Anger/Hurt.

Why after we are fatally hurt does the anger follow? Is it so we don't lay down and die ourselves, but that instead we kill the one that hurt us? Is it a survival technique? Are the two terms interchangable, due to the fact that when you feel one the other follows? And why do we cycle back thru them over and over and over? ~With eyes that feel like sandpaper from crying, and a knife in the other hand. Sarah

Daggers.

In a lifetime just how many daggers can one heart take? This is the question that I am pondering tonight. Is it that the hole left by the dagger grows scar tissue, that the scar tissue is thicker than the surrounding tissue, like a flesh wound? With a flesh wound I know the scar tissue is much thicker and stronger, around a transplanted organ it is stronger and thicker, but also much more likely to develop cancer cells in this thicker tissue.

With each dagger do we grow new thicker scar tissue in the heart? If daggers are thrown at your heart again and again throughout your life is there any regular, healthy tissue left? Or is it that you heart is so comprimised it can't take anymore, and locks out any chance of love, sympathy, and connection to others? Do we become heartless, or do we just lock the critically damaged heart away forever?

Are these desicions we make or are they just defense mechnisms that are formed for the rest of our lives?

Just some of the ponderings for tonight, I don't  know that my heart will ever be the same, but only time will tell.    Sarah