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| I'm not interested in dominant women, or submissive men. I'm not interested in men more than a decade older than me (around 35 is my limit right now). I think people looking for quality partners should be well groomed, in decent shape, gentlemanly (but not necessarily gentle!), and aware of their hygiene/clothing. In my very humble opinion, a good Dom makes the most of his appearance and makes a stunning alpha visual. Handsome comes in lots of forms...not just ripped (in fact, including me...a lot of women like cuddly types) and hairless.
I am a tall, loud, feisty woman. I place a lot of value on intellect, charm, wit, and charisma. I'm a little strange in that almost exclusively I'm submissive to men and dominant to women. I love cooking, baking, singing, learning, off-the-beaten-path travel, film, music, lively banter, meaning, purpose, yoga, soft fabrics, glamour and luxury, disgusting depraved twisted things, reading, writing, hiking. I'm a vegetarian and I'm fairly serious about it--also a bit of a hippie. I have had a wealth of experiences in my life already and always love to try new things, bold things, spontaneous things. I'm a junkie for experience in general, for the novel, for the rush. I'm a sensualist, a perpetual insomniac, and I've dressed as Alex from A Clockwork Orange for Halloween two years in a row.
I'm not the sort of submissive who automatically gives in to dominance. When I first meet someone and my kink-dar goes "beep beep," I test the waters first and really like to get a sense of whether or not they are worthy of complete submission. I don't think this makes me a bad sub. I firmly believe trust needs to be earned.
My favorite arrangement is a dominant male partner and the occasional submissive female partner to serve under us. In my last whirlwind relationship, while we both normally enjoy that set-up, we were too smitten with each other to want to really share with anyone else.
Still reeling from the demise of that partnership...
I'm very dark. My mind is sick, twisted, and taboo--I am just coming to terms with it. It's not a game to me; the fear and power and mind-fucks are all very real. It goes beyond role play, beyond scenes. I am strong and tall and have a whole hell of a lot of fight in me; I don't roll over and play dead. I enjoy a man who is willing and able to completely overpower me and instill true fear in me. Who even when I'm crying knows when to push, push, push those limits. A man who will look down at me with those eyes--the eyes that make me wonder if I will become a meal to be devoured.
The person I recently split from helped me open Pandora's box. There's no going back. I've known what I was since I was a small child, and even in my first relationships I noticed a D/s dynamic. But though I've tried so many times with so many people, I've never felt as fulfilled as I did with this man. Unfortunately, he chose to exploit my submission and use his control to terrorize me and change me into a meek, pathetic, scared little toy with no autonomy. He didn't earn my submission by virtue of his dominance; rather he conditioned me in a very subtle, destructive and insidious way.
I'm here to meet like-minded people, do some benign perving from afar, and get a better understanding of what's going on in my head. Anything else that happens here is just icing on the cake. I'm not interested in casual encounters at this point. I'm not messing around; I'm looking for real depth and passion and meaning.
A few practical skills and hobbies that dominants have enjoyed in the past include my training in shiatsu/massage, energy work and Reiki, cooking, baking bread/pizza/desserts, bartending, interior decorating, soap/perfume making, stripping (yes, I really did), yoga, ability to hold an intelligent conversation, art modeling.
I'm fairly certain I'm a "little" and also into kittenplay. My ideal mate is a very dominant, alpha male--physically large/tall, emotionally stable, doting and loving and gentle when necessary yet strict and firm at the same time. All while being able to make me cry if need be. Tall order? Yeah but it's a give/take thing. I give a lot. A helluva a lot. I'm crafted to serve and submit and please.
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