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The world just open up to me, i have found what i never knew wasn't there! The grace and power of my Dom, i now have found that i am a born sub. All these years of emptiness, a beautiful light now shines, i am his, mind, body, heart and soul.
11/19/2011 11:13:18 AM

i gave Him my mind, body, heart and soul, but i never wanted to give Him my love, but it is too late. 

11/18/2011 9:12:26 PM

i find myself questioning my feeling, as my Master is away, and i feel empty inside.  It feels like i have lost a piece of the puzzle, something that i had found with Him.  i am sure the i am over-thinking the situation, and that i have to move at the rate He sets.  i don't fear that it is over, or that He is a fraud, it is just cold and lonely without Him.  He gives me warmth, and takes away my fears by just His words.  And when we are together, i feel like i melt and become a part of Him.  


my thoughts are filled with Him, and only Him.  He has taken all of me with Him, but left this shell behind.  i hate being without, i need the security, warmth and control that He has on me.  Please understand that i am nothing without Him.  Will this get any better, in time i hope.  And His timing is perfect and i need to keep that in my head.  

11/12/2011 12:54:10 PM

There is only one person for whom you were created. There is only one person in whose body you have been living. There is only one person you have been preparing to give unqualified obedience. There is only one person in whom you can place that unqualified obedience. You can't choose where to place your obedience, any more than any other part of destiny can be your choice.
If you still think that you belong to you, or ever did, then you are either not slave, or still developing egotistically. If the feeling of only being another, who has all the same rights to you and responsibilities for you as he has to himself, is what feels right, then you are probably ready to accept your destiny, and your slavery. If you ARE another, and not yourself, then what you do needs to be appropriate for that truth. Think about it, and think about it.
Your obedience has to be placed in the only one who can know what to do with who you are. Your Owner can't be selected from a buffet because of your egotistic attraction. Your Owner has to be the one His mind and heart, living in you, draws you to. Your Creator will always provide the circumstance for the meeting to occur. The Universe isn't limited to the laws of probability. It doesn't need you to do anything but accept what IT offers when it has presented exactly what you need to be complete.
You will know when you haven't yet accepted the one for whom you were created. Things just won't work as they should. Miracles won't happen to support the process. What you experience won't introduce, or further confirm, we live in a spiritual world operated by a loving Creator. Life will feel either like it is just repeating itself, or it won't satisfy deep feelings, and cravings. You will sense that you are still carrying creativity and talent that is going unused. When that's how you feel, you still haven't found your Owner.
The development process of our species requires that we become egotistically strong and then find the willingness to let go of everything we have achieved to do the Creators work. What makes accepting what is offered difficult is that we are prepared to do so only while the ego is strong. The challenge is having a strong ego and an openness simultaneously. If either is missing, you aren't qualified to accept your Owner, your destiny, or your slave development toward that destiny.
After you accept your Owner, the real work of accepting destiny begins. Then the emphasis shifts from egotistic development to spiritual development. An empowerment for the transition to destiny is begun. All development is accomplished through your obedience, and nothing else. Everything else is simply the Owner's. The only thing worth giving, the only thing of value that can enable your Owner to perform the slave development, the destiny empowering steps, is your obedience. It is the only gift worth giving. It is the only thing you have, that isn't already His, that is of equal value to the prolonged, unqualified, unselfish gift of your slavery He is prepared and committed to giving you.
For a slave, life is filled only with obedience. That is the power, the energy, the right and the responsibility of a slave. It is also what he can do better than anyone else who isn't slave. That is what makes him a special asset to the Universe, and how the Universe intends on using him.
There is nothing for a slave to understand except obedience. Any other understanding is wasted, or for someone else's benefit. All a slave NEEDS to know is obedience. Only the Owner can give a slave the chance, the opportunity to let go of everything else, to surrender, in power, to the truth of the realization that the slave has no purpose but obedience. All other purpose was given to the Owner who lives through the slave.
Destiny is the starting place of your real life, not the destination. Everything before that is merely the preparation for your life. If you know what your destiny is without your Owner, you're not slave. If slave, only your Owner can empower your destiny. That's all that real slavery is about. Are you "you" as your ego would like you to believe, or are you your Owner?
Your Owner gives you your moral life, the one you are destined to have, the one from which you can experience happiness. How much obedience are you CAPABLE of giving for that?
Answer that question and you know whether or not you were created to be slave.
How much obedience are you WILLING to give for that?
Answer that question, and you finally know whether or not you can become slave.
i have answered these questions over and over again, I know I have found my destiny, and my Master, and i am giving myself to Him freely, to mold me into His slave, He it the owner of my heart, mind, body and soul.

Tinybabssox
 
 Age: 21
 Kuressaare, Estonia