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 So much has changed, I will keep part of my old profile up, as it was such a huge part of me, my last journal entry is explaination enough.
I have a perfect dreamy Master, I serve his will to the best of my ability.
I am an unnamed, untamed, owned, very sexual bisexual sub. I am interested in learning more about bdsm lifestyle, I have had some experiences & discovered that I enjoyed the things I have experienced so far. I am constantly growing as my personality & sexuality seeks new quests & new adventures. I am a strong, sexual, natural sub. I have a strong desire to learn & to please. I can be very cheeky & feisty. I am intelligent & have a very bubbly personality.
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Has been a while... sometimes the twists & turns of life get in the way. Sad times to come, even though my role has changed, my heart still remains the same. Master as I watch you fade, your still in my eyes the most beautiful supreme being, I have ever seen. I have so much to thank you for, you saved me in everyway possible. And after all these years I still love you as much as I ever have, your still my everything. I will never forget the day we first met & the times we have shared.I will stay beside you Aj right till the very end. I will see you in our next life time, I know you will be waiting for me. I love you my Master. xxx |
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Missing you Master ...... |
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I AM OWNED. I am owned by AJMASTER. Please don't ask him to hand over my ownership as he will NOT do so. I am his body & soul. He & only, he can control me, he has total control over me something others fail at. He is my true master. I need his control.
I love you Master.. Your my everything. |
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I recently was sent this message, I thought I would put it up here. Thank you to everyone for your kind words & encouragement.
evenin unamed, Wow! reading your blog your Dom is One lucky Man to have a subbie so beautiful and dedicated to Him as you, would be the envy of every Master around ~smiles~ It is the dream of Most to have a lil one so adoring of her Master... Wonderful stuff!! Good luck to you both be well...
I am a good girl, hopefully master will see fit give me a name soon that suits my devotion & reflects my need for his control. I am a very happy contented sub.
I am very pleased with the situation with my master, I couldn't be happier right now, serving my master gives me such an explainable fulfillment. I hang on his every command & carry out his demands with inspirational flair I find within me. I want to do the best I can do, I must please him as much as I can.
I am compelled to please him & have him use me, demand of me & expect the best from me to fill his every desire. I am his pleasure, his plaything if he wishes, to be kind or cruel if he should choose. He is master, master in all his perfection, master in all his sexy ways, master of me. I know my place is at his feet & wish to be no where else, even if I was given a choice. |
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I find I am thinking lately about asking for more tasks from my master possibly some online instructions from him to inspire me more. I find I am wanting for experience in the bondage side of things, I am very curious to try some rope work.  |
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Oh my god. Can being a sub get any better. I feel like I must have the best master in the world. My experiences with him keep on getting better & better. This time I have a reminder of how he handled his sub, everytime I look in the mirror I can see the bite marks he put on my back. For days I have felt my shirt rubbing on his bite marks & watched his hand marks on my bum fading away. My master has never marked me before, this was the first time I have lastings marks from him. This experience I have had with him will be one I will remember for a long time, not only the marks. I think I am in awe of my master, seeing him, smelling him, feeling him & experiencing him handling me as his sub. I'm begining to see him truely as the amazing master he is, & how god sexy I find him to be when dominating me. I give thanks to my sexy sexy master. I look forward to him dominating me again soon. mmmmm so sexy master.  |
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Oh what a roller coaster ride my journey is, how thrilling & inspiring my master is. My big news for today is, I HAVE A RED BUM CHEEKS. My master does see my need, & with the expertise & precise handling seized control of his sub. My master gave me the full pleasure of experiencing his power & control, showing no mercy, used me for his will for several hours, allowing me to please him & bring peace to my own needs. It was the my most thrilling experience so far, resulting in me uncontrollably begging for my master. I feel I have taken my first real steps towards becoming the wonderful sub I am destined to grow into. I am sure that my master would be so proud of his sub & her efforts. It must be a wonderful thing to see me grow & evolve, not just into a wonderful sub, but also blossom fully into woman hood. I bow to my master & thank him for being my master, even though he works in mysterious ways. I thank him for his influence, & beg for him to continue.Today I am a joyful sub.  |
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I give up !!!!!!, my libido is driving me crazy & it seems I have a master who doesn't even want to play with me. I give up, I've had enough, my need grows so strong its starting to cause me physical pain. The pain is becoming to much. Today I feel as though I'm going to give up. Is my own master blind ? Can he not see what is happening to me ? Why have such a hot blooded sub & not make good use of her ? I maybe be a sub but I still can suffer.  |
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Thank you to my friend here (*bites him*) who has enlightened me about the highs & lows of a any good natural sub. I'm glad to hear that the thrilling experiences with my master that makes me feel exhilirated , are perfectly normal , also the down or dissappointing feelings I have when I feel I have not pleased my master enough are normal too. My journey seems to progressing nicely ( more orgasms given to me by my master would be great, a good way of encouraging me & relieving my sexual boredom ).  |
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It's war ! Not with my master. Purely with in myself. A battle between my feelings. I am very confused at this time. I am struggling to understand my submission. When I see my master, when I am in his presence I am over come with the instincts, almost like some kind of subconscious drive to serve him & give him pleasure. When I do give him pleasure & I know he is pleased with me , I feel with in myself a complete satisfaction. I feel very peaceful , & feel the satisfaction feelings that come from serving him , ( very exhilarating ). Being able to please my master feels like a great reward. When I see my master & for what ever reason , some thing comes up & he has to leave or I am not given the opportunity to serve him & bring him pleasure , I am left feeling disappointed , some what sad , restless , unsatisfied. I know that it is not a rejection from my master when I'm unable to serve him. It really does feel like a rejection to me & feels like a punishment. I'm filled with such sadness & confusion as to why I feel this way , when I can't please him. This is not a problem my master is having or causing , it is a problem that I am having. I have no idea why. I don't understand why I am having these feelings , they come with out warning & with out explaination ( from out of no where ). It is these feelings to do with my submission that has me confused. I enjoy the time I spend with my master , I enjoy him being my master. Recently we have had some very nice times. I hope this is just a phase I'm going through , these feelings are so bizarre & so unlike me. If any one can shed some light on this subject I would appreciate some out side in put. I ask is this really what submission feels like ?  |
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I would like to thank all my friends & friends I haven't met yet here on C.M, for showing concern for me & caring about me. Thank you for every ones kind words, advice & offers. Today I have happier news to talk about, todays entry will be no different than my other ones. I will talk of my experiences & my master, share my thoughts & feelings with every one. I have been very quiet & withdrawn recently, due to lots of small things that have been bothering me for some time. I haven't wanted or even tried to talk to any one about the things bothering me. Its not all my masters fault that there hasn't been much communication, the blame is mine as well. My quietness is part of me, a phase I go through now & then, it could be hormones, I am after all a women. I had spent an afternoon with my master, I felt like I was ready to talk to him. I found my master easy to talk to this day, he sat & listened, he didn't judge me. Yes we talked about the orgasm control, he explained about how the orgasm control allows a person to feel the built up & tingling sensation that you feel when you begin to get closer to climax. I agree with him that the build up is a very erotic feeling, I don't think that he knew that I already practice orgasm denial all on my own, choosing myself when I'm ready to climax enjoying & prolonging the build up purely by my own instincts & my self control. I did suggest that climax on command would be more a difficult challenge for me, I would like to experiment in others ways of climax control, I would like to know how many I can have, how long I can make them & how strong ? It was a very enjoyable afternoon with my master, I learned a little about myself & my master. I think that I am beginning to understand my master a little bit, understand that I can talk to him & understand why he is my master, lover & friend. He allowed me to come to him when I was ready ( he did know that some thing wasn't quiet right with me ), he explained things that I didn't understand, when I needed him to be a friend he was a friend & when I needed him to be my master he was my master. I'm sure my experiences will be much better from now. I enjoyed my experience with him much more this time than what I have in the past, I felt I got more from this experience, I felt I wanted to put more effort into spoiling & serving him. I am no longer on orgasm denial yippee !  Today my only question is will my master give me a name soon ? |
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I have had my second experience with my master. But this time I am left some what confused, I really don't understand my master sometimes, & It makes me sad. I want so much to please my master. Orgasm control ???
What does my master expect me to learn from putting these restrictions on me even when I have pleased him so much, I still seem to be punished by this restriction. I can control my own orgasms by my own will, I don't need to learn how to do this. I am confused when afterwards my master says to me that I didn't seem to have much fun. I would have thought that it would be obvious that I was the only one in the room that did not reach climax, therefore I did not have as much fun as everyone else. I don't know what my master expects me to learn, when this restriction is only creating me to become bored, disinterested & unstimulated. Others have told me that it is a form of abuse to keep this restriction apon me with no reward, when I am clearly a good sub with a strong willingness to learn. I ask the question that surely there is more important things for my master to teach me ? I want to learn.  |
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It has been a long patient wait, but I have had my first real time experience with my master. I'm still amazed by how I took it the experience naturally, instinctively knowing what to do to please my master, without being told, as almost as if my subconcious was speaking to me telling me what to do. I felt the joy that came from seeing my masters eyes light up when I walked into the room & knelt on the floor before him wearing the slave dress I had made. I saw the enjoyment & excitement in his eyes when I put my hands up to offer him my collar & wrist restraints. this was an experience I have waited some time for, I was not dissappointed & I enjoyed this experience greatly, & was given some words of praise from my master.  I'm looking forward to the next experience I have with my master, hopefully he won't make me wait too long. |
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Right now I am craving my masters control so much, awaiting for him to take control of me mind , body & soul. |
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I am noticing a huge difference in my personality, from my everyday life where I am a some what dominant woman in control of everything. Its almost amazing how my alter ego has almost the total opposite traits, going from a shy strong person to a wildly expressive sub, behind closed doors. No one would ever guess from meeting me that I am becoming an increasingly sexual sub, wanting & longing to be controlled. I am enjoying many aspects of bdsm so much I can't wait to experience more.  |
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Doesn't anyone have parties anymore ????
where is all the fun at ????? |
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 Starting on a new journey, a voyage of discovery leading to new adventures. Seeking guidence, thirsting for knowledge, yearning for the fulfillment of serving a grand master, who will not command me to his feet in chains but have me not desire to be anywhere else. Where is such a master that would place me in a trance like state in his presence, in scenerios where I am at his feet, & in my mind have no one else exist to me except my own master. Does a master exist that is worthy of such devotion ? |
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