as he also likes to read it and you will be able to follow it. I am allowed to exchange some emails but do not try and take me away I belong to him |
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Rather than writing multiple journal entries I thought it might be best to write just one that includes some of the experienced I have had so far with my training and then do a further one of where I am at currently
So I may have mentioned his sadistic nature of my master and I am starting to understand them more and the ways in which he inflicts them on me.
Experiences incuding having nettles in cunt and bra, extreme pee hole play of getting tubes upto my bladder, and stretching my hole. Human pin cushion. Vacume play
The pin cushion was time consuming but very creative of sticking drawing pins through gaffer tape and sticking it to my bra so each og the pins would stick into me feeling the sharpe stabbing pain was good and sent a senation straight to my cunt to make me drip. I also had to stick them to my cunt however due to be so aroused and dripping wet they struggled to stick to me and dig in.
My vacume play was very intense I had to take the hose and attach it to clit and turn it on. It remain there for around 20 minutes whilst I had to try and carry on doing household chores with it attached. This was very differcult and thought I would cum from the intensity of it however managed to control myself until I took it off. once all clit was enlarged I attached pegs 4 to each labia and 1 nice and tight on my clit whilst carrying out the procedure to each of my nipples and attaching legs to them also. All begs had to remain in place for a hour whilst carrying out my chores and I eventually got my relief of being permitted to cum and orgasm, I swear only took me 10 seconds until I squirted everywhere.
Like a lot of masters he is a fan of chilli and ginger and seeing me react to it. Whether is is applied to clit or up pee hole doesnt take long until I am burning inside and feel on fire from it reacting to my body juices.
Another thing I have just thought about is homemade dildo. Filling a condom with water and freezing it. I have never been so excited for something to freeze even more than ice pops as a kid lol. Once frozen I applied tube to stop any burning from the ice and had to insert it deep into cunt and leave it there til melted. I was surprised by the coldness but was also soothing on cunt after ginger and chilli however my bladder wasn't belcoming to it and I needed to pee instantly but obviously wasn't permitted. The coldness became very intense however lucily it only took bout 20 minutes until melted obviously I have a very hot cunt lol.
Details below of a shopping list I was given of items I needed to buy and have them availble. I haven't yet purchased them all but have got several of them.
Clear tubing 1.5m length various diameters - not purchased
Dowing
Ducktape - purchased
Tacks of different sizes - purchased
Sandpaper - brought more
Rope - brough twining
Cable ties - purchased
Elastic bands - purchased
Clamps -
Condoms - purchased
Ginger root
Tobasco sauce
Chilli pwder, salt lemons,
Marbles -Puchased
Mouse traps
I will buy the remainder of these items shoprtly however if you are interested is hearing how these are used keep and eye on my journal
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So after my last entry I decided to look back and see how my master got my attention and was able to take ownership and also me willingly giving myself to him to own.
It was to do with his sadistic side and how creative he was and is. I am not a fan of wank chat and following orders by email however being horny I was already at a disadvantage and easily swayed so I was willing to obliege.
Being creative as he was I wasn't able to 2nd guess his instructions. However was instructured to get a few household essentials rolling pin, salt and sandpaper.
Now I could guess a little of what was to expect but OMG not the feeling of it good and bad.
I was instructed to take some of the sandpaper and apply it to my nipples using it repeadily as if I was sanding furniture. The friction burns were intense but enjoyable and as I started to see them getting raw and starting to bleed I enjoy it more and made sure I was doing it on a large area, as I enjoyed the senation and wetness I felt growing between my legs. Once nice and raw I was instructed to rub the salt over the nipples all where the cuts adnd grazes were it stung and made my eyes water but I enjoyed it and wanted more. So master decided to take it further and take the sandpaper and salt to my clit but unfortunately this didn't seem to have the same effect and I managed to take it with only some light discomfort. To ensure my cunt felt the feel of the sanpaper master instructed me to wrap the rolling pin to my cunt and fuck myself hard. I was squatting onto it so I could fuck myself harder and faster making the sandpaper have maximum effect on my and making me increasingly sore.
By the end of it I was sore, stinging, bleeding and felt violated but I enjoyed it. I had missed this control of detailed instrcutions and knowing I was pleasing someone by doing them. I was permitted to wank at the end until I had cum then to sleep in it.
I was a good session and something I wouldn't be forgetting anytime soon as I could see the marks on my breasts from carrying uut his instructions to the T!
For day later I got excited everytime I thought about the excitment he had given me and seeing my marks. I enjoy the marks as its a remonder of th event and makes me think about it more. i felt I wanted and needed this master more as I thought he could improve me and train me with his creative thinking |
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It has been some time since I have done an entry so thought I should get it back upto date and do my upmost to maintain it.
I have been away for several months as I was in a relationship, he was supposed to be a master however it was more just about sex which unfortunately isn't the best use of me, my skills or my purpose so we decided to part our ways.
Before I know it I'm soon back on this site knowing someone will find me whether to just use me or to train me or to have me serve them and sure to speak I was not wrong.
Don't ask me how it happened cause I really don't know but some how he managed to get my attention and after a few messages his sadistic side was coming out and had me doing all sorts of things ( details are to follow) He probably isn't a master I would normally be drawn if anything normally scare me off running with him being sadistic and a very over active imagination and creative I would normally be scared I couldn't handle it but so far so good.
It's refreshing to come across a well experiences Dom who is patient and understanding but will push you and use you for his own desires. It's exciting knowing how creative he is with things I can't second guess him like I can with some doms. My journal entries will continue with my training tasks and development for you all to read, him to see my thoughts and feeling and also so I myself can see how I am evolving |
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To say I'm quite a whimp when it comes to receiving pain and taking a whipping I'm definitely discovering a love for some pain.
I can't get enough of playing with pins and sticking them in me inparticular through the nipples and around the breast area. Yesterday morning I wanted to see how I could handle it for a longer period so stuck a medium size pin horizontally through each nipple to wear for the day at work. There seems to be something so arousing feeling it push through and then crunch as it pops out the other side. It always gets me wet and excited. Within about 15 minutes on my way to work I was sat in traffic with my dress around my waist playing as the feeling of them rub was so arousing wasn't long before the excitement hot too much and I cum all over my seat, I didn't care that people could see if anything it excited me more especially the lorry drivers.
Surviving the day at work was very exciting and I kept brushing my hand over my breast so I could feel the pins and get excited. By the time I got home I craved more of the feel of it pushing through and breaking my skin. I decided to add to the nipples further pins so stuck a further 2 vertically each side of the nipple so it was squeezed and tight from pins. I did try doing the inner labia again but just couldn't take it. Instead I enjoyed it so much on the breast so I look several pins 6 for each breast and threaded each 1 in and out the breast 4 times so the skins was screwed up and pinch all the way round the breast in a circle.
I feel wrong like I shouldn't be enjoying doing this so much on my own but I can't help it it excites me so much. I can't wait til I have someone I can enjoy this with and them carrying it out on me.
I took pictures so will update them shortly. And also of my whore cut I did at the weekend on my thigh which is heeling nicely to leave me with a good scar from myself to remind me what I am and what I am there for, |
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Curirosity is a very bad and dangerous thing as you can tell from my last few journal entries as I have a wondering mind and start thinking about things I have heard or seen and wonder what it is like. Instead of being like 99% of the population and keep it in my head which is where is should stay at the moment I decide to try it out not with a master or friend though instead I do it alone.
So so far my solo play consists of enema, tit bondage, caning, pee hole play, spices and cutting. Tonight moved further onto needle play. Jeez I'm a dangerous women when alone. Even though a slave I am a self confessed whimp so this would be a interesting task for me but after I have survived cutting myself the other night I thought I could this sober. Being now the most equipped women I thought I would stick safety pins though my nipples and fasten them and maybe leave them there for a day or 2 so I could feel them. Unfortunately no safety pins in the house so improvise plan B just normal pins used in sewing. Sat on the bed sober pulled my nipple so skin was tight and pushed the first break of the skin made my toes curl but couldn't help but want to continue sliding it through when it hit the other side slight crunch sound as it popped out the other side wow it felt wrong but so hot and turned on I was shaking I felt between my legs and cum from the shear excitement of it all. I continued to do the other nipple as the pain wasn't bad at all well hardly any I wondered if could do with my clit or clit hood but unfortunately not I was just too wet between the legs from the excitement I couldn't get a good grip so instead took the nipples further and decided to stick pin through top to bottom on each nipple so had a cross on each in total 4. All the time thinking how tomorrow I will buy some safety pins so can keep them in and sleep in them and go to work etc
Finally just having pins in wasn't enough so I decided to stitch my nipples together to sleep in. Using a sewing needle was hard to push through as just couldn't grip it but I kept going until I had threaded cotton in and out both nipples. I have tied the cotton together tight but not too tight just so each breast slightly tugs on the cotton. This has been in place now for over a hour and is getting me horny beyond belief I am going to play now and sleep with them stitched together, if possible I will keep them stitched for work tomorrow but don't think I can with bra but I will try.
Then tomorrow night I have part 2 and with safety pins so I can keep them in and get used to the feel of it rubbing. I have had my nipples pierced before but this is so much hornier playing with pins myself I wonder if I can keep safety pins in sited of having them pierced but if not I might go for piercing them myself but need to figger out how to make bigger holes |
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Well I took things further last night than I had expect by myself. I can myself the enema as planned but was feeling I need to push myself further and take things I haven't tried. Curirosity can be a bad thing. I have never been cut so wanted to prepare myself and cut myself to scar. I started with my right thigh I wanted a x that I would always see reminding me what a slut and slave I am ready to take anything. I used some glass and a knife to make 2 3" lines is a cross. It didn't hurt too much but it bled and stung it's took ages to stop bleeding bit hope I did it deep enough so I have a constant reminder that I am a slave. I then decided to cut a slice under each breast. A master was going to do it before to me and I remember him telling me it takes a long time to heel so I cut under each breast line twice which were very sore. Cutting myself left the pussy dripping wet so I had to have the best wank in bed ever before sleeping in a big puddle of my own cum. Waking this morning the cuts are still stinging and already I can tell the ones under my udders will take a long tine to heel with them being is creases so aren't dry. I like this reminder of what a slut I am ready to be owned and do anything I told to in order to give others satisfaction |
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Well life has been very quiet recently with no one making use of this slave. Instead I have to ensure I am ready for use when they decide and never forget what it is there for. So it continues to shave daily full body, wanking until it comes morning and night and focusing to watch what it eats, even though this slave isn't slim is worried if gets any fatter it won't be wanted so trying not to snack between meals. It already startered to struggle to gush from when it's previous master wouldn't let it cum without permission, so by wanking now twice a day it is starting to regain it's talent, after each wank pegs are attached to both nipples and labia's whilst coming down from the orgasm and the body is the most sensitive, this usually last for around 20 minutes
It must maintain focus of what it is intended for and never forget it's purpose to serve a master who is it's superior. It will regularly try to push ones own boundaries and pain. Recently taking to bounding the tits as tight as possible, I recently found I quite enjoy using dental gloss for this as it digs in deep to cut the blood until tits are bulging and purple I will leave these on as long as possible usually around 30-45 minutes during this time I will Bounce up and down stairs and slap them to bruise I have tried using a whip bit couldn't take it. I am just a pathetic whimp of a slave
So all holes remain ready I continue with toys and objects in cunt hole, piss hole and ass so never forget what those holes are there for.
With so much ass play recently though that has been suffering so tonight will give myself the enema whilst tits ate bound tight. I will then move onto my slave piss hole and and ass tonight continously stretching them both for use. This will all be done whilst the tots remain bound, I am hoping I can block the pain of the breasts out as will be focusing on enema and stretching. So fingers crossed I will break the hour milestone with the tits bound.
So expect tomorrow bruised tits and stretched hole just how a slave should be ready to use at any time |
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The body need to be push further and as it hasn't had a cock inside it for several weeks curiosity and sense of desire has taken over
I have heard of pee hole play before so decided to carry some out on myself see what it's like. OMG I love it I only tried it 2 days ago for first time started
by using a cotton bud to stretch my hole, then moved onto a straw, I can slide half of it in. I love the feeling of the naughtiness of it. I soon found myself wanting to take things further so put some Ginger paste on the cotton bud and slid it all the way inside, feeling it reach with the wet hole made my pussy drip so much feels so tingly slight burn but amazing and intense. I soon wanted it again so tried it before I left the house for work driving in the car with Ginger in pee hole soon got me too excited and by the time I got to work there was a cum stain only seat. It felt so naughty but exciting
A owner before had tried putting a Ginger Clove up my ass but it didn't reach. After I had discovered making this paste last night I took it much further and plug my ass as pussy at the same time with a dildo smeared in Ginger then put some up the pee hole. It was all so intense had me shaking. As I wriggled around feeling the sensation it make all tge holes wetter and reach much more. The ass one was the most intense only managed that 1 for 10 minutes.
I want to take it further though I would like my owner to do this to the holes whilst I am restrained forcing me to take it without being able to escape. This is definitely a new love I have found and crave it more and more! |
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Blimey could I feel any hornier at the moment
I have not been permitted to have a cock in my whore hole for over 2 weeks nows all because I wanked and didn't stop myself from cumin.
For the first week tge punishment was fine however the need I feel now is growing more and more intense. I am wanking more and more often sometimes I just spend the day in bed playing with myself but as I'm not allowed to cum I think this is making it worse. The cunt is permantly dripping wet and as I never allowed to wear knickers I can spell the cunt juices under my dress and I am sure others can as well
I have no idea how long this torture will continue for and I as I have told my master over the past week I need to feel a cock inside me and relieve my pussy, He reminds me I have no needs of my own it's all about pleasuring other. This caused a further punishment I was whipped with a belt whilst restrained (he never normally restrains me for punishment) until I had welts on my ass to remind me everytime I sit down how sore it is and that I am there for other pleasure and the soreness would remind me I am not allowed any desires of my own
He has told me when I do get a cock to go in the slut hole it will be a cock that I would never have chosen myself and will be 1 I don't enjoy but to be grateful for having something inside me as I had said I wanted. He said after recieving it he knows I will never say I need something again |
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Well had my first enema Mmmmm already can't wait for the next one
I had been waiting for master to perform it on me but decided I'd give it a try myself
I got a plastic pipe lubed it up then stuck it deep up my ass. Just inserting the pipe in my ass got me excited. I lay on my back and filled a jug with warm soapy water then slowly poured it down the lube. My pussy got wet as I could feel the warm water filling my insides making my stomach grow and bubble. I didn't know what to expect but was surprised I could only hold it for about 2 minutes before emptying myself
I can not wait til master does it he will restrain me so I will have no choice bit yo hold it |
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I am currently in the process on inducing self lactation. I have only been doing it 4 days but I plan on continuing to do it to see if I can produce milk. I am doing my hand stimulation and after 2 weeks plan to introduce a breast pump. Already my nipples are sore but I continue to carry on. I mentioned it to my master and he liked the idea of the udders being used.
It will be a long process and I am setting my alarm so can also do it during the night. I hope it works as I know master would be pleased with my determination to succeed. I already used to have permanently hard nipples but so much stimulation is making them so sensitive I am also doing it during the day at work as I feel I need the relief of doing it even though not producing milk yet
I wondered if any of you have tried it and if it worked for you and any tips! I have done so much research on the Internet about it
I do think it is a shame I don't have a partner I can nurse to help me as they say that is the best stimulation
Hopefully if successful and I produce like a cow who is what would be good I plan to offer the service on aw, sell it and also replace my own milk intake in drinks etc with my breast milk as I feel I would no longer be worthy of a cows milk when I have udders that are producing |
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Last night I was whored out for the first time on a one on one basis I have been paid for gangbangs before but never had anyone whore me out for another guy to use
I had to spend a hour and half with a guy! The client told me what he wanted me to wear, I had to dress pretty not slutty with minimal make-up he said the slut would come out as we played I didn't need to dress like a slut! I choose to wear a black and pink babydoll stockings and heels
He really liked me and wanted to see how much I wanted him, I had to spoil him. Kissing him all over his body and tracing several tattoos on his body with my Tongue, deepthroating his cock until I vomitted and rimming him. I was surprised was little pain a few times he hot me round face and bit my boobs but nothing to server
I was a good girl and swallowed all his cum and I gushed all over his body, I know it's not about me but I was ready for the sexual relief of being allowed to orgasm
He has already told my owner he would like to hire me a lot more saying he wants to use me for several things and humiliate me! I'm not sure how he will do that and I know I shouldn't ask as I already ask to many questions
My job is just to serve whoever my master decides making sure I give them whatever they want and let them use it as they wish. I think this is a new low I have reached from being whored out but expect the body to be used by worse blokes that will take advantage of the body straightaway. |
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Off to see my master in a few hours not seen him for a week. Unsure what it consist of if I will get any punishment or if he will abuse the body in any way, I have resisted asking him as I know I ask too many questions
I know 1 thing that is planned he's going to take me to be pierced, clit hood and outer labia 1 each side. I'm looking forward to the clit hood as know it will be permanently stimulating my clit so I'll be more wet than normal but nervous about the labia as think they will hurt! 1 will have a disc with initials on looking forward to him making his mark on me show I am now owned by him and other guys will see it on me knowing they are getting to use someone elses property |
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Sorry it has been a few weeks since my last journal entery
I am getting settled into my routine and bringing my masters rules into my day to day life! I had 2 weeks to fully implement these rules which will finish this Thursday, after that any rules I break will result in punishment for me!
I had some punishment last week for my ongoing over sleeping in the morning! I was relieved instead of the cane he used his belt! It hurt and stung so much I am such a whimp but managed to take it! I am so scared now of not waking up at 6am however my matter knows this is a ongoing problem at the
moment so to build up some
sleep I have to be in bed by 10pm every night for a few weeks to catch up!
I thank master for this and understanding I'm tired and looking at options for me to catch up instead of always being late and punished. He is very firm but fair with me which is very good and training me well!
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Well my 2 week trial is over now and my master has officially taken ownership of me! He has decided I am worthy of his power and training
It had been a eye opener though as I now have a set of rules to follow from my eating and drinking, language and behaviour around others! On the plus side though I have permission to pleasure 2 cocks a week of my own choice which makes the holes very happy
I have to keep a daily diary now which has all my rules in there and I have to complete my food intake and challenges, guys I meet and also any rules I break so I can receive my punishment!
It will be hard as I can never say no I have to follow all my rules to escape punishment! My punishment will always remind me not to do it again and will make me a better person, and for this I always have to thank my owner for the punishment he has given me as will make me a better person and remind me I am there to serve others only
I am very excited for the future and what my owner will train me to become |
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My punishment was received for making myself cum without permission! I was restrained to the bed and had deep heat sprayed on my pussy! OMG it strung and gave me a burning sensation beyond belief, I didn't think I could handle the pain and needed it washed off however after the first minute it settled down and I managed to take my punishment! Took me about 20 minutes for the pain to wear off
It taught me a lesson though that my holes are now for other peoples benefit now and not my own, I am not allowed to desire any form of pleasure on this body unless it is to satisfy someone else
If I ever do it again my next punishment would be putting it up my piss hole, which will hurt even more and no chance of washing it out! So I guess I have learnt my lesson that I won't be forgetting in a hurry
I am being taught quickly about punishment at the moment! My master doesn't approve of swearing and as I have swore 5 times I had to wear a soap gag for 20 minutes again whilst restrained. I remembered not to swallow and of the soap though and let it foam at my mouth and all over my face, I could taste the soaps for hours after but again another lesson learnt
My master is hoping to turn me into a better person so I have to be grateful for his punishments as they are ones I won't forget in a hurry and will make me think more before I carry out my actions
It's a shame I can't improve my time keeping quite as well. I have already been punished for waking late in a morning and late emailing him. I though was only by 10 minutes. But have been taught about time. For 10 minutes I was fully retrained having to wear a gas mask, you may not think that it bad but I hate masks and can't even look at a gas mask I have a phobia of them, however as I had done wrong I had no option but to take my punishment! During the punishment I also learnt how long a minute is and it's long when someone is controlling your breathing and cutting off your air supply
It is a shame my punishment for time keeping hasn't improved it but this morning I was 14 minutes late with my 6am text! I know my punishment already 14 strokes of the cane. I feel this is survire punishment for 14 minutes as the cane is only used for extreme punishment, but I guess it's cause I have already been punished for it so he needs to ensure I won't fail again. I honestly don't think I will I fear the cane and know if it's being used then I have seriously let him down!
I think the punishment will be carried out this evening when I see him and know I will be thinking about it all day today and become very nervous about it. |
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I have been very naughty just now! I was playing with myself and cum without masters approval! That is it I am going to be in for serious punishment when he sees me!
I didn't want to cum but felt like my body just took over and my head had no control in it
I wasn't even intending on playing however lying naked on the best my hands wondered over my breasts and big hard nipples! I reached across to my draw talking out my corn on the cob dildo intending on rubbing it over my hole and slowly sliding it inside! Once deep in me I thought it would help my training If I fucked myself with it but not cum, therefore I will be more used to it when master requires me to perform sexual acts but not cum!
How wrong was thinking I was clever and can control myself! Instead I just cum, it wasn't a lot but neverless I still cum! I was too scared to take the dildo out of me as I knew I would end up gushing everywhere. Instead I lay there for 20 minutes with the dildo in me whilst I calmed down, unfortunately that didn't work and I gushed now I await my punishment from master all just so I could cum a little |
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Well after 4 days away with family it's back home! Not sure what to expect when home as my master has been very relaxed with me whilst I have been away! He was understanding that I was with family so wasn't harsh with me at all, this has made me respect him more and more willing to serve him. I am a little worried and apprehensive for going home as not sure if he will punish me for allowing me family time and I need to be
grateful to him for this, or if he will continue with me as normal
I will see what happens tomorrow and see how I am treated by him |
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So far so good! My training is going well with my new master!
It is differcult at present as I am visiting family for a few days, however it's reassuring to know my master understands this and doesn't want to inflict harsh tasks on me which are visible to my family and may jepodize anything! Don't think I'm being let of and have a few days break from rules, I'm not! I dont have any bedtime rules whilst I'm away but this will change when I'm home and probably server with some sleep deprevation! I am being given sneaky tasks whilst away for when im alone or if infront of them they won't become visible to them! |
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Over the past week I have had many nice messages from dom/ subs, men/ women. It has been nice to see people have read my journal and have shown empathy on reading It. Some were just just polite message reassuring me I will find a new master and be worthy of being owned again.
However I had several masters offering to take me on and own me which felt nice and some way comforting that they would want me to serve them. It was hard for me to find a new master who was a genuine master online and both in person, treat me how I should be treated as a slave and not how I would like to be treated. However I think that new master has contacted me. He is harsh and fair and will treat me how I deserve to be treated and not how I want to be treated.
It is early days and I am in the process of going through an induction to see if he wants to take me on a permanent basis. So for the meantime I am not going to name him until I know that he is owing me permanently and for the long term
So at the moment I can chat to you, however I do not look for a new master to be owned by. I will continue to update my journal with my progression and how I adapt to my new rules. But after my break at last it is nice to have my routine back that someone has set and rules that I have to adhere to to prevent myself from being punished, and a reason now in my life that makes me needed once again! |
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I don't read books they just aren't my thing nor have I ever purchased a book in my life! However I was told to buy 50 shades of grey!
Wow amazing and intense I can't put it down! We can all relate to this book in some way which makes it all the more intense
Just reading it has me dripping wet and hungry for a new master. I am unable to control my urges and find myself cumin at work when I think about it leaving a wet patch on my chair, my pussy is constantly oozing juices and smells, it is leaving me unable to control my sexual excitement |
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Well after 5 days of no news from my master I think it is now time to accept my master no longer wants me
It is hard for me to accept I am now alone with no identity and no one making my decisions for me. But yet my daily routine follows that master set me until a new one comes along and decides to have me serve him as his slave. The hardest part is bedtime for me as I am used to being told when I can sleep and it varied from 1 night to the next, this appears to be a challenge for me choosing when I sleep!
Will I ever be worthy of being owned again and to serve as a slave? Well time will tell
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I haven't heard from master for the past 2 days. Not sure if he is punishing me or if he doesn't want me anymore! Yes I know it's only 2 days but it is unusual for master, he contacts me several times throughout the day and sets me tasks, this is why I wonder if I haven't been a good slave and he doesn't want me or is punishing
Master had been carrying out orgasm control! I was carrying out my task well and I'm still too scared to allow myself to cum if this is part of his control
I guess time will tell but for now I best continue with his daily rules he set me. Never and knickers to be worn, whenever I am driving have dildo up ass, from 7pm daily wank every hour for 20 minutes but not permitted to cum. The only good thing is I have had more sleep over the past 2 nights as master hasn't been telling me what time to go to bed and wake.
I will update when either I have heard from my master or decide myself master isn't coming back and I need a new owner xx |
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My last 2 days have mainly centred around self control and enjoying pain!
It is surprising my master seems to know me better than I know myself and knows what pain sensations I will enjoy and become aroused by
I have not been permitted to cum for the last 3 days! You may think that is ok and easy to control yes it maybe but not when you are masturbating every 2 hours at work for 10 minutes and at home every hour for 20 minutes bringing myself on the brink of orgasm then having to force myself to stop is increasingly frustrating yet so very arousing!
My day starts I pack my bag for work I have the usual thongs in there lube, toys and women crap, however also several pegs as instructed to take by my master! my drive to work I look relatively normal however I am being stimulated by a dildo up my ass, by the time I do my 40 minute journey my pussy is dripping wet and I haven't even touched it! Yesterday I was exceptionally naughty at work at 10:30 was my time to go to the toilet and insert the same dildo up my ass as I had used when driving, I was then permitted to wear some sexy knickers and go to my desk and continue to work with the dildo in my ass! Omg I can not tell you how arousing it was and also exchanging messages with my Master I thought I was going to explode it the office, however I had to contain myself as ordered! After a hour I was permitted to remove it in the toilet an wank as a reward! Sliding it out felt amazing I felt my pussy dripple.out came the pegs I had packed earlier, I clamped 1 on each nipple hurt a little but felt so good I thought this wank was the best and going to relieve me just as I was going toexplodedI stopped, masters words "you are not permitted to cum" god I was frustrated but did it this continued several times until at last I could go home not forgetting the dildo up my ass before I got in the car! Driving home I was grinding my ass against the seat |
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Wow my master has been very kind to me the past 2 days I must be proving myself well to him
I finally completed my 48 hour starvation I am not sure who was more proud my master or myself! Either way we both knew it was good that I followed his instructions and completed my task. My reward??? Well it was food of course however when I tried eating I was surprised I didn't enjoy it as much as expect, however since last night I have been free to eat as normal and enjoyed my lunch today!
As I have proved myself by starving, drinking obscene amounts of water to cotrol my bladder piss myself and bed and sleep in it, as well as shower in it I was free to be clean again! I showered changed my bed and no longer had to wear my cum and pissed stained clothes. I felt proud and wondered what would be next for me which excited me |
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My self respect is slipping away! I am being forced to degrade myself for my masters own arousal!
I am not sat in a lace thong slutty red bra and fishnets. I have worn these for the past 3 night and pissed through them every night before I sleep. My master has me wank myself uncontrollably all over my bed and pillow and piss the bed before I go to sleep in it to remind me I am loosing all self respect! I know tonight is going to be bad for me yet I have been aroused by it all day as I sit at my desk with my crutchless tights on and wet the chair! I am drinking pints of water to control my bladder I couldn't walk earlier as my stomach pains were so strong as I desperatly needed the toilet and was not permitted the toilet until I had drank 5 pints in 3 hours! I am now drinking 6 pints in a hour before pissing into a bowel and pouring it over my body, I can not wait to feel to feel my warm piss dripping down my face and into my mouth! I then have to drink another 6 pints before 11pm and wank every hour on the hour before bedroom but learn to control my own body and not allow myself to cum! I am the permitted to bed around 2am without going to the toilet to see if smelling of piss in my cum and piss soaked bed I can stop myself from pissing the bed before I wake!
I enjoy the fact so far I have been taught public humiliation and around self control! All my self respect is slipping away yet it arouses me knowing how satisfied my owner is with me, and beginning to love my pussy permanently dripping. I wonder when my master will next let me cum!
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I have a very professional job and was unsure how my master would be able to own and control me at work as this is the only aspect of my life I will always be able to control myself. However as usual my master always succeeds! He finds ways of ensuring I never forget him, he starves me! From when I wake in a morning to
When I get home in a evening I am not permitted to eat food! This is very challenging for me yet rewarding as I know my master would be proud. As I sit at my desk hungry my pussy gets wetter reminding me my master is controlling me! As this task got easier getting used to the starving feeling I no longer saw it as a task but just my way of life. To increase the challenge further I am currently being forced to fast for 48 hours! I was forced to watch people eat at the pub as my pussy dripped more and more reminding me this was all my masters control |
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I have been proving myself well to my master that I am a good whore slut and he decided to reward me for masturbating all day! At last I was allowed to masturbate in th evening and continue until I had emptied my stinking cunt of all my cum onto my bed! It felt amazing as I fucked my pussy hard continuing to gush over my bed until I fell to a quivering wreck as I orgasmed, at last I felt sexually satisfied. Unfortunately that did not last long as my pussy was covered in cum and I spoke to my master it sexually aroused me more by him sending me messages! I was instructed to dress in fishnets a slutty red bra and whore pants for bed. At last I thought I could sleep it was 11pm but my master had more orders for me! I went to the bathroom where I pissed through my thong in the bath seeing it dripping down me. I had to send a photo to my owner so he could see what a whore I looked! I was allowed to bed now where I had to wank more whilst leaving my owner a voicemail telling him how lucky I an to be owned and what a whore slut I am as I moaned and groaned, once emptied again I slept in my cum soaked bed with my piss pants to sleep in at 2am. I fell asleep thinking how lucky I am that my owner choose me and will look after my life as I am incapable of running it myself |
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I woke up on Sunday officially owned by my master! My pussy was dripping wet and unsure whether I was allowed to wank! I contacted my master to find out if I was allowed to carry out any form of sexual relief! He instructured me from 10am every 2 hours on the hour to wank myself in anyway I like but was not permitted to cum! This grew exceedingly frustrating for me and was unable to masturbate for long otherwise I would gush everywhere my cunt was constantly dripping and smelling as I was not permitted to clean myself. At 1 point he had me masturbating infront of the mirror so I could watch myself, this was too much for me and I squirted all over my bed! I was scared of my punishment but like a good slave I told my master the truth and sent him a photo of it!
When I went out for the day I was instructured to wear a low top short skirt no knickers and hold ups so I felt like the whore I am, and everyone could see it! I went to the supermarket I could feel everyone starring at me as I walked in which excited me more feeling degraded by my master when he wasn't even present! In my basket I purchased a cucumber some condoms and some lube! I flashed my ass to a bloke with his wife as I bent over to show him I am a slut! After paying for them at the busy checkout so everyone could see my items I went to the toilet to out them to use! I moaned and groaned as I fucked my dripping cunt until I came everywhere! I left the toilet without cleaning, the cucumber on the floor for all to see what I had done and walked out with cum dripping down my leg. I felt extremely satisfied that I was a whore slut and my master would be proud of me |
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Here is my journal on how I am becoming the perfect slave and am worthy to be owned by my master:
My first task was to strip naked in front of the mirror and write "master's whore slave" across my body! I sat in front of the mirror in sexy stocking and killer heels with my legs spread wide showing my open pussy! I had to take a video of myself and send it to my master so he had my phone number and could see all of my body, by the writing I was displaying I have now committed my body to my master!
He then instructed me to get on my bed on all 4's and wank my pussy and ass so hard so I exploded! Whilst doing this I phoned my master and left him a voicemail telling him what a whore I am and needed to be controlled and taught some humiliation. This was my first task completed once I had covered my bed in cum I was permitted to sleep in my smelly slut bed lying in a pool of my own cum with a dripping wet pussy as I was not permitted to clean! |
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Male Dominant, 40, Youngstown, Ohio
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Male Switch, 22, dayton, Ohio
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Male Submissive, 30
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Male Dominant, 20
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Male Submissive, 39
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Female Submissive, 47, Mojave Desert, California
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Female Switch, 49, Newport, California
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Male Submissive, 54, Acton, Massachusetts
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Male Switch, 33, atlanta, Georgia
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Female Submissive, 44, Jordan, Minnesota
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Male Dominant, 30, Perth
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Female Switch, 37, Sacramento, California
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