Kitty has taken a step back from the lifestyle, after many long discussions with me it has been decided that, atleast for now, putting the lifestyle on hold will make both of our hectic lives a bit easier. She is still mine and will always be mine. Everyone have a great time, and good luck!

MasterSadism

quitting sucks!!!!!!!!!!   kitty is sooooo craving a smoke right now that it is not fair. she even moved from Masters chair to a different one because he has a half cigarette sitting in the ash tray. damn kitty wants to smoke bad......  maybe a cold shower later will help.

ok so kitty got back from being in town and going to the Dr. it turns out kitty has heel spurs...except they do not call them that and it now goes by some big medical term. anyway...he recommended getting insoles for kitty's shoes and thought purchasing walking shoes instead of sneakers. which is ok as the sneakers that kitty bought a few weeks ago are already falling apart. the brand is usually a good brand, but kitty bought one pair that lasted three or four days before something inside of the shoe screwed up. kitty returned the shoes, got new ones of the same brand ((they are a good brand after all lol)) only to have them get broken as well. at least the way they are broken this time does not effect the way kitty walks, but she is going to have to continue to wear them until next week when she gets paid. :( oh on another note, kitty uses another site now. it is . she will be posting her jornal entries there as well, and sometimes adding more to them or just adding ones there she doe not add here. well off to go get Master some kool aid. yay for grapey goodness :P

for some reason kitty thought she had work tonight. thankfully she does not. however kitty does have to go to a Dr. appointment tomorrow at 11:40. she is going to see someone about the pain in her feet from when she works. normally pain in your body after an 8 hour shift is normal, but after working for more than 5 weeks a body should get used to it and not adapt to the point where only one side of the arch on one foot hurts to bad to stand correctly.

*sighs* kitty guesses it might be nothing and hopes it is nothing, but she does have one leg that is longer than the other. so that might not be helping either. kitty hates going to the Dr.'s for anything and only even remotely likes it when it is an in and out little check up and kitty knows that nothing is wrong so she can leave right away....so yeah tomorrow is going to stink a little bit.

also on a completely different matter, kitty is having strange dreams again. this last one kitty had when napping. in the dream, Master somehow got a hold of a club illegally and started to run it. the business was great and the dream went through about a year in less than five minutes most likely. then after a while, it slowed down and started where it was some kind of check up where a city official came by to see how things were. when he noticed that the name on the papers he had did not match the name of our club, he was going to leave and shut us down. so kitty ran up to him and started saying, "if you do not report us, I will have sex with you." the man shook his head and replied, "baby I have a 401 k to think about." so then kitty randomly responds with, "if i get pregnant i get the kid. no questions asked and you can leave." then man jumped from his car, where he had been heading to and walked with kitty to the club where a back room was. then kitty started to ask Master to cut out the birth control in her arm so she could have sex with this city official.....so yeah really weird dreams lately :p

kitty is a bit tired today. when she got up home from work she did not go straight to bed and instead Master had her wait until every one was up, then took an ambien and got to sleep alone in Master's bed. kitty slept for quite a few hours until the little one had to come back from his grandfathers because he was extremely naughty so kitty had to get up and send him to his room. otherwise kitty would have gotten to sleep longer. we are due to have company soon and kitty is really excited ^_^ we have arrangements for the little one to be with his grandmother so we can all have adult oriented conversations. well kitty is going to go now. she wants to try to play a game on the 360. :P

ok so kitty went online to view her work week.....after having to work tonight and then being off for two days, kitty has to work 7 days in a row!!! that is going to suck but at the same time, it will be good because if she keeps certain days, then she can always have a ride to work as her co-worker lives a few houses away. on top o this, kitty will have to call a Dr. soon and discuss her feet as the arch is failing :( well enough whining, kitty is happy at the moment because she is still loving the fat that the local library offers Manga *dances* kitty is reading a series right now called Fruits Basket. it is about the Chinese Zodiac and curses.

ok, so kitty got her punishment earlier today but had not had the time to post an entry. as a punishment for not making an entry the other day, kitty was spanked 8 times on the bare ass with the whip. after each lashing, kitty was to have counted it off and thank Master for the punishment.

kitty did not post her entry yesterday. she had gotten so tired all she thought about was bed and did not stop and think that Master had given her the order to put in an entry. kitty is to be punished but Master has not decided. kitty also thought of a way to quit smoking. from now on, each time kitty asks for a hit, a smoke, a halfiee, or even goes through the ashtray for a butt, Master will spank her 5 times. His choice of area so it will not always be the ass, and His choice of tool, so it will not always be a paddle. kitty thought of this idea because she really wants to quit to help with money and because smoking kinda stinks lol. anyway, to make up for the lost entry, kitty will post again when she is punished and tell what the punishment was.

it is storming out again. it stormed last night really bad and let up. now that kitty is awake she sees it had started up again. lots of thunder and lighting. kinda hopes it ends soon. it sucks that it is raining. kitty wanted to go out into town and walk around a little before she had to go to work. now it does not look like we will leave the house. except maybe to check the mail. guess that is one thing to look forward to on a day like this. last night kitty was so disappointed. the chat rooms here were down. she had wanted to go into them and talk to a few of the nice people she met the last time. ah well such is life. kitty hopes that on her next day off she will be able to chat there again. which should be in about 4 or 5 days ^_^

kitty just had a great session with Master and wench. He tied us both up and gagged and blindfolded us. then He went from one to the other doggy style as we lay on the bed. He whipped us, played with us, and used us. it was a lot of fun and when He was doing that He made us choose who got His cum. wench was the lucky one this time but kitty wants to feel his cum the next time. Master even took pictures and is going to post them soon. kitty can not wait for that! ^_^ well off to do the dishes. kitty will talk to you later.

kitty has the next two days off. this is great as it means that after that she has a normal schedule and none of this work a bit off a bit stuff. kitty is proud to have worked so hard at getting this job and looks forward to all the rewards it has to offer. and now that our roommate has left, kitty is able to relax and live the lifestyle a lot easier making Master very happy. kitty has also found she has a new fantasy and is thinking about posting it here but is unsure about that at the moment.

things are going good here even though we all have colds.aster was able to get us some medicene so we have been taking that every four hours. which makes kitty think...they can make kids stuff taste half way decent, yet ours  tastes so nasty. whats up with that? anyway, kitty is just in a very good mood lately and is glad to have had the support from her friends here and family, Master included. without many of you, kitty might have given up hope long ago. kitty has even been lucky to find that she was able to get into her TSR profile once more. we had thought the account lost long ago, and that we would have to make a new one. but no worries there. and if Master will allow it, kitty will post her number for it in a journal entry later. kitty guess's that this is all for now. if anything good happens during the day, kitty will post another entry.

kitty is about to eat dinner. we are having cowboy pizza from zippy's. the messed our pizza up and we had to call them and reorder them. the pizza tastes so good though and kitty is really looking forward to eat some and looks forward to taking some to work later. the hours are a bit rough, but kitty is learning to deal with it pretty good. kitty also got some new clothes for work and gets to wear that to work tonight. not much else to say so kitty is going to log off and go eat her dinner. then she has to shower and dress. so laters!

kitty is to apologize to her Master. she was to do dishes today and did not do them at all. instead wench did them and kitty got into trouble. now kitty is making this entry as a punishment to Master to ask Him for forgiveness. so here goes. Master please forgive kitty for being naughty and not doing as she was told. she does not have a good excuse as to why the work was not done but feels horrible for letting you down and having wench do them instead.

ok orientation was long, but now kitty will be working for walmart on friday. she has a name tag, locker and id code for the gemini. this is a great thing for the household and we will celebrate by going ot to dinner with one of the checks that kitty gets.

and on even more fun news, kitty had a spanking session with Master while she sucked him off. it was a lot of fun and kitty almost got to cum just from the spanking. and the harder Master hit, the better at deep throating kitty was. kitty loves to be spanked by Master and she is hoping that soon we can buy a paddle. paddles seem to be more erotic than whips and really turn kitty on. after Master got off, He told kitty she could take care of herself. she took a long time to find a free porno of a spanking session. kitty often wonders if anybody knows a good site for things like that. she knows one called 89.com, but it has limited videos but a great variety.

Master has also told kitty she is to post a fantasy of hers. so here goes...

kitty wants to be tied to a contraption like a bed frame that can be raised so she is standing, and lowered so kitty is laying down. first, kitty will be tied to it standing up. she will be whipped and paddled, teased and poked. she may not cum. if she does, the spanking gets harder and more painful. Master will not only paddle and whip her back side at this point, but the insides of her legs, and eventually kitty's pussy if she misbehaves. after this part is done, Master will lower the contraption so kitty is laying down face up legs still spread apart. Master then gags kitty and or blindfolds her and lets another female slave eat her out. kitty will be unable to move. again, if kitty comes without Masters permission, she is whipped and paddled. only when Master is satisfied will kitty be allowed to cum.

kitty will post her other fantasy another time though as one per entry seems to be enough sharing *giggles* anyway, quick question, does anyone know of such a contraption that is not expensive? or know of a way to build one?

ok so Master has reinstated the rule of doing one journal entry daily. kitty waited until night to do it this time and is working on it now as her nails dry. she used a new nail polish with a very funny name. no means no. seriously that is what it is called. it is made by Pure Ice. kitty hopes that by the end of the month she will have four different colors. then once a week the color will change that she wears. so far she has no means no ((deep purple)) and celestial ((dark blue)) kitty is not sure about using reds, but might be tempted to use a fancy pink color.

and on the brightest news, kitty has orientation tomorrow!! then she will work fulltime for Wal-Mart! yay no more temp job! *dances* now all kitty has to do is set up direct deposit and work about 2 or 3 weeks till the money starts rolling in. then after a while we an move down the street to a nicer bigger place! well kitty can not think of anything else to say right now as she is tired and has to be up at 7am to call her ride for work. talk to you laters.

ok get this, kitty logged onto yahoo messanger and was instantly pmed by some random person. the conversation was interesting to say the least. Anywway, kitty is posting it here and editing her sn for yahoo cause it is something she will not give out *giggles* and warns readers that she goes from saying her "kitty"to talking in first person.

Noemie Sparks: good to see ya online ;p
Kitty: ello
Noemie Sparks:  heya
Kitty: whats up?
Noemie Sparks: whats up, I found your username on a member directory of social sites..not sure which one cause it bundles them all together lol
Kitty: ahh, could be bdsm lifestyle one
Noemie Sparks: i am bored at home...and this usually leads to bad things
Kitty: lol
Noemie Sparks: well...i have a fetish for being on camera
Kitty: oic this comp can't handle things like that anymore. too outdated
Noemie Sparks: have you ever used Random Chat? its a free site that lets us chat live kinda like a skype
Kitty: no, i am not allowed to install or go to sites that my fiance looks at first. it is his computer after all lol
Noemie Sparks: my link is http://randomkinkychats.com/jenny
Kitty: i will ask him about it tomorrow then. he is already in bed
Noemie Sparks: go there and my video will load, just click the "Verify" button on the bottom left...
Kitty: i can't right now.
Noemie Sparks: im always either on the phone or online, im an addict lol...i dont normally give my number out but if you meet me in the chat and I get comfortable with you we can talk on the phone
Kitty: my land line does not allow more than 30 min. per month of calls made outside the state
Noemie Sparks: my number is 206-222-1648...my phone is dead, so give it a few minutes to charge, and please dont go give that out! hehe...come talk to me over RandomChat

so yeah after that kitty stopped talking to the person. the link works, kitty clicked it to see exactly what it is, and it takes you straight to a site to veiw a cam but you have to click verify. kitty did not do that in case of bad things lol. imagine a name like Noemie....and seeing some really nasty chick/dude masterbating at the comp. *shudders*

yay!! Master is so wonderful!!!! kitty was given the dungeons and dragons game she thought was not in the store anymore! kitty is so happy that she created her first character on it and is working on a second one so she will have two of them to learn on ^_^

a sad thing though was kitty bought the nail kit she had wanted. tried it....and the stencils that you use to paint your nails nifty designs are like window clings and rip to easy :( kitty was going to do a black base and have white crossbones. it was going to be so neat...but it ripped and now kitty will never buy that product again. and since she is out of nail polish she will have to wear black polish till she can buy nail polish remover.

kitty had a good night/day at work. she got her spending money and took it to work and on lunch break bought the nail kit that she had been wanting. it has stencils in it so kitty can paint her nails one color, let it dry, then place the stencil on top and make a really nice design. kitty also bought a cute little shirt for her son, and treats for the real kitty cats in the house. Best of all....kitty got her new shoes!! *dances* kitty is really excited about that and her new work uniform she bought. the only sad part is the game kitty wanted is not available anymore so kitty will have to wait to get a debit card and just buy it direct from the makers of the game :( well thats all kitty anted to say right now. she is really tired but wants to check emails before she naps. bye!!!

READ THIS!!!!

got your attention? good!! if you are to lazy to stupid or just wanting cyber that you can not read the rules Master has posted for kitty to follow when she is in the chat rooms, LEAVE HER ALONE! kitty is tired of people not reading profiles and acting as if the world owes them everything. kitty does not care at this moment if she is sounding a bit dominant right now but she feels it is the only way that some idiots will pay attention.

also, kitty wishes to thank those that are kind to her in the chat rooms and thanks those who are guiding her to be a better slave for her Master

kitty wishes she could find her old friend on here. she can not remember his name though just part of it. he dressed in female clothing and was at least bi. he and Master played with kitty a few times in charlotte north carolina but we had to move. it is sad that no matter how much kitty looks she can not find him again. Master and kitty even spent the night with him once or twice ^_^ *sighs* if you are out there and you see this, please message kitty. she misses talking to you. out of respect though she will not post the part of your name she does know so that you will not be bothered.

*growls at the mail* kitty was supposed to get another paycheck in the mail today but it did not come. so the box set of dnd still sits at the store. hopefully if it comes tomorrow it will still be there. if not kitty is just going to have to wait on it and get the other thing she had been looking at. it was a nail kit that made it so you painted your nails one color and then using stencils painted another color and made designs ^_^

ok kitty is in a random mood to write. she did a poem a little bit ago and kinda wants to share. please excuse the spelling errors if any and if you do not like it please do not be rude about commenting on it. this feels slightly weird sharing a poem that has a mysterious feeling to kitty. which is odd to explain. it is one of the poems that just cam to kitty while she was waiting out her time on her day off. if you do not understand the poem thats ok. like kitty says, it is just something random that popped into her mind.

Dreamers

Where have all the dreamers gone?
I can no longer feel them.
I search high and low and no ones near,
yet i see the dreams in my mind.
I know that one day I will find them,
as I am a dreamer too
whose thoughts and words and stories
pour forth from my own soul.
Oh dreamers where have you gone?
Are you at another place?
a different time another plane
or have you just gone away?
Perhaps you live in the night sky,
as stars that twinkle dimly.
Afraid to let anyone close
yet always showing your beauty.
I stretch my arms out to you in hopes of grasping you.
I want to join your little world and dream something anew.
My feet lift from this world  I feel my soul ascend.
Looking back i see myself crumple to the ground.
Is this what a dreamer feels?
To feel the world slip away?
Should not a dreamer stay in touch and have their words travel for them?
Oh dreamers of the sky I ask,
why not come back to earth?
Share your words, your thoughts, yourselves
let us all unite.
Feel the ground below you, the gentle breeze upon your face,
loves first kiss and happiness, so that your soul may guide you.
Don't feel lost
find your path
and together we shall dream.

so kitty finally got her first paycheck from manpower. it was so awsome. we bought a nice lunch, and bought a season of dvds that we have wanted so now we have something we can watch on tv ^_^ but kitty was really disappointed today too. the big surprise she had for Master fell though. the old antique store sold off the musky pole that she wanted to buy for Him. :( *cries* 

but yet on a happier note kitty is allowed to buy a game she has always wanted. D&D. the box set. she is so happy about this that after she buys it she will spend a lot of time learning to play it. maybe do some kind of scout thing, or hunter. it just sounds so exciting ^_^ she also created an account on d&d forums :P well kitty will just have to wait and see what happens. talk to you laters!

yay monday. kitty is happy that the mail will come today. kitty was also amped up from work this morning. she got home at 7am and tried to sleep but could not. so she is still up. and now it is 9:52 am. kitty is waiting for a ride to town to fax out a paper, and then will return home. then kitty will try to take a nap. she knows she needs it. her eyes look like raccoon eyes. it looks pretty bad. kitty can not wait to get a little bit of money this week. she has so many plans on getting surprises for Master and her friends. she would post the surprise here for Master but then He would see it and it would no longer be a surprise. so when He gets it she will post what it is ^_^

right now kiity is also still amped from work because she had her second interview. it seemed to go well. dan ((the boss)) asked questions like Name a time when you solved a problem, tell the actions you took to get to the solution and what happened afterward. Was there anything you would have done differently? and that was a single question. there were like 6 like that!!

kitty wishes some of her online friends were up so she could chat with them. it is hard being awake at this hour. usually kitty sleeps till around noon. well kitty should wrap this up before it gets to long.  lately kitty likes to type longer and longer posts ha ha ha ^_^

well today is sunday. kitty is not really looking forward to work tonight, but is happy about it at the same time. because after tonight kitty is off for 2 nights and she will get to sleep and or play on the computer all night ^_^ this means kitty gets to chat with the friends she has made on cm or play games like ddo and second life...if it  loads properly lol. Master seems happy that kitty has this temp job. kitty is happy that this temp job might turn into a fulltime job. all she is waiting on is the second interview and then she has to wait and see what happens after that. 

kitty is also happy that she is moving soon. the landlord here is just not cool. he does not fix anything under 100 dollars and we have to pay for it. which means the sink that just cause 150 dollars of damage to his apartment below ours is also something we have to pay because the sink flooded the floor dipped down to his place and shorted out the fan he had.

anyway kitty went off on a rant there sorry. oh but kitty had fun at work last night. people actually worked under her! she got to say what to do and where stuff went. it was odd having to do it, but fun at the same time. the one guy looked a lot younger but the other dude was a way older guy like 45ish or so. it felt really odd telling him what to do since he was older ^_^ kitty wonders what will happen tonight. she wants to work in cosmetics again because it is kinda fun but does not want to because that part of the store gets really hot. the auto department is just a lot of hard work, but the bedding and housewares is kinda kool to work with. 

well you probably do not want to be bored with a long story like this one so she is going to stop here and might try to make  a quick post when she gets off of work tomorrow near 7 or 8 am. so hope you all have good days!!

kitty is really irritated at manpower. it is a temp agency that pays weekly for jobs you do. kitty is finishing her second week and still has no paycheck :( it better come on at least wednesday. kitty knows tomorrow the mail might not have  since sunday is no mail, kitty is giving lee-way into having it by the 13th. there just seems to be so much going on right now that it would be nice to have some spending money.

ahh a new day and a fresh start. kitty is taking the time to sit and chat with old friends she has not seen in a while. she is also working really hard at a new temp job. it was assigned to her through the temp agency manpower but kitty is doing so well that walmart had her fill out an application and is giving her an interview tonight before her shift starts. kitty is nervous about it and really wants/needs this job. cross your fingers!!

why is it whenever kitty says something in yahoo chat, it is the wrong thing? it leaves her in tears and hurts when people stop talking to her just because of how she loves to live? and yes kitty is talking to you, all the losers that ask for a/s/l and then see a post like this and say to themselves what a whore, a loser and what not. it hurts so bad that kitty can not go into public and just announce to the world here I am. I am not a prepackaged parcel like you wanted, I am not the little girl you wanted to be an adult, and I am not the Lady of society you wanted me to be. I am who I a and I am proud of it. Instead we and kitty means we as she knows that all slaves and or Masters are treated this way in some part are discriminated against.

Is it not legal to post how we feel? Is it not "likeable" for us to post our status on face/book? No. We are not people according to alot of people in todays society. Instead we are a fuax pau .....that is all i care to say on my little rant.....sorry if kitty has hurt feelings.

kitty is also online at the moment. she is in a chat room. kitty is bored. it is a day off of work and she wishes more people were online to talk to. kitty would join a chat room,  but does not know many people in them at the moment. kitty wishes that people lived in rhinelander like she does so she and Master could hang out with people in the lifestyle. it gets hard not knowing real people in it.

it hurts at times when kitty has to hide how she feels because of roommates as well. kitty has a roommate right now but feels as if she can not be a good slave as it will upset the roommate. Master understands though and has not pressed the issue since our roommate pays rent. but sometimes kitty wishes it was just her and him and His tutor. 

our roommate is leaving soon and kitty is glad to have it happen, but also sad. the roommate in question is a dear friend of kitty's from her first job and she enjoys his company, but it good ((and kitty feels bad about this)) because then kitty can start being a Real slave to Master again.

is it bad to censor the way a roommate feels? is it bad when Master and slave alike completely turn vanilla in front of roommates? what should be done? kitty would like personal input on this if possible.

it seems so hard at times that kitty feels like she is the only slave in existance. though she knows that is not true, it is how she feels. kitty also feels it would be beneficial to her to see another Master and his slave interact. forgive kitty here if she is asking to much, but it seems to her that everyone she meets thinks this is a game. it is very true, keep reading, very true that she has met some people here that are real and uber nice, 

kitty guesses that all she is saying is that people in the area would be more interesting if they accepted a Master slave relationship instead of shunning it. a M/s relationship should be treated as if they were another status like smokers.

Instead M/s get treated like dirt. particularly by their own families. kitty's family knows nothing about this and kitty often wishes that they did, and that they accepted this for who she was. it is hard at times to live a lifestyle that you want when you know your family would disapprove. especially if you where brought up to live a highly christian life. 

if kitty were to go on she would most likly talk for another hour or so. so it is best if she stops now and lets her mind clear so she may be able to talk another day.

yay kitty has the net. she has been uber busy lately but is taking time to get online now ^_^ kitty is really happy to report that she has a temp job. hopefully it will last more that 3 weeks and turn into a full-time job. kitty will keep you all posted!!

kitty is losing the net...honestly we lost it yesterday, but kitty is at a friends house doing laundry and was allowed to bring Masters laptop with her so she may check email and stuff. we are not sure when we will be able to pay to have it turned back on so kitty will try to write to you guys when she is able to do so.

kitty is looking for pen pals on the site. um.....kinda burned out on the thinking process right now, so maybe kitty will type later.

ok so kitty found her mail preferences and edited them. so for all you people out there that can not read a profile, most likely your email will be sent to spam. yes kitty is in a bit of a foul mood so this entry will sound a bit rude. but kitty is tired of people emailing her saying BS like a one line message or asking if kitty does something that is not listed in the profile. So from now the following preferences will be sent to bulk, not read and not responded to.

If you have: any of the following....

no profile
other countries
male domme
older than 50
younger than 19

now, if you are a male domme wishing to speak to kitty you must contact Master FIRST!

and to those that listen to kitty, she thanks you kindly for your letters and really does look forward to them once more. kitty will try to get online more often and looks forward to meeting more people.

kitty found a new game on facebook. it is dragons of atlantis. it is nifty so far. you start building your own empire kitty is doing decent so far and moved up a level. yeah kitty is addicted to facebook lol. there is a lot going on right now. every one is waking up and getting ready to run our errands. kitty has to go for a while and will try to write back later.

we had a good night out. Master had free drinks at the bar we choose because it was his birthday. He had sex alot when we got home and is in the shower now. kitty is just checking things online while he relaxes in the shower. kitty is going now to check her email. maybe someone will have written to her there.

today is kitties' Master's Birthday. we are going to go out drinking. kitty has been gone from here for a while. all the people she talked to stopped talking to her for no reason. or at least they did not share why they stopped talking. anyway kitty is still always happy to find and talk to friends ^_^

happy thanksgiving everyone. kitty had a nice one herself and is happy to say that Master was able to rent some movies and we sat down as a group and watched a few this week. kitty is also getting her horror collection up again and has 3 of the saw movies! this makes kitty really want to sit down one day and have a saw marathon! anyway, kitty has to go do a few chores that she has not yet finished so she will talk to you later!

kitty got a bit of money today. she is going to treat everyone to a lunch and then get herself something nice like a movie she wants of maybe even a stuffed animal. if there is enough and the house want to go she might even pay for tickets to go see the new harry potter movie. today seems like it will be awsome. kitty's birthday was ot all that great but Master surprised kitty and on monday went out and bought her 2 movies for her scary movie collection!

yay today is kitty's birthday ^_^ it was not a great one but it was ok. she got two t-shirts for her birthday and tomorrow is being taken out by a family friend for dinner ^_^ kitty hopes that is will be a good dinner as she loves going out to eat

ok so the paper thing is going slow. kitty is waiting to be taken to the library. she has 6 books waiting for her to pick up. then she will strat work on the paper. kitty can not wait to get this one done as she is not a fan of history and hopes the next paper will be something different.

oh and weird thing here, kitty got mail from marlboro. kitty opened it thinking it was more cupons, but was happy to see it was a birthday card lol. kitty can not wait to see what else might come in the mail. she signed up for a lot of free items at a freebie site. and has already gotten a few of them ^_^

so kitty was thinking, she has asked Master to give her papers she has to write. this way kitty can write on topics she does not know about and learn something and work on her spelling and penmanship. she might even find a way to share them here...not sure on that though.

kitty is also writing today to say that she is annoyed at people that can not read her profile before messaging her. it gets frustrating to find a message only to discover it is not anyhting related to what kitty is looking for.

well this is just a short message today. kitty will try to make a longer one tomorrow ^_^

kitty is over the cold! the cough is still there but she is much better now. last night kitty was going to go back into the chat room after she and Master finished up in the bedroom, but an emergency happened when a friend came by and needed some guidance.

kitty has also been naughty. she is supposed to write in the journal every other day. she was a day late last time and last night when Master told her to post one she said ok and then did not. kitty will recive punishment if she lets herself not post in here as she is told to do so.

kitty still has the flu. it is not as bad as it was, but kitty keeps slipping between having a voice and not having one. she has been so sick that she has not even been playing on the computer as much as she usually does and instead plays for a few minutes and logs off. she is hoping to get better soon.

bit of good news though. kitty's roommate might be coming into a bit of money. if so the roommate will be able to pay off some bills and we will all go out for a day. spend sometime out of the house and maybe even go out for a lunch. it is going to be so great spending time out like that ^_^

kitty might not be on for a few days. is she is it is to check mail and maybe write an entry. she has the flu really bad and feels like crap :( sorry if yall wanted to talk. cya laters

There are a few things that kitty is no longer allowed to do in play for one of two reasons. Either Master has decided that she is only allowed to do them with Him, or they are things she does not do in real life and therefore, Master has decided that she will not do them in play.
1) No Anal
2) No objectification
3) Nothing involving feet or toes
There are a few other rules she will be following in chat

4) no one is allowed to cum inside kitty's pussy

1) she can only play with one Dom/Master at a time
2) She will never call anyone in play Master, unless playing with her Master
3) If a Dom sees that she has broken any of these rules, He  is asked to contact MasterSadism

kitty's rules are subject to change and more may even be added.

kitty is sick again. the flu is going around the house and every one seems to be sick *pouts* it has been a bit of a rough week too. there are so many boxes that we have found that are hidden that we have not yet gone through. kitty just wishes they were all done so we would not have to worry with it ^_^ well kitty does not have much to say right now and will try to come back later. so she can make a better entry.

kitty has had a long day. she took her little one out trick or treating. afterwards he asked to go see his grandmother. she decided to take him for the night when he did not want to come home lol. so when Master took kitty home he took her to the bedroom.

once in the bedroom, Master pushed kitty onto the bed and had her get up on her hands and knees. he then took her right then and there going doggy style. kitty knows that this though is only a sample of what is to come later. Master is working with kitty to get her body to be able to have anal without it hurting kitty. kitty is doing well with the training and hopes one day that it will be more enjoyable for her. right now kitty is to finish this entry and log off. Master wants to take her to the room and use her again. kitty will make an entry again tomorrow.

after waiting for a reply for some time now, kitty is in the process of taking serious enquires about becoming her pet. the last person to have a slight conversation going stopped talking when kitty asked a few questions. none of them were personal. so now kitty is going to take the next step in searching and post in her journal that she is activly seeking an online pet. for now the only thing kitty does not want in the pet are the 3 hard limits. 1) no kids ((you can be a parent but they do not get into this site nor disscussions)) 2) no scat. there is a reason we flush it. 3) no animals. no question. if these seem to be to hard, do not ask to be kitty's pet thanks!

after much thought, kitty has found that the reason she wanted to quit chat was she was spending all day there. kitty neglected more important things. kitty has decided to try once more to go to the chat rooms. she wil monitor her time and spend a limited time in them. this way she will still be able to chat with friends, but is also able to get done the things that need attention around the house. kitty will give it a bit more thought on it tonight and make another entry about the time limits she and Master have thought of. till then she will wait to go into them.

kitty has come to a decision. although she has enjoyed her time in the chat rooms, she will stay out of them. there are reasons for it which kitty will keep discreet but just feels this is a neutral way to say goodbye. no one in the room made kitty feel bad, nor was there any disrespect towards her. However, kitty will be on the site still and make entries in the journal and read and respond to her mail.

kitty was unable to get on cm yesterday. she was feeling like she had the flu, still kinda does :( anyway, kitty also worked very hard yesterday. Master is awaitng someone to come to the house within the week. so he wants everything and kitty means everything spic and span. so everyone in the house worked. we moved beds, placed things in storage, and did a lot if dishes.

after the work was done, Master and kitty showered and decided to have sex on the new bed. first Master started with doggy style. after that, Master took kitty's ass. when they had both cum, they stopped and He layed in his bed, kitty sat in her chair. they talked for a bit and kitty asked Master to take her ass again. He tried to warn her it was not to smart of an idea, but relented when He knew kitty was enjoying it.

kitty might not be on for very long today again. there is still a lot of work to be done and she Was told that if she did not get certain tasks done she would lose the computer. we will begin cleaning in a little while so kitty is going to chat and check her mail while she waits.

ok kitty is going to tell you all what happened last night with Master. it started a bit slow...but that is ok. Master took her to the room and put a movie in. He chained her to the bed and then tied her hands up as well and she sat upon the floor. on her legs by Masters feet. a little bit into the movie Master gave her a drink...then another. Master Understands that kitty is not extremely fond of anal. more than halfway through the movie the fun really started.
first we started with simple teasing. Master placed a vibrator inside of kitty turning it all the way up. unfortunately it does not go very high but still feels very good when turned on. with that inside of her, Master started smacking her with His belt he beat Her for a few minutes with that then moved onto the tickle whip. not only did he whipped her with that, but he teased her with the fluffy end. since kitty is extremely ticklish this was a very interesting sensation. as her body relaxed he turned it over and began to whip her again. after he finished doing this, kitty was made to turn around and lay on her back as he used the tickle whip on her tits. repeating the order that He had previously on her ass. satisfied with that they stopped momentarily. during this time kitty was unchained from the bed and given a moment to arrange pillows on the bed.
then we started by having kitty lay on her back, her legs straddled his shoulders he was able to thrust into her very forcefully kitty was allowed to cum three times during this part. when Master decided she had had enough of it this way, He moved to doggy style. kitty placed her legs apart really wide and he thrust in more roughly and made kitty cum 13 times but 4 of those times she was not supposed to. kitty is lucky to be one of the few women to be able to have multiple orgasms. satisfied she was still drunk at the time, Master could have gone straight to anal, but He was kind enough to add some extra lube to his dick and slowly slid into her ass. once in and kitty was able to relax, Master had his way with her ass till he could cum, which also made kitty cum once more.
having finished sex, Master ordered kitty to lean over the bed. she did so and he whipped her with a whip. beating her ass till it was red and had left marks. He then moved to her breasts and did those as well. kitty is not yet used to being whipped and smacked but thoroughly enjoys it. Master is trying to work on getting her pain tolerance up as we both wish for the beatings to hurt slightly less and be able to leave very red welts. the red marks that were left on her body were pictured and they have been posted to kitty's profile.

kitty stayed away for two reasons today. 1) when she was on the phone with her roommate, Master slapped her ass playfully; kitty raised her voice at Him and told Him to stop. she got off of the phone and Master was not pleased to say the least. He had forgotten that it is one of the things agreed would not happen as He has not done it in so long. instead of waiting patiently till she was off of the phone, kitty just yelled. she should have known better. Master decided that as punishment she was to stay off of cm till 4pm the 2nd reason was kitty was talking with a few friends her feelings were hurt at one point in time over a simple disagreement, a simple thing really, but it was the second time this month that kitty felt pushed away wither or not it was from here or not, it hurt enough that kitty did not log onto cm till 5pm as she was discouraged. however since arriving as kitty should have done so at 4pm already feels better. her friends here are great and thank them deeply.

on a happier note, Master has allowed kitty to have a pet. she has one in mind and will be mailing him after this journal entry. kitty would like to know a few things he is willing and what are his hard limits. there are a few other things she will have to discuss. she is looking forward to doing so and if and only if he is alright with it will kitty let his screen name be posted here

kitty is to post here that she did not do as Master asked. last night He told her to put away His plastic bottle of chocolate milk and to clean out the cubbie hole where the video's were as the cable man was coming in the morning and would need room to work. kitty did not do either of these things as she had forgotten. Master did remind her, however, it is not His duty to remind kitty of her responsibilities. kitty has apologized to Him and as a punishment, Master is making her do this journal entry.

kitty decided to surprise her Master. we had been in a chat room talking to people and she got some ideas. dinner came and we stopped chatting for a bit to eat and after a bit longer, kitty took Master to the shower and helped him wash. when He was done, kitty climbed in the shower. sadly it is to small for two people and washed as well. then kitty went to the bed room and pulled out the whip. that was the first surprise...though it did not work entirely it was fun. kitty asked Master to whip her. she wanted to have welts left upon her body. she was going to have pictures taken and share those here. but Masters arm grew tired of whipping and the whip itself is a poorly made one as strands of it fell off...no welts were made but kitty's butt was a bit to sore to sit upon.  after doing this Master whipped her breasts. when His arm really got tired, kitty asked him to lay down. noticed it was asked politely so Master did lie down. then kitty went to the naughty drawer and pulled out strawberry lube. after placing it on His dick, kitty gave him a blow job. she went deeper than before and made it last longer than before. Master was so please He surprised kitty with a movie!

well we are trying something new, for now on kitty ((me)) is to refer to herself in third person. both in journal and in messages. also, kitty is happy to inform her loyal readers that she has found great friendship in the chat rooms. for privacy reason kitty will not post which room nor any names as they know who they are. kitty is just very happy lately and is glad Master and her have started coming back to the site. it makes kitty so proud when she is able to see what wonderful people are here and hopes that they too are happy ^_^ Kitty will also try something later tonight and post if it was good...but for now kitty will go back to the chat room with her Master though she promises to try hard and make a post later tonight.

ok this is a poem i wrote for my Master, i hope everyone enjoys it as much as we did ^_^

MasterSadism's house

Let me take you to my world, a world of pain and death. see those cages over there? tis a shame that they are bare. whips and knives and even chains, So much time to grant such pain. Onto my closet devoid of light, Lets just say standing makes it very tight. Mothers always say beware the man next door, Who promises puppies and candy galore. I love this part just see my grin? For you have walked in the lions den. You'll see my door has been locked tight, and now my dear say goodnight...

pretty creepy huh? I do not know how to make it look like a poem so it looks like a paragraph :(

had to stop cleaning for dinner. so i thought i would make a new journal entry. Master put some new photo's on my profile this evening! there are three new ones, and my fav. is me on the bed ^_^ it was a random photo that before we started our fun that night. i had jumped on my bed any stretched out and asked for a quick pic. turned out to be my fav :P anyway, i have to get back to cleaning i first started by cleaning my closet...and made this huge mess on two chairs. i took a photo of that to be silly, but did not post it. now i have to clean out two chairs while putting every thing where it belongs. i think it is about two months of us moving around the room and shoving things in the closet to get it out of the way when we needed the floor cleared to move the beds lol. it kinda goes to show that even neat freaks have a dirty closet somewhere ha ha ha. anyway i will be back on later. and i will try to post again before i go to bed. talk to ya later! *waves*

well Master and i had a "fun" afternoon...once again a male did not read my profile. instead he messaged me without asking Master first. Master of course replied to him and explained he needed to ask first. this man did not listen and mailed me again. we ignored it. the he mailed me again without Masters consent and asked quote how big r ur tits end quote. Master again mailed him and repeated the fact that he did not ask first as this had kinda upset me. the man then apologized yet in the same breath said that my Master was not a true  Master. wow that hurt me, i mean who says something like that?! Master had me log off again so He could use His computer to send mail back and forth with this person. it was really bad he was so immature with his words yet apologizing in the same sentences. what i do not understand is why? why go through profiles and not pay attention, why be rude and hurt peoples feelings? to some, it may not hurt them to much, but it had felt as if i was slapped in the face when he said that about my Master! so i beg to those out there, please be respectful as i try to be and please read profiles. it saves odd messages and spares ones feelings. thanks again to all of the people that read this journal and thanks to those ((whose names i will not mention for privacy purposes)) that have been kind to me and helped me stay away from the people that would be rude and disrespectful.

yay Master has said i could post my tsr number!!

204-582-781

also i will begin speech restrictions soon, wish me luck ^_^

ahh night time typing lol. everyone here is asleep and i am only using the computer screen for light so please excuse any typos you might see.


i went back into the chat rooms. there was a lot of activity. i had fun in there again and was glad i went. it put me in a better mood. for some reason i was a bit cranky and could not find out why :P anyway, after a while i decided to open a new window. i am keeping my eye on both screens so i can type here and chat there. it is quiet there for the moment.  i was able to find my old collar today. Master and i went through our boxes from storage and was very excited to see that it was in there!!  we will be taking this month to finish going through boxes to see if we can find the good one.


i have also found i like posting here. i can say almost anything i want as long as it is not rude towards another person or Master himself. i can say what is on my mind and type the word Master all i want! *dances* its cool really. i was told though that if i am not careful and i misbehave even one time, i am to post here what i did wrong and what punishment i am getting. i think it is fair. it would be my own fault to cause the humiliation of having to say hey look what i did aren't i being naughty :(

well talk to you again laters. and thanks to those that read this and not skim this!!

the chat rooms here are nice. i usually sit and watch. occasionally i will talk as well. it seems though that if you are not a regular your not spoken to very much. that's fine with me as it gives me a chance to just relax and watch. like last night. i was allowed up late. i had trouble actually trying to type straight so i sat and watched....at least till my yahoo dinged and scared the hell out of me ^_^ anyway, this is just a short post. i will try to post again later's. bye *waves*
 

ok awesome news, Master and i were able to get back my tsr number. we had lost the account for a while because we forgot the password and the email we used to verify it no longer worked. but i sat down and messed around with passwords till i figured it out!! anyway if Master allows it i will post my tsr number here!!

i fell off of a chair today. i was trying to sit on the edge of a chair to show Master something on yahoo. it seems yahoo has complicated things as now you can no longer make multiple profiles and have them each with their own info. now you get one main profile that has info on it. if anyone is into roleplaying this makes it next to impossible to have your characters have profiles if you have more than one.

anyway, i was starting to sit when i noticed i was about to sit on the arm of the chair, i recalculated my butt and resumed sitting when by butt brushed the edge of the cushion. with nothing to stop myself, i slipped off and fell hard on my butt bruising and scratching my backside, the top of my butt, and bruising the first knuckle on my right hand. needless to say i sat there writhing in pain hiding my face in the chair. i would have cursed aloud but we were in the presence of a 3 and 4 year old and they already knew a few "bad" words. after i was able to regain myself, i stood up and Master asked if i was ok. i was after a few minutes. hours later now though my body aches from the fall and i am worried that tomorrow it will be worse.

i will try to post more later if i can. i am going to go look around the net for a while. talk to you later..

just wanted to say hi, i will be trying to get on more lately as time goes by, hope to talk soon bye

well i am finally off work. i would have been home sooner, but my driver/sitter was in the middle of a game and i had to wait there until they could pick me up.  i was going to go through the entire house and clean it today. but i am now an hour behind. the only thing i will really have time for is scrubs for work and the recyclables.  i am very tempted to see if there is something, anything i could bake. right now!!!!  i am really in the mood to bake something, but we are short a lot of baking ingredients right now.
Master is still at work right now so i do have sometime to do a few of the things i wanted to get done, but there is no way i will get everything done.
sometimes when i get home from work all i want to do is get on WoW i know people that will talk to me granted it is always about the game and nothing about real life.
well i had better get going. i mainly just wanted to stop by and say hi. if i have more time this evening i will try to make another entry. till then bye
     kitty

kitty no longer refers to herself in the third person. instead i am taking my time to get used to living this style of life more openly. since moving out of my parents home, this life is no longer hidden in just one room. our new apartment is a nice one, but i am still lonely. i know Master works his long hours so during the weekends i have off as well that we can spend them together. but sometimes it is hard being alone in the house.
it seems so empty when i am alone and i am hoping that i can find someone to talk to through mail here. i would suggest a call, but that is actually more expensive than i can afford. 1.25 a day if i only talk to Master or someone with the same phone.
besides, Master would not allow a phone call.
all of my friends that know of our life style are vanilla so there are no other slaves that i can sit down to a cup of coffee and talk to.  at times it feels like this life is slipping away pulled by some unseen force.  as if i am only going through the motions and not living them, not breathing not feeling, just reacting.
if it was not so late, i might go on and discuss this issue more, but i must leave and shower among other things. if i have time tomorrow after work i will post a new entry and try to keep up on an entry everyday. thanks to those that actually read this and not scan it.
goodnight everyone.
    kitty

kitty is glad that people are taking the time to read her profile.  she has recently made a few new friends here and is delighted that she can finally talk to someone else that lives her lifestyle. kitty has been doing a lot of chores, she is trying to get the laundry room clean but with a household that has 8 people in it ((none of the others approve of her lifestyle :( )) it gets hard to keep the place clean.  but kitty tried hard as she knows that Master is happier when everything is clean!

kitty thinks that tomorrow she and Master will be watching movies in the room while she finishes the laundry.  we were supposed to do that today, but things went differently than planned.

tonight kitty will also try to please Master in other ways.  we have a fun thing set up that we do on Fridays and Tuesdays.  although we are behind due to the flu going around...

anyway, we have a bag with 20 chips in it.  10 are white, and 10 are blue. the white ones are kitty's and the blue ones are Masters.  kitty shakes the bag and closes her eyes and picks one.

the color determines what happens.  if it is blue, that means kitty draws out of Masters box.  inside His box are things He wants done that He normally would not ask kitty to do, or something that kitty might usually receive as a punishment.  the catch to this is, He already has 16 things chosen and these are in a box.  kitty has to reach in without looking and pick one!

if the chip is white, kitty  has her own box that is filled with activities that she enjoys doing that are usually kept back as a reward for when she has really behaved.  as with Master's box, kitty has already chosen 16 things to do and placed them in a box.  she is to choose from the pile without looking!

this is a fun thing to do, and works really well if you just want a punishment box.  this way if you misbehave, you do not know what is coming and it makes you take the time to think "hey kitty has displeased Master really badly..."

luckily this has not happened!!!!  it was just an example!  kitty hates it when Master is not pleased in her behavior.

another thing Master does is He will tell her to do something.  He will let it go as after He has told her to do it, it is her responsibility to get it done.  however, for every time He has to remind her, it means she is smacked once with the rod on her bare ass....and for each additional day, it cost three.  it works really well as the one time kitty did not do what she was told, she received 10 smacks for it...it hurt and bruised her ass for a week.  she has not done it since.

something that helps though is Master will snap His fingers to get kitty to look Him in the eyes.  after she is looking in his eyes, He will tell her to do it.  otherwise kitty will not actually hear Him though she says "yes Master"  this is helping as He does not have to snap so much to get her attention! ^_^

well this entry is dragging on and kitty needs to get downstairs.  she has things to do and is looking forward to sitting next to Master to finish our movie!  

kitty is getting discouraged.  she is still looking for some female friends that are in this lifestyle, and not only on this site, but a few others, all she gets are males....and not dominant ones either.  Master tries hard to find kitty some pen pals, but it is hard since no one in the area here is understanding of this relationship.

kitty might have one friend she can talk to, but she is going to wait and see if She will talk to kitty.  if any females reading this want to be friends or pen pals with kitty, please feel free to do so.  but be warned, if you are male, kitty is not allowed to talk to you unless Master has okayed it.  kitty will know as He will tell her that it is alright to talk to the man.

this one is having troubles finding her Master another slave.  no one here really seems interested.  it is not as if Master would not take care of them, he is a very loving affectionate guy.  but should one break the rules or to even dare tell him no, there would be punishment.  granted each slave has their own since each slave has their own limits.  Master is kind that way.  He makes sure nothing he does interferes with this ones health.  Master takes care of this one and she hopes to find another slave to help her with her chores and pleasing Master in other ways.

We seem to have run into a problem here. No one really reads the profiles they are looking at. It is stated in our profile that we are looking for a female and yet, all the responses we have gotten are from males. Does that make any bloody sense?